"Do you remember the first day we met baby I do I was so mesmerized, your eyes I could have drowned in them and I still can. It was as though you brought new life to us all, your goofy smile that always lit up the room you could turn a really shit day around. We went to the bar a few weeks later, that was the night you kissed me and if I am honest, I fell for you there and then. However, you panicked and ran you were so scared of being hurt of letting me in. You was scared to be loved, you had those damn walls so high around you, but I could see I could tell. My biggest regret was I allowed it to happen. I allowed you to walk away but I hoped or knew you would come back to me in time. We are each other's drug," JJ wiped the tears away, which were forming in her eyes.
"Oh Emily, how am I going to tell our children, how will I explain this to them that their mommy is so poorly that"
Garcia swallowed as she opened the doors keeping her movements slow as she took in the scene around her. The deep burns lined Emily's arms, the bandages seeped as the fluid expelled itself from her body. One side of her face was burnt so badly that even Garcia could not make out her striking features. She closed her eyes before walking closer wrapping her arms around JJ.
"What am I meant to do Garcia" JJ sobbed against her.
"Talk to her let her know you are here and that she is loved by each one of us" Garcia said the emotion evident in her voice as her own tears fell.
"How do I tell our children mommy might not come home again, how do I do this please tell me. Tell me what I am meant to do" JJ said as the sobs wreaked through her body.
"You hold them close as you can and tell them that mommy is fighting to come home and that she will come home"
JJ shook her head "I can't let them come and see her Garcia, not like this" JJ looked at her with blood shocked eyes,
"I don't know sweetie just keep talking to her she can hear you"
JJ looked at her wife for a moment "I wish I could believe that, I want to hold her but I can't even touch her, how can she know I still love her with all my heart, if I can't touch her, I can't give her comfort"
Garcia sighed softly "I don't know sweetie"
They sat there silent, all words gone as they watched the rise and fall of her chest JJ broke the silence. "She is so beautiful, we have wasted so much time six months of being apart was hell, it was torture, worse than anything I have ever felt, but I knew she was safe. I knew she was going to come home to me in one piece. I knew we could overcome it, but our children two years and they still have nightmares that she died. Henry still thinks she is not going to come home, this is going to kill him. She had two more fucking weeks left, two more weeks and then she would have been away from this all. She was leaving Garcia, leaving the BAU. That was why she picked Jessop, that was why she had done everything she has, she wants our children to feel safe and secure in the knowledge that she is safe, but she isn't."
"She's leaving?" Garcia whispered.
"She is, her heart wasn't in it anymore, every time she would walk into our home her heart broke a little more as Henry hangs to her not wanting to let her go, he didn't and doesn't want her to walk out that front door. Rachael is the same although she is still mad at her. She blames her for everything and now she is going to blame her again. First Will dies and now my wife is hooked up to fucking machines just to keep her breathing how the hell is this fair. What the hell did we do to deserve this shit?" JJ moved away resting her elbows on her thighs her face resting in her hands.
"You know Elizabeth was so mad when we got married or maybe I should say after she found out we had gotten married. I honestly thought she was going to kill Emily and then me. She was mad because we had done it behind her back, but we did not want a big huge wedding and we knew you all would have insisted on it. Instead we got in the car with Rachael one day and just did it and we should have done it sooner, hell we had been dating since the second week she had joined the team well a month or two later, only because she panicked so badly, she was so scared to let anyone close, to allow herself to be loved. She is so damn well stubborn, but right now I need her to be stubborn and hold on for us, I need her to fight, you hear me Emily you fight damn it, because I need you, our children need you please baby. Don't you dare leave me not again."
The knock pulled her from her thoughts fears and uncertainness as she looked sadly at the nurse "Ma'am I need to change Emily's dressings" JJ nodded as she looked at Garcia.
"Can I come back once you're finished please, I need to make a few phone calls" JJ said as she stood on shaky legs.
"JJ you want me to ring them?"
JJ glared at her slightly "No, I have to do this no one else, she is my family they need to hear it from me" the sadness and anger broke Garcia's heart as they left the comfort of the room.
"You want some company JJ?" Garcia asked as they made their way down the corridor.
"No I need to be alone to do this, just go and be with them, and Garcia I do not want anyone to go and see her not like that" the firmness in her voice shocked her.
"But JJ"
She glared "No, she will never forgive me" with that she walked away leaving Garcia to break the news to the team their family.
JJ could not deal with them she could not deal with the pity, she could not deal with the raw emotion that she felt inside as she pulled out her personal cell phone leaning against the cool wall of the entrance to the hospital.
"Ambassador Prentiss please" JJ said as the phone was picked up.
"She is in a meeting right now can I get her to ring you back Ma'am" the sectary said kindly.
"I need you to get her on the phone please, her daughter has been in an accident" JJ said as the tears formed again in her throat.
"Who is this?"
"Jennifer Prentiss" the line went silent for a few moments.
"Jennifer what's wrong?" Elizabeth said softly into the phone.
JJ could hear the worry in her voice as she spoke "Its Emily she's been badly hurt you need to come, please Elizabeth"
She gasped down the phone "How bad?"
JJ swallowed as the sobs ripped through her "S…sh…li..fe…Su..pport" JJ stumbled over her words as she heard the phone drop to the floor.
"Jennifer I will get home as soon as I can, which hospital"
JJ tried to slow her breathing "Memorial"
"I will ring your mother sweetheart okay" JJ sighed softly grateful of the offer, she couldn't even speak as her emotions took over. "I will be their darling, I promise. You just stay strong" the line went silent as she disconnected the call.
"What do you mean Garcia" Morgan said in frustration "That's my partner in there" his said in anger.
"How can she tell us we can't see her it's not right?"
Garcia slumped into the chair as she sobbed out her answer "I don't know" Rossi walked out the room leaving everyone reeling in the fact that JJ had in fact thrown them out as he made his way outside for some fresh air.
JJ sat her eyes closed as she said silent prayers to god praying for him to help pull her through this to bring her wife back to her. "How you doing kiddo" Rossi said softly.
"How do you think" she more a less spat back.
He sighed sadly "Don't push us away JJ, your both need our support" he said calmly, he wanted answers in truth and he hoped he could get them.
"I am not," sad dull blue eyes met dark hazel eyes "She would never forgive me if you saw her like that Rossi, it would destroy her" he gave a sad smile.
"You mean destroy you, we are family and we need to stay together" she shook her head.
"Just not yet please I need to be alone with her please" he could see the fear in her eyes as she spoke and he understood on some level, she wanted to say goodbye just in case she lost her.
"We will be here kiddo, but there is something you need to know" she frowned as she looked at him.
"When they entered the building Jessop had protected her, JJ, Amy saved her. They have said if she hadn't been covering Emily's body she wouldn't be here"
JJ looked at him wide-eyed "She did that"
He nodded "You hold on to that, you hold on to the fact that Jessop saved her to keep her safe for you kiddo and you know Prentiss will fight hard to be back with you"
JJ nodded "I just want to be alone with her right now, I need to work out what to tell our children" the tears formed in her eyes again.
"You tell them mommy is poorly and they need to say prayers for her and she will be home when she is better"
She gave a coy smile as she stood up "I need to get back to her"
