I just wanted to thank you all for reviewing my story. Thank you so much for giving me the push I needed to continue my story, because a few days ago I began to write the 7th chapter of Dear Diary.
As for questions; her name is Quintessa Sinistra. I know I have written Auriga some places, simply because in the story that gave me this idea, Sinistra was named Auriga. The name Quintessa however I decided to use because a friend who I role-played with called herself that. Quintessa Sinistra. And I, of course, played Severus Snape. She was the one who inspired me the most to begin a fan fiction concerning Severus Snape and Professor Sinistra. I owe it all to her actually.
I probably update all the chapters, fixing mistakes such as her name (Auriga/Quintessa) and other grammar mistakes. But it will have to wait until I have given you the newest chapter of Quintessa's private diary.
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Again, thank you all… I hope you all enjoy the latest chapter in our very own Quintessa Sinistra's life...
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December 29th
It takes two
Friday:
I woke up with morning at the Hospital wing with Madam Pomfrey, Dumbledore, Minerva, Victoria and Celestine hanging over me. Celestine was acting all concerned and dramaqueen-like as always. When will that horrid woman ever leave me alone? What does a girl got to do to get some peace around here? Oh, who am I kidding, I love attention! I have to admit I was disappointed to see that Severus was nowhere to be found! He of all people should take good care of me now that his little offspring is growing inside of me! On second thoughts I wasn't surprised to see he was missing after the way he responded to the news I gave him yesterday! God, you should have seen him. I've honestly never seen him like that. So confused, yet so furious like it was my fault or something! Oh yes, he was blaming me for it. For everything! That bastard! Someone should tell him it takes two to make a baby! You would think someone of Severus' mind capacity would know, huh? Anyways, I would have thought someone of his manners and wits would be there when the becoming mother of his child woke up after a rather dramatic episode like the one I have just experienced. Even a man of lower standards would have worried enough to stay to find out whether I was okay or not! I certainly would have expected as much from Severus. I have to admit I'm rather disappointed, but strangely grateful somehow. Waking up to the twisted furious face of that overgrown bat might have made me loose conscience again. Honestly the thought of facing Severus scares the living shit out of me. Sorry for my choice of words, but I'm about to give birth to a baby so technically I'm excused. Laws of nature…
Albus and the rest only stayed for a few minutes to make sure I was alright and let me know they were all concerned about me and eager to have me back at Hogwarts. And he was also the first to congratulate me after pushing the rest of the visitors out the door. He had known for some time now, but insured me he hadn't told anyone else as he considered it the parents' privilege to do so. I couldn't thank him enough for not telling anyone and for getting rid of the crowd in my room. How he knew is still a mystery to me, but I have learned over the years that very little go by without Albus finding out about it. Maybe the pregnancy test ended up in his office when Severus made it disappear. I don't know. Most things about Albus will always be a mystery to all of us.
But now for the more juicier stuff. I know you've been dying to hear about Severus reaction to the news I delivered to him last night. Well, dying would perhaps be the wrong thing to say seeing as you are only a notebook and therefore made of materials and isn't a living creature, so naturally you can't die. The right thing to say would perhaps be… Oh, never mind!
(Severus sat in his office doing some paperwork as I entered, knocking softly on the door three times before speaking.)
"Severus, may I have a word with you?"
"What do you want, Sinistra?" (Already annoyed and I haven't even stepped over the doorstep. How rude!)
"Nothing! There's something I just thought you ought to know."
"Sinistra, I highly doubt anything you have to say is of interest of me. I want no part your miserable life." (You should have thought about that before you dragged me into your bed and filled me up with all your mini-me's, shouldn't you? HA!)
"I might not have told the whole truth the day in the astronomy tower when you found that pregnancy test. You see, it's not really Sybil's."
"Is it not?" (Don't be fooled, Severus wasn't really surprised. It was his usual sarcastic tone and he acted slightly overdramatic like I was dumb enough to actually believe he had believed my lies. I, of course, chose to ignore it.)
"No, it's mine."
"I know, Sinistra Any fool can tell by the way you handled the situation; it was practically written all over your face. And what idiot in his right state of mind who go knocking up a loony like Professor Trelawney? You honestly couldn't find a better suited candidate?" (Okay, so maybe it was a dumb choice, but it was the first name that popped into my mind.)
"Not at the moment, no! I was in a very stressful situation."
"Too much for that pathetic little mind of yours?"
Frown!
"Besides, I could tell just by looking at you."
"What do you mean? Do I glow with happiness or something?" (Which (had it been the correct answer) I wouldn't have understood how it could be, because at the moment all I feel is confused, stressed, nervous and unnaturally hungry for sweets.)
"No, you've gained weight."
Frown! (That bloodsucking bat! Haven't he ever heard about manners? Telling a pregnant lady she looks fat is like asking your mother-in-law for sex-advice. You just don't go there!)
"Why thank you Severus for taking notice." (Although right now I'd rather have my wand driven right up your CENSURED!)
"Sneer."
"Anyway, I might not have been completely honest about some other things as well." (Severus finally lifted his glare from the pile of paperwork and fixed his blackened eyes upon my face. It as now or never!)
"I may have said I woke up in my own chambers after the Snowflake formal. But you know, I had a terrible hang-over and…" (But before I could start making up excuses Severus cut me off. He probably knows me well enough to see where I was going.)
"And why are you confiding your dirty little secrets to me? Couldn't you find someone who might actually care?"
"Well, the thing is… Eh... I… Well, I kind of woke up in your chambers. In your bed. Next to… Well, next to you actually. Funny, isn't it? Heh…" (There, I've said it. I've told him we woke up in bed together to following morning after getting extremely drunk. Only…) "Naked." (I added the last word more like a whisper, glaring down at the floor, too afraid to look directly as Severus. There was a long awkward silence and I finally brought myself to lift my gaze to him again there he sat with his two black eyes, examining me. I had no idea what was going through his mind, but I was pretty sure he was trying to think out the best way to kill me without being blamed for the murder. Gently, I tried breaking the silence.)
"Severus, it's your baby!"
The next thing I know he's screaming at me, telling me to get my gigantic arse out of his office before he started yelling in something that sounded like Latin while weaving his wand so that veils and jars placed on different shelves on his walls started smashing into pieces like some maniac. You can't imagine how shocked I was. I had never seen Severus so furious and out of control. So, naturally, I ran for it. I ran all the way back to my chambers and not before I had calmed down slightly and started writing; it blackened. And when I woke up again I was here at St. Mungo's.
Oh, and if you're wondering; Albus brought you to me. I mean; he brought my diary with him when he came. I'm sure he knows how fond I am of it. I mean you. How fond I am of you! Oh, why do I even bother?
December 30th
The family man
Saturday:
One whole Snape-less day, that was all I got! Just one day! You can image the shock I had this morning as I woke up, stretching and yawning, with my behind sticking out from underneath the #DYNE#, my pink bunny slippers nicely placed beside the lavender color covered bed and brown fuzzy hair everywhere, much like what it looks like after I've had… Anyway… So there I sat, without my glasses on so everything was blurry, my gown barely still attached to my body, showing a bit more than I would allowed if I knew there was someone in my room. I came across a black shadow at the end of my bed after a few seconds to clear my head. After traumatic experiences ever since seeing the muggle movie "Alien" as a child I began to scream at the top of my lungs. The black creature was startled and so I kicked it as hard as my barely woken legs could manage. It fell backwards off the bed, soaring through the air with what looked like two huge tentacles weaving around, before hitting the floor with a large bang! I reached for my wand lying on the table next to me, but the alien seemed to have hit the floor so hard the table shook and the wand had fallen off it. My hand found my glasses instead which now lay by the edge of the small bed table and I hurried to put them on before the alien had gotten to its feet and lunched an attack. When I could see clearly again and discovered (what I'm sure you've known all along) that it was in fact not an alien that now stood before me, but a rather pissed off Severus Snape. Just my luck isn't it? Finally he'd brought his skinny ass to come see me and I kicked him off the bed!
I gave a weak smile, hoping he wouldn't start Latin-yelling at me again. But it seemed like Severus had finally decided to act like a gentleman. He removed the locks of hair hanging before his face, took a deep breath, muttered something to himself under his breath while straightening his clothes before he lifted his head again and starred directly at me. His black eyes looked like two small holes into his skull, which was actually rather terrifying.
"I'm so sorry Severus, I though you were an alien…"
"Save your breath, Sinistra. I'm not here to listen to your excuses. But if you push me off the bed or anything else for that matter like that again, there will be consequences. Is that understood?"
(What else could I do than agree and nod?)
"Good. Now for the reason I am here…"
"Yes, I have been wondering about that part. I didn't expect…" (I fell silent as his twisted face glared at me with a clearly annoyed expression.)
"As I was saying…" (He cleared his throat, obviously annoyed I cut him off as he walked around slowly and controllably in the room with both hands behind his back.) "I have learned over the last few years I cannot trust you. So, naturally, when you came to my office the other day I was not surprised to find you had lied to me."
"Yes, I'm sorry abo…"
"I wonder; do you suffer from a short-term-memory loss?"
"No, I…"
"I didn't think so, so if you would let me finish?"
Silence.
"Now where was I? Oh yes. I was not surprised to find out you had told lies, but that you could excuse your lies with trying to make me believe you had been fertilized and that supposedly I was the one who had been giving the honor… Even I would not have though you would sick low enough to lie about such a serious matter. To use a great weakness of mine for your own winning… You can understand my fury, can you not? You know very well I can hardly recall anything from that night the Snowflake Formal took place, and to use such an advantage with such a great lie to cover up a few small one, it had never occurred to me that a woman with your glass and wits would go that far!"
(I wanted to say something, but Severus held up his right hand to silence me.)
"I did not believe you, Sinistra, but I did believe this." (He held you up there he stood, after having hid you behind his back. You! My diary!)
"YOU READ MY DIARY?!?"
"I had to make sure you were telling the truth. And I know you comfy you secrets to this." (He shook the notebook softly, watching me calmly.)
"GIVE IT BACK!"
"All in good time. First, I have some questions I want answered."
"WHAT?" (I crossed my arms, sitting up straight in my bed with a rather childish angry behavior.)
"Are you a 100 sure you are carrying a child?"
"Yes!"
"And are you a 100 sure that I am the father of this child?"
"Yes!" (Did he actually believe I hadn't made absolutely sure I was pregnant before consulting him?)
"There are no other possible fathers?" (I wish…)
"No, I'm sure! I don't sleep around with every man I can get my hands on! Before you I hadn't been sexually active in 5 years so it couldn't have…" (OH MY GOD, did I just say that out loud?)
"Do keep such information to yourself; I have no interest in your sexual life". (Yeah, right…) "What are you planning to do with this child?"
"Keep it!"
"Keep it?"
"Of course, it's my baby, and I'm planning of having it! I thought I never was gonna have a baby! I'm not a woman of my best age, you know. My PMS isn't what it used to be back in the 80-ties! And what are you planning to do?"
"What do you mean?"
"It's your baby too!"
"I never asked for you to get pregnant! I cannot remember asking you take off your clothes and get into bed with me either!" (No, but you didn't have to ask! Your body language said it all! You wanted me too, admit it!)
"Well, apparently you don't remember much from that night."
"And apparently it seems I did not have to ask! According to this.." (Again shaking the diary still clutched between his thin boney fingers.) "…you have been having some feeling for me for quite some time now!"
"So what?!? Sue me!"
"Quintessa, please, I am not trying to start an argument with you. I am just trying to figure out what to do with the situation." (Quintessa? Did he just call me by my first name?)
"Well, I'm keeping it! So handle it!"
"If that is your decision."
"It is!"
"Shall we set a date then?"
"A date? For what?"
"The wedding of course!" (THE WHAT?!?)
"WEDDING?!?"
