After Hinata closed the door to her apartment, she was tackled by Ino and Sakura, trying to force her to tell them why she hadn't come home last night and where she was and why she ran out the door this morning like she did. Hinata shoved them off, walking to the hallway for a quick escape if needed and began explaining. It felt different telling someone than hearing it and having experienced it. She wanted to cry herself but was going to wait until she was alone. If she cried now, all three of them would and then Sakura would go out to find the three boys. Hinata wasn't up for trying to calm her.
Before either two could move, Hinata slammed her door and locked it, releasing what she had felt all day. She cried, throwing her phone across the room and reaching for her stuffed rabbit, hugging it tight. "Why? Why would he… Why would Naruto do this? Why would Sasuke do this?" Hinata knew but she couldn't cry about anything else. She needed these feelings to go away. She didn't want to feel sad anymore. This sadness had been around longer than just this morning but now she could finally cry. She had a reason to break.
Hinata closed her eyes, remembering Naruto's words. She smiled. 'He wants to fix it.' She thought, trying not to sob any longer as she sat up in bed, still clinging to her stuffed animal. 'I want to fix it too but Naruto… It's not just Naruto. Sasuke and Suigetsu made him do it. Why blame all of it on him when he didn't want to- Naruto didn't say that. You weren't listening to him. If you were more focused on him and less on whom and why, then Naruto wouldn't have been angry with you- maybe. It's more or less your fault he was.' Hinata moaned and fell back into her pillows.
"This is not fun." She said, looking out her window to the full moon. "I wish Naruto knew how I felt about him. Maybe then- No, that wouldn't change anything. It would probably make things worse. He would never want to talk to me again- even if it was eating at him." Hinata sighed again and crawled under the covers. "Tomorrow is Saturday. It has to better. Naruto has practice and that means… It means something." She yawned, closing her eyes to darkness.
Hinata woke to an irritating tap on her window. She checked her clock: 6:20. She groaned and rolled over, the tapping suddenly stopping. Not seeing anyone or anything there and curious as to what it had been, Hinata pushed the window open and peered out.
"Hello?" She whispered, shivering as the cold air wafted into her room. It was quiet, the field empty. All she could see was a light mist over the grass and the sun rising from behind the apartments on the opposite side. Nothing out of the ordinary. Closing the window, a hand grabbed her wrist, stopping her. She almost screamed but he covered her mouth before climbing in.
"Sorry." Naruto told Hinata, letting her go and sitting on her bed. "I didn't mean to scare you."
Hinata shut the window and stared at him, a little angry and confused. "Why are you here? It's almost six thirty in the morning-" she exclaimed quietly.
"I need to talk to you, like need to. My fucking brain won't shut up about anything. It made me come here. I didn't want to either so I guess we're on the same page."
"What about?" She wondered, keeping the same composure as before.
"What else? Hinata, I need to tell you everything. You must know why Sasuke-" Naruto whispered harshly, not understanding why he would come for anything but this.
"Because I showed that picture to Sakura and then she broke up with him, right?" Hinata questioned herself, hoping she didn't sound stupid in front of her crush…ex-crush…crush. She wasn't sure now. He snuck into her room to talk about this. Wasn't he the one who said "Just think about it"?
"Part of it, yeah. Let me start from the beginning where he showed up to practice after Sakura broke up with him." Naruto paused. "He came up to me and told me Sakura said they were done. There was a picture of him and Karin, drunk at a party. At first he thought it was Ino but he never saw her there. After a little while, he remembered you. He was so pissed and wanted to do something but I told him no, you were just being a good friend and protecting her. Sasuke calmed down and asked if I could help him get his stuff back from Sakura's room. Well… you know that didn't happen. He had Suigetsu come to make sure I did it. He wanted me to do it because he knew no one would think I could do that to… you. I hated it. I didn't want to. When I got back to my room, I wanted to back for you so bad but Sasuke probably had Suigetsu there or something and if I grabbed you, Suigetsu, or even Sasuke himself would've… Never mind.
"I wanted you to hear everything and I understand if you hate me. I would hate me too. I know I told you to think about it but my fucking brain didn't like that idea. It wanted to go straight ahead and do its own thing." Naruto sighed, letting out a long one. When he looked her in the eyes again, she still had that same look on her face, that look of uncertainty.
Hinata listened to every word he had said but she was a little uncertain as what other reason he came. This couldn't have been the only reason, could it? She bit her lip, seeing he was getting frustrated and said, "I don't hate you." She balled her hands into fists, squeezing them on her lap. "Something is telling me to trust you but I know if I do, something more is going to happen. I don't know if it's good or bad, I just know it'll change something." Hinata sighed, daring to look him in the eyes. His eyes looked at her with the curiosity of a child as he moved closer.
"What else do you have to tell me? You didn't just come to explain, did you?" Hinata added, noticing her face was a little heated from how near he was.
He sat back, the curiosity replaced by embarrassment and shyness. "Um," he rubbed the back of his head. "Yeah, I played it out in my head so many times on the way over but you were supposed to kick me out so I didn't actually get to tell you." He laughed.
Hinata raised an eyebrow. "Really? Well, if you want me to kick you out, I can do that. But be careful you don't wake Ino on your way out the door. She's worse than Sakura when-"
Naruto covered her mouth, trying to keep her quiet. He took a deep breath and added, "Okay, well yesterday during Philosophy, I was so confused. I didn't understand what I felt towards you. I questioned out friendship and I never question friendships so I went through my mind trying to figure out what made me do that. Is it because I think you're pretty or smart? Maybe it's just you- everything about you. After, before we got ice cream, I…" he seemed a little embarrassed over something and continued, "I wanted to tuck a loose piece of hair behind your ear and I got jealous when you and Kiba talked about sharing ice cream… I'm really confused about these feelings! I don't understand how I feel this way when we barely talk. We barely know each other and I- I… Hinata, do you know why I feel them? The jealousy and the… the… whatever that emotion is! I need help." Naruto explained, dropping his head.
Hinata couldn't believe it. Naruto liked her, maybe loved her. Wait, not that far. Naruto was right about one part, she was sure of that. They barely spoke or knew each other. How could he like her if he didn't know her? Maybe this was all just a movie. Hinata sighed, wishing it was so. 'How do I tell Naruto what his feelings mean?'
