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CHAPTER 6

"When age chills the blood, when our pleasures are past— For years

fleet away with the wings of the dove— The dearest remembrance

will still be the last, Our sweetest memorial the first kiss of love."
(Lord Byron)

BELLA PoV

For hours I talked with these people as if the time was nothing. Maybe it was because time is nothing for us. They never told me any important stuff about my past with them, nor wanted to tell me why they thought that I was dead. Every time I tried to talk about that they subtly changed the topic. It didn´t matter how much they wanted to conceal the truth I still could see the scared pain in their eyes. Something truly horrible happened to me in the past. And no one was willing to share that information with me. Even if I was the main character of this story.

I will not lie, I´m not a brave heroine. My curiosity and my impulses made me want to forget about the manifest darkness of my past. The pain never was good, and I already had enough of that.

Sometime during the night the woman called Esme interrupted our long conversation saying that it was enough for today, that they should let me rest. I had no words to thank her. I needed this break. All those questions, answers and half-truths were making me feel dizzy. Or something like that. It was as if my head was spinning around and the world confused me. In my mind I was someone, but all the people there treated me as if I was someone else.

When I managed to draw off their attention – and it was very hard to do that – I escaped from the room, wishing for a breath of fresh air and some aloneness. It was funny how many times I complained because I couldn´t understand why Elisabeth liked so much to spend her time alone in that house, isolated from the world. Now I understood the nice feeling of escaping from people.

A big relief enveloped me when the cold air touched my face like a caress. I was on the roof of that amazingly big hotel, enjoying the beautiful view of an illuminated Vancouver, the smell of the snowed mountains, and the silence softly broken by the murmur of the sleeping city.

What a nice feeling.

Wanting to enjoy it for a long time, I sat on the roof´s edge. It would have been nice if the cold touch of the cement affected my body´s temperature, but that wasn´t possible anymore. There was nothing in nature that could affect me. Not cold, not heat, not rain, not even the snow.

I let my mind wander on those insignificant thoughts. No more complicated life, it was complicated enough right now for me to add more worries. I needed to enjoy this moment all by myself before someone from the Cullens chased me.

The animals should be fed tomorrow in the afternoon, we needed some wood before the next snowfall … things like that were good for me to think about now.

But even if I tried very hard to keep my mind at bay, there were other things that came to me. His words. I couldn´t forget that. How Edward´s eyes sparkled when his lips talked about marriage. With me. I still couldn´t believe it. Was he my fiancé? No, no. That wasn´t possible. And even if it was, I wasn´t that girl anymore.

"Bella." As if my mind called for him to come here, he suddenly appeared at the roof´s door.

The name he called me was odd. I wasn´t that Bella girl, I didn´t feel like she did. Bella was like a fairy tale that everyone knew about, everyone but me. She wasn´t real. But for some reason, when he was the one calling me that, it didn´t sound that bad. It was almost nice. I looked at him then, trying to understand why he confused me so much, and all I could see was how beautiful his eyes were.

"I was worried. I noticed that you left the room and… I thought that maybe…" He advanced some steps until he was close to me, doubting if he should come even closer or stay where he was. "Can I accompany you?"

"Canada is a free country. Sit down." My answer was more aggressive that I intended it to be and it hurt both of us. But he tried to hide his feelings and sat down at my side.

"Did we overwhelm you so much that you needed to run away at the first opportunity?" I wanted to deny it, anguished by the idea of them thinking that I didn´t like them, but when he looked at me with a small crooked smile I realized that he was joking. That smile, soft and playful, was sinfully pleasing to me. He was so beautiful that it hurt me to look at him for a long time. I had to look away every now and then just to keep myself sane.

"It´s," I sighed, "intense."

"It´s like that for us too. We want to take things slow and let you breathe, but at the same time it's hard to control our excitement."

"I think I can understand that. Don´t worry."

We looked at the city in front of us without really paying attention to it. The silence was nice, but the tension floated between us. We were like a couple after a fight, and that thought was funny for me. After all, we were a couple. Or so he said.

I imagined for a moment how our life was like when we were together, what type of stuff we did in the past, how we acted and a lot of things like that. An ephemeral image of a kiss crossed my mind like a falling star and I felt very ashamed. I was thinking about stuff that I shouldn´t think about. This wasn´t my life, they weren´t my real family and above all, I wasn´t in love with him.

I fought against that stupid image of his lips touching mine, but it was hard to erase it. My eyes lay on his lips – without my permission – for a second and a deep sigh escaped my mouth, making him look at me.

I wanted to kiss him like a different version of the fairy tale that I read about a sleeping princess a long time ago. Maybe with a kiss my mind would wake up and we would live happily ever after.

I wanted to hide on the other side of this planet and forget about these confusing people that were taking my life away from me and turning me into someone else.

I wanted him to own me even if I didn´t really know him.

Did that, somehow, make sense? This was the first time that I felt that way. Of course, I didn´t meet a lot of men in the past, even less without wanting to drink their blood, but my experience about this type of feeling was limited to books and stories that Elisabeth told me about.

Love.

That human feeling that destroyed countries, hearts and people since the creation of humans. Men killed to achieve it, women lied in its name… Was it so strong? I couldn´t believe it. I laughed when Elisabeth tried to explain to me how deep, amazing and dangerous it is. But, what did I know about love?

Suddenly I was scared. Love? Why was I thinking about love? This wasn´t love. It couldn´t be. I only was… confused. Yeah, that was it. I was dazzled by him. His sad loving eyes, his half-smile, the way his body always moved closer as if it was attracted to mine.

"You and me… We… Did we love each other?" I wasn´t ashamed for having asked that. Something inside of me needed to know it. I was intrigued, I was interested about it. Even if I knew that I shouldn´t be.

"More than anything. There was no human or inhuman force that could break us apart. At least until…"

"It should be hard for you."

"What?"

"The fact that I can´t remember you. I´m sorry." And it was the truth. I was sorry for that boy of unknown age that looked at me with adoration. When he looked at me as if I was the most important thing in the world it was hard to control or understand my own heart.

"It´s not your fault. I can´t deny that it never crossed my mind that something like this would happen. I mean, you forgetting all about us, about me. But I´m happy because you´re here, alive. I never was happier than when I discovered that you were alive. Well, that day and when you said for the first time that you loved me."

"How did we meet?" I asked, curious.

"I don´t know if I should talk about the past."

"Please." I begged.

"Ok. It's nothing bad, scary or worrisome." He seemed to think about it for a moment before starting his narrative, but when his lips moved to say the first word a smile drew itself on his face. His memories were good and sweet; our meeting was something beautiful in his mind.

I felt truly relieved by that. It was the first time that any of them looked as if my past had some good stuff too.

"You were human back then. You were moving into the town where my family and I lived. The first time I saw you, well I wasn´t exactly a gentleman. I think I scared you."

"Why?" I interrupted him, curious about the last part. He only reacted with a bigger smile.

"You smelt too delectable. You smelt like no one in this world. It was hard for me to control myself." Maybe I should have been puzzled by that, or scared, but quite the contrary. I liked the idea of smelling especially good for him. The "me" who was human had something special. That thought encouraged me.

"But you did it, I suppose."

"Of course. It was harder than you can imagine, but I did it. From that moment on a lot of things happened and you realized little by little what I was. I should have backed away, but I couldn´t bring myself to do it." Now, it wasn´t only the smile on his lips. All his face was a mask of happiness made by his good memories. "I was totally scared. I didn´t want you to discover what I was and run away from me, but then you said that it didn´t matter… that you would love me, vampire or not. Nothing was important anymore for me. Nothing but you. You were my world. You still are my world. The only thing I need to be happy is to know that you´re safe at my side."

He moved his hand slowly to put it on mine, which was resting on the cement at my leg´s side. He softly covered it with his, weighing out my reaction. All of his tension disappeared into thin air when he realized that I wouldn´t reject his touch. I couldn´t do it. Not after hearing him talk about me with love and worship.

The truth is that I let him do it because I felt bad, guilty. But his touch was nice too. I couldn´t lie. I liked it. Even if all of them told me that they knew me, nothing reassured me more than the feeling of my body when he touched me. It was like a confirmation of an absolute truth.

I knew him. He loved me. And I loved him back.

There was a time when my heart was his, and its beats resounded in his chest. With all the confusion still in my head, I could see that much. I knew it.

"Do you dislike it when I do this?" He raised our joined hands to the height of my eyes.

"No, it´s… not bad. Just odd. But not bad."

"Maybe your body can remember what your mind can not." The sudden huskiness of his voice caressed the creases of my ears. It was sexy enough to make me want to play with fire, because right now he was that for me. Fire. One that I shouldn´t want to touch, but that was already warming me.

I never knew someone like him. Not even in the books that I loved to read. The main characters are always beautiful, but not in the same way that Edward was. He has this dangerous thing. Not for me, but for anyone who tried to hurt me.

I was so lost in my silly thoughts that I didn´t realize how our bodies were coming closer. Less and less distance, until I could feel his sweet breath on my face. Like a kiss that never came.

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EDWARD PoV

The desire to kiss her was stronger than the thirst that I felt when she was human. Her lips were screaming for me. The call was so deafening that everyone in this city should be hearing it if they paid attention to it.

This wasn´t the same as before and that made it easier. Her warmth was different, her skin, her eyes, her smell… everything was more intense for me to enjoy.

"This is not right." I stopped myself using the last drop of self-control in my body. "I´m sorry. I´m rushing this. It´s hard for me to be so close to you and control my feelings."

Her eyelids were closed when I looked at her, and the unnecessary air left her chest with a soft sigh. Was that disappointment? No, it couldn´t be, but it seemed like that. Did she want me to kiss her? Did she want it at least with half of the intensity that I wanted to do it?

I hated this. Wanting her but being scared of acting like I felt. If she knew how strong my feelings were she would run away scared. This desire was hell and heaven at the same time. For the first time I wasn´t scared for her well-being. My love could be hard for her to accept, but it couldn´t hurt her anymore.

"I… being like this, so close to you… I feel confused."

"Confused?"

"I don´t really know you, but there´s something in me that makes me feel attracted to you. It´s like you have a magnet inside of you and I am made of metal. Even if I want to move away something about you stops me."

"Do you want to move away from me?" An alarm sounded in my head. Did I misunderstand her body-language? If it was like that then she should be scared of my attempt to kiss her. Right now I was a stranger for her. I wasn´t being a gentleman. But, how do you control the uncontrollable?

"No, it´s not that. I´m only saying that I can´t control it even if I wanted to. But right now I don´t want to. To be sincere when I found you in the street I couldn´t believe that you knew me. At least it seemed weird. Someone is walking in a big city and suddenly she finds her family after fifteen years? It´s quite weird. I moved from one city to another a lot of times, but never met someone who knew me. I felt as if we all are strangers, but with you it's different. I feel that I know you."

Her sincerity bewitched me. The good old times were coming back. The Bella who I knew was peeking through the cracks of her memory, and that made me feel better. She believed in me even if she could remember nothing. That was love. I wanted to believe that it was love.

"You have no idea how happy this makes me. But talking about our meeting today and why it hadn't happened before, well, some of us have gifts. Alice can see the future. She has visions of things that will happen in the future. All those years, even if she tried to do it, she couldn´t see you. However, yesterday she had a vision. Alice saw you walking down that street at five nineteen. We couldn´t believe it. There were no words to describe how happy I was. And scared of it being a lie, or that you wouldn´t want to see me, or… I don´t know. I was scared of everything and nothing at the same time. Nothing could be worse than thinking that you were dead.

"Not even that I can´t remember you?"

"Of course that´s something that I would have never wanted to happen, but as I said before, it doesn´t matter. You will remember with our help, and if it doesn´t happen like that we can make new memories together. You fell in love with me in the past, when I was something totally different from you. Your mind can forget, but somewhere in your heart love waits to be rediscovered."

"There´s something that I don´t understand."

"What is it?"

"You say that Alice… she has visions. How is it that she never saw me in those years? Maybe I blocked her?"

"We don´t know the reason, but, what are you talking about blocking her?"

"I met some powerful vampires a long time ago. More like crossed their paths. But no one was able to use their powers on me. That intrigued me a lot, so I looked for someone who was able to do something like what I do. That man explained to me that it was a "gift" that very few people have, something that surely I had when I was human. It should have been extended after being changed. It´s like a shield."

"A shield?" I never heard about that in all my life as a vampire. Not even Carlisle told me any story about someone with a similar power. The curiosity made me move closer once more. Maybe she was right and we were like magnets. That made me smile a little bit, but the desire to know more about this new Bella was stronger.

"Yes. It´s like…" she searched for the right words to explain herself, "…some type of energy that protects my mind. Normally it´s only useful with vampires that control, manipulate, or enter the mind, but sometimes I can expand it until it protects me from other types of gifts. It´s hard to explain and even harder to use. Maybe that´s what blocked Alice´s gift."

"That explains why I never was able to read you. Even now." It was a thought spoken aloud. I knew at last the reason why my power didn´t work on her. It always intrigued me why her mind was closed to me. Of course, Bella looked at me without understanding my words. "Just like Alice can have visions, I can read minds. No one was an exception until I met you. That´s something that always annoyed me a little bit. Your mind was what I wanted to know more than anything, and it was the only one that couldn´t be read."

"I´m sure that the shield was useful when I was human." She smiled sweetly. "I can´t imagine how horrible it must be to be in love with someone who can read your mind all the time and knows exactly what you´re thinking about. I would have been very ashamed."

"Yes, back then you were happy about it too." I smiled back at her.

We talked and talked for hours until the dawn started to brighten up the sky. It was nice to be able to talk with her without worrying for her needed sleep. We talked about everything and nothing, sharing thoughts, feeling a new bond between us. It was amazing. Until Alice found us and practically dragged her back to the room.

"So you were out there with Edward." Elisabeth smiled when the three of us entered.

"I found her on the roof. They were having a good time, it seems." My sister joked and after that her mind talked to me. "And you looked happy like a kid on Christmas. You succeeded in kidnapping her. Right?" My smile was the only answer for her. Of course I was happy, happy as I never was in all those years. I had Bella with me. Was there anything more to ask for?

"We have been talking with Elisabeth when you were out about a way to spend more time together. I hope you don´t get angry with us." Alice told Bella with the same sweet voice that always helps her to achieve anything she wanted. It was impossible to get angry when she used that tone.

"We live in Ottawa, but we need to move out to another city. It has been a long time since we went there. So we think that it would be a good idea if we move here. That way we would be closer, and this city is a good place to live." Esme looked at me with a secret smile.

No one told me about this plan, and my mind was concentrated on my life´s love. I wasted no time on reading them. I liked the idea, no matter how sudden it was. To be closer to her… Of course that was my plan too.

The only thing that seemed odd was the fact that Rosalie was willing to move here because of Bella. But when I peeked at her mind, I only found happiness for me. I felt a lot better knowing that all the members of my family wanted to live here. Not only because of me, but because of their own happiness. After all, I wasn´t the only one who missed her.

"They´re good people, and they love you so much. You should be grateful to them for doing all this to be with you."

"Please don´t say that, Elisabeth. We´re glad that we can do this. As my wife said before, we have wanted to change our actual residence for some time. This is the perfect reason to do it." My father was sharing his happy thought with me while talking to Bella and Elisabeth. "I´m so happy for you, son."

"Thank you. I know this wasn´t what you hoped for when you found me. I'm sorry for all the troubles." Her words didn´t sound mean or false, but the last sentence wasn´t exactly sincere.

"Bella, please, you don´t need to be so polite." My mom laughed. "You make me feel like an old woman." Bella smiled at her words, but I knew the odd look in her eyes. This is what she was talking about before on the roof. She didn´t feel completely comfortable with my family. It would be hard for us to become a real part of her life.

"We should go back home. I´m sure we will see you soon. She drives like a crazy-drunk-girl when I don´t stop her, so she can be here in less than one hour. And, I was thinking…" Elisabeth doubted for a second and looked at Bella. "… maybe you will kill me after I say this but, the young man, Edward right?" I affirmed with a nod. "Maybe Edward would like to come home with us. My house isn´t very big, but there are some free rooms and I´m sure you will like to spend more time with my girl."

Elisabeth tried to hide her naughty smile, but it was hard and I could sense all my family smiling with her. Of course, Emmett being Emmett didn´t try to hide it. He laughed aloud and it sounded like a bear killing something. Maybe I should be the one killing him.

"I don´t want to be a nuisance." I said, trying not to impose myself on Bella´s life, but the truth is that I wanted nothing more than that. I loved that woman who seemed able to read my mind and grant my wishes.

"It´s… ok, I suppose. I must tell you that we live in an isolated town. Far away from any big city. Elisabeth is something similar to a hermit lost in the mountains. But the place is beautiful and it takes your breath away just to look through the window.

"Any place where you are is beautiful to me." I felt a little ashamed for saying that in front of all my family, but it wasn´t important right now. I was trying to make her feel loved and push aside her insecurities.

Life was different, and Bella was different, but no matter what she was, is and will be the person who brings me to life. Memories are a part of a person, but Bella was more than just her memories. She was everything to me. She was the only important thing for me.

TBC…

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