Chapter 7- Mariposa Traicionera

"Adam?" He hears Eli.

"I just need to talk to her" Adam explains that to Holly J over the phone. "I miss her"

"Adam it's done. I mean just let it go" She tells him. "She left just like that." "Well I mean you guys were just starting ruin each others lives and-"

"Ruin her life? How?!" Adam's body feeling shocked by the news. "Just don't..whatver. I didn't mean it. Just forget I said anything" Holly J tells him and ends the call. "So what did she say?" Drew asks. Adam can barely breathe. "I ruined her life" he tells his brother, his voice cracking as he said the sentence. "She says I ruined the girl that I love's life." Adam looks at Drew as they seat in Drew's living room, Adam's eyes watering. He gasps a little for air to stop the tears. "I ruined her life" he chokes back a sob. "I ruined her life" he wipes away his tears. "I didn't mean to ruin her life. I didn't know I had ruined it. She must think I'm pathetic."

"That's what Holly J said?" Drew asks again. "She must think I'm worthless" "Adam you don't know that" Drew tries to reassure his bother. "She doesn't want to talk to me for a reason!" Adam states, wiping his nose now. "I can't believe I ruined her life though. If she would give me one more chance, I'd tell her I didn't mean to." Drew swung his arm around his brother's shoulder.

"Adam? Adam?!" Eli tries again, seeing his friend off in his mind.

"So what do you think?" Adam looks back at Fiona and smiles, his hand spread out to his sides as he shows her one of the apartments he was checking out. "It's great, right?" Adam walks inside the empty living room space. "It's amazing, Adam" "I mean its kind of a small place, but since its just going to be me" Adam tells her. "No no, it's really good."

"I mean I really don't want a big pace and not have anybody here" he joked. "I told you already. You could always mov-" "I know, but you need your space and I need mine and this way he could always go to your place or mine" Adam winked at her. Adam starts to walk and gestures around where he would be placing his things. "I was thinking maybe right here on this empty wall my T.V could go, you know get a futon as a couch right here for now till I get some cash, get some cheap stuff and have this place looking nice"

Adam grabs her hand and walks her to the one room apartment. "Here I could get a nice bed for us" Adam looks at her. "For us?" Fiona asks. Adam laughs and stands in front of her, grabbing her hands into his. "I mean when you come over, I want you to be comfortable. Maybe treat this place like, you know, your home away from home" "That's sweet Adam. Even while looking for things for you, I always end up being a priority too" Fiona grins. "Fiona, I told you already. I will always care for you, even if you stopped caring for me" Adam put his right hand on her cheek.

"Don't say that" she frowned and she looked at him. She brings him closer to her, their foreheads on one another, their eyes closed. "I would, beautiful." Adam nearly chokes up. "I don't want it to happen, but if it ever did and you ever stopped loving me-" "I won't" she tells him sternly. "There is nothing you can ever do or say to make me stop loving you, Adam Torres"

"But if you did" He told her, sighing. "Just know that I will never, ever stop loving you. No matter what, I will never stop caring for you." He meant every word. Every single cell and fiber of his being meant exactly what he was telling her and he wanted her so badly to know that. "So how are you going to paint the room?" Fiona changing the subject and pulling away, still holding on to his hand. Adam always knew that talking about this sort of things always made her change her mood and the subject. "I uhh haven't thought about it yet" Adam smiled at her as she leaned towards him and kissed him tenderly on the lips. "You're too good for me, you know that?" "I was going to say the same thing about you" he stares into her eyes. "You're the best thing that has ever happened in my life"

"Adam?" Eli shakes him now, his phone in his hand.

"Huh?" Adam dumbfounded as he comes back to the reality. "What happened?" "Dude you scared the crap out of me, that's what happened" Eli told him, putting his phone back at his home page and putting it back in his pocket as he was about to dial Clare. "You scared the crap out of me!" Eli tells him. Adam nods, not really sure why he was nodding. It felt like a train had passed over him and Fiona was the conductor of it. Just thinking about the past, images of her, images of their love came back to his head, int his mind.

"I have to…I have to talk to her?" Adam says, like a question more than a statement. "What? Talk to her? No, no you're not talking to her, alright? She's done enough." "Eli, you're my best friend, but I hate you right now" Adam looks over at his best friend. "What? Come one, man, you can't hate me over some girl"

"No. She's not just some girl. I really, really love her and I can't have my best friend fighting with me all the time because you can't approve of the girl I love. I don't want to choose between the both of you" Eli shakes his head. "You wouldn't have to" he tells Adam. " And I don't want to, but if it came to that, you wouldn't like the choices I would make" Eli scoffs. "You mean you would throw our friendship away for some chick?" "No. She's the girl I'm going to be in love with for the rest of my life even when I'm not part of hers anymore and if I have one single chance of glimpse with her, I'm going to take it" Adam gets up and walks over to the door, grabbing his keys and leaving.

Adam parks his car at the entrance of Fiona's hotel. "Sir you are going to have to move your car" he hears. "Tow it" he tells them but then looks at the doorman. "Hey you remember me, right? You think you could help me out?" he asks and gets a nod. "Thanks, man" Adam hands him his keys and goes into the large lobby, but has no time to admire it.

"Hi" he says as he walks up to the front desk. "Can I help you, sir" the desk clerk asks. "Yes I need to know what room Fiona Coyne is in." "Ok name, please?" she asks. "Uhh actually can you call her and tell her Adam is down here?" he asks. Adam watches as the girl picks up the phone and starts to dial. "Hi. Is Fiona Coyne up there?...Well she has an Adam waiting for her downstairs?...ok…ok" She hangs up and looks at Adam. "She'll be down in a minute, sir" Adam's heart starts to race, but this time for the hurt he felt inside as it broke. He wanted, no needed an explanation for her actions. It wasn't a long wait as the lobby elevators are in view and he hears the bell of the elevator ring as the doors open.

"Fuck" he grinds between his teeth as Holly J walks with her phone in her hand up to him. "Holly J you are NOT the person I want to see" He tells her sternly. "Relax, Adam. You don't have to scream. Fiona doesn't want to come down." "Why doesn't she want to see me? She talked to me yesterday. What did I just vanish for her mind in one day?! Like I meant nothing?"

"Well today is not yesterday, Adam. It's a new day" Holly J explains. "No its not. How can she go from one day telling me something to the next not even wanting to speak to me or hear from me anymore? Who does that? Who promises you one thing one day and does something else the next day? It doesn't work that way" Holly J lets out a groan. "Ugh Adam what do you want me to say? I can't read her mind and I can't tell you what you want me to tell you" Adam steps up. "Then let me talk to her" Adam already saw the look on her face. "Don't say it please" he told her and Holy J looked at him with that pity look on her face.

Adam can't hold it back anymore. "Again?Again?" the tears work themselves out as he starts to laugh. "Again she does this. I mean it was bad enough the first time. She does it again. Just like…" "Adam" "Just don't, Holly J. You're her friend. You're already on her side; you married into her family, for fuck sake." Adam looking at her. "I'm sorry."

"You say something I don't want to hear. You think I want to here sorry? You're not even the person I want to talk to, but I have no choice but to talk to you because...she doesn't want to hear anything from me.' Adam starts to loose it even more now, he swallows his cries, but they overpower him. "I just want to talk to her" he says to the floor in a whisper. "But she can't even give me that" Adam doesn't care how many sounds from the lobby or who is talking around them, for a moment he feels the room alone and quite, like he is the only one there talking to dead air. Tears cover his cheeks as they roll down. "I thought she was the girl I was going to marry" still talking to the floor, but speaking so Holly J could hear. "I pictured so many times me walking into my kitchen and just…" Adam closes his eyes as the dreams he had about her come back to him. "…She's trying to cook and I'm just there looking at her and smiling. I wrap my arms around her and I feel her so close" Adam closes his eyes tightly. "I ask her what she is doing and she tells me she is trying to cook eggs. She burns them. I tell her I didn't marry her for her eggs" his hand goes straight to his eyes, holding the tears there and wiping away the rest. "I married her because I love her"

"Adam she was your first love" Holly J injects. "No she wasn't but she was the most important love I had!" he tells her. "She was the one that meant something. She was the one that gave hope to the little kid a long time ago who expected something different in his life than the outcome he was dealt, but life just keeps kicking him in the balls. That's all h has been ever good for and the one chance, the one glimpse he has of this beautiful girl saving him from all that, change his future from his broken past, but he can't even get that. I guess I jut fooled that stupid kid inside of me to believing that."

Adam walked away, leaving Holly J to end her call with Fiona she had as she came out of the elevator, Adam knot knowing that Fiona knew what he had just said. Adam grabbed his keys from the door man, wiping the last tears. "Hey what's your name?" "Frank, sir" he tells Adam. "Thanks, Frank for your help." Adam gets into his car and drives away, not knowing where he was going right now, and not caring.

End of Chapter 7