I love this song. Please, please, please R&R. Hope you like it.
I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there
Christina Aguilera- Hurt
I was slowly starting to regain consciousness.
The burning sensation was gone. I looked around and remarked that I was in my room. My body felt tired and aching so I decided to stay still and try to
remember what happened. I remembered William and Christina kissing and angering me, me walking toward the music class, entering and taking my seat
and then blackness. I closed my eyes feeling tired. After a few seconds I heard the
door opening and I opened my eyes to see the school's nurse coming in. She smiled at me warmly.
"Hello sweetie!" She said.
"Hello. Ms. Carlson, what happened with me?" I asked.
"Don't worry, you're not sick. You just haven't drank blood today so you fainted." She answered.
Yes, that was true and logic. With all the worry and anger my dream and William had caused me I totally forgot to drink. That explained the tiredness I was feeling.
"How long am I going to feel tired?" I asked.
"I had gave you some blood so you should be okay soon. Maybe in a hour or two." Ms. Carlson said.
One hour or two. That meant I still had to go to special training with Dean so I was not going to pass the embarrassing conversation we were going to have. I sighed but nodded. It was a stupid
idea to let think I had a raping vision but I was ashamed and he mistook the idea. I couldn't tell him that I had a hot dream with him and that I was weird enough to like it. I covered my face with
the pillow and sighed again. I soon got bored and started thinking about something interesting to do. I scanned the room and found the big old book I had to read. Kate asked me to help her
with her project about magic myths and legends so here I was, reading Magic Myths and Legends. Even if the title was not very original the book was really interesting. The first chapter was
about the birth of the first immortals. The legend said the Sun and the Moon created the most powerful creatures: a vampire, a witch, a werewolf, a fairy and a demigod. Each of them had unique
and powerful gifts that represented a very big responsibility and, apparently, they abused of it. When the Sun and the Moon saw that the immortals had too much power and they lost their
respect for them, they created a spirit. The spirit was a sphere of pure magic designed to stabilize and limit the powers of immortals. The spirit cursed the vampire to feel pain if the sunlight
touches its skin, the werewolf to phase only when is full moon, the fairy to be invisible for humans and it took the ability to fly from the demigod. The immortals wanted their freedom and powers
back so they decided to capture the spirit and to use it to destroy the Sun and the Moon and to break the curse. The Sun and the Moon heard about their plans before the immortals could put it in
practice and they hid the spirit so they couldn't find it. The legend says that the spirit was locked in a silver locket and hid from the immortals. It is also said that the person who rediscovers the
locket will break the curse and their species will have its full power back. On the next page was drawn the image of a beautiful locket that had a heart, a maple leaf and two flowers engraved
symmetrical on it. I leaned back and thought about the legend. It would have been a real disaster if the spirit locket was real. The balance of the world would have been destroyed if an immortal
would have found it. All immortals had power restrictions and it was a good thing because without them a species would rule the world and the others would just watch and listen. With the
restrictions we were relatively equal. Of course we had the Legendars but they wereprotecting us not dominating us. Still, I couldn't help but think how good would have been to walk outside in a
sunny day without a problem. To feel the warm sensation on your skin without the pain…
I sighed and remembered that it was just a legend and the spirit locket was not real. I looked toward the clock and remarked that I rested a hour. I decided it was enough so I slowly stood up
and got dressed. When I was ready I got out of the room and went to the living room. As soon as I entered I went to take a coffee and sat at a table. I almost spilled the coffee on myself when
Kate jumped out of nowhere. Her stunning blue eyes sparkled with fury.
"Are you insane? It was a rhetoric question, you had already proved that you are insane!" She yelled.
"Nice to see you too Kitty Kat." I said sarcastically.
"Oh! So your in the mood for jokes! Not funny miss, why the hell haven't you drank blood today?" She said caustically.
"Look Kate, I know that I scared you and I am sorry. I just forgot." I said.
"Oh God! You scared me like shit!" She said and then hugged me. I hugged her back. After a few more seconds we broke apart and her expression softened. I smiled.
"You're lucky that you are my best friend. I can't stay upset at you. But you still have to make it up to me." She said. I laughed.
"How?" I asked.
"Three chocolate doughnuts and to finish my project." She answered. She was smiling devilishly.
"Wow! That's really expensive." I remarked.
"Well, next time take care of you." She replied.
"Sounds fair. Speaking of projects, I had read the first chapter of Magic Myths and Legends." I told her.
"So…How is it ?" She asked.
"Fascinating. Its about the first immortals that…" I stopped because Kate's expression looked strange. She was looking with adoring eyes at someone behind me. I turned around and saw Dean
standing behind me in all his glory. I swallowed heavily. He was going to use the disappointed look and to tell me how irresponsible I was. I sighed. He smiled his crooked bad boy smile and I
knew Kate was lost. I glared at him.
"Hello young ladies, am I interrupting?" He asked still smiling. I kept my glare.
"No!" Kate said the same time I said yes.
His smile grew wider when he heard our answers.
"Which of them?" He asked.
I opened my mouth to say that we were really busy but Kate spoke before I could say anything.
"I was just leaving. I wanted to make sure that Sarah is okay." She said in a seductive voice. I rolled my eyes. Kate quickly stood up and when she was out of Dean's sight she pinched her blouse
twice and mimed the word hot. I narrowed my eyes and decided that her betrayal was going to cost her two doughnuts. My gaze turned toward Dean who took Kate's seat and was looking at
me. His bad boy smile vanished and was replaced by his war expression. I swallowed again. That was going to be a war. I jumped from my seat and muttered an I have to go but he caught
my arm and settled me back.
"Oh you're so not going anywhere." He said with his eyes narrowed. "We have to talk."
"I know." I answered in a whisper.
"Why haven't you drank blood?" He asked in a cold voice.
"I forgot." I said trying to make the puppy face. As always, it didn't work.
"You forgot? Do you know how important is blood for us? It's like air for humans." He said furiously.
"I know, I am sorry. I promise it will not happen again." I said.
He watched my face and his expression softened. God, he was so handsome. And strong. He should have been a supermodel not a teacher with a clumsy, stupid and ugly student like me.
"You scared me." He said.
My eyes widened and for a moment I thought he was joking but judging after his seriousness he was not. Dean Tanner, scared. I giggled a little.
"What's so funny miss?" Dean said trying to sound serious but I knew that he wanted to smile. He always said that my smile is contagious.
"Nothing. Its just…I had never seen you scared. And you fought scary vampires and other immortals but I, a sixteen year old shorter and smaller than normal, can scare you." This time we both
laughed. When we stopped he smiled a sad smile.
"It is not the same fear. When I am fighting I am not scared because the only person who is in danger is me. But when someone I love is hurt or sick, I feel fear. Fear to lose someone you love
more than your own life." He said.
My smile softened when I heard his words. I couldn't believe what I heard. He said that he loved me more than his own life. But then I remembered that the love he was feeling was an innocent
brotherly love. Nothing more. My face probably looked hurt because his expression turned worried.
"What happened honey?" He asked.
I blinked and looked down to avoid his stare.
"Nothing. Dean, I have to go to h-history. I will see you in special training." I stuttered.
He frowned. "If you still feel tired you can go and rest more. I will talk to the teacher." He said.
"No, I'm fine. And besides, I need to talk to Ms. Leonel about a book." I said. He was so sweet and caring and it
hurt me even more. It was not fair. Why do I have to love him like this?
"Sarah, what's happening to you? The bracelet tells me that you feel strong emotions." He asked.
I glared down at my wrist and felt my cheeks burning. The silvery angel wings seemed to smile devilishly at me.
"N-nothing, I am f-fine." Oh god, take me now!
I looked up and saw Dean frowning.
"Go to your class. We will discuss in special training."
I nodded and stood up. He stood up and before I could even blink he was out of the building. After eleven years of
watching his powers I still couldn't help but wonder how strong he really is. My powers seemed nothing to him
when we are fighting in special training. And my power was not really weak. Even if my appearance was not really
muscular and tall, my mental powers were the strongest in the school. As time went I learned how to control it and I
copied every gift from every student and teacher. Everyone except Dean. His powers were still a mystery for me. I
tried a few times to copy it but I just couldn't. Of course, I felt the power, but it didn't really feel like just one
power. It felt as if he had more gifts. Maybe that was why I couldn't copy it. Because it was too much for me.
I sighed, took my history book and went to the history class. When I entered I took a seat and waited for the others
to come in. I was surprised when I saw my brother coming in and taking the seat next to mine. I remarked how
much he had grown up. He was no longer a child. He was tall, muscular and handsome. His eyes had the same
wonderful shade of green and they were still lovely and warm. His hair was darker than eleven years ago and it made
him look even more handsome. He was almost as beautiful as Dean. Will and I were so different. He was athletic
and the school's star while I was small, short and a nerd. In normal circumstances I would have been happy to see
him but after I saw him and Christina, I was angry. He said hello but I ignored him.
"Oh come on short stuff! Don't tell me that you're still upset." He said.
I glared at him in response. He sighed and said:
"Look, I broke up with Christina."
"I am proud of you Will." I said finally smiling.
"Yeah, you better be because she promised me that I will wish burn in hell for eternity after she will be done with
me." He said.
"Ouch! I told you." I said.
"Yes, you did. Well, tonight is a party in my building. Take Kate, Rose and Jen and come to my room. If you will
not come I will drink and eat everything and after that I will come and threw you. " He threatened.
"Will, you know I am not into parties…" I started.
"Whoa! I don't want to hear it! You. Will. Come." He said in a serious voice.
I sighed and nodded. Soon after that Kate entered and took a seat beside me. She smiled at me but when Will said
hello to her she ignored him. I guess she was upset too. I tried to focus on the lesson but the tension between Will
and Kate was really heavy. The fact that I was between them too wasn't helping. I had no idea what was happening
with them so I decided to ask Kate. I ripped a piece of paper and wrote.
(Kate BOLD and Sarah Italic)
What's happening between you and Will? I passed the piece of paper to her.
Nothing. I have no idea what are you talking about. She wrote back.
Oh really! Then why are you upset? I don't think it is just because of Christina. What if it would have been
someone else?
Her eyes widened when she read. She sighed, closed her eyes a few seconds in an attempt to focus, and the wrote:
I will explain everything to you later when we are alone.
I read, looked toward her and nodded. After a few more seconds the bell rang and we all sprinted toward the door.
My next period was special training. I remembered that he said he will wait for me in the gym. I went in the girls
locker room and changed myself in a sport outfit. It was a simple black gym suit and a black T-shirt. When I got out
I saw Dean sitting on the bench looking toward the locker room. When he saw me he stood up.
"What are we doing today?" I asked while tying my hair. It grew too long.
"Fighting. You're too weak physically." He answered and threw the fighting gloves to me. I caught them.
"Thanks." I muttered.
We both took the fighting position.
"Ready?" He asked.
I nodded. In a flash he was no more there. My eyes widened for a second but after that I closed them and
remembered what I had learned. When you can't see your opponent, you have to hear your opponent. I hold my
breath and listened. I heard a noise from my right and quickly turned and blocked Dean's fist before it could hit me.
Unfortunately he was too strong and I fell on my ass. He smiled at me.
"See, I told you. Too weak. But you blocked the fist very well." He said.
I smiled sadly and wrapped my arms around my knees. Who am I kidding? I was never going to be physically
strong. I was like a small twig. So easy to break. Dean sat down with me and watched me with an indulgent look.
"You know, I always thought that you need to be protected. You're so small and fragile, you were not made for
fighting." He said and stroked my hair.
"But I want to fight. I want to be strong." I said stubbornly.
He smiled again.
"Don't worry Sarah. You will be strong when you will be a full vampire." He said.
"Really?" I asked.
"Of course. Your power is already so strong. But I want you to become physically strong too because you will meet
opponents immune to your gift." He said.
"Like you?" I asked.
He looked a little surprised of my question but then nodded.
"Why are you immune?" I asked.
"Let's just say that I have some useful gifts." He said and winked. I smiled.
After that his expression hardened and he seemed to remember something unpleasant.
"What happened?" I said.
He seemed to forget that I was there. His head snapped toward me and his eyes were wide.
"Sarah, I need you to answer me a question." He said.
"Anything." I answered.
"Honestly." He said.
"Of course." I frowned.
"Are you…in love with someone?" He asked. My eyes widened and I felt my face burning like hell.
"Ah, I understand. Who is it?" He said.
"I am not in love." I said looking at the ground.
"Darling, it's okay. There is nothing wrong to be in love with someone. I want to know one thing."
"What?" I asked still looking down.
"Is the same guy from your dream?" He said through his teeth. He clenched his fists. I knew that lying was no a
option because he was immediately going to find out the true. So I just answered:
"Yes."
He stood up and in less than a second he was in the other side of the gym. He hit the punching bag so hard that it
ripped in two. I knew that to rip it was easy for him and that scared me even more. I stood up and in a flash he was
in front of me. He cupped my face with his hands and forced me to look at him.
"You need to stay away from him." He growled.
"I can't." I said.
"He will hurt you. You dreamed it." He said in a frightening voice. I swallowed.
"You don't understand." I said.
"What?"
"In my dream I wasn't raped. I…was willing to be with him." I stuttered.
His hands dropped from my face.
"What?" He whispered-yelled.
"You heard me. I wanted it." I said looking down.
I slowly lifted my gaze and looked at him. He was shocked and I thought I saw a pale rosy shade coloring his
perfect white face. It disappeared quickly so maybe it was just an illusion. After a little he straightened himself and
cleared his throat. He put on his teacher face. I tried hard not to roll my eyes.
"You should have explained better your vision. Do you have any idea how worried I was?" He spitted.
"I am sorry." I muttered.
"Well, it is not going to happen soon anyway." He deduced.
My head snapped up to look in his eyes. Oh lord, he knew it was him?
"School rules. No sexual contact between students." He replied.
I exhaled in relieve. Still, I wanted to tease him a little.
"And what if he is not a student?" I asked with a devilish smile.
His teacher face vanished and was replaced by his shocked one. Then his furious one.
"Is him a…teacher?" He asked.
I nodded slowly. After that I saw a strange glint in his eyes. Something I had never seen before. Was it…jealousy?
No, it couldn't be. He opened his mouth to speak but the bell rang before he could say anything. I looked at him
with questionable eyes. His eyes narrowed and he frowned. His hands were clenched in fists.
"Do your homework and come to my room at six o'clock. I think that we still have some things to discuss. My room
is 24 in building A." He said.
I rolled my eyes and nodded. It would have been easier if he would have known that he was the guy. But I couldn't
tell him that. It was too embarrassing. I went to the locker room and took off my training. So, I had four hours to
do my homework and to discuss with Kate. At six I had to go to Dean and after that to Will at eight o'clock. Good.
I had enough time to prepare myself for the discussion with Dean and we had only two hours to talk. I smiled and
went to my room. I took a shower because I was dirty from the fight ( because Dean cleaned the floor with me).
After the shower I wrapped myself in a puffy robe and waited for Kate to come. I took a book and just when I
wanted to open it the door opened and a very shy Kate entered.
"Hi." She said.
I nodded. She bit her lip and looked around in an attempt to avoid my stare.
"So…How was your day?" She asked.
"Good, except of the fact that in the morning I fainted because of the lack of blood, Dean beat the hell out of me in
special training, we had an argument about sex with teachers and in three hours I have to go to his room so that we
can continue the argument." I said without breathing.
"Yup. Mine was good too." She said but then her eyes widened. "Wait, you had sex with a teacher?" She
exclaimed.
"No, but I am going to have in about three years." I said.
"You lost me." She said confused.
I sighed but explained: "I had a vision about me and a teacher making love but in my vision I was older, fully
matured vampire, and I was in a room I had never seen before."
"Oh. My. God. Who was the teacher?" She asked excited.
I bit my lip and whispered: "Dean."
Her eyes widened and her smile grew so much that I was sure it was soon going to hurt her face. She jumped and
clapped her hands like a five year old.
"This is amazing! He is so hot." She screamed. After a few seconds her smile vanished and her expression turned
confused again.
"You said that you had an argument. Why? He doesn't want it to happen?" She asked.
"No, it's not that. He doesn't know it was him in the vision. I just couldn't tell him. So I just said it was a teacher."
I said.
"Oh dear! You're screwed." She said and hugged me.
I laughed a little but then remembered that we had something to discuss. I pulled back a little and looked in her eyes.
"Kate, what do you feeling for Will?" I asked.
Her eyes sparkled with sadness and her arms dropped in her lap. She turned her gaze away and muttered:
"Nothing, Will is just a friend."
"I don't think so. Kate, you can trust me. I won't tell anyone." I assured her.
She turned to look at me and she sighed. She wrapped her arms around her knees.
"I am in love with him, Sarah. And he doesn't give a damn about me." She whispered. Her voice was so sad and
pained. Even if her face was covered I saw the sparkle of a tear running down her cheek. I put my hand on her
shoulder.
"That is not true. Will cares about you." I said. I had no idea if William loved Kate so I didn't was to give her hopes
but I was sure that he cared. She was his friend.
She laughed bitterly. "Yeah right. I am a friend but nothing more. It's not fair to fall in love with someone who
doesn't love you too." This time she was crying and sobbing. I leaned my head on her shoulder. It was funny that
Kate and I had the same fate. To love but not to be loved.
"I know honey. Life it's not fair. You have to fight for happiness. And every moment of happiness is paid in tears
later. " I said.
"True." She said and wiped away her tears. She smiled at me and I smiled back.
"Thanks sister." She said. We always called each other sister.
"Why?" I asked.
"Because you are here. You're always here." She said.
"And I will always be." I promised.
I hugged her and she hugged me back. I looked past her shoulder and saw that I had fifteen minutes to dress and o go
to Dean. My eyes widened and I sprinted toward the closet. I heard Kate laugh a little.
"You better hurry up." She said.
"Yeah." I said while zipping my jeans. "Are you going to be okay?"
"Yes." She answered.
"Look, tonight is going to be a party in building C. Want to go?" I asked.
"Nah. I am tired and I have a lot of homework to do." She said but I knew that she didn't want to go because Will
was going to be there.
"Good. Because I don't want to go either." I said. It was true. I was not a party girl and Kate knew it because she
smiled. I smiled back, put on a old T-shirt, muttered a goodbye and sprinted out of the room. I ran all the way to
building A. I entered and ran the hall looking for a door with 24 written on it. 21, 22, 23…24. I opened the door
and my mouth opened from surprise. I felt my face burning and I knew that I was looking like a tomato. In that
room was Dawn. And she was making out with someone. Someone with black short hair, tall and muscular body.
Dean.
She was making out with Dean.
Her hands were under his T-shirt caressing his body and his arms were wrapped around her waist. After like two
seconds Dawn's eyes widened and she quickly took her hands off of him and stumbled back. We just stood there
watching each other with shocked expressions. Dean turned around and made eye contact with me. His eyes
widened in horror and he ran a hand through his hair.
"Sarah…" His voice was pleading but I cut him.
"I am sorry that I interrupted." I muttered looking down. I spun around and ran out of the room. As I got out of the
building I felt a pair of strong arms catching me. I tried to shrug them off but I couldn't so I let them turn me around.
I was welcomed by the sapphire eyes I loved. The eyes that hurt me so much that I wanted to die. I felt empty. I
tried to look everywhere but not in them.
"Sarah, look at me. Please." He pleaded. He sounded like he was just as hurt as me.
"No." I whispered and I felt a tear running down my face. After that I felt a warm sensation on my lips.
His lips.
He crushed his lips onto mine and kissed me passionately. My eyes widened but after that I found myself melting in
his arms and kissing him back. He tasted so sweet and good. It was like my lips were made for his. Then I
remembered that just a few minutes ago he was doing the same thing with Dawn. I pushed him away from me and
looked in his eyes. We were both breathing heavily and I saw a small smile forming on his lips. Those perfect lips
that had just kissed mine.
"How dare you?" I growled.
He wrapped his arms around my waist and crashed my body onto his. I tried to get free but I couldn't. He forced me
to look in his eyes. His expression was determined and serious.
"You are the only woman I love. The only woman I want. I tried to get you out of my head but I couldn't." He said.
His face was so close to mine. I was feeling his warm and sweet breath on my face. I felt my face wet from the tears.
"You're lying. If I am the only one you want then why were you just kissing Dawn." I managed to ask between
sobs.
"Your dream got me insane. I needed to focus on something else. But it didn't work. I couldn't stand the thought
that you will be with someone other than me." He said.
"You're j-just saying it b-because y-you don't want me to t-tell anyone about you and D-Dawn." I stuttered.
He cupped my face with his hands and he leaned his forehead on mine.
"Honey, I would never do something like that. I love you. I don't care if you tell anyone about me and her. I only
care about you." He whispered. I didn't believe him.
"Let me go." I sobbed.
"Sarah…" He started to say.
"Please. I want to be alone." I pleaded.
He sighed but nodded. He leaned closer to me and pecked my lips. I felt other tears pouring from my eyes. After
that he let go of my face and I ran away. As soon as I got out of his sight I let myself fall on the ground and cried
like a baby. When I felt like I couldn't cry anymore wiped away the wetness from my face and stood up. He
disappointed me, so I decided to disappoint him too. And he dared to kiss me after that. I was sure that he did it
because he wanted to make sure that I was not going to say anything. I decided that the best way to hurt him was to
hurt myself so I went to my brother's party. As soon as I entered I was welcomed by loud music and drunk students.
I sprinted toward the first bottle of alcohol I saw and drank it. I continued like that until my vision started to blur and
I felt dizzy. After that I saw Justin coming closer to me. Justin was a werewolf and one of my brother's classmates.
He was tall and muscular and was considered one of the hottest guys in the school. I never thought that. When he
moved closer to me I felt the smell of alcohol and I knew that he was drunk.
"Hey gorgeous, wanna dance?" He asked.
Like the masochist I was I said yes. After like twenty minutes of dance( which meant him keeping me from falling
and me laughing like whore) he whispered in my ear:
"Come with me."
Before I could say anything he dragged me upstairs. He made me enter in a room and when I turned around to look
at him he was locking the door. He smiled at me and came closer. Before I knew what was happening I felt his lips
onto mine. It was disgusting. He tasted like alcohol and I felt myself getting even more dizzy. I started to realize
what was happening only when he pushed me on the bed and took on his T-shirt. I started to struggle and to hit him
but apparently it only turned him on more. I tried to scream when he ripped my T-shirt. I felt exposed because my
bra was made of transparent thin lace.
"Stop! Please, stop." I pleaded.
"Shh. You're going to like this. I promise." He said while unzipping my jeans and taking them off. I was left only
in my bra and underwear. I tried to use my power to make him stop but when I did my vision blurred and my head
started aching. I knew that I had no escape. I started crying.
As he slowly unclasped my bra I thought:
Dean, I love you. Forgive me.
