Chapter 7
"What!" Luke said jumping out of bed. 'What' seemed to be his favorite word that night. Luke looked down at Lorelai's terrified face and was only able to display one tone: enraged.
"How could you not tell me this? When did you find out?" he asked. "Lorelai, you drank booze!" He yelled. "Oh god," he put his hand to his forehead and ran it through his hair.
Lorelai was staring up at his face, her mouth slightly open and her lower lip trembling. She had feared he'd get upset about this before. But that was before he'd told her he wanted kids. She could understand the alcohol consumption fear, she had it as well. But the questions he asked her, she knew the answers but was afraid to share them.
I don't even know for sure" Lorelai told him. I only got suspicious 3 days ago at the hospital with Sookie. I won't find out for sure until two weeks after conception."
"Conception, when?" Luke asked.
"The night of the magazine party" she replied. "In our drunken state we forgot to use protection" she told him.
Realization spread across his face. They had forgotten.
"Oh" was all he said. "At least it wasn't 'what?'" she thought.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I was scared. Until tonight I didn't know you wanted kids. Aside from when I've seen you with Rory, you've never seemed to be fond of them. And I didn't want to get you all riled up about it only to find out I might not be. I know it's unfair, but what can I tell you, I didn't know what to do."
Luke sat down on the bed, calmer than before.
"A baby" he said. "We might be parents already?"
"Could be, who knows?" Lorelai said.
"What about the alcohol?" he asked her.
"They say when you are trying to conceive you shouldn't drink after you've ovulated, but I have no idea when that was. I don't keep track any more. The last period I had was before the party."
"Could the alcohol affect the baby this early?" Luke asked trying to breath smoothly
"I've read that it can cause miscarriage" Lorelai replied regretfully
Luke's breath hitched. He was scared just like Lorelai was.
Luke tried to keep them both positive, but he knew if he didn't go to sleep soon he wouldn't be able to keep control of his emotions.
"Only time will tell then?" he asked.
"Yes" Lorelai replied, stroking his lower back. "Try to get some sleep."
Luke nodded and laid back down. But he doubted he'd sleep very soundly. And neither did his fiancée.
The next day Lorelai got a call from her father informing her about the meeting with a lawyer for Rory. Richard acted as if the previous night hadn't happened. Well it had and Lorelai wasn't going to let him forget. She also was informed by Michel a few days later that Emily would be stopping by to pick up Rory's things. She decided to pull an Emily Gilmore herself and do something evil. She sent Michel to guard dog her house and mother. Silly she knew, but she didn't feel like facing her mother yet. And, she just felt her mom deserved it.
Lorelai didn't really want to be heartless. But she felt Rory needed to learn a lesson. As did her parents. Along with the Gilmore drama Lorelai was dealing with the engagement news spreading through town and her and Luke's shared anxiety about the possible baby. Now that she and Luke were fully committed and he wanted children with her, she was less scared of the idea of being a mother for the second time. But, the possibility that the baby could have been affected by the alcohol she had drank filled her with a new fear. "If this kid dies or is born defected, it will be my fault" she told herself. It was killing her. Both of her children would be problematic. And one of them wasn't even out of the gate yet.
