I'm going to try to have the next chapter out this time next week. Things have been crazy around here and I'm also reaching my 1st mini block on where I want to go. Ok, I've been caught, I have also been watching a lot of Olympics. I so love watching them and I can't wait to see Apolo win another Gold metal tomorrow. At least that is my wish.
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I hope everyone has a blessed weekend.
I'm completely spent and I can't find the energy to get off of Eric after a orgasm like that. My God, it is not fair that he can make me lose control like that.
We are still joined together and Eric is rubbing my back and trying to make me feel secure.
I did it again! I just let myself lose control, yet again. What is wrong with me. I have never felt this much need sexually with Bill. How did I become such a hoe in a few days? I would have never been one to cheat on purpose and now here I am instigating sex and mutual blood exchange with another man/vampire.
I don't even have the excuse that Eric is making me do it, or why I liked it.
This last blood exchange has me feeling weird and it almost seems like I can feel Eric's emotions. He is extremely happy and almost gloating. How do I know that?
Why do I seem to crave his blood? It is sweeter than Bill's blood and I never really wanted his blood other than to save my life.
That is the one feeling that I don't need or want to know right now. I feel guilty enough as it is.
I also can't believe that he danced with me like that and how good it felt to be in his arms. It felt so good and with everything going on, that I lost control and started crying. He picked me up in his arms and held me close while I cried all over him. That is something that I could never pictured Eric doing and he has now comforted me twice in the last 2 days. I'm not a big crier but in the last 2 days, I have sure made up for it.
Then I come in here and I used Eric like my own personal sex toy. What a great toy it is but I shouldn't have done it. Although, I know Eric doesn't mind me using him that way. My mind is laughing at that prospect of using him again that way. Uh, I need to get my mind out of the gutter.
How does one man or vampire have a package like that. It is almost not natural what he can do with it and then you add him being a vampire and that it almost has no down time. OMG. It is just not fair to be that blessed.
I can feel that he would like to go for round 2 as he is getting hard in me again but he is not moving.
I can't help but feel like I'm going to lose myself to the Viking! He seems to know exactly what I need and when I need it.
Pam also seems to think we are meant to be together and if Eric is telling the truth, even if Bill comes back and I want to be with him, Eric will never let that happen. A part of me is happy about this. I shouldn't be thrilled at the prospect of that happening. I shouldn't want Eric to fight for me. I was going to marry Bill when I last saw him and there is no telling what Lorena is doing to him and all I can think about is feeling of Eric inside of me.
I have to be screwed up in the head and a bad girlfriend. Why would Eric even want someone like me full time? It makes no sense to me but I can tell that he does and it is not just to control me or my body. He is really enjoying me being with him and what he can find in my body.
My body seems to love his body too. I guess being a 1000 year old viking and with his experience with sex, he is taking no prisoners and I know I have been claimed by him. He will never let me go.
With all of these thoughts going through my head, I need to feel safe and I find myself hugging Eric tighter as though I can't get close enough.
We need to talk about this. I need to ask him what is happening to me.
That was so amazing. Sex with Sookie will never get old. It seems to be getting better and better.
I never knew that a blood bond could make me feel so happy. She is mine now and I want to gloat. I wanted us to be tied and I thought I might have to convince her to drink from me but it seems now that she craves my blood and my body.
I love it. I love being inside of her and I never want to leave her warm, safe cocoon. I can't stop touching her and I wrap my arms around her as she comes to terms in her head.
I can feel myself getting hard again and I want so badly to move in her again but I can feel that she is not ready. So I continue to hold her until she decides to let go.
It is surprising and exciting that she seems to want to be in control so much and even stranger that I'm letting her. I am normally the one to set the pace and I never let women get that close to me except for Pam. Even with Pam I have always been the one on top. We have not even had sex in at least 50 years and we never had this strong of a connection when we did.
We have a perfect master/child relationship. I have never regretted making her my child. She knows exactly what I need as I also know her needs. I know that she would rather be with women and that has never made me insecure that she feels that way.
She knows that I want Sookie and she will do everything to make sure that I get her. Now I have to convince Sookie she is meant to be mine.
Sookie looks up at me and says, "Eric, we need to talk" as she pulls out of my arms and off of me to sit on the couch beside me. She then pulls a blanket off of the back of the couch to cover up both of our nakedness.
"I will try to answer any questions you might have."
"Why can I all of a sudden feel your emotions?"
I will not lie to her. "Because dear heart, we have had mutual blood exchange 3 times and we are now blood bonded."
That doesn't sound good. What the hell is a blood bond. "What is a blood bond Eric?'
"It means that in the vampire world, that you and I bonded. We are as you humans say, married."
He did not just say we are married "Married! What do you mean we are married?" I can feel my anger rising. "How dare you deceive me this way. You planned this all along and you did not take into account, that I might not want to be tied to you."
I can see this is not going well and I try to push a calming wave on her. She is not having it and she says, "Don't do that Eric. I can feel that you are trying to influence me somehow. I'm angry and since you have done this without asking me, you can Damn well feel all the anger I feel for you about it."
"Why did you do this, Eric?" I can feel my eyes tearing up.
I sigh and say "Because we are meant to be together. I knew when I layed eyes on you, that you should be mine."
"So you think that whatever you want, you should get?
"Yes"
"What a big, selfish baby you are."
I can feel my anger rise with that comment.
"Sookie, I am not used to being questioned on things. I have always gotten what I have wanted. I wanted you for more than a play toy and if you are honest with yourself you are happy that I wanted you that badly. You just don't want to admit it. You knew for sure that you were mine the minute you grabbed my hand on the roof and I know you felt the sparks fly between us. You knew that you were mine but you fought it and ignored it. Goderic even knew it to be true. That was why he could leave me. He knew I had found my match."
Goderic did ask me to care for Eric and I told him that I didn't know if I could.
"Even if what you say is true, you have no right to take my choice away from me. It is not for you to decide who I should be with or love. You making me be tied to you without a choice is about the worst offense against me. You don't know me or you would have never done this to me."
"I know you are angry with me right now but in time you will see that I'm right and we are meant to be together. Bill was never meant to be that man for you."
"Just because you have decreed that Bill and I were not meant to be together, does not make it the truth. If we were are meant to be together, you should have let me come to terms with it and come to you on my own free will."
"You did come to me of your own free will. You came to me and asked for my help. I told you that you were required to exchange blood with me while with me. Why did you not ask what that would mean to you? You are mad that you didn't ask and you are also mad that a part of you is happy with what I have done. You want to be blameless in all of this but you know in you heart that you are mine. We both know that your body knows who its master is. Just like you know that the last 2 times we have exchanged blood I have not been the one to initiate it. It was you who completed the bond, not me."
I feel like all of the air is gone from my chest at that last comment and I turn and put my back to him. He is right. In the back of my mind, I did know that the blood would mean something. Bill tried to warn me when Eric tricked me the 1st time. I also didn't ask him what it would mean to exchange blood. I was the one to take his blood the last two times.
I hate that she has turned her back on me but I have to try to let her come to terms with this.
Could that mean that I really wanted this all along? Maybe I wanted to feel like Eric was taking my choice away from me, so I wouldn't have to make the decision. Otherwise why didn't I tell Bill immediately that I would marry him. It didn't feel right and I ignored it and decided to marry him anyway. Would I have made a mistake if Bill hadn't been taken?
"Sookie. Please don't turn away from me. Yell and scream at me but don't turn your back on me."
I can't move even though he has asked me to turn back around and talk to him. Since I'm not saying anything, he turns me around and puts his hands on both sides of my face and says, "I really like being tied to you and I can't wait for the day you can admit you like it to." He then lowers his face down for a kiss.
He is kissing me softy at first and then when I don't put up a fight, he increases the power of his kiss. I have no control over my body as he lays me on the couch and places himself between my legs and says "Sookie. I'm sorry I didn't tell you everything. I'm trying to learn how to give and not just take. Please give me the chance to prove to you that I want you forever."
I'm surprised that he is apologizing to me and I can't say anything, so I reach up and touch his face. He takes that as a sign of acceptance and he enters me.
It feels so different this time. Since I can now feel his emotions, I can tell that he is being truthful with me. Everything is not ok with us but I can't help the need I seem to have for him.
I need for her to want me as I want her. I need to hear her scream out for me. I want to be the only one to be inside of her. I want to be the only man that she thinks of. I just need her. As that last thought goes through my head I feel my body push forward harder. I need to show her that she is mine.
I feel his need for me as I feel him push into me harder and it takes my breath away. He is looking me in the eyes with determination and continues to move in me back and forth harder and harder. Like he can't get into me deep enough.
I can can feel her pleasure and I can hear her moaning as I look at her. I have to be apart of her. I can't seem to get into her deep enough as I move inside of her even deeper, faster and harder.
We are both building up for a release and it is stronger than any other time we have been together. The blood bond seems to have make the feeling more intense and we both hit out climax together and cry out each others names.
I collapse on her as the orgasm is so intense and a feeling I have ever felt before. I move us to our sides and her head is resting against my chest and we are both panting. I seem to be panting from the feeling coming from her as I don't need to breath.
That is like nothing I have ever felt before and I am resting my head against his chest trying to get my breath back. When I start to breathe more steadily, I say, "Eric, I'm confused and I know that I cannot make a lasting decision with you until I talk with Bill. I don't know what I will decide when it comes to you both. You need to keep your word to me to find him and get him back, before I can come to any decision. We maybe married in your world but in mine, we are not. If you want me as you say you do, you have to do this for me and let me choose.
