Chapter 7
"I was about to go after you, but the other Buffy beat me to it. That's pretty much it…" Buffy finished re-telling the story to the older Faith. She was sitting right beside Faith on the couch, Willow and Giles had retreated to the kitchen at Buffy's request.
"Right, you're saying that you're seventeen year old Buffy, before I went crazy," Buffy nodded, "That's fucked up,"
"Yeah, well… Weirder things have happened,"
"Good point," Faith laughed. When her laughter settled down she added, "This is kinda cool,"
"What is?" Buffy asked curiously.
"You're not looking at me like if I was a murderer. Which I am…" Faith smiled sadly. Buffy laid her hand on Faith's thigh in a comforting manner. She was about to pull back, when Faith put her hand on top of Buffy's, squeezing it reassuringly.
"I thought you didn't like it when people touched you," Buffy said timidly.
"Yeah, but you're Buffy," Faith said in an obvious tone.
"What does that mean?" Buffy was curious.
"You really have no idea of how much you mean to me, do you?" Faith expressed sadly.
"I…"
"Tsokay, I know you were, or are going through a lot of shit right now. I just fucked it up,"
"You didn't, I'm the one who's been an idiot. So… How much do I mean to you exactly? In future Sunnydale I mean," Faith smiled at Buffy's question.
"Everything," Faith shifted in her seat, "Doesn't mean shit though. I screwed up too much, you hate me now,"
"I don't hate you," Buffy tried reassuring her.
"Not yet," Faith whispered.
"I could never hate you," Buffy reached out to caress Faith's cheek, and slowly leaned forward, towards Faith's lips.
Faith felt as if her heart had stopped when she what Buffy was about to do. She'd been waiting for it since the night that she had seen Buffy outside the Bronze. She wasn't moving, frozen in place.
When Buffy's lips were a breath away from her own, she closed the distance. It was gentle and sweet; exactly how she thought her first kiss with Buffy would be like. It might also be her last kiss with her, so she took advantage of the situation and ran her tongue on the younger girl's bottom lip. Faith gently pushed Buffy back onto the couch and started exploring the other girl's mouth further, ignoring her inner voice that was telling her, this wasn't what she wanted.
Buffy herself knew that she was taking it a bit too far, but the look on Faith's face, sad and regretful, she didn't like seeing it. If kissing her would make her feel better, then why not? It was Faith anyways; there wasn't any reason for her Faith to get mad. It's not as if they were dating, they'd kissed. Besides, future Faith was really hot.
"Mmm…" Faith was kissing Buffy's neck and running her hands the length of Buffy's body. It was like a dream for Faith, and she really, really, didn't want to wake up anytime soon.
"Faith," Buffy was starting to realize the reality of the situation, "Willow and Gi-," Faith's lips upon hers cut her off once again.
"They're probably talking about spells and shit," Faith said, and resumed exploring Faith's mouth.
"Faith," Faith's hand was under her shirt, making its way up, while her other hand grabbed Buffy's leg and wrapped it around her back. Buffy had, at that point, forgotten what she was about to say. She was too wrapped up in Faith, literally.
Buffy was broken out of her stupor, when she felt Faith unbuttoning her jeans. She warningly placed her hand on top of Faith's.
"Come on B," She pleaded, "I'll never get another chance," she whispered, looking into Buffy's eyes. Buffy knew she was speaking the truth, however, she couldn't just have sex with this Faith. Not only was she on her living room couch and that there were people about fifteen feet away, but this wasn't her Faith.
"Please," Faith begged into the crook of her neck, kissing it at the same time, "I need this," she practically whimpered.
The situation, the younger slayers coming to Sunnydale, had completely blindsided Faith. In no way was she prepared to face it, and she'd never thought that it would even be possible for Buffy to be attracted to her, any Buffy.
"I can't," Buffy whimpered, but didn't move away, her legs were still wrapped around Faith's with their lips almost touching.
Both girls were preoccupied; they didn't hear the front door open.
"Buffy," younger Faith said in barely a whisper, just enough for slayers to hear.
Younger Buffy pushed Faith off of her the second she heard her name, "Faith, it's… it's not," and Faith was out the door, again. Only this time, it was her Buffy who chased after her bumping into the older version of herself on the way out.
"What's going on?" she yelled after them. After getting no reply she went into the living room and saw a disappointed look on her face.
"What the hell happened Faith? I just got through to her," she couldn't help but raise her voice, Faith always brought out the anger in her.
"Nothing happened," she mumbled.
"Buffy, may I ask what all the commotion is about," Giles appeared in the doorway with Willow and the potentials close behind.
"Nothing new, just fucked shit up again," Faith got up , "Gonna go use the the washroom," she mumbled while walking up the stairs.
Giles went to open his mouth, "I'm on it, don't worry ," with that she was on her way up to comfort Faith, again.
Buffy went straight to the bathroom, but saw that the door was open, and Faith was not in there. She heard a noise coming from her room, and suspected Faith had taken a little detour.
"I would have thought your room would have changed," Faith said, and turned to smile at Buffy.
"Faith, what happened down there?" she asked.
Faith laughed and sat on Buffy's bed, "Told you already,"
"Yeah well, I'd like some details. You-She, looked really upset. Both of them did, and your not looking so great either, and I don't like being left in the dark," Buffy's bitchiness was coming back.
"Why do you care anyways?" Faith asked.
"Cuz I happen to think that they deserve to be happy. The second they got sucked in here their lives changed. Is it so bad that I want you to live a happy life?" Buffy explained.
"Tsnot bad, just stupid," Faith mumbled.
"How is that stupid?" Buffy wanted an explanation, Faith's petty answers, just weren't doing it for her anymore.
"Cuz it's not like you wanted me back then," Faith said, then she realized what she had said, "Wanted me to be happy, I meant,"
"Of course I did Faith, but I was a teenager. A stupid, self-involved teenager, who thought that her boyfriend leaving was the end of the world. I was so blind Faith, I didn't see what was right in front of me," Buffy couldn't believe it, they were actually having this conversation.
"What are you talking about?"
"You, Faith, I'm talking about you. We missed out on so much, just because I didn't want to admit to having feelings for you. You never fuck things up Faith, I do. You're just there blaming yourself because of what I did," Buffy confessed, it felt good getting all her thoughts out, they still had so much to talk about though.
"Yeah well… I'm pretty sure I did fuck things up for mini-me," she didn't really process what Buffy had said yet.
"Why? What happened that made you run out?" Buffy sat next to Faith on her bed.
Faith looked hesitantly at Buffy, after what had just been said, she really didn't want Buffy mad at her.
"I umm… She kind of walked in on us in a… compromising position?"
