Maddie's POV
I'm sick. And this is the type of illness that can't be healed by any amount of medicines, or even dance.
I'm downright sick of life.
And why am I? It makes no sense.
Think about it. Rich, bratty, young teenager. Famous and worldwide known. Met every big celebrity, been on tons of shows. Wealthier than you will ever be. Spend her days in LA doing what she loves, dance.
So why am I so ready to retire? To disappear and have no more people following me around, no more people judging me on everything I do. Days when I can just go hang out with friends, go to school, be an ordinary teenage girl. Isn't my life every girls dream?
I sigh tucking my head into the crook of my arm refusing to open my eyes. I don't want the bright light of the morning sun to stream under my eyelids and force me to admit morning had come. I don't want to go to the audition. I just want to stay here in bed. I don't want to see Abby, or mom. I just want to sleep in for once.
"Maddie!" I hear my mom call up the stairs. "Maddie, you are not still in bed are you?"
I moan rolling over grabbing my pillow and pulling it over my head. It's not morning; I tell myself soothingly, go back to bed.
"MADDIE! Don't make me come up there and drag you out!" mom yelled up the stairs threat in her voice. "Reilly, Emily, Nia and Kalani are already at the studio!"
I sighed sitting up squinted against the bright light. "I'm up! Leave me alone!" I snap at her rubbing my eyes.
I see Kendall sitting across the room doing her makeup smirking at me in the mirror.
"Maddie! Don't talk to me that way! Do you want to lose your phone again?" I hear mom shout angrily.
I roll my eyes ignoring her as I hop out of bed.
"Thanks for waking me up" I say sarcastically to Kendall.
She smiles. "your welcome. But seriously, I tried to you kicked me in the face and told me to let you sleep in peace. Im serious! You were like 'mlettt me sweelp in pwease!'" Kendall said mimicking sleeping me. I laugh slipping out of bed and heading for the bathroom.
Within 20 minutes, Kendall and I and Mackenzie are ready to go. I sit in the car beside Kendall, staring out the window watching the world fly by like a blur. It looks an awful lot like me life.
Behind me I can hear Mackenzie and Kendall chatting. They never shut up. Especially Kendall. She's so annoying.
I instantly feel guilty. Why did I think that? Did I actually just think that? That wasn't me? What's going on with me? Kendall's not annoying. She's my best friend, practically my sister. And she's the friendliest person on earth.
I roll my eyes. My mind is turning against me. This is what happens when your over stressed and under slept.
"Now Maddie. Make sure you focus on your dancing today. Perform! Use your emotions! Don't get nervous, shine. Alright?" Mom told me sternly. I rolled my eyes refusing to acknowledge her comments. She annoys me to death, just like Abby.
"Madison I'm talking to you! Show some respect young lady. You have been very disrespectful today. Do you need me to take that no-good phone of your again?" mom threatened.
Suddenly completely fed up with mom, I turned "Look mom, I'm tired and your annoying me and I'm not stupid, I know how to friken audition! So leave me alone! I don't care if you take my phone! I can't even go on social media and I live with my friend so why would I need to text her! So just shut up and turn around and stop trying to pretend you're a good mother!" I yelled my fury flying out at her. For a moment anger surges through me.
I turn away feeling the anger drain out and the shock slipping in. what did I just do?
"Maddison Ziegler. I am shocked by your behavior. We are going to have a nice chat later. Do you understand me?" mom said quietly.
Knowing better than to piss her off more I nodded meekly.
"Well… anyways, as I was saying" Mackenzie starts up awkwardly trying to continue her conversation with Kendall.
I sigh lying against the window. I can't do this. I can feel tears forming pressing against my eyes threatening to come out. I squeeze my eyelids closed refusing to allow their appearance.
We pull into the studio and we pile out.
Time for another audition. Time to suck and let the new dancers defeat you. Time to her your teammates. Yep that's what I do best. I sigh running my hand through my hair as I climb the stairs to the studio.
I can't do this anymore.
