After the meeting was adjourned he turned to her authoritatively, 'I wish to see you in my office when you get the chance.' Her eyebrows flew up her forehead and he thought on his feet. She'd never come up there if she knew what he was going to talk to her about. He played it off fairly well, giving her a look of aggravation and a conniving tone. 'We need to decide what duties each of us is to perform come September.'
She nodded. He was trying to get her alone to talk to her. No matter how much she knew she wanted to go deep down, she couldn't help but feel like her lungs had ended up in her stomach. 'I am just going to pop down to the kitchens for a bite and I'll be down.'
Oh no you don't, Jordan Elizabeth Brooks. I know all of your games. Shouldn't have told me all about those Yule Ball invites that turned sour. 'Nonsense, you may come to my rooms and I'll order you something if that's the case.' He responded rather quickly.
Shit. She sighed and turned her head. Her eyes met with Draco's and she whipped around. 'Draco actually asked me to catch up with him.'
Severus struggled to keep his composure. Jordan would never eat with Draco, and definitely not alone. He hadn't forgotten about their whole debacle when it came to him striving for Jordan's hand. 'He can come as well.' He said raising an eyebrow and giving her a countering look.
She met his glance and let her jaw rotate before she smoothed it over with a smile. 'Wonderful, I'll let him know!'
Severus was becoming too impatient for her. 'Good grief, Woman you waste too much time with frivolities!' He snapped as he made eye contact with the blonde boy wonder, his hand shooting up in the air to get his attention. 'Draco!'
As he heard his name and saw a familiar pale and black arm he dropped his conversation with Hermione. He brightened up to see his old Head of House wishing to engage in conversation with him, not to mention Jordan was with him looking like a sexy little minx in that green dress. A flashback of their history together and he shuttered. But that was then. Severus might have her in his grip, but maybe he could just make sure she was going to stay there with him.
'Hello Professor, your looking rather well. Although, it could just be radiating from that vixen beside you.' He snickered giving Jordan a rather seductive look.
Severus shot daggers through him, and was almost pleased to see Jordan roll her eyes at him and chuckle pathetically as if he was a smitten fourth year asking her to Yule Ball again.
'You're beginning to make me regret my decision to invite you to dinner in our study, Draco.' Severus spat with aggravation.
Jordan looked at him as if he had too heads, 'Our study?'
Severus gave her the same look back with a twinge of sarcasm, 'Yes, there is only one. Did you really think you had that whole place to yourself?'
Jordan looked at the floor dumbfounded. What did he mean there was only one study? That room had obviously led from her office on the opposite side of the corridor.
Severus sighed. 'It would seem you had wasted all of those galleons on University for nothing, Ms. Brooks. As we walk, I'll explain.'
Jordan followed him closely taking in his every word, Draco followed suit behind them glaring at her bum. He just couldn't resist. Jordan was a fox.
'This castle's magic is very powerful and creates rooms for its professors based on their personalities and interests. It would seem you and I are one in the same. More so than most people-' Severus glanced back to see Draco ogling Jordan and almost erupted. What the fuck was he doing? Lucius had told him about his little predicament. Then again, he was a Malfoy. 'Honestly, Draco, you are your Father's son! Could you please have an ounce of respect for Jordan? She is your superior!' He roared making Draco's face Gryffindor red.
Jordan turned around to look at Draco, utterly confused. Then she realized he had been behind her and Severus the whole time. She gave him a look that mirrored the one right beside her. He was downright terrified of Severus like this; but upon seeing Jordan match his demeanor, he fell to his knees and apologized.
Severus looked at him bemused, then to Jordan to see the look on her face. 'Well we can cross intimidation off the list of things to teach you.' He said, pride swelling in his chest and arousal in his nether regions.
Jordan bent down to meet his gaze, 'If I ever catch you ogling me again, you'll wish I didn't. Am I clear? Need I remind you what happens when you overstep your bounds?' She murmured clearly to him, every word dripping with terrifying malice. She then rose, looked at Severus, and smiled.
Beaming in her wake, Severus looked down at Draco and with a considerable amount of amusement and said, 'I have a feeling you should get up and accompany us now.'
Meeting Jordan's stride she looked over at him, 'You were saying?'
Making sure Draco was following suit beside him, he continued, 'Yes, right, there have been cases of Professors rooms being set to the same floor plan, and if I'm honest I have not yet told Minerva of our mutual study. She can be a bit… how should say this? Pushy when it comes to these situations.'
'What do you mean?'
He took a deep breath and made sure not to look at her. 'She is under the impression that if two professors share similarity with their rooms, they are meant to have a working relationship.'
Jordan looked thoughtful. What was he insinuating? Did Minerva know about them? The fucking castle sure did. Had Severus told her of them or had she put two and two together. Severus wasn't exactly careful about keeping them a secret in the end. Rita Skeeter had a fucking photocopy of her letters in the book she had half-hazardly published a few weeks ago. 'What could a mutual study have to do with a working relationship?'
He kept his face forward and spoke matter of factly. 'It gives me access to you at any point in time.'
She whipped her head up to him, looking worried. Access at any point in time, eh? That's never fucking stopped you before, you ass.
He sighed down to her, 'Count your blessings, your room could be connected to Mr. Malfoy's.'
'Small mercies, I guess.' She smirked as her next thought came into her head. This'll render him speechless, she thought. 'Then again, I suppose I should be glad it's 'our study' and not 'our bedroom.' She joked looking up to him again. He did not look amused. Her smile faded and she stared at the floor completely embarrassed. That didn't go exactly as she'd thought…
Severus cleared his throat and turned to unward his office. He opened the doors and motioned her and Draco inside. What kind of comment was that? Did she actually think he wanted their rooms to be like this because that was a definite negative? Well, it wasn't completely that way… Shit, Severus fucking pull yourself together.
He then opened the doors to the study and Jordan looked in, bewildered. This was the study. Her bags were even sitting where Severus had left them, things strung out all around them. She could see that her bedroom door was askew with her various robes and things lying everywhere as well. Her face went completely red. He had access to her day and night. The thought did nothing but fuel the flame in her core. Maybe that was a good thing he had that access to her. She then looked back to Severus as he shot everything neatly back into her luggage with his wand. 'If my bedroom is there, where is your bedroom?'
He huffed at her, 'I hardly think that's an appropriate question to ask with Draco-'
'Amuse me.' She interrupted, giving him that look that made him want to do whatever she wanted.
He took in a sharp breath and walked toward the empty stretch of wall on the other side of the fireplace, opposite her own room. He waved his hand over what seemed to be a continuing wall of books and a set of black double doors, just like hers, appeared before him. 'I had it shielded so you wouldn't go poking around earlier this afternoon.'
Jordan looked at him stricken, 'Thank you for showing me.'
He bowed his head to her in response.
Draco, who had plopped himself down on one of the fine couches five minutes ago looked at them both as if bored out of his mind. 'What's for dinner, Professor?'
Severus looked from Draco to Jordan, 'Children…' He shook his head.
Jordan chuckled at his joke. That was a good sign. He never joked in front of those he was not comfortable with.
Severus looked at Draco again and noticed his eyebrows raised as if he expected an answer from him. He sighed. 'Winky.' He snapped.
In popped the rather odd-looking female elf with a new looking grey dress. 'Bring us up some ham and cheese sandwiches and a pitcher of green tea, please.'
'It is Winky's pleasure to serve the house of Prince.' And with that she popped away.
Jordan looked at Severus consciously, 'Severus, is Winky in your stead now?'
He looked at her with a hint of anger, 'Yes, and that's all I wish to say about it at the moment.'
Draco looked at Jordan, 'He obtained her from Hogwarts because he felt sorry for her.'
Severus rounded on Draco, 'Draco Lucius Malfoy, you are the thorn in my side!'
Draco rolled his eyes, 'Sorry for letting your Deputy know you actually have a heart under all that black clothing.'
For a considerable amount of time they stood staring at each other, a silent battle of will. Jordan was feeling exceedingly uncomfortable, yet wanted to know more of the Potion Master's kindness towards someone other than herself. Shifting slightly in her chair she asked, 'Why did you pity her Severus?'
Upon hearing her say his name he looked into her eyes, he then rolled his eyes and looked back at her, 'Granger created this stupid club during her fourth year, it sounded like SPLAT or something. Anyway, she was convinced that if the house elves at Hogwarts would not be freed, she was going to free them herself. So in her fifth year, she started knitting all of these garments and leaving them around the Gryffindor common room. Well, one night Winky came along and picked up a hat, or a sock, and was freed. She did not want this but could no longer work at Hogwarts because of it. I was with the Headmaster when she came into the room sobbing. She was a mess and all she wanted to do was be indebted to someone. Dumbledore looked at me with those twinkling eyes of his and I thought of someone who would have done anything to make someone else happy, even if it burdened them.' Jordan and he stared at each other for a few seconds, obviously knowing who that someone was before he broke their contact and continued. 'Next thing I knew, she was serving me.'
Jordan was at war with herself. There was so much that needed to be said, so much that she wanted to say, but like usual she found herself not being able to say any of it. A change of subject was due. 'But why did she say it was her pleasure to serve the House of Prince and not Snape?' Jordan questioned.
He shot a furious look at Draco, 'See what you've done now?'
Draco met his glance with an equally intimidating one, 'She needs to know, Severus.'
'I need to know what?' Jordan asked completely bewildered. Draco knew something she didn't know? What all did he know exactly? Shit. He was supposed to be her way out of having a serious talk with him.
There was a pop and Winky sat the sandwiches and green tea on the coffee table. She bowed to Severus and popped out of the room again. If it was possible, this made the tension in the room even worse than before.
Draco looked from her to his colleague, bending down and grabbing a sandwich, 'Tell her, Severus, or else everything will be for not.'
Severus glared at Draco and took in a deep breath sitting beside her on the couch, 'There is a reason for all of this Jordan.' He gave her a look that silenced her. 'More than you know.' He then looked at Draco before looking back to her. 'It is rather impertinent and in no way should be thrust upon you like this, but apparently I am being backed into a corner. That and Ms. Lovegood has informed me time is a luxury we cannot afford.'
Jordan looked into Severus' eyes and saw he was nervous and scared to tell her something she assumed was important. Oh god, was he really going to do this with Draco here? Or was this something completely different? Not moving her eyes from his she found her honest words tumbling out of her mouth. 'Tell me, Severus. You know I always understand.'
He nodded his head. 'We haven't spoken in a while and…' He huffed and looked toward the ceiling. Her brows furrowed as she realized he was trying to tell her something that was hard for him to say. He looked her straight in the eye and slightly shook his head. 'I'm so sorry.'
He didn't need to say what he was sorry about. Jordan could tell by the look in his eyes what he was sorry for and she couldn't take it. He was nothing but genuine. Her face dropped as she found it hard to breathe…
Severus searched her eyes before he looked over at Draco. 'Pour her some tea.'
He did so and gave him a worried look as he handed it to him. Severus shot him a stern expression. 'If I tell you to leave, you are to do so, do you understand me?'
Draco nodded his head and looked over at her. 'Is she ok?'
'Shut your fucking trap, Draco. I didn't plan for you to be here when this happened.' He snapped back. Turning to give Jordan her tea, she looked up at him with red-rimmed eyes and took the cup, sipping at it to try and calm herself.
Fuck, he thought. I'm fucking done for. He turned to Draco abruptly. 'Get out.'
He looked like Severus had told him he fucked his Mother. 'What? I was invited up here, Severus. It's not like Father hasn't told me everything about-'
Severus stood and shot daggers at him. 'You and your Father know fucking nothing.' He then pointed to the door as it flew open with sheer force. 'GET OUT.'
Draco scoffed at him and adjusted his posture as to regain some of his dominance. 'Why? So, she can suck your cock without interruption after you tell her?'
Severus' face grew twelve shades redder. 'HOW FUCKING DARE YOU-'
Jordan placed her hand around Severus' making him stop suddenly and look down at her. She still looked upset, but she looked straight across at Draco. 'You heard him, Draco. Please leave.'
At this he huffed and rolled his eyes, walking towards the door. 'Fine. I didn't want to see the look on his face as he came in your mouth anyway.'
Severus went to hex him, but Jordan beat him to it, harmlessly zapping him right in the arse. He yelped and turned around in anger. 'What the fuck?!'
'I didn't say give us your crude and childish comments while you left either. Shut the door quietly so us adults can talk. Maybe you can go whine about your unharmed arse to Madame Pomfrey if you can't keep zipping your lips. She will care about as much as we will.'
He opened his mouth to retort as Severus' eyebrow shot up. 'Goodbye Draco.'
The blonde boy wonder scoffed and threw his hands up as he thudded through Severus' office and slammed the door shut. Severus locked and warded it for good measure before turning and looking at Jordan. 'Surely you must be hungry.'
She looked at him plainly before sipping her tea again. 'Did you really mean you were sorry?'
He softly huffed. 'You know I did…'
She looked back down at her lap as she sat her tea down. 'I'm sorry too…'
Severus was shocked. 'Sorry for what?'
Her face rose. 'I never so much as wrote to see how you were.' Her eyes blinked furiously before she looked back down and covered her mouth with her hand. 'I thought I was dead when I read your name…'
Severus' shoulders drooped and he brought his hands around her. 'I'm here now though. And you don't have to be sorry. I wish I could have left you something to let you know I didn't want to leave you. It was just too dangerous.'
She shook her head at his neck and leaned back. 'Oh, but carrying my letters around with you was keeping it safe?'
He gripped her shoulders and looked her right in the eyes. 'You don't know what it was like to be without you!'
She threw her arm up to remove him from her person. 'YES I FUCKING DO! YOU WEREN'T THE ONLY ONE IN THIS, YOU KNOW! I WAS FUCKING ALL ALONE WITH CARLA AND CHARLOTTE FIGHTING ABOUT WHO WON WIZARD'S CHESS WHILE YOU WERE OUT THERE GOD KNOWS WHERE DY-DYING!'
Severus' anger dissipated at that point. She went on. 'I COULDN'T DO ANYTHING! I woke up in my room hoping for you to kiss me on the cheek and tell me that something was going to happen to me later, but you fucking weren't even there! You were gone! And Pius, Mum, and Charlotte were there. I couldn't even be upset until Charlotte and I go into the back of a car and drove to wherever we went.' She let out a sob. 'I just wanted you. I wasn't dumb. I knew something was going to happen the next day. You had fucking killed one of the most powerful wizards of all time. And I'm not saying I regret letting you in at all. I would do anything if I knew it would make you happy, Severus. And you were important, more important than anyone in the war than you and me knew at the time and I felt so guilty when I saw your name. I wanted to be out there with you- I know, I know it never would have worked, but anything would have been better than having to pretend like I didn't love you and-' She shook her head as her tears ran down her face. 'God, Severus I'm so fucking stupid.'
His hands came up and cupped her face, bringing it up to his view. He spoke with love and compassion. 'You are not stupid.'
She nodded her head. 'Yes, I am… I was to marry someone, Severus…'
His face drooped. 'What?'
'I never loved him. He never loved me. It was arranged, but this morning I woke up and I looked at him having tea with my Mother as if everything was just peachy keen after he stormed in unannounced. And I just couldn't take it anymore. I've only ever loved you.'
'You love me?' He asked in astonishment.
With tears in her eyes she finally told him something that had plagued her for years, 'I have loved everything about you sense I was eighteen, Severus. Everything. You're snarky moods, your brain, things I can't even think of right now. I'm sorry I never told you. I just couldn't get it out.'
He gripped her tighter as he searched her eyes, full to the brim with the evidence of her pain and sorrow. 'Don't you ever be sorry, Jordan. For this man or for never saying that to me.'
'I just- You probably don't even love me now. And I've ruined everything…'
He pulled her ever closer to him. 'What would have given you the idea that I could ever stop loving you?'
Before she could answer, he pulled her into him, his lips and hers meeting in a fiery that spread throughout their bodies like the first time they'd kissed. But this one was different in a way. It took all of the guilt and sadness that had plagued both of their lives during their time away from each other and set it aflame.
His lips were so perfect, so sensual. She could hardly sit still. He loved her. He still loved her. She rejoiced as her lips and his moved in alignment with each other. It was the symphony of kisses.
Her lips were just as he remembered them: soft and large, begging to be plundered. Every second they kept lapping at each other, becoming more apparent that nothing had changed between them truthfully.
She loved him? I mean, she really vocalized that she loved him? He had to be dreaming.
As they slowly pulled apart, they looked into each other's eyes and ever-widening smiles spread across their faces. 'Are you really here?' He whispered as he wiped her tears.
'Are you really forgiving me?' She countered as her hands came around to rub the sides of his neck.
He swallowed hard. 'We've both done things we aren't proud of while away from each other, Jordan…'
Her smile dissipated and she brought her hands back down to her lap. 'You were going to tell me something when Draco was here?'
He nodded. 'Yes, but it's a bit of a shock. Well, at least it was for me.'
She placed her hand on his. 'Tell me, Severus.'
'A week ago, Ms. Lovegood sent me a letter requesting my presence at a reading she was conducting at the Ministry. I don't know if you are aware, but Ms. Lovegood has the gift of sight. Much more than Professor Trelawney ever had.
On Minerva's orders, I indulged her with my attendance. What I witnessed gave me great discomfort, but also great joy. I saw the progression of someone growing up. Much of it, I saw previously with my own eyes, some was news to me although I was privy to the situation. Anyway when Ms. Lovegood did not stop the visions, I was very concerned. I will not tell you all I saw, in fact I can't tell you what I saw, but this person who had grown into a magnificent woman was on the arm of a man quite familiar to me. I saw many of their interactions and through time, I saw them build a life together. A simple life, but a happy one. Ms. Lovegood approached me afterward and confirmed my theories as to whom these people were and how they went about their actions.' He swallowed hard and she relished at the sight of his Adam's apple bobbing up and down nervously. 'Would you care to guess who these people are, Jordan?'
She paused for a moment and just looked at him. After about a minute, she spoke. 'It's you and I isn't it?'
Severus looked at her, fear increasing in his eyes. She didn't look shocked.
Then as if she was accepting all he had told her she asked, 'Why is our time limited, Severus?'
'That's the big question. We don't know. Ms. Lovegood won't tell me.' Severus explained, frustration in his voice.
She never looked away from his eyes, 'So…we're destined to be together.'
He met her gaze, never wavering, 'It would appear so.'
'And what did Draco have to do with this?' She asked as an afterthought.
'It is not a known fact, but I am Draco's Godfather. And very recently, I became Lord of the Prince Estates. Which is why Winky refers to me as such. Lucius is the secret keeper for the grounds and knowing of our potential association, I told Lucius and essentially Draco of what I'd been told. They took the news very seriously.
We rowed, because they both thought I should tell you as soon as possible. I was angered because of this and late to pick you up at the front gates, which is why I was not pleasant upon your arrival. I felt as if you were being forced into this association. If we are being completely honest with each other, as I assume we are, thoughts of 'how could she ever have feelings for me? I'm twice her senior.' Cropped up. I want you to know that although I might be pleased that it's brought us back together, I did not ask for this Jordan and I hope this situation does not change your perception of me.' He explained dropping his head.
She looked at him plunge into a pit of self-pity and she felt as if her heart would burst. How could he think so little of himself? She had to do something to reassure him of her feelings. She lifted his head up with her index finger. 'I don't give a shit about your money, estates, or lordship. I love you. Just the way you are. I never told you before I left school because I was scared I'd be rejected. I knew you had feelings for me because of our letters, but there was just too many things that tipped me off before then.'
'Like what?' He spat, hoping she wouldn't give him a look that meant he was being daft.
She did give him that look though and her eyes turned up to the ceiling. 'Well, for example, there's the time Erin Pepper hexed me and my skin turned blue for two weeks. You came in twice daily to make sure I was well and assigned me extra potions essays. You well know that's the tip of the iceberg. I'm not even going to go into the other's because you will have me entertain this idea that you are/were, however you look at it, a pedophile.'
His expression hardened. 'I don't think you understand.'
Her eyebrows rose in shock. 'Oh no, Severus, I understand completely. You thought about more than you should have and might have crossed a line at times, but what is life if not one big grey area? I never felt as if you were taking advantage of me. Everything that you told me in your letters pertaining to this-' She blushed and glowered her gaze. 'Well, it turned me on…'
His face rose to look at her in awe. 'You didn't get creeped out by it, not even in the slightest?'
Her cheeks were ablaze. 'No. The little seventh year in me was writhing. To think that I had to come up with my own material when I could have just gone and had you do it for me…'
His eyebrows rose. 'You… you thought about me while…'
She slowly shook her head. 'You were the cause of many memorable nights, especially once I had my own room.'
Severus had to control his breathing. 'I never knew that…'
Her hand came down to intertwine with his. 'Well, you do now.' She then leaned in and whispered in his ear. 'And just so you know, they haven't stopped, those fantasies…'
As she leaned back to look at his reaction, his tongue came up and licked the side of his teeth under his lip, causing a suction-like sound as he opened his mouth. 'Yours haven't either…'
She smiled at him. 'That's awfully flattering… I forgot how sweet you can be.'
'I forgot how unfailingly kind you are.' He looked away from her as if he was trying to remember something, 'Why did Ms. Pepper hex you blue?'
Jordan looked at him and snickered, 'She thought I was snogging her boyfriend.'
'Well, were you?' He asked her, his eyebrows arched.
Jordan exhaled, 'You should know, you're the one who caught us.'
He looked at her in shock, 'Marcus Bradley and Erin Pepper where getting on?'
'Oh yea, they were getting on every Tuesday and Thursday night in the third floor prefect's bathroom. I knew of this because he told me in the library that night. And then he insisted on walking me down to the dungeons, even though I told him countless times you were patrolling. But nevertheless, he wouldn't give up. So, I let him walk me down and he decided he was going to kiss me before he left. And then you caught us. Well, the next day, which just so happened to be a Thursday, he yelled at me in front of a bunch of Slytherin boys. They then proceeded to call me some very nasty slurs. But being the bigger person I walked away from the situation, intent to seek revenge on the one person who deserved it most. Then, I re-thought that decision and murmured a very strong sticking hex on their shoes and they were unable to move-'
'That was you?' Severus interrupted with a mixture of pride and annoyance on his face. 'I had to spend hours with those boys, trying to pry them from the ground… Well done.'
'Thank you, Severus.' She smiled at him, basking in his praise. 'Anyway, I then read in a nearby corridor until 8 o'clock when I knew they'd come down and sure enough, I heard their laughter and a rather noisy slap to her rear. I then put my things away and waited at the door to listen for Pepper's moans.' Severus gave her a very concerned look. 'I didn't have to try hard, she was excruciatingly loud. The least he could have done was place a silencing charm. But that's not the point. When I heard them, I braced myself and stormed in. I had originally hoped to perform Petrificus Totalus, but he had suspected I would come after them and they where waiting for me, wands drawn, on the other side of the door. Charlotte came looking for me two hours later and went to fetch you. You obviously know the rest of the story.'
Severus looked at her rather animatedly. 'Well, at least he wasn't a complete idiot. He never did well in potions. He was almost as bad as Longbottom if you'll remember. Always having Becky Harris help him.' He eyed her with intrigue after seething for a moment, 'You still don't forgive him for kissing you do you?'
Jordan looked at him surprised. She had never told anyone her first kiss was stolen from her by a boy who could care less about her. 'How did you-'
'I know a whole lot more of your goings on here than I care to admit, Jordan.' He interjected.
She looked down at her hands and blushed, 'My heart flip-flops every time you call me by my first name.'
He looked at her seductively, 'Then, I guess I'll have to call you by it more often.' He smirked at her for a moment before he snapped out of his reverie. 'Did you really mean those things you said to me when you, well, kind of lost it?'
She gazed at him thoughtfully. 'If you'll remember, you've lost it with me a few times as well. But if you must know, I meant every word.'
He felt a pang in his chest. This amazing woman loved him for himself. And he loved her back, more than she would ever know. 'As you very well know, I too have loved you for a long while.' He paused and grinned over at her. 'And I always will. But hearing that you reciprocate those feelings makes me feel immensely better. Thank you for your candor and understanding about this whole thing. I want you to know that I am not going to let this vision of our potential life together guide me in my feelings for you. I don't expect you to either. Life should be taken one step at a time.'
'I agree, Severus, but I can't say I haven't thought about having a life with you before.' She replied, placing her hand on his.
He looked at her hand on his and placed his other hand on top of hers, 'Nor can I. Regardless, I want to take this at your pace. Your comfort is my top priority.'
She beamed. 'Thank you, Severus.'
He drew himself up. 'Now, tell me about this…fiancée of yours.'
Jordan pointed at him. 'Ex-fiancée.'
He looked back at her and agreed. 'Ex-fiancée.'
'Well,' She said as she sighed. 'It was Mother's idea after the war. She said I was worrying about the dead too much.' She shook her head. 'Load of shit that was… She knew that I was mourning, that I was upset and she flounced up to my room the first morning I was back home and informed me of my engagement to Gale Curtis.'
Severus' eyebrows furrowed. 'The one who works at the Ministry? Jordan, he's gayer than a Two-headed Snarflat.'
'I know.' She stated as if this was a known fact, which in hindsight, it was. The man reeked of cock, and not from his neither regions. 'He promptly came to my house earlier this morning as I was fighting with my Mother about not marrying him and coming to Hogwarts to teach. Just walked right and looked her in the eye and said. 'I don't want to marry her. Never did. I don't even have to see her naked to know that I don't want her. I like cock. Perhaps you will understand, what with your son having the same proclivities.' You should have seen the look on her face. I wish I could have it tattooed on my chest so I could look in the mirror and laugh at it every morning.'
Severus shifted in his seat. 'Forgive me if I'm being too brash, but you and him never… engaged?'
She gave him a curious look before she realized what he meant. 'Oh fuck no! He never even asked and I didn't either. Like I said, there's only one I want to see me like that, and sure as hell wasn't him.'
Severus blushed as he looked back at her. 'That's more than a bit of a relief.'
She sat forward and rung her hands. 'Actually, Severus. As a matter of fact, I've never… done anything with… anyone, wizard or muggle.'
His brows flew to his hairline. 'No one? Not even during school or at University? Isn't that what that's about for you lot nowadays?'
She giggled at him; something that made his arm hair stand on end it pleased him so much. 'You flatter me too much. I know that's all the rage now, but anyone else would have been subpar. It just wouldn't have been the same. I believe that my innocence, if you could call it that, is a gift. A gift that's had you name on it for longer than I care to remember.'
He smiled over at her. 'Your resilience is astounding. Why me?'
Her shoulder's rose up as she smiled at him.
He then stood, 'Perhaps, it's time for us both to retire.'
She stood and met his gaze, 'Perhaps it's time we do this again,' She retorted as she pulled him down to her and planted a passionate kiss on his lips. They both were hurling through time and space as they stood there enveloped in each other's arms. He searched her mouth thoroughly as if he was trying to touch every bit of it. She responded my pulling his body into hers. She could feel every bit of him on her, like she had earlier when he fell on her and all she could think about was him bedding her.
She then pulled back and searched his eyes. 'I want you so bad, but I'd probably disappoint you.' Her gaze dropped to the ground.
He pulled her chin up with his forefinger. 'I just told you that we'd go at your own pace. If you want me to be your first, I will teach you. Whenever you're ready, all you have to do is tell me.' Looking down at her body, his gaze rose back up to her. 'And I don't think you could ever disappoint me.' He then pulled her into himself and wrapped his arms around her back to comfort her.
'I want you to be my first, Severus. I just don't think I'm ready tonight.' She murmured as her hands moved about his neck.
'That is perfectly fine with me. Shall I tuck you in?' He looked down into her amber eyes and asked her.
'Will you stay with me and hold me?' She asked hoping he would say yes.
'It would be my pleasure.' He said taking her hand and leading her into her room. 'Are your pajamas in here or had you strung them about too? You've obviously touched your luggage…thoroughly…'
Her giggle sounded through the room, causing him to smirk over at her. 'I suppose I did get a bit carried away earlier… nerves…' She then clucked her tongue. 'They are in the top of the second duffle bag, the silk blue ones.' She instructed as she walked into the bathroom to take out her contacts, brush her teeth, and wash her face. As she finished he came back with her sky blue nightie.
'Really? Blue?' he said holding the tiny piece of cloth up to her.
'Everything I own doesn't have to be green or black, Severus.'
'Not even a nice silver?'
She huffed. 'Give me that.' She said as she took the garment from him.
'So, bossy already…' He retorted sarcastically.
'I'm sorry.' She said as she rose to her tiptoes to kiss his nose softly. 'Thank you, Sev.'
He looked deeply into her loving eyes. She reminded him so much of Lily, yet she was a complete totalitarian like himself at times. He allowed her to call him by his pet name, a gift in itself. 'You're welcome. I'll be right back. I'm going to change.'
As he left, she slipped off her robes and dress and stepped into her nightie. As she twisted her hair up into a bun he entered the room again, only wearing a pair of navy blue pajama bottoms.
She stepped into the bedroom and looked at him, 'Really? Blue?' she mocked.
He looked up to see her in the doorway in the skimpy blue nightie and he physically felt his manhood bob. 'Get in Bed.'
She obeyed him as he promptly reached over to turn off the light. 'You are too much… You've really come into your body over the last few years.'
Her hand brushed up his face and she leaned forward to kiss his cheek delicately. 'Are you trying to tell me you like what you see and choose not to see it because you don't trust yourself, Severus Snape?'
He shook his head. 'Not at all. Granted whenever I look at you, my more baser urges kick in, but I'd never do something to you that wasn't welcome, Jordan.'
'I never thought you would.' She breathed as she inhaled his scent again. Her whole body relaxed as if she could finally breathe again. 'I figured out why I choose you, Sev…'
His eyebrows rose and she faintly saw them through the dim light. 'I feel safe when you're around. Safer than I've ever felt with anyone else on this planet.'
He huffed as a smile spread across his face. 'I feel as if I haven't been able to breathe for a millennia, but now,' He inhaled deeply. 'I could be out for a walk in the fresh air and not know the difference.'
She snuggled into him more and laid her head between his chin and shoulder. 'I feel the same way.' Her nose very briefly ran across a rather jagged lift in his neck and she didn't need to see to be able to know what it was. The reality of his close call with death was too real for her in that moment, but she said nothing. That was a conversation for another day.
'Goodnight, Jordan.' He whispered after some time of lying there.
'Goodnight, Severus…' She replied as her body completely relaxed and melted into his.
