Harvey Specter stood there in the aftermath, dumbfounded and speechless. Donna loved him? He had always had his suspicions, but they had been quashed after her whole "I love you like a brother" spiel and he hadn't given it much of a thought since. Well, that wasn't true. He had forgotten about stupid Stephen Huntley. He gave him what they guy deserved, though, doing that to his Donna.
Except the fact Donna wasn't his. She was literally walking towards the elevator, about to leave him for who knows how long. And for the first time, Harvey Specter followed his instinct based on nothing solely but his feelings.
Trying to clear his eyes, he stormed after his secretary (now ex-secretary, he supposed), mind racing to logic this one out. Deep down, he knew that Donna meant something to him, but he had refused to admit it in the past 14 years. He would never feel so much loyalty and respect for any other woman, that was for sure. And he would undoubtedly trust her with his life, though he hoped it would never come to that. In all their time, she had never been an ex-girlfriend or an ex-anything, but now, more than ever, she felt like a something. Something he could hold on to, someone he could grow to open up to and let his walls down. She had bypassed most of them anyway.
And before he knew it, there she was. Standing there, hand over her mouth, face a mixture of sadness and shock. The elevator doors were closing, but Harvey thanks his lucky stars for boxing because he was able to stop them at the last second with his hand.
"You really couldn't wait for the next elevator? You did that when I got fired." Donna shot at him, ashamed he had to see her with her mascara running yet again.
In that moment, Harvey was unsure of plenty of things, but one thing he knew he wanted to do right now was kiss her until the sun came up.
"Shut up, Donna."
And before she knew it, he had pressed her into the corner of the elevator and attacked her lips with his. He was scared momentarily that he had been wrong interpreting her words, that she still loved him like a brother, until she opened her mouth and he openly groaned. From then on, their kisses were hungry and hurried, both unable to stop. The elevator could shut down and they wouldn't even notice; they were too absorbed in the feel of each other. But as Harvey slid his thigh between her legs and she irresistibly grinded herself against him, it was her this time who put a stop to it, despite how hard it was.
"Harvey, we can't," she panted.
"Why not?" He ignored her and began to press kisses up and down her neck, and it took her every strain of self control not to let herself be fucked by Harvey straight up in this elevator.
"Because it's not for the right reasons. Like you said. I refuse to give in to you if you're just looking for a one night stand." She tried so hard to push back her tears. Why was confrontation so damn hard?
"Donna," he closed his eyes and took a breath.
"What? You don't think I deserve at least that much?"
"No, it's not that. It's just- You of all people, Donna, should know that I'm not good with feelings. You are one of the select few who know why. Okay? I'm not past it. Scottie once told you I was different and you told her to suck it up. Now I'm here, okay? I'm trying to… change. And I'm not trying to tell you to suck it up or anything, but.."
She huffed. But damn Harvey Specter, best closer and all. Even when he was a bumbling idiot that made 0 sense, he was still somehow convincing.
He bumbled around before he took a deep breath and began again.
"Look, here's the bottom line, Donna. I don't know what love is. I don't know how it feels. I don't know if that's how I feel about you right now, and I don't know if I'll ever feel that way about anyone. But this whole trial made me realize there's no one in this world I care more about than you. I would do anything to protect you and keep you here by my side. If I had to ask someone to move my million dollar Mercedes, I'd ask you. You're a woman who drives me crazy during the day but one who I'm eternally grateful to have at the end of it, even after fourteen hour days. Every day I get into work, seeing you and talking to you makes my day a little bit brighter, and you're right, I take that for granted. You're the only person I wouldn't mind waking up to, even if it is to a sarcastic comment about how I definitely need more beauty So don't leave me. Because I may not be in love with you with certainty yet, but I'm pretty sure I'm pretty damn close. And more than a decade of these ambiguous feelings is," he looked down at his pants and she followed his gaze,
"...definitely putting a dent to it," she finished for him. She smirked at him. Even with her makeup smudged and running, Donna was seriously a natural beauty, inside and out.
"But is this want you want, Harvey? You're an eternal bachelor. I don't want that for me. This could be the end of a no-strings-attached era for you."
"That's fine by me. Someone almost gave me an STD two weeks ago, I've been done with casual sex since."
"You almost got a what?! Okay, forget it. Get checked and then we'll talk."
"Already did. Remember that extra long lunch I took last Friday?"
"Weren't you talking to Evan Smith?"
"Yeah, like convincing her would take two full hours."
"I still don't think I want anything to do with you anymore."
"Oh yeah?" He smirked, rising up to the challenge. Before she knew it, Donna was weak in the knees as Harvey shamelessly attacked her weak spot behind her ear while whispering what he had planned to do to her if she gave in. He had discovered this weakness of hers the last time.
"Alright, alright! Let's go."
And with that, they left together into Ray's car, where he didn't stop from touching her inappropriately, but only in places where Ray couldn't see. He felt giddy as they pulled in front of his apartment. The dynamic between him and Donna had just changed dynamically, headed into a direction that usually led to straight disaster. But this time, he felt oddly zen. There was a deep feeling in his gut that things would turn out just fine.
gonna finish this one too with some more chapters! FLUFFY SEXY TIMES AHEAD BE WARNED. keep the comments a-coming! on summer break!
