Hello, it took me a while but I'm finally happy with this chapter.

Because I can't respond to guess reviews I'll respond to two points that caught my attention here because you guys deserve it too, I appreciate the reviews and your interest in the story. Anyways, I know Sasuke is being kind of a douche right now but he has a good reason for trying to push Sakura away, also as you can see from previous chapters he doesn't want to feel like he is taking advantage of her memory loss, he wants to face their problems together as equals, the fact that she doesn't have her memory makes him see her as vulnerable. And Sakura didn't cheat on him lmao there's no way Sakura could cheat specially during the situation they faced and neither of them buried themselves with work. The story is a bit more complex than that (at least I'm trying to write it to be more complex). I hope you enjoy this chapter.


Another day waking up in a hospital, she thought as she opened her eyes and looked around instantly recognising the room.

Our son is dead. Our son is dead. Our son is dead. His words were stuck in her head.

Her heart was so heavy, she could hear Sasuke's words so clearly, without even noticing she started crying. She didn't even flinch when familiar arms hugged her from behind.

"Shhh, I'm here"

"Sa-sa-sas" it was pointless, she couldn't speak, her choked sobs were too strong. She felt his embrace became stronger.

She cried for what it seem to be an eternity, only stopping when she couldn't physically cry anymore, by now she was hugging him from the front and hiding her face in his chest.

Another moment passed, one with no tears, just silence and then she asked with a faint voice.

"Whe-when did it ha-happen?"

His arms became even tighter around her and then she finally noticed, he was crying too. His face was buried in her hair, but she could feel some tears wetting her scalp.

He cleared his throat, an attempt to try to sound less broken, and spoke.

"Around eight months"

"Wa-was he really two?"

To her surprise his arms became even tighter, she could almost feel his pain transcend to her own body.

"He was just about to be two...it-it was around his birthday"

With that she stared crying again. Now they were both crying and holding each other, she wanted to ask more but she wasn't ready to listen.

"It hurts so much Sasuke, why can't I remember? I want to remember him"

"I know...I know" he whispered in her ear.

"Will you tell me about him?"

He paused, and then nodded.

"I will, I'll tell your whatever you want"

Another moment of silence, he kept holding her until she was ready to let go. She set herself in bed and made him lay with her, looking in his eyes and seeing the red that she knew he was seeing in hers too.

"Ho-how was he?"

"He was as beautiful and cheerful just like you, the most adorable baby" he was running his hand through her hair, and even gave her a half smile for only a second. She could tell that the memory of their son made him very happy.

"Did he have my eyes?"

"No, he had dark hair and eyes like mine. Everyone thought that he was a physical copy of me, but I saw you on his smile, or the way he hugged, and his laugh and so many other things"

"He was always so happy Sakura, so so happy, just like you" he told her with a soft expression, it was clear he was probably remembering a past from not so long ago.

"Tell me more" she was holding one of his hands above their heads. "Please Sasuke tell me more"

"I-" she could see that he was struggling, it was probably as hard for him to speak as it was for her to listen.

"I'm here you know" she gave his hand a squeeze. "We can stop talking about him if you want"

"No Sakura, I don't want to stop. It's just...it's so hard, talking about him, he was so young, he had so much life to live and-"

"Please don't...don't tell me what happened just yet, I want to hear all be beautiful memories you have of him, just this once Sasuke" she was crying again, he hugged her again, they stayed like that for a few minutes until he started talking.

"Do you want to know his name?"

She shook her head in his embrace.

"No, I'm not ready yet"

"Ok" he pause, as if carefully choosing what to say next.

"The first weeks after we brought him home he wouldn't stop crying at night, he always woke uo to cry at 3am everyday, and you would get so worried even though you could barely walk yet you would always jumped off the bed to go to him. And whenever you felt too weak to walk you would wake me in a second to carry you there"

"And you would carry me?"

"Every time. I didn't admit it at the time, but I was worried too, I could barely sleep at night on the first week, we held him until he was asleep again" he didn't told her yet why they would worry so much, but eventually he would have to.

Another pause, and then he asked.

"Do you want to know his first word?"

She nodded again. All of this hurt so much but it felt so good to pretend just for a second.

"It wasn't mama or papa. Itona was always around him whenever they visited, during that year they were here most of the time. One time when we were at my parents house and Itona was being sent to bed early he almost jumped out of your arms and yelled "Ita" he said "Ito" "Ito-a" he couldn't actually pronunce the name but we all knew what he wanted to say, we were all laughing, we didn't even care that he didn't said mama or papa yet. You were very proud"

Sakura tried to imagine the scene, their family gathered around proud of their son.

"Were they that close?"

"Yeah, they were always around each other, nii-san even said that he was mostly considering moving back because he wanted them to always have each other"

He could feel her stiff a bit in his arms. Maybe he should've kept some info for himself.

"Sasuke, ca-can we stop talking now? I-I feel...I don't want to think about it anymore, at least not right now"

He nodded, kissing her forehead he tried to make his way out of the bed but was stopped by her.

"Can't you stay here?"

"I will, I'm just going to call the office and tell then I'm not coming ok?" she nodded in agreement and let him go.

Looking at the window she saw the clarity of the new day. The clock marked 6am, she didn't even notice they spent so much time like that, trying to smoother each other's pain.


Sasuke was scared and frustrated, deep down he didn't want to tell her all those things just yet, because he was scared of how she would react, just seeing her relive that whole thing was too much. Sakura had reacted so bad the first time, he was so scared she would go through that again, this was exactly what he was trying to avoid but thinking back at his brother's comment he had to admit Itachi was right, as always. The impact of remembering everything at once would be worst, today she fainted just from hearing that, who knows what would happen if the whole thing simply showed up in her head out of thin air.

Before that accident she seem to be on the right path for recovery, but now everything was back to the beginning. He cursed himself for losing his control like that, it wasn't his brother's fault for arguing with him and it wasn't Sakura's fault for being there, it was his own temper for being so damn unpredictable. He was just so devastated and silent for so long he couldn't hold back anymore. He wasn't ashamed to admit that he was hurting too.

With a soft sight he dialled his secretary's line. What a mess, he thought.


She heard him coming back, settling himself back to the bed. She wanted to ask something.

"Sa-Sasuke, what happened to our house?"

"It's still there, in the same place"

"Can we go there?" she asked timidly

"For what?"

"To stay" she said just loud enough for his ears.

"Sakura-"

"Just for a little while, I just want to be close to him or at least his memory"

"The doctor said you have to rest, going there won't be good for you"

She let go of him, giving him her back.

"I know but...but...I just want to go ok" he couldn't see her eyes but he knew she was crying again.

Putting a hand in her shoulder waiting to see if she would accept the contact, when she didn't do anything to stop him he spoke.

"I'll talk to the doctor later, I need to go dust off the place, we haven't been there in a while, once you can leave the hospital I'll take you there, but only for a few days ok? We really should stop pushing so much information into you, at least until you can remember something with clarity"

"Ok"

She still gave him his back, he felt that something was bothering her, as if she wanted to say something else but couldn't. Gently he pulled her closer, turning her body and locking their eyes together he asked.

"What do you want to ask?"

He could see the surprise written all over her face. She focused on a point behind him.

"I-I...first, I want you to swear you won't lie to me or hide the truth, regardless of what the doctor says Sasuke, just tell me this one thing. Will you?" She was looking at him with determination now.

"I will. What do you want to know?"

"Why did we get divorced?"

It was his turn to be surprised, he didn't understood. How could she know that, he was sure her parents didn't tell her and neither did he so how.

As if she could read his mind she spoke.

"I'm not stupid Sasuke, even if we were separated I could see in your eyes that you still love me and even without my memory I know what my heart is telling me, and that is that I still love you. We could be separated but I would never ever stop wearing my wedding ring. On-only something as serious as divorce could make me do that. I wasn't sure at first, I went to your house to ask you about it, but looking at you, now I know I was right. So please tell me"

He still looked at her with the same surprised expression. Blinking once, twice and so on, until he said.

"Say it again"

"What?"

"That you love me. Say it again Sakura" he was hugging her once more, differently from the other times that night. This time he wasn't just holding her, this time he was reaching for her embrace and hoping that she should hug him just as tightly, so she did.

"I-I do love you Sasuke, I may not know yet what we've been through because my head won't cooperate, but my heart is screaming that I love you, so so much"

"I haven't heard you say that in a such a long time. Sakura, thank you"

Timidly Sakura asked him.

"And do you?" Love me back she thought

He nodded above her head.

"I do. I love you more than words could describe"

Whispering she said.

"Then why aren't we together?"

Sasuke had do think about what he was going to say before opening his mouth. Many minutes passed until he spoke.

"I don't want to upset you and I promised I wouldn't lie to you. But the truth is only you know why we're not together anymore, at least with details, I mean. We had an argument before signing the papers and you kept telling me all you wanted was to be alone for a while. I could never force you to stay because I knew exactly how you felt about what happened, and I guess we were coping with it differently"

I feel like a failure Sasuke. Her words from that day haunted his thoughts. He wishes he could tell her the full story but I didn't knew if she could take it just yet, maybe in a couple of days.

"At first it was just sleeping in different rooms, then it was never seeing each other at the house and then one day you got the papers, we argued for hours until we both signed"

"Was I that selfish?" He could sense that she was getting upset. Not with him but with herself.

"No Sakura. You weren't selfish, you just needed time to heal, in your own way"

"How could you be so sure?"

"Because I know and I believe in you and your love for me"

Still she wouldn't give him any reactions. So he continued.

"We went to therapy for a while. We had separate sessions, because the doctor said that our healing progress was different from each other. Specially yours, being the-the...mother"

He could feel her shiver a bit after he said that word, she was probably still getting used to being a mother and not being one at the same time.

"When we signed the papers that's what I had in mind. That maybe one day we would stop healing separately and go through this together"

"Like right now?" She spoke softy.

"Like right now" He whispered.


So? What do you guys think? This was pretty sad, and by now you can already see they haven't been divorced for long but things were already rocky before the divorce.

Next chapter Sakura is going to remember a major thing (FINALLY).

See you all next time.