Sam could see his brother was fighting his emotions. He hated that Dean was trying to handle this alone. Sam was determined to fix things.

He was prepared for a fight but he spoke anyway. "Dean, we have to talk about this."

Dean sighed and tried to give his brother a silencing look. It wasn't sincere. He gave up and he gave in. "You won't want to hear this but, I have to tell you something about Benny."

"No, Dean. You really don't. I understand."

"I don't want you to understand. I want you to know." Sam nodded and said nothing. "You saw what it was like there.."

". I can't believe you had to deal with that.."

" You'd be surprised what you're capable of. After Cas left me, I was on edge all the time. I couldn't let my guard down for a minute."

"I'm so sorry. I wish..."

"No, that's not why I'm telling you. It wasn't your fault, not at all. And then Benny showed up. He saved my life."

"I know, more than once, I know."

"And not just by killing" Dean paused. He knew from this point on, there was no turning back. "He saved me, Sam."

"Dean, he's different from what I thought. I can see why you're friends with him."

"Are you doing this on purpose?"

"I'm sorry. I know this is hard for you and you don't have to say anymore. I know, okay?"

"What? What do you think you know, Sam?"

"What you did there was what you had to do. I had a talk with Benny. Why do you think he didn't come back?"

"He told me it was hard for him here. You told me he used himself as bait." He closed his eyes and pictured Benny being ripped apart because of him.

"Dean, it was you. He couldn't be with you."

"No! We talked about that. We agreed. He knew how I felt about ...things" This Dean spoke almost to himself.

" Things?" Sam paused, a slight smile on his lips. "Anyways, I said it wrong. He knew he couldn't be with you. He did a good thing." Dean glared at him. "Just listen. He realized he shouldn't have come back but you did that because he asked you to. He wanted to do something for you"

"He died for that, for me? What am I supposed to do with that?"

Sam asked Dean why it was okay for him to sacrifice himself for a stranger but not acceptable for someone who loves him to do the same?

"That's not what I'm saying."

"That's exactly what you're saying. Why can't you just let him give you this gift? You want to know the last thing he said to me?" Dean had long since pulled the car over and was now facing his brother with his back against the door. Sam slid across the seat until he was able to rest his hand on Dean.

"He said, 'tell Dean I said good-bye.' He was thinking of you." He lightly squeezed Dean's leg as Dean spoke almost in a whisper, "He sent you back to me."

Sam reached out and gently raised his brother's head until they were once again looking at each other. "He wanted you to be happy. He told me so. Let me make you happy."