Hey Lovelies!

Happy Birthday to me! I am posting an update, which I spent the entire day before my birthday writing, your welcome! Anyways guys, I hope that you like this chapter which, yes I know is shorter than normal. I did this on purpose. Something important is going to happen, and I want to have this be really short and to the point to get it across. Sooo I hope that you enjoy this.


KPov

In the past couple of days Embry and I have made a lot of steps towards becoming closer. He really is my best friend, though there is still one problem that hangs over us. Though he has no idea this problem is even there, not that I would expect him too. It's not like I've ever said anything too him. I am slowly starting to fall for him again; I don't want him to be my little summer fling though. I know no matter what I am going to have to leave at the end of the summer so I can't let my feelings over run me. This is way too difficult.

I need to talk to him; maybe he will know what to do. He might be able to calm me down and settle my fears. I bet that he can, he always seems to be able to do that. I've just got to wake him up. That won't be too hard right? Just go over to Mama Tiff's, walk into his room and wake him up. How hard can that be? Who am I kidding; it's going to be next to impossible.

Embry hates waking up. It takes a lot of work to wake him up and it always have. I used to pour ice water on his head, which let me tell you was hilarious. Well except for the day that he tackled me and I got a concussion that was painful…Oh well I survived and I'm still here to torment him about that day. Which we both laugh about now, especially since then I never dumped ice water on his head again. Instead I would call Quil or Jacob and they would come in and jump on him. That was comical as well though so it was defiantly worth it.

Okay I'm getting off topic now, I need to get to Embry's house and wake him up so that I can talk to him before I have a chance to chicken out. I am going to talk to him, I can do it. I mean he's already hurt me once so it's not like he can do much more. I'm a big girl, I've got this. Though I am slightly pathetic because I'm sitting here talking to myself and giving myself a pep talk. I mean who does that? Oh wait I do. Never mind.

Once I'd finally stopped talking to myself like the freak that I am. I walked outside to the car and drove to Mama Tiffs house, when I got that I noticed that Tiffany wasn't home. That didn't stop me though because I'm always welcome in the house. I was told that my second day staying here, and I am always going to be welcome here so I don't know who I'm kidding. I quickly walked into the house and to Embry's room. Where surprise, surprise he was sleeping. I walked over to his bed and shook him as hard as I could.

"EMBRY!" I said as loudly as I could.

Embry jumped up quickly and looked around frantically as if looking for the threat. He was shaking slightly, and his hair was everywhere. He was only wearing a pair of boxers and with his bed head, he looked rather sexy. Not that this is a very good time to be thinking that, but I really couldn't help it. I mean his gray eyes were tired and had this animalistic look in them which I found unbelievably attractive, while at the same time you add in his hair and the fact that he wasn't wearing a shirt. Embry looked sexy.

"Kelly? What's going on? What time is it?" Embry asked confused, sitting back down on his bed.

"It's three in the afternoon, and I wanted to talk to you. So I came over here and you were sleeping so I woke you up." I said sitting crossed legged next to him.

"You wanted to talk to me…Is everything alright?" Embry asked immediately becoming concerned again.

"Everything's fine, how about you take a shower and I'll make you something to eat then I'll tell you what I wanted to talk about when you're fully awake?" I said with a smile.

"You're awesome Kelly. That sounds wonderful, you know where everything is and I won't take long." Embry said, standing up and smiling.

I nodded and skipped downstairs to the kitchen. I quickly grabbed what I would need in order to make waffles and got started. It didn't take me very long to finish, or Embry to shower because at around the same time that I was done with the waffles, Embry walked into the kitchen. I bet he could smell the food and was all 'food! Must walk into kitchen now, need food.'

I couldn't help but laugh a little at my own thoughts, I mean really? What is Embry now a zombie? In my mind I guess that he is. A waffle, food eating zombie that lives to eat everyone out of their own homes because they can no longer pay the bills. Maybe that's what the entire group of his friends and him are! A group of food eating zombies which live to eat their wives and girlfriends out of their houses because they can no longer pay the bills because they are constantly buying food! I knew that's what it was.

"Kelly, what's so funny?" Embry asked looking at me strangely.

"I just figured out that you and all your friends are all food zombies, whose goal in life is to cause your girlfriends, parents, and Emily to have to go into debt in order to feed you all."

Embry looked at me for a moment before laughing, "Wow Kels, you know something? I've never thought of anything like that. That's amazing, and hilarious. I'll have to tell the guys that."

"Why thank you, I try to keep my mind interesting. I don't want to be bored. Breakfast is ready by the way." I said setting the waffles on the table, along with syrup and fruit.

"Thank you! I love when I get a midafternoon breakfast before dinner!" Embry said sitting down and piling his plate full.

I shook my head, not bothering to eat anything. The talk I'm about to have with Embry could go really well. Or I could spend tonight eating ice cream and watching sappy romances which will only make me cry more. God I sound masochistic, what is wrong with me? Oh yeah. Once again I let Embry under my skin. Why do you do this to yourself Kelly? Why?

"Embry? Do you want to take a walk with me? I want to go to the beach." Everything's clearer at the beach, I can think better at the beach. Nothing back can happen when I'm at the beach, it's a safe zone or at least that's what I tell myself.

"Sure Kelly sounds like a plan." Embry says finishing his waffles and starting to pick up the mess left behind.

The mess was picked up quickly and soon enough Embry and I were on our way. To say I was nervous would be an understatement; this is such a stupid idea. I'm an idiot. How the hell do you tell a guy that you are once again falling in love with him? Maybe I should just spit it out? I think that I should….oh god…this is terrifying. I don't know what to do. Embry why the hell do you have to do this to me!? You're messing with my head!

"Kelly? You alright, you haven't said anything for the entire walk." Embry asked looking at me concerned and pulling me out of my thoughts.

"What? Oh, yeah. I'm fine. Great, wonderful I was just thinking in German again. You know how that is." I said quickly to cover up how preoccupied I was.

"Again? Why do you keep doing that Kell, you've been in America for a couple of weeks. It's not good that you're doing that still you should be back to thinking in all English all the time."

I force myself to chuckle. I do think only in English, I'm just able to speak German, and English both fluently. I mean sure occasionally I'll dream in German or something strange like that. But my thoughts are never in another language when I'm conscious. Well not normally at least…Yeah I'm a strange cookie. A very strange cookie, and welcome to my world.

"See there's my Kelly, now you want to tell me what's bothering you or are you going to pull a Kelly and stall for fifty years, then finally you are going to tell me." Embry said with a small smile, though you could see the real curiosity burning in his eyes. He wanted to know what I had to say, and I couldn't blame him, if I were in his shoes I would want to know as well.

"I'll get right into it, Embry though I want to sit down if you don't mind?" I asked pointing to some drift wood nearby.

Embry nodded and lead us over to the wood so that we were sitting and facing each other. Making this slightly more nerve racking for me, though it was slightly easier when I noticed that I could look into Embry's beautiful gray eyes. Those eyes were always the thing that could calm me no matter what the situation was, I could get lost in them. They made me feel like I was the only thing that mattered, because that was the way that he looked at me, like I was the only thing that mattered. He managed to make me almost believe it.

I stared into Embry's beautiful gray eyes and took in every emotion that he had hidden in them. His eyes were full of trust, care, happiness, and love. Wait, did I just see love? Holy shit love, I can do this. Staring into Embry's eyes suddenly gave me all the confidence that I needed, not that I apparently needed much. I guess I just needed to see things through Embry's eyes.

I took a deep breath, using all of the confidence that I had gained from staring into Embry's eyes, though I never moved my gaze, too afraid of what would happen if I did.

"Embry, I want to tell you that…I'm falling for you and unlike last time. This time I think I'm actually falling in love with you. Not just that sappy teenage romance love, but true heart stopping, sweaty palms love. I've tried to fight it and I don't know if this is what I want, but I know now that this is not something that I want to give up on. I want to give it a chance, though I know that you probably don't. I know that I'm just you good friend and me telling you that I'm falling for you is going to fuck everything up completely. I'm just asking you now to tell me if you would even consider giving me a chance ever, in a million years, I just need to know, do I have even the smallest chance in hell to be with you? I don't want to think about the future I just want to think about right now and how happy it will make us to be together." I said looking Embry in the eyes the entire time.

After making my speech I was breathing heavy because I had spoken so fast and was so nervous, I had never laid so much on the line in order to tell someone how I was feeling before, and no all for Embry here I was telling him that I was basically in love with him. Just fucking great, this is either going to end really well; or it's going to end horribly. Either way I'm going to do something and I'm going to come up with some sort of solution which keeps Embry in my life.

Embry was staring at me wide eyed like he couldn't believe what I'd said. Though if I was being fair I couldn't believe what I'd said, I'd just admitted that I was in love with him or well falling in love with him and he had no idea. Any normal guy would now be trying to come up with a way to do some major damage control which is what he must be doing right now. Shit.

"Kelly. You have no idea how much I've wanted to hear you say that. I love you."

Okay heart you can shatter now, you knew he wouldn't-wait what?


There you go! My shorter, but very important birthday chapter! :D Happy birthday to me :) So please review for my birthday! You'll be amazing if you do, and I'll love you forever, just like the people who already do review. Anyways, I promise more will be up soon and faster next time! I feel bad for taking so long ! D: I'm horrible!