Seven Pros and Cons of James Potter

Written by Lily

Foreword(s):

I, Lily, am attempting to do this list for the third time now… It's hard, I'm still feeling somewhat confused as to why I've even thought about this. But you see if you don't write things down they plague you, haunt you, force you to make impromptu decisions and impulses that I can't explain.

No one must ever see this, I must destroy this after I have written this down. But the thoughts of James and… James and… and… me…? Arghh! I need to write this down.

#1: Appearance

Pros: Buff, tanned, the most gorgeous hazel/golden eyes, the most warm hugs, the most dazzling smile, (the cutest arse). Basically eye-candy. Has been since sixth year. Quite frustrating really, why must he be so good-looking? …Why must I be so shallow?

Cons: I feel jealous every time I see another girl looking at him. I don't want that, I hate jealousy. Personality should trump appearance no matter how muscular and drool worthy… I've said too much.

#2: Quidditch

Pros: See Point #1. He's athletic, focused, calm and in-control. Leadership skills.

Cons: Can I keep up with him? No. Quite daunting that he's so much stronger than I am. Plus I'm not good at the height thing, James has no fear.

#3: Brainage

Pros: Mark-wise, he's a smart cookie. They weren't wrong when they made him Head Boy. He has got great intellect and awareness. Not to mention logic – not many wizards get logic, but then again he is taking muggle studies.

Cons: Potions is a weak point, but really, who can be good at everything?

Prank opportunities are a weak point – he is head boy and still getting detentions. THINK!

#4: Loyalty

Pros: His best Gryffindor quality. He trusts his friends, he stands by his family, he has made the teachers proud and he does whatever I ask him too. Ok, maybe not everything, but the important things, and he sticks up for me, me being Muggleborn and all.

Cons: He is loyal to a fault. That's one of the reasons he gets landed in detention so much, is because of his bond with Sirius. He gets torn up when someone stabs him in the back. Trust me, you don't want to see him and Sirius in a fight. That was like... you don't want to know…

#5: Ability

Pros: James Potter is a very capable young man. See points #2 and #3. To be honest, Dumbledore saw his potential before I could. And really, in consideration of every other option, James is decent boyfriend material… I totally did not mean to write that…

Cons: James being able to do practically everything makes him seem like he's perfect. He's not, and even he knows it, but it would be hard if he doesn't reach a standard. There's this expectation resting on him… gawd the pressure…

#6: Humour

Pros: Always with the jokes and the winks, I'm finding his quips quite hilarious and quite witty. I don't think I've really noticed before, I was just too defiant in him in general to feel any freedom to laugh like I do now – and it's quite liberating, makes my heart beat a little bit faster, makes a light shine in these darkening days, and of course give me a moment to touch er slap him for being such a smart-alec.

Cons: There's a time to funny, and a time to not be, although James genuinely has this in check, the odd inappropriate joke slips and suddenly I feel hurt and repulsed all over again.

#7: Love

Pros: I know James loves me, his most overwhelming and comforting hugs tell me so. His eyes betray his heart when I put him down or lift him up. A longing settles into his expression when he looks at me. He does little things for me to show his affections and to make my life that little bit easier. He'll shove his hands in his pockets when his hand has accidentally brushed mine as we patrol, just us alone at night. The poor boy is nervous, he doesn't want to loose the friendship that we have fallen into.

I feel secure with him, I trust him, he has become a staple and influence in my life, and I don't know if I could go without him now that he's a constant in my life.

Cons: This really scares me, because of his ability to love. I don't how to love, at least not the way he's shown it to me. I don't want to hurt him anymore, because I have, and I just don't want to hurt him…

A/N:

This note was never actually destroyed, the consequences of it not being destroyed are going to be in the next instalment. Maybe Lily really wished she'd destroy it, maybe she was really thankful she didn't…

Sorry this is late, for some reason the site isn't working x_X