Chapter 7
Letting go is the way it has to be.
I felt so bad for manipulating her emotions. Mainly because I wanted her choices to be her own but it also felt just as bad as lying to her.
"Thank you." I muttered, heading over to the bed, reaching under it and pulling my bag out, all packed and ready to go.
"You've been thinking about this for a while huh?" She breathed, still in a kind of trance.
"I guess so." I smiled, and then tragically slumped over to the window. Once I was fixed on the ledge all I had to do was let go. Release her and me. Seconds from loosening my grip I turned back to Alice.
"Tell me, Alice," I whispered.
"I…I..." She couldn't do it on her own, I urged her on with my power so she could get over the worst of it.
"I let you go Jazz, I don't need you." I nodded appreciatively and then did the one thing I never thought I would do, let go. My hand slipped and I was falling. For a fraction of a second I flew, then I crashed to the ground and walked away from the one place I ever called home. I slipped into the forest, looking back only once, she was standing by the window just looking, pain swelled her eyes and she then turned away and step away into the shadows. She was gone. Now we could both live in peace. I would return to my eternal slumber until I was near her again but that didn't matter; I would give anything for her.
Seconds, minutes, hours, it didn't matter; time meant nothing. After who knows how long I had set up a small camp deep in the forest consisting of a fire and log for a bench. Yeah, some camp. I didn't need the fire but it felt nice against my stone cold skin. I sat thinking, just thinking, about everything and yet nothing. I would have run as far as I could but I couldn't bring myself to leave just yet; I had to make sure she wasn't going to do anything stupid. Lord knows what a distraught vampire mind can do.
"Jasper Whitlock, how many times must I come and bring you home?" Carlisle, for god's sake! Will he ever let go? I sighed in frustration.
"Why are you here?" I demanded, tired of his constant rules and restrictions. I mean I loved him, don't get me wrong, but doesn't he know when to stop and give a guy some privacy and time to himself?
"I should ask the same question," he breathed, walking over and sitting on the log bench next to me.
"I am here for a little time on my own to think about things." I muttered.
"No, you're not, you're running away." He warned, a hint of danger in his tone at my actions.
"What would you do?" I pleaded, urging him to give me some sort of answer.
"I would return to my wife who loves me very much and is owed it to her." He smiled, patting me on the shoulder. "You won't leave, your heart is not in it."
"How do you know?" I challenged, standing up, getting ready to leave.
"Because you would have left already." He observed, nodding at the fire. I sighed; he knew me to well and it pained me, I had always remained an enigma to others that no one could solve, yet him… Carlisle could read me like that. He was truly a remarkable person.
"I will see you at home, Jasper, Alice will be waiting," he murmured, rising and heading back to the house.
"Yeah, I know," I smiled, picturing Alice at the front door, arms out for me. What a lucky person I am. I put out the fire and headed back home, damn it I could never leave, she was all I needed in life, why go and search for something I already have? My own little slice of Heaven to take on Hell.
FIN
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