Yay, I'm almost done with the story, just two more chapters...I think...Anyway, I hope you guys enjoy this chapter, it's probably my favorite so far since I had a lot of fun writing this one (but not like the other one's weren't fun to write too). Upcoming fluff in the next two chapters by the way!
IMPORTANT: I'm not sure whether to make my next story rated M or T...Just because it's interesting to hear everybody's thoughts, which would you prefer to read, something M (probably gonna be some smut, but I'm not sure if I'm gonna be good at it so maybe hold off on that?) or just continue with fluff and just mention of the pervy stuff (rate it T). Meh, I'm still undecided so if you guys could help me out, it'd be much appreciated! Back to the story~
Getting ready in the mornings isn't too difficult for me, but I hadn't set my alarm for six o'clock in the morning like I usually do. I also didn't text Shizu-chan like I usually do; that usually wakes him up so he's not late for school because he's sometimes very lazy. But despite that, I hear the doorbell ring and pound against my eardrum. I quickly close my door and lock it. I scavenge around my closet for something to wear and try to get dressed as fast I can. I slip on my shoes and tie them before heading downstairs before my little sisters can get to it, but today they had already beat me to it.
"Hello, Shizu-chan." Mairu chimes as she looks at the tall guy before her. "You should have heard Izaya a couple minutes ago he was moaning for—" I keep my hand tightly on her precious little mouth and nervously laugh as I say good morning to Shizu-chan. Before I can say anything else, my sister gives me a good bite on my hand, making me release her. I look at the wound and curse under my breath as I watch her run off upstairs with Kururi.
"Yeah you better run you little cretins! I'm making sure the next time we go to the zoo that we leave you two in the gorilla's pen!" I yell at them furiously and then turn to Shizu-chan with a calm expression as if nothing happened. "So, how's Kasuka?"
"He's better but he still hasn't gotten up yet. Um…what's up with this…?" Shizu-chan asks as he shows me the tag of my shirt hanging in the front. I curse myself for being so clumsy. Shizu-chan nervously scratches the back of his head. I then notice that he has a bag behind him so I try and see what it is but he continues to hide it. "Um…I…I made you something to say I'm sorry…again…" He says as he finally reveals the bag and hands it to me. "I'm sorry if it tastes bad…I'm not an expert, especially at baking."
"You baked me something?" I ask excitedly as I take the surprise out of the bag and find a devil's food cake in a container. I blush at the gift, but then cough nervously. "It's not great, but it's not like it's inedible." I say slyly.
"Sure, whatever flea." He says with a glare. "Look, Kasuka made me bake it for you. If anything, it's actually from him since he's your boyfriend." Shizu-chan practically spits out the word 'boyfriend' as if it were some bad tasting home cooked meal.
"Ne, ne why are you so angry?" I ask as I start eating the small cake with my fingers. I lick off the chocolate from my fingers and make pleased sounds as I indulge in it. It's the only sweet treat I can eat without barfing. Shizu-chan is eyeing my carefully with a blush on his face. I blink in surprise as I notice this and blush as well. "W-what, what are you staring for, protozoan!"
"Nothing…I was just…it just looks appealing…" He says.
"Well, too bad because I'm not giving you any."
"I wasn't talking about the cake." He mutters lowly so that I can't hear him. I caught some of what he said, but I brushed it off as idiot's talk.
"Hmm?" I ask curiously. He looks at me and shakes his head.
"You have some frosting on your face." He says as he points to my cheek. He brushes his thumb against my cheek and rubs off the chocolate frosting before bringing it to his lips and licking it off his thumb. I look at him as if he's some otherworldly creature (which he kind of is) and blush.
"Are you teasing me?" I ask carefully. He looks at me questioningly but doesn't answer. "I said are you teasing me!"
"Teasing you?"
"Jeez, I didn't know you were this dense Shizu-chan!" I say as I close my cake container and hand it back to him harshly. "Take it back. I don't want it anymore."
"What the fuck, flea? Are you fucking bipolar?" He asks angrily. "You get upset about such stupid things!" Suddenly his cell phone rings and I immediately figure that it's Hina-bitch.
"Yes?" He says as he goes outside and takes his call. I follow him outside and eavesdrop on this conversation, but he barely notices. "Oh? I can go pick you up and walk you to school." What? "No, no it's no problem. I'd be happy to. Okay, I'll be right over." He closes his phone and looks at me. "Since you're so mad at me I'm heading off. You can walk to school by yourself. I hope you get run over by a car." He says before heading off. I clench my fists and wish there was something big and heavy to throw at the brute for abandoning me. I know that's usually what Shizu-chan does since he's so strong and I know I'd never be able to pick up (much less throw) the things he does, but I'm so angry that I'm at least willing to try. He's fucking tossing me aside for that girl! How can he do that to someone he's known for more than ten years!
I get back inside the house and go to the kitchen and prepare a small breakfast. At first I slowly start eating it, but then I feel the gravity of these feelings inside me start to dampen my mood. My head falls into the bowl of white rice with vegetables and I groan in pain, not really physical pain more like emotional. I hear my sister's footsteps and I grumble something before they start poking me.
"Not right now…just let me die…" I say as I bury my face deeper into my rice.
"In a bowl of rice?" Mairu asks with a laugh. "Iza-ni, you're really dumb you know that?" Mairu says as she laughs a little.
"Thank you…just know that when I die, I'll die mad at you." I say as I glare at her. "Just get away from me."
"Why don't you just tell him the truth?" Mairu asks as she sits next to me.
"You say that as if it's simple."
"Well, it kind of is. I mean, it should be especially easy for you since you love to hear yourself talk; that's why you don't know when to shut up." Mairu explains with a smile. "Besides, you sound like you really want him by the way you always say his name in your sleep."
"GET. AWAY. FROM. ME." I say slowly to her. Kururi gets closer to me and shakes her head.
"Tell." She says simply.
"Do something big bro, otherwise someone else will." Mairu tells me as she plays with my cheeks. "You got me?" I nod and get up.
"You're right. Call Celty and tell her to come over. Tell her that plan two is gonna be a go." I say confidently. This calls for drastic measures. I can't believe I'm about to do this, but this is the last chance I have before Shizu-chan and Hina-bitch become even closer than they already are.
I wait for Celty for a little while before I spot her outside. I tell her to hurry before the first bell rings which is in twenty minutes. She nods and gets inside. Though I've already talked to her about the plan before and even told her before hand to bring the stuff with her, she still seems quite hesitant.
[Are you completely sure about this?]
"I'm positive." I say happily. Of course I'm positive. This is the last plan I have before my last resort is to just tell him straight off that I love him. Love…him…? I never thought I'd have to go through this. I always thought that love was something people bought from the grocery store, or something that was like a disease that you would die from. When I was little I was so afraid of it I even told my parent's I never wanted to attend school or go outside ever again. But that was then and this is now. Now I'm craving for the feelings that associate themselves with this 'love'. I want to love and be loved. I want to hold hands with Shizu-chan and be kissed by him…everywhere. I want to feel myself writhe beneath him and then brag about how great it was to my friends and then listen to them complain that our romance is just too gay, literally. I just want to experience everything with him because he's the only one I truly feel comfortable with.
If he ever asked me why I fell in love with him I'd have to say because he's a perfect mistake. He's a monster and yet he can be gentle and shy; sometimes even heroic if he keeps his priorities straight. I'd say that he makes me feel so right and yet so wrong at the same time and I absolutely hate feeling that way, but I also like that kind of challenge of dealing with those sorts of contrary emotions. I'd say I love the way he gets angry at me because it's so much fun to be chased by him because I feel special. Even if it's something small, he'll chase me for it. He'll desert whatever he's doing, whoever he's with to chase me. I'd say the passion of hate he sometimes has for me is so intense that it makes my heart beat fast. I'd say I love his blonde locks (even though his hair was brown before) and his mocha eyes (I completely sound like some lovesick girl). I'd say I love him because he's so strong and I feel safe when I'm with him.
But most importantly, I'd tell him I love him because despite everything that we've been through, he's never truly abandoned me. Even if he's with this Hina-bitch he's still around me. Even if he's yelled at me repeatedly, he's apologized. Our bond is strong. It was built when we were kids and we're inseparable even if Shizu-chan would like it better if we weren't.
I hitch a ride with Celty after our little meeting and make it to school ten minutes before the bell would ring. Everyone who I pass by looks at me with shocked expressions as if I'm some hideous monster, but I don't pay any attention to them. I'm just looking for Shizu-chan. I unfortunately run into Shinra first.
"Good morning Iza—" He says before taking in my full image. "W-what did you do to yourself?"
"Not right now, Shinra. Have you seen Shizu-chan?" I ask as I look at Shinra with a glare.
"Um…yeah he's with Kasuka and Hina-chan…They're over there." He says as he points at the small group. I quickly make my way to where Shizu-chan, Kasuka, and the man-stealer are sitting and stand in front of Shizu-chan to get his attention. Kasuka looks at me with shock and Hina-bitch covers her mouth, probably trying to keep herself from laughing. Some people were already laughing at me at the gate when I came in. Kasuka tells Shizu-chan that I'm right behind him and I tap his shoulder to have him know that I'm right here.
"What do you want—" Shizu-chan says before looking at me and then turns around to look at me. "What the fuck are you wearing, flea!" He says as he gets up frantically. Kasuka goes over to my side and puts a hand on my shoulder.
"Izaya…couldn't you have warned me before you came to school dressed like this?" Kasuka whispers to me uncomfortably. "Look, that doesn't matter; I have to tell you something…"
"Man, you look ridiculous flea. Where the hell did you even get a school girl's uniform?" Shizu-chan says as he looks at Hina-bitch. She puts a hand on his shoulder and tells him not be so rude. I clench my hands as she does this.
"It was you who called moments ago who needed someone to walk her to school right?" I ask angrily.
"Oh, yes, Shizu-chan was nice enough to pick me up and then we walked to his house to pick up Kasuka since he had slept in longer to get rid of a small headache he had." She says with a smile.
"Ah, are you feeling better then sweetheart~?" I ask Kasuka as I entwine my fingers with his. This strikes a reaction in both Shizu-chan and Hina-bitch.
"Flea, don't." Shizu-chan warns.
"Don't what?" I ask him angrily.
"I already—"
"Shut up! I'll do whatever the fuck I want!" I say as I suddenly kiss Kasuka on the mouth. God, I hadn't really planned that but…it was too late now. Immediately after I do this, Hina-bitch runs off with tears in her eyes. Shizu-chan tries to stop her but all he does now is quickly separate me and Kasuka. Shizu-chan looks over to Kasuka and motions him to chase after Hina. Kasuka nods and glares at me before leaving. I feel a bit left out so I look to Shizu-chan whose shooting daggers at me. I nervously laugh and look to the floor.
"Dammit Izaya I was going to say I already know about you and Kasuka faking being a couple." Shizu-chan says angrily. "You just had to go and do a stupid thing like that and ruin everything."
"What?"
"For a guy who brags about being a damn genius you sure are fucking stupid." Shizu-chan icily says as he rubs his temples in frustration. "I had just gotten Kasuka and Hina-chan together and you had to go and kiss him like that. Why the fuck did you do that?"
"What do you mean you had gotten them together? I thought Hina liked you." I say as I feel completely misinformed.
"What? Why would you think I liked her?"
"You were hanging out with her so much…I don't know…and you said on the telephone that you were in love with someone and you said her name before I hung up…"
"What? I don't remember talking about that sort of thing with you! I was talking to Kodata when I said that…" He suddenly looks at me fiercely. "That was you? What the fuck, flea! I beat the crap out of Kodata for hanging up on me!" Oh yeah…must have forgotten to warn Dota-chin about that…Whoopies.
"Hey…it's not my fault you're an idiot." I say with a laugh. "But forget about that…Explain."
"I wasn't saying that I liked her. I said her name because I was gonna say that she gave me advice to tell the person I liked that I like them for Christ's sake!" Shizu-chan says as he glares at me. "And I've been hanging out with her because she's been asking me stuff about Kasuka! She remembered me from when were classmates in primary school and figured that she could find out more about Kasuka through me."
"Then what about when you threw that vending machine at her…and that gift she gave you that day at the grocery store?"
"That was a fucking love letter she wanted me to give to Kasuka! I was hiding it from you because you're such a damn prick that you'd probably use it to cause her trouble!" He explains. "And the vending machine…she just…she just made me mad because she told me that she remembered how you and I were really close and she asked if we were lovers…It just made me so pissed that I did that without thinking…"
"Ah…being told such a thing would make you upset…since you hate me so much…" I say sadly as I grab onto the hem of my skirt. Damn this thing is breezy.
"W-what…? Why do you keep saying that I hate you?" He asks a little more calmly.
"Because you do! I've tried everything to get you to like me, I even dressed like this so you'd find me more appealing since I thought you liked Hina-chan and since she's a girl and such…" I say nervously as I feel my cheeks become red. "I even tried to make you jealous by pretending to be with Kasuka!"
"You…you did all that because you like me…?" He asks with a slight blush. I widen my eyes and curse myself for saying something so embarrassing. I nod without looking at him so as not to get even redder than I already am. "Then, then why the hell didn't you just tell me?"
"You seemed like you really didn't want me to even be around you, much less tell you I like you…" I say softly. "Besides we're guys…"
"I know…that's why I was so pissed at you before…"
"Huh?"
"I wasn't really mad at you…" He says honestly as he scratches the back of his head and blushes. "Look, I was…I was just really mad at you because for some stupid reason I thought that if I stayed far away from you then all the strange feelings I was having for you would go away…I guess I wasn't really mad at you, per say; I was mad at myself…for letting myself fall for someone like you and with a guy no less…"
"Shizu-chan…" I say suddenly feel the tears dripping down my face. I embrace him without much warning and nudge my face against his affectionately.
"Get off, flea!" He protests as he tries to pry me off. I shake my head and cling on for dear life. "Jeez…I haven't seen you cry since we were little…It makes me depressed when you cry…you know that?" He says shyly as he wipes my tears away with his thumb. "You really look ridiculous in this outfit." He says as he plays with my red scarf. "I can't believe you even stepped foot outside your house wearing this. Didn't your parent's even notice?"
"They left to work before they could see." I say as I stick out my tongue. "I think I look cute in this." I say as I twirl around and make the skirt lift up a little. Shizu-chan stops me with a blush on his face.
"Don't do that. Everyone's watching." He warns.
"Not like they weren't already." I say with a laugh. "So, I take it that Shizu-chan has been in love with me the whole time~?"
"Don't get so cocky." Shizu-chan says as he begins to walk away to get to our first class together.
"Shizu-chan isn't even gonna say it?" I ask as I skip next to him, earning a very famous glare from him.
"Say what?" I give him a pout and egg him on by clinging onto his arm like I used to do when we were in primary school. He doesn't slip his arm away from his grasp like he used to which stuns me slightly. "I have something to give you after school." That's not exactly what I wanted to hear but I guess that works too.
"Okay…? But…Shizu-chan, I…" I say but he escapes my grasp.
"Let's sit together…like we usually do, okay flea?" He asks as he waits for me to enter class first. I smile at him and kiss him on the cheek happily before heading inside. "Damn flea…"
At lunch I was slightly troubled by what I had done during the morning and I really wanted to apologize to Kasuka and Hina-chan. I feel kind of bad for thinking all those horrible thoughts about Hina-chan. Well, not completely though because she was still touching my man. But I do feel kind of stupid for misunderstanding the entire thing. I mean I should have known that Shizu-chan wasn't in love with her. She's not even his type. But all the things that Shizu-chan has done up until now is starting to make sense. When I was kissing Kasuka he crushed the doorknob and ripped the sofa arm because he was jealous! He didn't want to admit it because he was mad at himself for falling in love with me, but I know that he doesn't mind it now. He hasn't come right out and told me that he loves me and neither have I, but maybe he'll tell me soon~
"So, how are Kasuka and Hina?" I ask Shizu-chan after he sits next to me. Just like when we were younger we decide to sit on the roof and eat our lunches. Shizu-chan kind of gives a tired sigh before he opens his lunch and begins to eat.
"Well, Kasuka explained everything and they seem okay, but Hina rather not talk to you."
"Eh, I don't really care." I say as I wrap my arms around Shizu-chan's arm. "I really don't care about her as long as I have Shizu-chan." He looks at me and tries to push me away from him, but fails. But he still seems a bit angry for some reason so I sit in front of him and sit in his lap as I rub my head against his chest like some needy kitten. "What's wrong Shizu-chan?" I ask him as I look up at him.
"Who's a better kisser, me or my brother?" He asks bluntly. I look at him a bit shocked, but inside me I feel like butterflies are attacking my stomach.
"Heh, what?" I say nervously.
"You heard me." He says with a blush evident on his face.
"You know…I can't really judge since Shizu-chan and I kissed when we were pretty little." I say slyly with a smirk. "I technically don't have anything to compare Kasuka's kiss since I don't remember the feel of—" I'm cut off by Shizu-chan's lips capturing mine in a much needed kiss. I lean into the kiss almost immediately and wrap my arms around his neck. It feels so good, so right. It's just like I imagined it to be, even better actually. He's warm and though he's quite violent and bold, he's really soft and gentle. He licks my lips to ask for entrance and I gladly allow him to ravish my mouth. His tongue brushes against mine and at first I'm not sure what to do, but it isn't long until I'm beginning to fight for dominance even though I know it's pointless. I suddenly enjoy the kiss so much that I make somewhat of a mew sound, which captures Shizu-chan's attention and makes him pull back in surprise. A trail of saliva still connects our lips even after we're pulled away from each other. Shizu-chan wipes it away and eyes me curiously.
"Was…was that you who made that sound…?" He asks a bit excitedly. I frantically try to keep my cool but I end up sounding nervous and flustered.
"N-no, of c-course not…don't be s-stupid!" Why the hell am I stuttering like this? I haven't had this problem since I was in kindergarten. "D-dammit."
"Are you alright…?"
"J-just f-fine. P-peachy." I say as I try to act as if this is supposed to be normal for me. I blush and slide away from him, getting off his lap and moving at least three feet away from him. I begin to eat my lunch, hoping that that'll somehow make my stuttering go away.
"I didn't know you have a stuttering problem, flea." He says calmly. Now my nickname isn't so much of an insult, but a term of endearment, if that's even possible. Shizu-chan sure is bad with pet names.
"I-I d-don't have a s-stuttering p-problem." I say defensively. "T-this is j-just t-temporary…"
"Are you nervous because this is your first time…you know…in a relationship?" I pout and push him slightly.
"D-don't m-make it s-sound as if your n-not in the s-same boat!" I say bitterly as I cross my arms and turn away from him and continue to eat my lunch. "W-wait…! D-did you s-say 'f-first t-time in a relationship'?" I ask excitedly as I turn around and face him. He's smiling at me as if he just asked me to marry him.
"Yeah…so do you want to…?"
"Of course, why the hell would I say no!" I say as I jump into his lap again.
"Hey, your stuttering went away." He says with a smile as he kisses my cheek. "I kind of liked it better when you were stuttering. It was cute." I smile at him and then smack the side of his head.
"Shut up protozoan." He kisses me again and then travels down to my neck and places butterfly kisses. He travels to my collarbone and then drops his head, putting his forehead on my shoulder and sighing.
"Can you change out of this stupid outfit!" He asks loudly.
"Aww, but Shizu-chan!" I whine as I cuddle close to him. He shakes his head telling me that whining won't work this time. "Can I at least keep the pretty clips in my hair~?" I ask him sweetly as I kiss his cheek. He mumbles something angrily and then sighs.
"Fine, whatever, flea…just as long as you change out of these damn, frilly clothes!" He then spots something as the wind picks up. "Are you fucking serious! You're wearing fucking girl's panties!"
"I had to! I thought you'd like them!"
"You're a fucking pervert!"
"Yeah, but you love me anyway right?" I say as I purr against his chest. He puts his arms around me and groans.
"Yeah, I love you…no matter how messed up you are…" He says as he holds me. "What the fuck is wrong with me…?" He says with a laugh.
"Nothing Shizu-chan; you're perfect to me." I say with a smile. I know, I know that sounded cheesy, but it was all I could think of to say. Some people get kind of clumsy when they're in love or weak or blind and some just become really stupid. I'm one of those people. And I'm guessing Shizu-chan is too even though I didn't think it was possible for him to get any stupider.
A/N: :) I'm a cheeseball sometimes DX Anyway, as always reviews are very much appreciated so please don't hesitate. I LOVE THE REVIEWS YOU GUYS GIVE ME THEY'RE SO SWEET! Well, see you in the next chapter.
