Hello everyone,
long time no see :)
I know that this update is way overdue but I had a major writer block with this one, i even thought about taking the whole story down. but lately i'm searching for ways to happiness and nothing works for me more than writing
so here's a new chapter and hopefully i'll update regularly for this one and "Part of your world" as well.
enjoy
OX
"Oh my god, what are we gonna do?" you said panicking.
"don't worry honey, the picture is blurry and doesn't show your face." Darren said comforting you. you let out a breath you have been holding back.
"We have to be extra careful now, they know that you have someone and they'll track you until they get a picture of us together." you said worryingly.
"how about we give them that photo and stop stressing over this?" Darren said nuzzling his nose into the crock of your neck. you were shocked and got off his lap.
"Are you out of your mind? we can't go public, I'm just starting my new life here." you turned and went to collect your last night's outfit from the floor.
"I think I need to rent an apartment; I always forget things here." you were looking for your other shoe.
"you just don't see it, do you?" Darren said.
"my other shoe?" you asked looking around once again.
"I'm going to take a shower and go to the airport." Darren got up from the bed not answering your question.
-—•-
your flight was at the late afternoon, so you met up with Cam and Matt; to go over your assignment together.
"mind telling me why you were touchy-feely with your boyfriend's friend?" Cam asked once she saw you.
"well, hello to you too." you said sarcastically.
" I'm being serious; you can't do this." Cam said a little loud.
" Calm down, Cam. we don't know if something really happened between the two of them, the picture could be taken from an accusing angle." Matt said and you were grateful that he didn't tell Cam about Darren.
"what picture are you talking about?" you played dumb.
"there's a photo of you two on the internet." Cam said, you faked surprise.
"do you have it?" you asked because Darren refused to show it to you in the morning. Cam fished out her phone and gave it to you. the photo was blurry but it was obvious that it was Darren with his hand on your lower back and he was either whispering in your ear or something, it wasn't clear.
"I don't know why you made it a problem, Darren is a cuddly drunk and my boyfriend knows that. but I probably should call him." you were proud of the act you put on in front of your friends.
"you should, I hate to be in his place right now finding my girlfriend with my friend looking intimate with each other." Cam said accusingly.
"I don't like your tone, Cam." you said warning.
"well, I don't like you ruining Darren's image, what will people think of him when they see that he was being intimate with a girl that have a boyfriend who is his friend. Darren can do much better than that." Cam said angrily.
"so you're just jealous that it was me, right? you wanted him to be touchy-feely with you, to cuddle with you when he is drunk." you said and then it came to you, the picture wasn't in the party, it was after it, when Cam caught up with you and Darren, "you were the one who took the picture." you pointed out.
"he would have to give an explanation for the photo and I'd be happy to pretend to be his girlfriend." Cam said smiling wickedly.
"l hate to burst your bubble but he already has a girlfriend. and that girlfriend is me. I can't believe that I didn't see how psycho you are." you said collecting your stuff and left. you were seething with anger. you knew that Cam was a fan of Darren, but what she did was beyond being a fan. you got off the plane and went back home to find that Darren hadn't came back yet from shooting. your phone rang out, it was Matt.
"hey, Matt. I'm sorry I left unexpectedly but I couldn't stay any longer with Cam around." you were cooking dinner for you and Darren, something you now rarely do.
" I understand but you should have seen her face after you told her that you are Darren's girlfriend." Matt said laughing.
"don't remind me, I wish I hadn't said anything. I argued with Darren this morning because I didn't want him to do the same thing. and now, Cam would go bubbling up to everyone she knows and maybe she would go to the tabloids with this like she did with the photo." you said frustrated with yourself.
"don't mind Cam, she won't do anything. there's no benefit to her if she outed you to the press. but now I'm curious about your argument with your hunk boyfriend." I gasped, "hey, you know that I'm gay now, no need to be surprised." Matt said amused.
" I just didn't expect that you would be eyeing my boyfriend, maybe I should be worried about you not Cam." you said jokingly.
" yes you should. enough about me, tell me what happened between you and Darren."
" it was nothing. he wants us to go public, so we won't panic every time that there are pictures of us." You said stirring the sauce to thicken it.
" and what was your answer?" Matt asked.
" of course I said no. I just started to live my life, to be me. I'm not going to give that up for the starving media." you said.
" listen to yourself, what about Darren? don't you think that he's tired from hiding you all the time, don't you think that maybe he wants to show you off to the world because he's proud of you. tell me when was the last time you gone out together in a public place." Matt said and you realized how selfish you were. maybe that was what Darren had meant before he left. that's why he was angry.
" oh god, I'm so stupid." you sighed.
"yes you are." Matt chuckled.
you continued the conversation with Matt and he told you that you should talk with Darren and maybe plan a date like your old times. you finished the call with him as soon as you heard Darren's car.
"hey, you're home." Darren said entering the kitchen, he was smiling but it was hollow.
"yes, I didn't have lectures, what's wrong? did something happen at the set?" you asked getting the dishes out for dinner.
" nothing. you cooked." he said surprised.
" I know that it's been a while since I last did, but you know how hectic everything was lately." you said serving the food.
" and you cooked my favorites, should I be worried?" Darren raised an eyebrow.
" I just wanted to apologize to you for how I reacted earlier today. l was stupid and selfish and I should think before I speak. I'm sorry that I hurt you, I didn't mean it." you sincerely apologized.
" I was hurt but not because you dismissed the idea of going public, I was hurt because of the reasons for the dismissal." Darren said walking around the counter to be facing you.
" I know that I was selfish and thought only about myself." you said looking down.
" it ain't you who is selfish, it's me. you sacrificed everything for me; your hometown, your family and even your education. and I can't tell you how much it pains me that you left all this to be with me and I just got carried away with chasing my dream. and when you started to chase yours, I went and told you let's go public. I didn't think about how this will hinder your life and affect your relationships with people. I'm the one who is sorry that I didn't think about you first like any good boyfriend should." Darren said creasing your cheek and wiping away tears that has fallen.
"I only wanted to have you with me everywhere without thinking about who might see us together, I wanted to go on dates with you, to take you with me to events and parties, to talk in interviews about how perfect you are and how madly in love I am with you." Darren kissed you gently and your heart skipped too many necessary beats. you were speechless, you didn't want to say anything but you knew what you should say. there was no problem in communication between you and Darren before, but now you felt that there's something wrong.
" I'm madly in love with you too and I'm not perfect." Darren was going to interrupt you, so you hushed him with a kiss, "neither are you and we need to talk to be perfect together." you finished your sentence smiling.
"Could we do the talking over the dinner? I'm starving and the food smells divine." Darren said eyeing the dishes.
"fine." you huffed jokingly
" if you want to talk while doing something else, I'm down with suggestions." Darren said seductively tightening his hold on your waist.
"get your mind out of the gutter." you laughed.
"I love you." Darren said.
"I love you too."
