With a sigh, Beast Boy sat down, now depressed. He was always depressed when he came to see Terra. He should be thinking of all the good times they had together, but her betrayal always seemed to block out the good things she did. Which, once he really thought about, were not that much. Sure, she had helped save people, but in the end, she had been the...evil one.
"Is it helping any?" Raven asked calmly, studding Terra's rock form.
"Not really. Now, now I'm just...sad."
"It's to be expected. Did you expect to come here and be happy?"
"No," he grunted, grabbing Raven's hand and pulling her beside him. "What I thought was once I saw her, I would be reminded of all the good times I had with her. I mean I could laugh with her, talk to her, have her laugh at my jokes, and I always seemed to make her happy no matter what. And I do remember all that. But...if I did make her so happy, then why did she betray me? She made excuses that she needed help with her powers, but we could have helped. And she did have a choice. And her choice was to betray me. I loved her and she knew that, but she still chose to be with Slade. I just don't understand that. We actually could have had a life together. Hell, when we were old enough, I would have asked her to marry me. But, that's all in the past. She's not coming back and that's it. I'm through wishing she would come back."
Raven pulled her knees up to her chest and leaned her chin on them. She felt something inside her break. Was it her heart? It had to be. She defiantly had no chance with him. She didn't know he had loved Terra enough to want to spend the rest of his life with her. She could never amount to Terra.
"Maybe that is why the beast within you wants to break free. Most people could not take the pain of being betrayed, and, maybe, in your case, you created something to block out the pain. Replace it with rage and hate. It makes perfect since. It is almost like a split personality. You have been through a great tragedy that you do not wish to remember, so your mind creates something different to help deal with the tragedy. Therein creating a...beast. It is easier to deal with rage and anger than pain."
"Hmm...and how would you know all this?"
"I read."
"Oh, right. You do spend most of your time locked up in your dark room doing nothing but reading."
"Are you just trying to make me mad or does it just come natural to you?"
"Sorry, I was just pointing out what you do. No big deal."
"It is a big deal."
"Jeez, no need to get your leotard in a twist."
She glared at him. "What is your problem? You seem to get more and more irritating as the days pass."
"And you seem to get bitchier everyday."
"Why don't you just shove it up your as—"
He couldn't help the laugh that bubbled in his throat. "What a mouth you have on you, Rae."
She couldn't think of anything 'Raven-like' to say, so she settled with, "Bite me."
"Don't tempt me, Raven. Because believe me, I will."
"If you're so in love with Terra, you shouldn't even be thinking like that about me." She blinked. Why did she just say that? That was not something she should have said. Especially since Beast Boy was watching every move she made.
"I...uh...I didn't mean it like that." Red tinted her cheeks.
"How else could you mean it?"
"I...I just wasn't thinking straight when I said it."
He tilted her chin she now faced him. His thumb stroked her bottom lip. "You sound jealous when you said it, Raven."
"No, I did not."
"Yeah, Rae, you did. Are you jealous of my feelings for Terra?"
"Would it matter?"
"To me, yeah, it does."
"You act as if it some sort of sin for me to be jealous. So what if I am...oh." She didn't mean for it to come out like that.
"I had a feeling you were."
"So what if I am. I can have feelings too, you know."
"Like Terra, you keep making excuses."
She stood up fast. "First off, do not compare to me Terra. And second off, how do I make excuses? Where did you even get that?"
"You tell me all the time you can't feel. Well, hello! You just admitted you were jealous. Like Terra, you make excuses. If you can't feel, then you can't be jealous. It seems to me as if you are scared."
She made a sound of disbelief. "Me, scared? Of what?"
"You are afraid to feel. I know you better than that, Rae. When you were with the wizard guy a while back, I heard you laugh. You hummed, for crying out loud. And did your powers go haywire? No, they didn't. Your hiding behind your powers, Raven. You might not be able to show much, but you know as well as I that you can show the tiniest portion. You're just being a coward."
"I am not a coward."
"Seems to me like you are. Hiding behind your powers is what I call scared and cowardly."
"Shut up, Beast Boy."
"Ooh, someone's mad that I found out their little secret."
"Beast Boy—"
"Can't handle the fact that someone sees right through you façade, can you Raven?"
"Shut up."
"You've said that already."
"I do not hide behind my powers."
"Well, if you could have talked with that stupid wizard, laughed at his stupid jokes, than you can feel."
Raven smiled. "Do I hear a hint of jealousy?"
"Damn right, you do. For years I tried to make you laugh, but you and you're high-and-mighty act was to cowardly to show any type of small emotion."
"What you did was stupid and not at all entertaining."
"Yeah, but most people laugh at my stupidity. Why won't you just admit that you are a coward, afraid of doing anything that might actually change who you are?"
"If I were so cowardly, would I do this?" Leaning down, she yanked him up by his collar to where he was standing in front of her, and crushed her mouth to his.
She was not a coward, and she was about to prove it.
Pulling back, she gave him a mischievous grin before pushing his chest so he sprawled down on his back.
When she spoke, her voice was deeper. "Now we'll see whose the coward."
Straddling his hips, she braced her hands on either side of his head and leaned down to kiss him.
When she pulled back for breath, he quickly turned the tables and had her laying flat on her back. "How about we finish that game of Cops and Robbers?"
Her eyes darkened, mixing fear with excitement. He knew her answer when she pulled his head down to hers.
I enjoyed writing their fight. It was fun! But, once you think about it, Raven does seem to hide behind her powers. She laughed with that wizard guy, cried, yet she says she can't feel. Hmm.... anyways, hope you enjoyed this! Until next time!
