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Chapter 7: Getting to normal to only face the pain
Everyone left me but I don't care. I was used to being alone. What I'm not used to is bleeding like crazy. Fucking Mansex ripped me apart.
'That could be taken sexually.' Chi's voice came flooding to my head.
"Ah. If anything I can always count on my blood crazed sword." I said with a sarcastic grin on my face.
'Don't get cocky otherwise I won't tell you something nice.'
"Never changing. You always loved to tease me. So what's this something nice?"
'You have them all wrapped around your fingers.'
"Meaning?"
'They already forgive you.'
"Wow. That was quick."
"Alexia! Alec wants to see you." Demyx sang as he skipped over to me.
"I don't want her to see me in this state." I said as I turned my body over to look at Demyx. I winced in the process.
"Oh. Let's get you to the medical center. Then I can go talk to Nominee about drawing you all better."
"And that helps how?" He gently took me in his arms.
"What she draws comes true."
"Oh really? Can she draw me making out with Xiggy?" I asked him sweetly.
"Um no. Xigbar is mine." Demyx said actually sounding threateningly.
"Then can I get a recording of the next time you two play the bouncy bed game?" I batted my eyelashes and saw the will power in him fade.
"I'll ask."
"Yay!"
The rest of the way to the health center was filled with laughter. Apparently I missed a lot when I was gone. Wow maybe I should have come back some time. I mean god I missed when Roxas left the organization. No wonder why Axel seemed down.
"Saix we're coming in." Demy yelled as he kicked open the door.
"Demyx, you owe another hundred dollars for the indent in the door." Saix said calmly.
"Well my hands are full." Dem- Dem complained. This caused Saix to look up.
"Alexia? Oh your bed has already been made." He pointed to a bed with a table full of the supplies needed to fix me.
"Thanks. I'm sorry I left but I really didn't want to hurt you guys." I looked to see that his normal stone features softened into a kind loving smile.
"Don't worry. We understand. It was just hard because Roxas also left us so we thought you were going to turn traitor on us."
"I would never do that! I love you all and I can't imagine my life without you guys."
"Yes we finally got the superior to understand that. He isn't mad but he does refuse to apologize because he felt like he lost his daughter."
"I know. I was going to go say sorry once my wounds have fully healed." Saix moved quickly to bandage my wounds while trying to make it painless. Well at least he tried.
"Then they will be in the meeting hall awaiting your words. I'm done." He patted my shoulder as I stood off the bed.
Zexion:
Superior had called a meeting in order to take down Sora. Marluxia is in the middle of telling us about his destined to fail plan when the floor doors opened. It was Alexia.
"What is it that you want?" Superior commanded from her. His voice held hatred but his eyes held joy that his little girl was safe.
"I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to make it feel like I was betraying you or the rest of the family. I just wanted to get away before I did something I would regret." She got down on one knee and bowed her head in an attempt of apologizing.
"I will not say sorry for your punishment."
"I don't think you should. I acted without thinking and left the castle in a state of disarray. And to top it off I find out that Roxas has turned his back on the organization so there would be doubts in your head to see if I was loyal or not."
Xemnas looked stunned at her words. He actually wasn't going to say sorry because he never does so but she went and made up lies to cover for him.
"I-I'm glad you understand that. Now you may take your place."
"Yes."
She jumped up and took her rightful place making me remember how agile she was. Her speed and grace could be compared to a cheetah. And her beauty to that of a panther.
"Lea!" Alec screamed out of joy.
Luxord had put her on one of his cards and floated over to her and Alexia looked as if she was going to kill Luxord after grabbing the child.
The meeting was filled with rubbish as people spat out idiotic ideas. Alexia didn't even pay attention to them as she played with Alec. But all in all Xemnas was smiling quite a lot while looking at his daughter with a child. I also kept looking at her but it was more of a look of love not joy.
Alexia:
After the meeting I took Alec and went to Naminé's room so that the kids could play.
"It's good to have another little girl here with me." She said as she played with my baby girl.
"Aw if you wanted tea parties I would have played with you."
"Yea you are like a big sister." She said with a big grin.
Knock, knock.
"Alexia. Vexen said he wanted to talk to you!" Demyx sang out the words.
"Naminé will you watch Alec for me?"
"Sure." With that I made a portal to take me to Vexen's lab.
"Hey Vexy. What did you want?" I said as I looked through all the bubbling test tubes.
"Oh GEEZ. Don't scare me. But yes I did wish to tell you something." He said carefully putting down the gadget he was working on.
"Ok. Shoot." I hopped up on the table he was sitting at as he started to explain. He was telling me ways my theory about nobodies having hearts was wrong, but instead we remember what it is like to have emotions. When I asked him why I didn't have any of my own he asked me what I remember. I told him my mother said I died when I was born but then came back. Then he told me that the reason I can't remember could be because when I died I didn't have memories of any emotions.
"So that's how that would all work out. But that last bit is just a guess." He said picking up his toy.
"Ok. So do you know where Zexion is?"
"No sorry. He changes rooms so often and I barely leave this place so there in lies the dilemma." He was messing with his toy again.
"Thanks." I said hopping down and giving him a hug.
"ZEXION! ZEXION! WHERE OH WHERE IS ZEXION!?!" Soon I felt agitation just beyond the door I was standing in front of. I decided to take a chance and look inside. "Zexion!" I screamed happily.
"What?" He sounded bored… he always does.
"Want to hang out with me? It'll be really-"
"No."
"Why not? You never play with me. Even Vexy comes out when I want to play with everybody." I whined sitting on his bed with my leg to my chest.
"'Why?' Because I never wish to be bothered. That's all that you have done since I met you. You are worse than all the other members. They at least know when to leave. You are an annoying woman who doesn't know her boundaries. Just leave me alone now and forever." He really was upset with me. Once I start feeling real emotions the one I have to suffer through is my own pain. This isn't fun.
"Sorry. I didn't realize I was such a bother. I won't come near you ever again." With that I left his room and ran to mine.
"Hey Alex what's-" Axel said more but I didn't hear him.
How come my room had to be so bloody far away? I passed by each and every member of this damned place and still had to suppress the tears within my eyes it wasn't fair.
Finally I got to my room and fell onto my bed letting everything go.
"Oh don't cry." Xigbar said hanging from my roof top.
"Why are you even in here?" I asked whipping the tears.
"I WAS going to surprise you with a new room," He stopped just to point to the redecorating items in the corner. "But now I'm here to see who made you cry so I could go kill them."
"No don't. It's my fault. If I noticed he wouldn't have needed to tell me to stay away." I said pulling my swords to the front of me.
"Who said that?" Axel asked as everyone was piling into my room. That is everyone but him, the one that matters in my eyes… Zexion.
"Don't worry about it. Xiggy thanks for the gift but can it wait till I feel better. I feel sick and just want to rest." I pleaded for him to understand and it looks like he did.
"Ok let her rest." Superior said while shooing everyone out. "Feel better Alex. It's sad when you're not smiling." He already called me his daughter so why should his words surprise me? Yet they did nonetheless.
That night I cried myself to sleep.
Zexion's Pov:
"Zexion open this damned door!" Xigbar yelled after I just got to a good part in the book.
"What?" I questioned letting him into the room.
"What did you do to Alexia?" He was implying I did something? How rude.
"What makes you think I did anything?"
"Well the fact that she was crying and telling all of us except you that she was at fault and don't hurt him. So yes I think you did something." I hurt her? I just simply wanted peace for one day.
"I just told her to go away." Xigbar slapped me. "What the hell was that about?"
"Don't tell her things like that. She takes rejection badly and gets hurt easily." he said this as if he learned first hand.
"How would you know?" He gave me a sad smile.
"Anyone who looks at her can tell she holds pains of her own. She burdens herself to make others happy because she wants to feel happiness. People never realized her kindness is actually her selfishness… I'm surprised you never seen it, seeing how you are good at judging others." He then turned out of my room and disappeared.
"What?" I was left dumbfounded… I don't like this feeling.
I left my room and quickly ran towards the group room. Sadly when I got there I was met with glares.
"What? How bad could it have been?" I asked looking at everybody.
"Vexen is plotting ways to kill you without your knowledge. You know he thinks of her like a niece. Superior is thinking of ways to punish you for hurting his 'daughter', Saix is in her room keeping guard so that if she wakes up crying he can soothe her, Marluxia is plotting something, Larxene is plotting to bitch at you, Luxord is….well getting drunk, 'Monkey man' is trying to find ways to comfort his 'sister', Lexeaus just wants to pound you to dirt, Demyx is going around calling you, and I quote, 'a big meany head', and I have something special in store for you." Axel said while looking at a list of some sorts.
"I just wanted peace. One day of just reading. I didn't want her trying to get me to go out and have fun." I heard the door close behind me.
"I won't take long. Luxord do you think I could have some rum?" I thought she hated that stuff.
"S-sure l-luv. Want me to drink with ya?" Luxord asked handing her the bottle.
"No it's ok. If I get lonely Saix seems to be near me so I'll talk to him." She turned and left not once meeting my eyes.
"See?" Axel asked bitterly. I only nodded my head and went back to my room.
Saix's Pov:
"Alexia?" I called out to her as soon as I closed the door.
"I wish I was numb. If I was I couldn't feel the pain within my chest." She took a sip of the rum. "It's revolting. How could anyone like this horrid drink?" She asked while taking back another swing.
"You're the one drinking it."
"Ah true. But the taste is distracting me from all thoughts about Zexion."
"That's good to hear." She started to look a little bit tipsy.
"You know what he's such an ass. I mean the whole time I was away I really only thought about him. And you can ask Sally this too. She'll tell you I even talked nonstop about the boy. But he doesn't like me so whatever. I mean I still have Alec. She'll love me forever… you guys will love me forever too right? I mean I'm tired of being alone. It hurts too much." She was drifting between consciousness and unconsciousness.
"If anything I'll stay here for you." I patted her head like I was an older brother making a promise to his sister.
"Thank you." She whispered before finally sleeping.
She wouldn't let go of my hand so I stayed by her side and watched as the tears rolled off of her face onto her pillow.
"Zexion you will pay for hurting her." I promised with a growl.
