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CHAPTER 7
I had to tell her the truth, I had to explain. I couldn't let her believe I didn't love her, I just couldn't do it. If she knew that it was her, the only one for me, maybe it would turn out right. Who was I kidding? The second I would tell her about the stupid bet, she would be gone. She would think I was nothing but a douche, which is what I was right now.
"How long?" She whispered trying to hold in her tears. I am the world's worst person.
"I proposed two months ago." I couldn't even look her in her face. I couldn't bare to see the pain that would be all over it.
I had to look though, I had to see her reaction. But all I saw was her about to hit the ground and I ran to her side holding her in my arms. Her reaction was what I was fearing.
"DON'T TOUCH ME! DON'T YOU EVER TOUCH ME AGAIN!" She screamed at me and her tears streamed down her lovely cheeks. What am I doing to her?
It was time to admit it all, no matter what happens."Bella I am so sorry. I didn't think I would see you and feel this way, but I-" But before I was able to finish I felt such a force invade my face.
She fucking punched me!
"Bella what the fuck?" It hurt like hell and blood was oozing out of my nose.
I was trying to do the doctor thing and hold my nose when I heard a sudden thud behind me. Bella passed out. Oh no! It was dark, but we weren't far from my house. I couldn't just leave her there so I carried her as far as I could and I yelled for help once I hit my driveway.
Immediately Carlisle and Esme were in the front of the house. Alice was running to us panicked and yelling at me.
"What the hell did you do to her?" Alice yelled at me.
Then her yelling seized when she saw my face. "Whoa, what she do to you?"
"Alice please, not right now. I want to make sure she is okay, she just fainted." I said having no time to explain anything. I was too worried for my Bella.
"Oh no, you will explain why your nose is bleeding and looking awful by the way." She looked at me with her sassy attitude tapping her foot.
"She punched me, okay, happy now?" I was furious.
"Blood make her queasy." Alice stated.
Finally we made it into the house and Carlisle assured me Bella would be fine, she just needed to lay down and once she woke up he would look for a concision. He took me into his office and bandaged up my nose. I don't know where Tanya was and I really didn't care at that point.
About half and hour later I went to check on Bella to see if she was awake. I needed to explain things, I couldn't have her hate me, I just couldn't live with that. I was at Alice's door and stood in the doorway for a minute. She was awake! Thank god!
I awkwardly cleared my throat, but the look of death Bella gave me hurt to my core. Wow she really didn't like me, but suddenly her beautiful face lit up. A smile of sanctification washed over her face. She was proud of the make she left on my face and to tell you the truth, I deserved it.
I couldn't help, but smile slightly at the thought of her little hands causing so much pain. She got a wicked left hook.
"Edward, get out. Nobody in here wants you here, especially me." Alice scolded.
I didn't want to cause her any more pain. I said I was sorry and walked out the door toward my room. Tanya was already asleep on the bed, I took the couch.
The next day Alice asked me to explain this engagement and I told her the truth. The whole truth and nothing but the truth. She was my baby sister and also one of my closest friends. She then threatened me to stay away from Bella. I reluctantly agreed, though I had no plan of doing so.
Then I proceeded to tell Tanya the truth about the bet. Honestly, the girl laughed. She seriously laughed at me. She gave me back my ring and left. It wasn't even like it mattered to her.
The rest of the summer was a blur. Many nights I went to Bella's house and stood there, afraid to knock. I even climbed the tree by her window and watched her sleep. I was definitely a stalker, but if I couldn't be with her, at least I could admire from a far.
It was the night before Alice and Bella would be leaving to go to college. I would be leaving tomorrow in the evening, long after them. Alice mentioned having dinner with Bella that night and I was overwhelmed, I decided to wait at Bella's house for her to finish.
Around 10pm she finally arrived home. I had gotten out the car and leaned on it to get some air. She took one look at me and slammed her car door. OUCH.
"What do you want Edward?" She was annoyed.
"In all honesty, I don't know." That's all I could come up with. I knew why I was there. I kept running my hands through my hair. Inhaling/exhaling.
"Well if that's your best excuse, I hope you don't mind that I don't plan to stick around for the rest." She tried to walk by me, but I stood in her way.
No Swan you not getting away this time.
I knew what had to be done here, I knew what I had to say. "I didn't mean to hurt you. It was such a mistake."
I was shaking like a leaf. I was so scared to hear what he would reply with.
"The only mistake here is letting myself believe Edward Cullen had a heart." Then he knocked me out of the way and stormed inside.
How do you have a comeback for something like that? She said I don't have a heart? How can she believe that? Well I could see why she would believe that, but she needed to know, my heart bled for her, only her. My heart belonged to her and it was empty without her to fill it.
I paced back and forth for almost an hour outside her house. I wanted to knock, storm right in, but I just couldn't. I was such a fuck up. I had hurt her so much in such a small time frame. She was nothing, but kind and sweet to me and I ruined that, I ruined her.
Realizing she was serious and wasn't caving, I went home.
Carlisle had taken my car to get some maintenance done before I drove it back to Seattle. Dad was always thinking of things like that. I decided to go play my piano. I had been working on a piece all summer. I called it "Dreamless"
That's what my world was like without Bella in it. I was very consumed when I played that I blocked out everything around me. But the sudden jolt to my back and hitting my head into the top of my piano I couldn't ignore.
"OUCH". I yelped out.
I turned quickly to assess my attacker, but never in a million years did I think it would be her.
"Um, I tripped sorry." She mumbled under her breath.
I was so happy to see her and I jumped to help her up off the floor.
"I didn't mean to interrupt. I heard you down the hall and it sounded wonderful." She was stuttering. It was so adorable.
"No no it's fine, really. You didn't interrupt anything. It's good to see you Bella." I gave an unknowing smile.
"Well if you will excuse me, I better go back to Alice." She began to walk out, but I couldn't let her. I had missed her so much.
"Please, don't leave yet. I mean I would really like your company for a few minutes at least?" I hoped she would stay.
She shook slightly but took a seat next to my on the bench.
"I was in the middle of finishing the piece you heard before you walked in. What did you think of it?" I looked up at her excitedly. It was for her. I hope she knew it.
"It was lovely." Her smile was shy
"No, no. I mean, how does it make you feel?" It's about you love.
"It sounds like a love song." She muttered.
"Something like that." I muttered back.
I played a few more lines, but she didn't speak. She was starting to stand, but I grabbed her arm, pulling her back down. She stared me deep in my eyes and moved her face closer to me, almost brushing my lips with hers. But she didn't. She suddenly stood and all but ran out of the room.
I ran after her. She was in the upstairs hall looking very confused. I wrapped my arms around her and forced her to face me. I crushed my lips to hers and picked her up in my arms. If this was the last time, I needed to make it count. I kicked open my bedroom door and kicked it closed. I placed her on my bed.
I laid my body on top of her and continued my assault on her lips. She was weaving her hands in my hair. Damn I loved when she did that! I tried to remove her clothes, to be closer to her body. I had most of the buttons of her shirt undone when she screamed.
"EDWARD STOP!" She pushed me off her and began frantically buttoning her shirt..
I rolled over and put my head in my hands feeling so frustrated. I couldn't stop hurting her. I saw the look on her face, pain.
"I keep hurting you, don't I?" I was on the verge of my own tears.
She told me to look at her and then she nailed the coffin closed with her final words.
"I can't let you do this to me. I am leaving and I won't be back. I hope I don't ever see you again." With that she walked out of my room.
I had hurt her and I was left devastated. She deserved so much better than me. I could live with it, if she was happy, I could.
I took a few deep breaths and went back to my piano. My piano was my savior.
I headed back to School and when I arrived at my apartment from my hematology class,there was a beautiful girl in front of my door waiting for me.
"What took you so long. I missed you." I whispered into her ear and unlocked the door. With one quick scoop, I had her in my arms and in my bed, completely naked and at my disposal.
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