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here's the next chapter. enjoy!
When she woke up, he was staring at her and she was back in the hospital room.
"What happened?" she asked and her hands went to her stomach.
"They had to do a c-section" he told her and went and sat on the edge of the bed. "Our son is beautiful" he told her softly
She smiled, "Where is he?"
Pain flashed across his face, "Because you were only in week 30, he's very small…they heard a heart murmur and opened him up, his heart is tiny …they are working on it right now and Hahn's working on him, Bailey's assisting even though it's not her speciality, she insisted…" he told her in a hushed voice, "But he did cry when he came out…that's a good sign"
Meredith nodded a little and then asked, "Why aren't you with him?"
"They kicked me out" he told her, "I tried to stay with him but…well, you know they hate that kind of stuff"
Meredith nodded again. She bit her lip and tears rose in her eyes and whispered, "I'm scared"
"I'm scared too" he told her and took her hand
"I hope they come talk to us soon" she said and he nodded and then asked, tentatively, "I know this might be a really inappropriate time to ask…but I need to know.." she looked into his eyes as he continued, "Did you only say yes to getting married because you thought you might die?"
She could see in his eyes how scared he was that she would say yes. And she wanted to be honest but she didn't know how much the truth would hurt him.
"Honestly…." She began, "When they started taking me away, as stupid as it sounds, I did think I might die and I realised that if I did I wouldn't have had the chance to marry you and I wanted at least to be able to be your fiancée if I did and that if I didn't die, I didn't want to spend time waiting to be ready to get married…I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you…I might not be ready but I don't care, I want to marry you"
He smiled, "I think that means you're ready" he replied and kissed her gently, "I'm glad you're Ok…I just wish I could say the same for our boy"
"Me too"
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After a while, Dr Bailey came in with a wheelchair. "Your son's doing well" she told them, "We've managed to insert a shunt…and his heart will grow…but you can go see him now"
She brought the chair to the bed for Meredith, who looked at Derek and said, "Go…go to him now…it's going to take me a while to get into that chair and he needs his father"
After kissing the top of her head, he left, running. She saw him run down the corridor and to the stairwell; clearly he wasn't going to wait for an elevator.
She smiled and slowly started to get out the bed, helped by Bailey. She winced as she felt the stitches stretched slightly but was determined to get to her son as quickly as possible.
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Doctors and nurses alike jumped out of his way as he ran down the corridors, through automatic doors. He had to get to his son; he had to see this through. He made it there and burst through the doors of the NICU and over to the plastic box, the incubator, that had a sign reading in big, bold letters "Grey-Shepherd Baby". His son.
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She could see him standing over an incubator as they neared the NICU. He turned to her when hearing the doors open. He was beaming.
"He'll be alright" he told her as Bailey stopped the wheelchair by him and left to go. "He'll be alright" he repeated, "our son"
Meredith put her hand in the opposite side to where Derek's hand was. She touched her son's tiny hand with her finger and he gripped it tightly. She looked up at Derek, "I think you're right" she told him, "He'll be alright"
After a while, there was a little gathering at the window of the NICU. Izzie was staring through the glass, grinning almost as much as Derek. George looked over-whelmed and Alex had a similar expression. Cristina's face was expressionless but her eyes met Meredith's and she gave her a smile and mouthed, "McBaby". Mark was there too, a big smile on his face. He was shouting something about his godson to the people around and Meredith couldn't help but laugh a little.
"We're quite popular" she told him and Derek looked over too. He smiled at Mark and the Chief. Bailey and Hahn were there too and he made a mental note to thank them when he could tear himself away from his son. Callie was there in the background, smiling and saying something that made others nod. He could see Lexie there and saw her smile and point and say something to one of her friends. He read her lips and saw the word "nephew". She and Meredith had become closer and closer in the past year and he was sure that she would be a part of their son's life. He looked at his friends one last time before looking down at his son.
"He's the most famous baby in the hospital" he told Meredith who nodded in agreement and added, "He'll probably end up with an ego to envy his father's"
Derek laughed a little. "Well, that's only because he'll be as talented as I am"
Meredith just replied with a disinterested "Mmm" and they left it at that.
Looking up later, they saw more people had turned up, people they didn't know that well. It seemed that news had gone round that hospital that Grey and Shepherd had had their baby early, a dramatic birth to match their parents' dramatic relationship. Perhaps the hospital that had seen the start of their relationship, as well as the many temporary stops on it, just wanted to see the results, the culmination of the birth of their son. Their baby boy…their…
"We don't have a name for him" Derek commented after hours of just staring
"No" Meredith agreed, "We don't"
"Do you have any ideas?...we didn't get very far the last time we brought up names"
"That's because you wanted to go with boring names like John or Daniel" she told him
"Well, at least I had ideas" he told her
She ignored his comment and looked up at the window again. Most people had gone, including most of their friends but Mark and Izzie were still there.
"Invite them in" she told him, "Let them meet him…and page Cristina"
