Chapter 7

Before I begin I'd like to say I'm so sorry for not updating faster. It's been absolutely way too long. I've been working a lot and well there really isn't an excuse for not updating. I've gotten lazy lately and had a little bit of writers block. I know where I want the story to go but it's the details on how to get there that I'm having difficulty with.

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Previously:

"Jakey?" she whispered and I couldn't respond as I tried to choke back the tears threating to escape.

I had to be strong for her.

I had to pull it together.

I had to face the fact that my only reason for existing would be miles away.

Jake POV

No matter what I tried, the fear and pain would not subside. The thought of losing Nessie, of never seeing her again invaded my mind without my permission. Before I knew it Nessie was out of my reach and I could see every member of the Cullen family aside from Carlisle and Esme crouch in defense.

I can't do this I thought to Edward

He simply nodded in response, as if he could actually understand. Of course he wouldn't understand. He had Bella, his love, while my happiness was being taken away. It was ironic really that Bella and Edward who had given me the best thing in my life, were now taking it away from me without a second thought.

Before I knew it I was in my wolf form, the Cullen family still tense as they watched me carefully. Didn't they know I wouldn't hurt her? Was I no longer considered a family friend?

Tell Nessie bye for me, I have to go I thought to Edward, I saw him nod quickly before I ran out of the house in my wolf form. I figured that the best thing for me to do was to just calm down and run. The good thing about being in my wolf form these days was that it was quiet. We rarely seemed to patrol now so I was free to think whatever I wanted without having the others bothering me.

I did my best to keep Nessie out of my head but it was impossible. Every little thing I saw was a reminder of what I was trying to forget. I passed a river in my run and it only reminded me of the time that I had taken Ness 'fishing'. It had started out as a joke between Emmett and me but Ness took it seriously and decided that she wanted to go fishing in the lake behind her house. Emmett laughed so much when Nessie said she wanted to do that. I couldn't help myself and I joined in the laughter but of course Nessie had gotten mad at me.

"Why are you laughing at me Jake!" she had said, her little hands balling up into tiny fists.

"Ness, I wasn't really laughing at you," I said, hoping she wasn't mad.

"Oh, no? What, are you going to say that you were laughing with me?" she said

"Well yes," I said.

She raised an eyebrow at me, "Did it look like I was laughing?" she asked.

"Uh, no not really…" I said

"Then you were laughing at me," she said

"No! I wasn't. I was uhh, I was laughing with Emmett!" I said, glad that I had thought of something.

"You were?" she asked.

"Yes. Of course!" I said

"Well guess what Jacob Black, Uncle Emmett was laughing at me so you were simply laughing with Emmett about me," she had answered.

I had stood there with me mouth hanging open in surprise as Ness went up to her room. She was one smart girl.

A few days after the incident, which Emmett, Alice, Bella, and Edward had laughed at, we took Ness fishing in the river. The sight of her sitting there trying to concentration filled me with happiness. I remembered that she had tried to grab the fish with her hands the first time, which Emmett and I laughed at but stopped as Nessie glared at us. She had sat there for two hours with little movement because she wanted to have the chance to say that she had gone fishing before. She hadn't caught anything but I was able to spend some time with Ness during those two hours and so they became part of the memories that I would always carry around with me.

I would miss her more than I thought.

I kept running, without really thinking of where I was going. I was afraid that I would end up back in the Cullen's house. I had promised myself that once they had left I wouldn't go anywhere near their property, it would only bring back memories that I wanted to keep safely hidden. If I had to see the Cullen's house completely vacant and lifeless I was sure that I would have a few horrible months.

Hey Jake, what's going on? Seth said as soon as he phased

Just running, need to clear my head I responded

He stayed quiet for a moment, Are you going home?

Not right now I responded

I'll let Billy know he answered quietly before phasing back out.

It wasn't a secret that when I said I was out for a run because I needed to clear my head that I'd be gone for a while. I hoped that Billy would be okay just as much as I hoped that Nessie wouldn't come after me, thought I had to admit that thought make me smile. I knew of course that the Cullen's wouldn't let her come after me. I sighed as I kept running; I didn't want to slow down not even a tiny bit. In my head if I slowed down at all my mind would take over. I did my best to calm myself and clear my thoughts but even running wouldn't help me this time. There was nothing that would help me feel better right now. When Edward had left Bella I had been there to pick up the pieces but there was no one here to pick up the pieces when Ness left. The main reason being because my best friend was going with her. If I thought life was difficult when I fought the newborns, I was wrong. If I thought it was difficult when we went against those royal leeches then I was wrong. The only time that life was truly difficult was now, having Nessie leave. Before I knew it the sun was setting and it was getting dark all around me. I wasn't sure how long I'd been running or where I was. I figured I should at least figure out where I was so I got closer to the road, while still remaining hidden, so that I could see the signs. It wasn't long before I saw the 'Welcome to Colorado' sign.

Nessie POV

"Daddy, what's wrong with Jake?" I asked as I saw Jake phase and head towards the forest.

"He needs to calm down Nessie, you know he doesn't like us leaving," he replied.

"But he didn't say bye!" I said and started running towards the forest only to be met by my mom.

"Nessie you can't go after him honey," she said.

"B-but why not?" I asked

"Because he's upset. He needs to be alone," dad said.

"He's only upset because of you!" I yelled back angry.

"Renesmee! Do not speak to your father like that," mom said.

"Why not? It's not fair! Why does he get to decide when I'm ready to have human friends? Why does he get to decide that the friends I've grown up with aren't good enough all of a sudden?" I said.

"Your mother and I decided it was best for you," dad said.

"Both of you? Or did you just seduce mom into it!" I said.

"Renesmee Carlie Cullen!" mom yelled as Uncle Emmett laughed.

"You have to give her credit, she's good." Uncle Emmett said.

"You're not helping the situation!" Aunt Rosalie said as she hit Uncle Emmett's arm.

"Your father did not seduce me. We both think you need to embrace your human side as much as your vampire side," mom said.

"Oh really? And do you both also think it's best to take me away from all of my friends?" I asked, "How would you like it if you couldn't see Jacob?" I asked.

I saw her cringe and I knew I was right. She wouldn't be happy at all because Jake is her friend as much as he is mine.

"This doesn't change anything," dad said.

"The least you could do is let me wait for Jake to come back," I said.

"No Nessie we have to leave now," dad replied.

"No!" I said, "I don't want to. Not without talking to Jake first."

"You can call him on our way," mom said, "But we have to go Ness."

I sighed, all I wanted was to be able to talk to Jake face to face and find out why he got so upset all of a sudden. I wanted Jake to be here with me, maybe then I'd have something to look forward to. As we drove away from our home in forks all I could wonder was when the next time I'd be able to see Jake would be. I hoped it was sometime before my parents decided enough time had passed and we could move back. I sighed, Colorado here we come. Without Jake. If only Jake would have stayed human for a while longer my plan might have worked and Jake might be sitting in the seat next to me. I was glad for my mom shielding my thoughts from dad because I had to figure out a plan so that Jake could be with us in Colorado. My plan failed when Jake left because I planned on telling him to hide in the back of the car. I knew that if my mom was shielding both our thoughts then my plan would have worked. I shook my head as I looked out the window hoping that Jake had a better idea.

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