Sirius shut himself in his room all day long the next day. I stayed busy helping Mrs. Weasley, Ron, and the twins with cleaning the house. Fred was so concerned as to why I was so quiet today but I just told him I'd been up late working on my essay. Mrs. Weasley was so disgusted with the filth in the house and so focused on cleaning that she didn't notice at all. Fred was sweet but he can be annoying. It seems like he's starting to get a crush on me so I try to keep my distance.
My mind was only on one guy at the moment. The one that was currently up in his room or some other place in the house. He'd have to see me at dinner though. There's an Order meeting tonight so Lupin and Tonks would be joining us for dinner. I was worried about seeing Sirius but at the same time, I really wanted to resolve everything. This could go very well or very badly..but I do know that it was one hell of a kiss. He must be so confused though. It's as if he thinks my dad's ghost is gonna come back and kick him in the balls repeatedly.
I was contemplating the whole situation until it was time to make dinner. Mrs. Weasley had asked me to help her so of course I said I would. I ran up to my room first to change out of the old clothes I'd put on to clean in. I put on a pair of tight fitting jeans and a red v-neck top that showed just a little bit of cleavage and brushed my hair.
As I was walking down to the kitchen, I saw Sirius and Lupin talking outside of where the Order always meets. They had been laughing but when Sirius saw me, he stopped.
"Well Mooney, time for the meeting," he said as he walked past Lupin and into the room.
Lupin looked confused at his abrupt exit but looked at me and smiled saying, "Hi Lilah. Hope you are well. We'll catch up at dinner."
"Yeah definitely. Have a good meeting," I replied. His warm smile always made me feel so happy. He had been so sweet and caring during my third year.
"I don't know about that, Severus is briefing us," he laughed at my disgusted expression.
"Eww I'm so sorry to hear that. Haha see ya later," I smiled and walked down to the kitchen.
Mrs. Weasley set me to helping her with the potatoes. She was next to me, starting to fix a stew.
"Are you doing well now dear?" She asked concernedly, obviously wondering because of the state I'd arrived in.
"Yes, I'm doing good. It's just great to be here with everyone. You're all so loving and kind."
She put her hand on my shoulder and replied, "You always have a home with us. So happy we make you feel that way."
"Thank you Mrs. Weasley," I said smiling at her. She was so sweet.
"And just so you know," she said seriously, "Dumbledore is going to have a talk with you when you're back at school. I think he owes you a huge apology. Leaving you with those...those animals. Makes me sick."
"I don't think he knew. He couldn't have," I said. He wouldn't have left me there if he knew my uncle was abusive.
"Oh no..I surely hope not or else I'll lose all respect for the man. He should have checked though." Just then everyone started coming into the kitchen.
"Mum! I'm starving after getting rid of all those stupid doxies all day," yelled George as he sat down.
"Me too," said Ron. "Stupid thing bit me though."
"Oh Ron, I'll see to you after dinner. Everyone eat up. Lupin! Good to see you and you too Nymphadora!"
"Ahh no, it's Tonks." Tonks had bright purple, long hair tonight. She ran to me and scooped me up in a big hug when she saw me.
"Lilah! I've missed you. We need girl time. I'll do your hair later!"
"hahaha sure! That would be fun," I laughed as she smiled at me and took the place at the table next to me.
"Not tonight Tonks," said Remus who sat opposite us. "We've got to start preparing for our new mission tonight."
"Remus you're no fun," she exclaimed and stuck her tongue out at him.
He shook his head at her but had a sly smile on his face. They would make the cutest couple.
"What's this Order business you've got?" I asked hopefully. They never told me about any of that stuff.
"Sorry, Order members only. If I told you, I'd have to kill you," Remus said jokingly. It was my turn to stick my tongue out at him. "No I'm kidding. We've just gotta profile someone, kind of keep an eye on him to see if he's involved with a plan we have news about that the Death Eaters are planning."
"Well Tonks is perfect for that since she can disguise herself every time she watches him."
"Exactly," she replied as she morphed into an older woman with grey hair. "I'm perfect for the job." She then changed back to her normal self.
"That is so cool!" said Fred from the other end of the table.
"Wish I could do that," said George.
"You're so pathetic, you'd turn into a girl and look at yourself," said Ron.
"Ronald Weasley!" Mrs. Weasley said furiously as everyone tried to stifle their laughter. "You're cleaning the dishes after dinner without a bit of magic!"
"Ughh mum!"
"Ronald. No objections." Ron slumped in his chair and Fred and George laughed at his punishment.
Everyone went about talking and I kept wondering where Sirius was.
"Hey where did Sirius go?" I asked Lupin.
"He said he wasn't feeling well," he replied as he got another helping of trifle. "Guess he's up in his room."
"Oh ok. Guess I could bring him some food."
"Yes could you do that when you're done Lilah?" asked Mrs. Weasley.
"Sure..". I suddenly got a sinking feeling in my stomach though and became very worried about seeing him. Mrs. Weasley fixed him a plate of food and I grabbed a couple cookies for his dessert and headed upstairs.
When I got to his room, I couldn't bring myself to knock on the door. I just stood there for a couple minutes. What if he's mad at me? What if he doesn't want to talk? What will I do?
The door swung open and I jumped as I saw Sirius standing there, holding the door open.
"We need to talk." I'd never heard him talk like that or look so grave before. My legs felt week and I got so nervous wondering what he was going to say.
"I..I brought you food and cook-"
"I'm not hungry."
"Oh ok." Alright now I was beyond nervous. I was downright terrified. He was really scaring me.
"Just put it down," he said as walked in the room. I set it on his bedside table and turned to look at him.
"So what have you been thinking?" I looked up into his troubled eyes, at his gorgeous black hair. His troubled expression broke my heart.
But then he shook his head. And smiled.
"You're the first thing that's made me feel as happy as I used to. Before anything bad had happened and your parents were still with me. When you kissed me," I looked down and blushed. "Hey! Look at me." He put his hands on my face and turned it toward him. "It was the most alive I've felt in years. You're so beautiful and loving. I understand if you've changed your mind or you think that it's wrong, but if you'll still have me, yes I'll be yours."
It was exactly what I wanted to hear. All my anxiety went away as I nodded and replied, "Yes. That's exactly what I want. Now please kiss me again!"
"Hahaha of course," he said as he pulled me towards him and placed his lips on mine. It was complete bliss and for a while that was all we did, just kissing and looking at each other.
"But we really have to be careful," I said worriedly. "Of course no one can know."
"I've been thinking about that all day, Lilah," he sat down on his bed and put his head in his hands. "We do have to be careful. They'd kill me..Molly would tear my head off."
"But they don't have to know," I said. "Let's just not worry about it."
"I'm worrying! Haha how can I not? But I have to be with you, I just can't stop thinking about you and how beautiful and sweet you are. And I think we'd have a lot of fun too," he gave me a sly smile.
"Oh really?" I made my way over to where he was sitting and wrapped my arms around his neck. "We'd have fun together huh?"
"You're so young though..how could you possibly like me?"
"Really? Oh my gosh. You're so attractive and sweet." I started running my hands over his thighs, looking into his eyes and giving him a sly smile. "And sexy," I said as I leaned in and whispered into his ear.
"You're so young though." He must have suddenly had a second thought because he moved over out of my reach.
"Not really! And I've had boyfriends before. I know what I'm doing," regardless I blushed.
"Hmm really?" Sirius looked inquisitively at me.
"Well not exactly boyfriends. More like.."
"Hook ups?" he asked.
"Umm maybe.."
"Mmhmm..." he said as he shook his head at me, laughing.
"Hey I'm not a whore or anything!" I exclaimed as I crossed my arms.
"Don't worry I was just laughing because that's how I was in high school. But that was so long ago. Don't get me wrong though, I know what I'm doing."
"That's another thing I like about you being older. You know what you're doing..and you're mature and experienced."
"Is that so?" He laughed and gave me a mischievous smile.
"Yep. I think we're going to have lots of fun," I smiled then as he pulled me in close for another kiss and felt incredibly happy.
