Mac, instead of sitting down, went over to the window and looked out. Will came up behind her and took her in his arms. She rested back against his chest and he placed one hand on their baby. "Doing okay?"
"We are." she said, putting her hand over his on her bump.
"Excuse me," one of the volunteers said approaching Will and Mac.
They both turned and said, "yes."
"I was able to find out that one of your friends, Don, is out of surgery and is in Neuro-Trauma ICU. I've let the doctor know that you all are here and would like to talk with her."
"Thank you, very much," Will said.
"Yes, thank you."
"You're welcome."
Michael and Charlie were talking at the other end of the waiting room. "Ma'am," Will said to the volunteer.
"Yes?"
"Would you mind letting them know what you told us about Don?"
"No problem at all," she replied and walked down to talk to Michael and Charlie.
"What do you need, what can I do for you, Mac?" Will asked.
"I honestly have no idea what I need right now other than to be with you. I can imagine needing to talk to someone about everything that happened, but that's not immediate. Has anyone told Kate?"
"No, not yet. I called Michael and Charlie."
"She needs to know what happened. Not all the details but what happened. I can call my mom to see if she can go stay with the boys. Lonny could go pick her up and take her to the hotel and then bring Kate here."
"Let's try that. See if your mom can stay with Cooper and David."
"May I use your phone?"
He handed her his phone. "Sam destroyed mine," she said answering his unasked question.
Mac called her mother and explained what all had happened and asked if she could watch the boys to which she immediately agreed and said she'd be waiting for Lonny.
"Where is Lonny?"
"He was in the chapel last time I saw him."
"He needs to go pick up mom and take her to the hotel and bring Kate back here."
"I'll call him," he said taking the phone. When Lonny picked up Will explained what he needed him to do and he agreed, saying he'd be back in a little while with Kate.
"Okay, that's happening now. Do you want to sit?"
She shook her head and went back to the window. He followed and stood very close to her. "Do you think Jane is going to be okay," she asked.
"I don't know."
"She lost so much blood. He was out of control. I've never seen anyone like that before. It was almost as if he'd lost all contact with reality and was living in his own world. Everything was about him."
"Can you talk about what happened if I ask a couple of questions?"
"I'll try."
"Did he want Jane dead?"
"No, I don't think so. He wanted the baby gone. He kept saying that if she'd just aborted everything would have been fine. At one point he told me what to do to help her and he even checked her pulse but then he shot her in the stomach."
Will rested his head against the side of hers. "The only time he really threatened me was after he'd shot her the second time, I started to put pressure on the wound and he put the gun in my face. When I told him I wouldn't touch that wound he backed off and then he shot himself. I'm not sure I'll ever get that picture out of my head."
"I'm so sorry, Mac."
She nodded her head and they stood there together, staring out at New York City.
About an hour later Lonny brought Kate into the waiting area. "What's going on, Will?"
They all sat together and Will explained everything that had happened. Kate was crying and hugged Will, who was sitting next to her. Michael was sitting next to Mac. She saw how upset he was and took his hand in hers. He smiled at her. They were getting closer.
The volunteer brought Don's doctor over to speak with them and she gave them an update on his condition. He was going to make it, but he'd have a long recovery period.
A little while later another doctor came out, this one was Sloan's surgeon. She had a collapsed lung and several broken ribs and one of them had punctured her spleen, which they had to remove but she, too, was going to be all right. She had been moved to recovery and they would be able to see her in a few hours.
The last doctor came out and sat down with the group. "Jane's alive, that is the most important news I can give you. We repaired the damage from the bullets and did a D&C." Mac was nodding but all the men were looking lost. The doctor went on to explain what a D&C entailed.
"Is she able to get pregnant again?" Mac asked.
"Yes, there should be no problems there," the doctor said. "She's in ICU and we're going to keep her sedated for now. I want her to recover some before she finds out about the baby and Dr. Ellison."
"Do you know Jane?" Will asked.
"I do. We both came here at the same time. We were in the same orientation and kept up with one another. She's a good friend and I'm very sorry this has happened. If I can do anything, please let me know."
"Thank you." Will said.
"Let's go see Sloan," Mac said to Will after the doctor left.
"Okay."
"I'll come with you," Charlie said.
"Is your car here?" Kate asked Michael?
"Yes, want me to take you to the hotel?"
"Please."
"No problem," Michael answered. They said goodbye to the others and Michael took Kate to the hotel.
Lonny followed Mac, Will and Charlie up to Sloan's room and waited outside.
Mac knocked and opened the door but Sloan was asleep. "She's asleep. I'll leave her a note and come visit tomorrow."
Charlie hugged Mac and Will and went back to the office to arrange for someone to go on for Will and find an EP for Elliott.
Mac and Will sat in the back of the SUV, his arm around her and she resting against his chest. She made a sound as they hit a bump and he looked at her.
"I need to pump," she whispered in his ear.
He nodded and pulled her closer to him. They finally made it back to the hotel and Michael was there with Catherine.
"Thank you so much for staying with the boys, Mom," Mac said hugging her mother.
"Are you all right?"
Mac nodded. "Have they eaten?"
"Not yet, Michael and I were about to fix their bottles."
"We'll take care of it, don't worry."
"If you're sure, Mackenzie."
She smiled at her mother and said, "thank you."
Catherine got her things and hugged them all. Michael offered to drive her home and she readily accepted.
Mac and Will went into the nursery and they each picked up a baby and carried them to their bedroom. Mac was on the bed and unbuttoned her top and pulled down her maternity bra, exposing her breast so Cooper could latch on. Will knew she was uncomfortable from not being able to pump earlier. She then took David and positioned him on her other breast and lay back against the pillows and closed her eyes.
"I love to watch you nurse them," he said rubbing each of the baby's heads.
"I like nursing them."
"Will you be able to nurse them and the new little one?"
"Yes, there shouldn't be a problem."
"You are such a great mom."
She looked up at him with tears in her eyes. "Thanks."
"I love you, Mac. Today was horrible. I can't imagine anything like this ever happening. I knew Sam was having problems but he'd not even approached Jane in such a long time."
"That we know of, Will. There may have been more going on than we know."
"That's true. She's going to be so lost without the baby. I can't imagine what she is going to go through," he said.
"It's different for the mother than the father, I think."
"Why? It's still a loss," he questioned.
"I agree about the loss, but you can be there and be supportive and all that, but you aren't carrying the baby. There's this bond and I'm not sure I can even explain it, but they are a part of you, literally."
"I can understand that, that makes sense."
Mac repositioned each baby. "It's not that the father's loss is any less, but just different. I'm glad she was unconscious when he shot himself, she didn't need to see that."
"No one needed to see that, Mac."
They sat there all together as a family until the boys finished nursing. "Feel better?" Will asked.
"Much, thank you. I'll have to remember to bring pumping equipment when we go to the hospital tomorrow."
They put the boys back into their cribs and climbed back in bed together. He pulled her into his arms and held her tight.
The next day Mac and Will went to the hospital and visited everyone. Jane was still sedated but Will sat with her, holding her hand while Mac visited with Sloan.
Mac knocked on the door and pushed it open.
"Hi, Kenz, come on in."
"How are you feeling?"
"Incredibly sore, but even that's getting better."
She sat with her and Sloan could tell something was wrong. "What's wrong, Kenz?"
Mac sat next Sloan on the side of her bed and explained what all had happened. Midway through her story Sloan took Mac's hand and held it in hers. By the time the story was over they were both crying.
"I'm sorry, Sloan, I'm not sure I should have told you all that, you just came out of surgery."
"I'm glad you told me. When are they going to take Jane off the sedation?"
"Probably this afternoon. Will and I will be there when she wakes up."
Will knocked on the door and came inside. He saw both of them crying. "Are you guys all right?" he asked standing next to Mac.
"We are," Sloan said.
"The doctor is getting ready to bring Jane out of sedation in about half an hour. We need to head that way in a few minutes."
"Okay," Mac said.
"Do we know how Don is today," Sloan asked.
"About the same," Will said.
Sloan nodded. "I want to see him."
"I know you do, but right now you need to concentrate on you. Will and I will make sure he's all right and doesn't need anything. Is his family here?" Mac asked.
"Some family is here, but most is in Boston. Did someone call his parents?"
"Charlie did," Will explained.
Sloan's doctor pushed open the door and said, "good morning. How are you feeling today, Sloan?"
"Not as sore, still hurts to breathe."
"Your ribs will take a while to heal, but they will. I need to take a look at your incision."
"We'll go and see how Jane is doing," Mac said. "We'll stop back by later," she said kissing Sloan's cheek.
Will touched her leg and smiled at her. "See you later."
Will took Mac's hand and held it as they walked to Jane's room. Mac stopped outside her room and looked at him. "This is going to be horrible," she said.
He pulled her to his chest and held her, rubbing her back. He felt a kick from the baby. "That was a strong one," he said.
"It was," she said rubbing the spot the baby kicked.
"When is our next chance at finding out the sex?" Will asked.
"Next appointment is late next week."
Jane's doctor walked down the hallway and stopped to speak with them. "Thanks for being here," the doctor said. "She's going to need all the support we can give her."
"Anything we can do," Will said.
They all walked into the room and the doctor put medicine in a port in Jane's arm to bring her out of the sedation. Will and Mac were on either side of the bed and the doctor was closest to Jane.
Jane began surfacing into consciousness. Her doctor kept talking to her, helping her come around.
"Jane," her doctor said, sitting on her bedside, taking her hand, "it's Marc, can you hear me?"
She nodded her head a little.
"Do you remember what happened?
Jane's other hand went to where the baby should have been and when she didn't feel him she first looked down and then at Marc.
"I'm sorry, the baby didn't make it."
She nodded and covered her face with her hand.
Mac sat on the side of the bed and hugged her the best she could, avoiding the wires and tubes. Will could hear her saying something to Jane but he couldn't understand what she was saying. Will was surprised that the doctor, Marc, was still there and holding her hand.
Will moved to sit behind Mac and rubbed her back. When she pulled back, Will hugged his sister and talked quietly to her.
"We need to let Jane rest some," Marc said.
"May I sit with her?" Mac asked.
Marc nodded. "I'll be back in a little bit, Jane."
"I'm going to check on Don," Will said and walked out with the doctor. Will was getting a strange feeling from the doctor. When Jane's door closed, he covered his face with his hands and rested against the wall. "Are you all right?" Will asked.
"I'm sorry," the doctor started to apologize.
"No, don't worry. I know you said you and Janie were friends. It had to be hard operating on her."
Marc nodded his head.
"If you want to talk we can go grab a coffee or something," Will offered.
Marc's pager went off and he pulled it from his scrub bottoms and looked at the code. "I'm sorry, I've got to go. I would like to talk to you. Will you be around all day?"
"Most of the day,"
"I'll catch up with you a little later, thanks," Marc said going down the hallway.
