I don't own VA! =( anyways I listened to "Pocket full of Sunshine" by Natasha Bedingfield tons of times while writng this chapter =D hehe

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I decided maybe I should talk to Jake, just to see what he has to say. I'm waiting here in the cafeteria for him to come in. *sigh*. "Rose?" he asks. Another sigh, "No. Santa Clause." Last time he saw me was 2 days ago and he already forgot how I look? Nice. He sighs too. Is it sighing day or something?

"Look." I wait for him to continue which I hope is soon, I promised to go to the park with Zoe and Dimitri. Wonder how that will go. Dimitri is letting lose a lot with me lately, it's…. Amazing. He's amazing. God, I should really stop thinking like that about my ex boyfriend whose my daughters father. Wow. Uh, no comment…

"I wanted to apologize for the way I treated you and for what I said to you, but I was being honest. You still love him Rose. I was what you would call a distraction, a cover up for your real feelings. Just like Anne is for him. I don't know when you guys will realize that, but when you do thank me ok?" is he serious? Yeah, just look at that face. He stands up to leave, kisses my cheek and says something about seeing me later, and I just nod.

I don't know for how long I stay there staring at nothing, but thinking. Yeah the great Rosemarie Hathaway has a brain and uses it too. My heart isn't breaking, it doesn't hurt, I don't hurt. In fact I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Like suddenly I don't need to fake anymore. Because at least someone knows. Wait, no, no, no. I do not love Dimitri Belikov anymore. Nope, I don't, I can't. Yeah, sure he's been amazing these last days with me, supporting me, and well flirting with me, but it's all in the past right?...

"Roza?" his velvet voice asks. "Yeah?"

"You ready to go?" huh? Oh yeah, right, the park. I get up and we walk to the park in a comfortable silence. Each one of us in our own thoughts. Zoe runs off, and me and Dimitri sit on a bench. We don't say anything until he asks whats wrong. So I tell him everything Jake told him and everything I think about it. He doesn't say anything, when all of the sudden he grabs my face in his strong hands, cupping my face as if it were glass, and kisses me. I immediately respond, but I push him away. He's confused at first, I am too. "You can't do this to me." I say begging and shaking my head.

"Do what?" he frowns.

"This. Make me fall in love with you again. You can't, more like I wont let you." I get up and go grab Zoe but not before I hear him say, "Jake was right, and you were wrong; Zoe does have half of my heart, but you have the other half Roza. You always have and always will."

I walk with Zoe back to our room, and together we take a nap. I fall asleep with his words replaying in my head and I know he's right. The second time I didn't run away because of Jake, I ran away because I didn't want to face Dimitri and Anne. I've been lying to myself all this time, haven't I? What do I do now? He can't make me love him again because I never once stopped loving him. I hid my feelings well. But I cant and wont go back with him. I have a new life, a life that couldn't and shouldn't involve me and Dimitri as a couple.

Mwuahahaha! =D there you go. Sorry to all the Jake fans but this story is rated Rose.H and Dimitri.B!

I got a pocket got, a pocket full of sunshine. I got a love and I know its all mine oh oh oh. Do what you want you never guna break me! sticks and stones are never guna shake me! =D