Meredith couldn't believe that she was here. Of all the places for her
sister had to come, she was here.

Meredith had headed for the only place that she knew that she could get
perspective and that was the roof. It was the only place she could close
her eyes and breathe in the Seattle sea air without having it invaded

She ran up the stairs not having the patience to wait for the elevator,
stumbling on the first few because of her urgency.

She hadn't seen or heard from her sister for 5 years, "no 6" Meredith
thought. Not since she herself had called her to let her know that she
was running off to Europe with her trust fund. She needed time away from
her mother to gain perspective. It had been when she had told her mother
that she no longer wanted to do medicine and that she wanted to pursue
her music.

Meredith could remember the blow out from that conversation. Her mother
had thrown something at her, barely missing her before yelling at her
that she was supposed to be passionate and driven and that pursuing a
career in music would not achieve anything in life.

Her hands gripped the rail on the roof ledge as she braced herself,
willing herself to calm down.

She thought about her fight with her mother and everything that had
passed. She hadn't picked up another instrument since. It had been her
release, the one thing that had kept her from falling into the
darkness that used to consume her.

"Meredith" she heard Derek say from where he stood by the roof door.

Meredith turned slightly to look at him and nodded to let him know that
it was okay for him to come over.

Derek moved over towards her slowly while Meredith turned back to face
the ocean.

He slipped his arms around her carefully, a hand moving to her stomach
and bringing her hard against him.

"Mer what was that?" he asked. He knew that she had said something about
a sister and a name but he had been too caught up in the look on her
face to pay attention.

"I can't believe she's here." Meredith murmured more to herself than
anything.

"Who?" Derek asked looking confused.

"I haven't spoken to her since before I left for Europe cos when I got
back she didn't have the same number. Mom and she had a fight and I...
and mom was... and I haven't seen her." Meredith rambled.

"Who Mer?" Derek said sounding as confused as he was.

"My sister." Meredith said. "Arizona."

Derek tilted his head. It was the first time he had ever heard mention
of a sister.

"You don't have a sister Mer, well not one called Arizona." He said as
he duck his head down to kiss her head softly.

"She was the wanted one." Meredith murmured on "and I was... I dunno...
but she definitely made my life hell."

Derek ran his hands up and down her shoulders. "So the new peds doctor
is your sister." he asked and Meredith nodded.

"Dr Arizona Robbins." Meredith told him. "Or that's what I'm guessing
her title is."

Derek closed his eyes as he tried to contemplate the shift.

"I haven't spoken to her since before Europe. I know we never had the
best relationship but family doesn't disappear without a reason"
Meredith murmurs.

Derek pulled her tight against him. "Here's your chance I guess. To find
out why she disappeared."

"Hmmm" Meredith sighed as she turned in his arms to rest her head on his
chest.

"What?" Derek asked softly.

"There's always been something between us." Meredith told him as she
snuggled further into him.

Derek kept his arms around her holding her close. He couldn't imagine
what it would be like to just lose contact with his family completely.
As it was his mother had called in the morning to say that she would be
in Seattle tomorrow. Nancy had already been out to Seattle and Erin and
sim had already began preparing their trip. Derek knew that Meredith's
family was different, but he didn't always understand how much different
they were.