Title: Broken
Author: Gacktaddict1330
Pairing: Gackt/Hyde, Chachamaru/You, Ken/Tetsuya
Genre: Romance/Drama
Rating: M
Warnings: some gore, insanity, guy lovin XD
Summary: One of them is institutionalized and completely insane after an incident in his past. The other is perfectly sane but doesn't want to admit his best friend's completely gone after an encounter he has with the man while he's institutionalized. *sucky summary sorry*
Notes: Alright, so I just wanted to apologize for such a long hiatus. I am working on this again, I swear. I've been meaning to post this, but I've been so busy moving that I never got around to it. I am so sorry!
Review Answers:
O928soubi at .jp: Oh…alright then, I learned a new word to use in this…XD You're reviews are always perfect dear, they're full of hyper randomness and cheer me up ^o^ *pokes you* Never saw any pictures XD
AngelicButterfly777: It gets better in this chapter :3 lol yea, for some reason Kaz is always acting like a jerk in my stories…kinda like poor Kami XD Hm….that does sound like a good one-shot XD I'll try that later ^o^
Esstell: Well…it's been 8 months, but here's more XD
Bloodypleasure: lol of course you can mark it! I love that song and you're right, it does work here lol
Disclaimer: The boys own themselves, ^^
The month passed, melting into nearly two and Hyde still did not return to the hospital, as it stood, no one had even heard from him.
"You, is Hyde back yet?" Gackt asked softly.
"I don't know Gaku." You confessed.
"Oh…" The patient sighed heavily.
"Don't worry though! He'll be here sooner than you know!" You said trying to fake cheerfulness.
"Why…don't I believe you?" Gackt burbled.
"I promise Gaku, he'll come back."
"Pft, yeah ok."
You sat quietly, upset at his friend's attitude, though he could not blame him for such feelings. Hours passed by with no sounds save for the monitor on Gackt and Chacha's occasional visits in, those didn't last long due to the tense atmosphere in the room though. Suddenly a knock rang out in the silence. The door opened a fraction and Hyde poked his head in timidly.
"Gaachan?" He called out meekly.
Gackt looked up and a genuine smile found its way on to his face.
"Haido!" He exclaimed.
You looked momentarily shocked before smiling and shivering.
"You came. See Gaku! I told you he'd be here!" He said grinning.
Gackt smiled shyly at the vocalist as he made his way in to the room.
"Hey Gaachan." He said.
You casually slipped out the door, giving the two some well-deserved privacy. Slowly Hyde's smile fell, giving way to an anxious, nervous look.
"Hyde I-"
"Gackt I'm so sorry!" Hyde interrupted.
"Sorry? For what?" Gackt asked.
"I began to lose faith in you, and in myself. I was beginning to doubt you could ever get better. I thought…I actually considered never coming back to see you. I'm so sorry! I don't know why I thought like that, but I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Hyde said quickly, bowing low over and over again.
"Hyde." Gackt said in a forceful tone, one that made Hyde stop his movements and stare at the former soloist with wide eyes.
"It doesn't matter to me what you thought." He said. He made a beckoning motion with his head and once Hyde was beside his bed he raised long arms up, wrapping them around Hyde's neck, pulling him down and embracing him.
"All that matters to me is the fact you came back to me." He whispered gently. Hyde was shocked that he was able to move his arms; no one had called in a while to update him. Quickly his shock wore off and he hugged Gackt back tightly. They stayed in each other's arms for an undetermined amount of time before Hyde had to stand straight.
"When did they remove the restraints?" He asked.
"Last week." Gackt announced proudly.
"That's great."
"They said it means I'm well on the way to getting out of this place, and the institution." Gackt explained softly.
"I'm happy to hear that." Hyde said with a fond smile.
Gackt smiled back, before his smile fell.
"Gaachan?" Hyde inquired.
"Oh…I was just…thinking is all."
"About what?" The small vocalist asked.
"What I'm going to do when I get out." Gackt said quietly.
"Well, first thing, we're getting you new clothes, and then, you're going to see Ryue." Hyde instructed.
Gackt stared wide eyed.
"And then, at least for a little while, you'll be staying in the apartment with us."
Gackt stared at his friend, slack jawed.
"Wait what?"
"You heard me. You're staying with us. I don't want you by yourself so soon after you are released.
Please don't fight me on this either Gackt." Hyde requested.
"Hyde I…" Gackt trailed off, suddenly nervous.
"Yes?" Hyde responded patiently.
"Um how…how do you…no never mind. It's nothing really important."
"No, what were you going to ask? For you to ask, it must be important, at the very least, it's important to you." Hyde urged.
"W-well, someone told me that you…had feelings for me…I-I just wondered how you felt." Gackt mumbled.
Hyde blushed bright red, and looked to the suddenly fascinating tile beneath his feet.
"I um…I…I do….have feelings for you but…um…"
"No, never mind. Like I said, it's nothing important, and I'm sorry to bug you like this." Gackt said quickly.
Hyde looked at the former soloist, before leaning down and pressing a gentle kiss to his mouth.
"I do have feelings for you." He said softly.
Gackt's lips curved into a smile and he slowly began to raise his arms to wrap around the small vocalist but he hesitated, preparing to lower them. Hyde gave a soft, understanding smile and took Gackt's wrists in hand, wrapping them around his waist.
"Now, you have to get better. Swear to me you will." Hyde said.
"I'll try…I make no promises
"No, you will. You will get better, and then you'll get out of here. When you do…if you want that is, you'll have a family to come home to." Hyde said in a shy voice.
Gackt stared at him, still slightly shocked.
Beginning to feel nervous, the smaller male shifted from leg to leg, waiting for an answer.
His companion smiled, before pulling him close as possible without pulling him onto the bed.
"I'd like that very, very much." He said with a warm smile.
Hyde grinned happily.
"Ryue will be happy to see you." He said
"What about you?"
"Well, I'll be happy to see you out of here too. When you're home, I can do this," Hyde paused and leaned down to kiss him.
"To you more often."
Gackt smiled before that smile fell.
"Wait…what about your career? You can't be seen with a male partner, much less a former singer, who's spent years in an institution for mentally unstable patients." He said quietly.
Hyde smile faltered for a moment before he shrugged.
"I don't care."
"You should care! This could ruin your career and everything you've worked for! It could-"Hyde cut off his rant with a deep kiss, pulling back an inch.
"You're who I want. I want you to help raise Ryue, and I want you in my life. If people stop liking my music because of that, then they only liked me because of how I look and act, not because they like my music. Those aren't the kind of fans I want any way."
Gackt stared, completely in shock.
"H-Haido…"
"Gackt, this is my decision. Please respect it. If it's not what you want, please tell me now, before this goes any farther between us."
There was no hesitation in Gackt when he answered.
"I want this; I just don't want to see you get ruined because of me. I've done enough of that to last a life time…or three."
Hyde chuckled lightly, before looking at the clock.
"I've got to go, I have an interview today. I'm sorry Gaachan."
"It's alright. You came to see me, and you've offered me something I can't compete with. I don't mind an interview. Be careful okay?"
"Kay."
Gackt watched as Hyde left the room, stopping to talk to You before running off.
'A family…and a home…all in about thirty minutes too.' He thought with a laugh.
