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Not So Ordinaries
Chapter Seven
Donna was speechless. When she had insisted Alec tell her about her father's killer, that hadn't been the answer she had expected. But when her mind kicked up to working back on a normal level, she wondered why she hadn't thought that. Alec had been off with her all day, running out of her apartment and ignoring her calls. All day, her worst fear was that she had turned into one of the many girls she saw throw themselves at Alec every night in Crash. That she was just a one night stand he wanted to forget. What he had just told her had not even entered her mind once. Why should it?
"You?" Donna said once she found her voice.
"Yes," Alec said, doing what he thought was the decent thing and not looking at Donna. "Look, I need to explain…."
"No, Alec," Donna called over him, holding up her hands. "I just wanna get this straight in my head before you do any explaining." Donna took a deep breath to compose herself.
"You have sat here for the past couple of minutes, and days for that matter, and let me spill everything to you about my father, my brother, and how much their deaths screwed up my life. And now, of all times, you decide to tell me that all that was because of you. I just have one question Alec. Why?"
"Donna, I would have told you sooner if I…."
"I'm not talking about when you told me Alec," Donna said, cutting him off again. "I'm talking about why you even told me at all. You heard what I just said about my lingering feelings towards the person who wrecked my family, and you know I meant it. So why tell me at all? It's not like I ever would have found out, there was no evidence. What, is this like some self defence mechanism? Your way of getting out of a relationship when you can't see any other way."
"That is not what I'm trying to do here, Donna," Alec said, able to get out a full sentence. "You said yourself you had a right to know. Needed to know. I thought I was doing the right thing telling you."
"The right thing? Alec, this is you were talking about. Us even. Telling me you killed my father and brother was so far from the right thing to do if you really want me to stick around."
"That is not what I want. I just…."
"How do you know?" Donna said suddenly.
"What?" Alec asked.
"How do you know you killed my dad and my brother? Kross is my mother's maiden name, and her and my father never married. How can you be sure it was really my family?"
"The picture, on your dresser. I saw it this morning when you went to make coffee." Donna echoed out a small burst of laughter at this statement.
"Of course. I should have known. Everything was fine until you walked out of that room. That's when you ran off, as usual, and started avoiding my calls. Alec, why didn't you tell me sooner? Why didn't you answer my calls or tell me the minute I walked through that door?"
"I wasn't about to tell you something like this over the phone. And when you walked in that door…. I didn't know what to say. I just wanted to keep you here a little longer." Again, Donna laughed.
"That's just great, Alec," Donna said, the laughter turning choked as tears welled up behind her eyes. "You thought you wouldn't tell me something this important because you selfishly wanted to keep me here that little bit longer."
"Donna, that's not…." Alec reached out his hand to touch her, but she shied away like he was something dirty.
"Don't touch me," Donna said, battling against her tears. "Just… don't touch me."
"Donna, you have to believe me, the last thing I wanted to do was hurt you."
"Then I repeat, why tell me at all!" Donna screamed out, using anger to push back her tears. "You knew how much I hated what was done to my family. Not because of my father, but for my brother. I even told you tonight, when you asked, that I would get revenge if the opportunity arose. So…."
"Fine," Alec said, cutting Donna off this time and spreading his arms. "Here I am, so you can take your revenge. Do what you want, I don't care. Just as long as you feel better, and I really mean that."
For a long, moment, Donna thought about just that. Taking her revenge on Alec. For her whole life, all she had wanted deep down was to avenge her brother, even if it didn't show on the surface. But now, when the opportunity actually presented itself, she just couldn't do it.
"Alec, don't do this," Donna said finally, the tears she had been battling beginning to fall. "This is you Alec. It's you and I…." Donna trailed off, unsure of what she really wanted to say next.
"What?" Alec asked, forcing her to at least consider the answer in her mind.
"It's just you, Alec, and I can't. No matter what," Donna said, choosing the easy option and turning her back on him.
"Donna, you have to know how truly sorry I am," Alec said, stepping forward and letting his hands rest against her shoulders.
"Don't touch me!" Donna screamed, spinning out of his hold. Turning to him, she saw the hurt in his eyes, but she ignored it. Right now, she didn't think he had the right to feel hurt by what she was doing.
"Don't be standing there waiting for me to forgive you Alec, because that is not gonna happen right now. I don't care if it is you, and you did it in your good old days as a true blue Manticore soldier. You stilled killed someone I cared about. Someone I loved. And right now, what I feel for them trumps anything that I might feel for you."
"I don't expect you to forgive me. I just expect you to hear me out."
"So you can what? Give me some other stupid excuse. Blame this on my father and brother."
"No, so you can at least hear what I have to say." Donna stayed quiet this time, and Alec took that as a sign for him to continue.
"You're right. There's no excuse for what I did, even if it was all thanks to Manticore. But you gotta know, I didn't know any better back then. Following orders, going through with my assignments, that was all I knew. I didn't know he had family, had kids. And I didn't know that I was gonna meet you and all this was gonna come back and bite me in the ass all over again."
"So that makes it right, does it?" Donna said, her tears still falling slowly. "The fact that you were just following orders and didn't know any better makes this ok?"
"No, that is not what I'm trying to say," Alec said. "I just want you to understand the real reasons behind what I did."
"I want to Alec. I really do. I mean, me and you work so well together, friends or more. I never wanted to lose that. But then again, I never thought I'd find out anything like this."
"I know, Donna. I know better than you think, you have to trust me on that."
"Why Alec, because of Rachel?" Donna saw the reaction and emotion in Alec's eyes, but she still didn't stop.
"That was entirely different Alec. You may have cared for her, yes, but Manticore killed her, and you were part of Manticore. Despite how bad you felt, how you tried to warn her and the torture you were put through because of it, you being in her life was still the real reason that brought about her death."
Donna knew her words were hurtful, but she couldn't think of that right now. Right now, her mind was too concerned with all the new information it was still trying to process. She had finally found out who had killed her father and brother, and it turned out to be someone she cared about. That, right now, was causing her more pain than anything else.
Alec heard her words and the tone in her voice, and he couldn't help but immediately turned to his defensive attitude.
"Donna, when I took the assignment on your father, I was true Manticore. I didn't ask questions. I didn't know he had a family, and that I was breaking up a home. I just did what I was told. I didn't know anything about him, and I didn't care. He could have been anyone. The fact he turned out to be your father is just a very bad coincidence. I did my job, plain and simple. I didn't…."
Alec was cut off at the feel of a sharp slap to the side of his face, Donna's hand connecting with his jaw. He turned back to her, and the look in her eyes made his heart stop. Behind those beautiful, watery green orbs was true hurt, her pain and anger showing even as her lip quivered and she cried full out.
"If you were trying to make me feel even less for you Alec, congratulations. You just did it," Donna said, keeping her voice strong even as she broke down. "I don't care if it was all you know or if it was your job. Killing someone I love is not something I easily forgive. It's not something I hear every day, and it is not the norm. One day, I hope you figure that out, despite your past."
Before she could break completely in front of Alec, give him the chance to charm her, Donna swept past him, heading for the door. But Alec didn't seem to be finished just yet.
"Alec, I'm sorry, I just…." Alec said, again reaching for her arm. And again Donna pulled out of his grip, turning to him with a sharp glare as she swung his door open.
"No Alec. This conversation is over."
And she left.
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