Ok so I'm going to warn you now: Clarion is extremely out of character this chapter! But I thought it would be important to the story line…Anyway, I hope y'all like it!

Chapter 7

"Milori?" Clarion was in bed with her husband. They had been sleeping for a while. All fairies knew not to bother them what so ever. Milori had almost died the day before thanks to a tornado, and Clarion may have just had another miscarriage.

"Yes dear?" Milori asked as he wrapped his arms around his wife.

"You do want a baby right? Because there is no turning back now." They had tried to get pregnant again earlier that day and hadn't really brought it up since.

"Yes. Ree, I want a child, and I want you as their mother." He kissed her forehead reassuringly.

"Milori? Did you mean it when you said you didn't care about the first miscarriage?" Milori sighed.

"Clarion, I didn't mean that. It hurt me so much to hear that you've been through this pain twice. But it hurt me even more to know you didn't tell me. That I wasn't there to help you. Why didn't you tell me?"

"I don't know. I should have. I know that now. I can tell you anything."

"Yes you can dear. Yes you can." They drifted back to sleep; both wishing the past couple of days were just a dream and that they would wake up any second.

But they didn't 'wake up'. They continued on with their lives. The next day they got up, got dressed, ate breakfast, and went to work. The days passed slowly for the two of them. Fall was delivered to the mainland; successfully like always. But Clarion and Milori's lives were filled with sorrow.

"Dear, would you like to go for a walk?" Clarion asked her husband. Milori had been staring out the window like he did every night since that day. It had been three weeks. He looked over at his wife.

"You would have been three seasons." Clarion sighed. Milori hadn't gotten over what had happen, and she knew he wouldn't until she checked the Pixie Dust room. "Oh Ree, I'm sorry. I would like to go for a walk however." Clarion smiled slightly and looped her arm in his. They walked down to the border and sat. Milori was in winter, Clarion was in spring. They were talking lightly when Rosetta flew up.

"Queen Clarion! I've been looking all over for you! I'm sorry to interrupt, but I really need to talk to you." Clarion stood and smiled.

"I've been waiting for you to come and talk. Why don't we go to the tea room?" She then turned her attention to her husband. "I'll meet you back home when we are done?" Milori kissed her cheek lightly and rubbed her stomach. She let out a soft sigh.

"I'm not losing hope Clarion." Milori whispered ever so softly. She kissed his nose before flying off with the garden fairy. They arrived in the tea room and sat in two golden chairs.

"Queen Clarion, how did you know you loved Lord Milori?" The bluntness of the question startled her a tad, but she answered it the best she could.

"I guess it was because I felt different around him. I still do. My heart beats faster and everything seems like a dream." She looked to the young fairy in front of her. "Do you get like that around Sled?"

"Yes. I want to be with him forever." Clarion smiled.

"You will be Rosetta. Have you two talked about marriage?" Rosetta nodded and pulled a ring out of her pocket. Clarion gasped.

"He proposed to me last week. We haven't told anyone yet." Clarion hugged her tightly.

"I'm so happy for you Rosetta! I can't wait until you walk down the aisle!" Rosetta smiled brightly.

"So we can get married?"

"Of course!" They hugged again tightly. "Is there anything else you want to talk about?" Rosetta looked around nervously.

"Actually, there is. I want a baby, but I know I can't have one." Clarion tensed slightly at the subject. Rosetta picked up on it quickly. "Queen Clarion, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have brought it up." Even though the royal couple never officially announced it, everyone knew the chances of Clarion still being pregnant were slim.

"No Rosetta, it's alright. Being pregnant is the most amazing thing to ever happen to me. I understand why you want a child so badly." Rosetta looked at her.

"Really? Is there any way I can get pregnant?"

"I'm sorry Ro. Only the queen can get pregnant, and if I could change that I would." Rosetta sighed and a tear ran down her cheek. Clarion wiped it away and hugged her tightly. "I promise, if I ever need a babysitter, I'll come to you first."

"Really? You'd trust me with your child?" Clarion nodded as she watched a big grin brake out on Ro's face. "Queen Clarion, what was your favorite part about being pregnant?" Clarion thought for a moment before answering.

"I liked the glow I got from it. The little bump I started to get."

"It still looks like you have it." Rosetta said pointing to Ree's belly.

"Yeah I know. But my favorite part was the feeling I got when she would move." She placed her hands on her stomach and blinked back tears. Rosetta saw the queen on the verge of tears and didn't know what to do. She had never seen Queen Clarion like that. When spring was almost ruined, Queen Clarion didn't cry. When Pixie Hollow was almost frozen, she didn't show a single sign of tears. Queen Clarion was always so strong, but now Rosetta sat in front of her queen, who had a tear drop rolling down her cheek. Rosetta wiped the tear away and simply hugged Ree.

"Queen Clarion…I'm so sorry this has happened. You didn't deserve this. Neither did Lord Milori and I know one day everything will work out for you." Clarion hugged her back, but the tears only came harder. Rosetta could tell Clarion was trying so hard not to cry, but she had lost all control. "It's ok to cry Queen Clarion…" She rubbed Ree's back and Clarion pressed her face into Rosetta's shoulder and cried. Rosetta sat there embracing the heartbroken queen. After few minutes passed Clarion sniffled back the last of her tears. She pulled away from the garden fairy and Rosetta had to hide the shock on her face. Ree's eyes were puffy and red. Not to mention her nose, which was also red, and her cheeks, which had tear stains.

"I'm sorry Rosetta…I shouldn't have cried like I did. I'm so sorry. Did you have any more questions?" Clarion was standing to go when Rosetta took her hand and pulled her back down.

"Queen Clarion, don't be sorry. Really don't. You don't always have to be the perfectly strong queen. You are allowed to have your moments. And this is a perfectly acceptable time." Clarion wouldn't look the garden fairy in the eyes. Rosetta continued anyway, talking in a soothing voice. "Losing a child is the worst thing anyone could ever go through. I know…"

"How do you know?" Clarion asked softly. Her voice was still shaky.

"Remember Annie?"

"Of course I do." Clarion replied. Annie was a young garden fairy that had died a couple years ago. Her clumsy stopped believing in fairies at an early age. Rosetta had taken Annie in when she was born. Annie became a daughter to Rosetta, and when she died Rosetta was crushed. Seeing her light go out was the worst moment in Rosetta's life. "She was like a daughter to you." Clarion then squeezed Rosetta's hand.

"Yes she was. I loved her more than anything else in this world. I wanted nothing more than to know she was safe and happy." Rosetta let a tear leak from her eyes, but no others. She decided to be the strong one for a little. "When she died, I cried my eyes out. I still cry too. Like on her birthday or anniversary; I cry. Sometimes if something reminds me of her, it takes all my might not to break down." Rosetta was trying her best, but she could tell her voice was becoming shaky. She took a deep breath. "Losing your child is horrible…even if she wasn't exactly yours."

"Rosetta?" Clarion began. "Remember how Voila came and got you so you could see Annie before she passed?"

"Yes? You sent for me because you were already there."

"Annie…she asked for her mother." Clarion looked at Rosetta with tears welling up in her eyes again. Rosetta covered her mouth and squeezed her eyes shut. "I didn't even have to ask who her mother was. You were her mother." Clarion leaned over and hugged the fairy. Rosetta cried and Ree rubbed her back. Rosetta calmed down after a little and looked back to the queen. Clarion gave her a small smile and hugged her tightly. They were both still emotional.

"Queen Clarion, I wouldn't be able to be as strong as you. I mean, you lost your own child. Someone who you were related to. If that happened to me I don't know what I would do. Do you miss her?"

"Yes, I do. But I don't know why. Why do I miss someone I never met? How is that possible?" Another tear rolled down her face as she spoke. "I miss the fairy I thought she'd be."

"What do you mean?" Rosetta asked as she took the queen's hands in her own.

"I could see her flying through Springtime Square with us. I could see her riding owls with Milori. I could hear her laughter when Dewey would tell jokes. I miss the thought of her running into our room during thunderstorms or when she'd have nightmares…" Clarion was beginning to lose it again, and this time Rosetta was too.

"Oh Queen Clarion!" They sat together and tried to calm down the best they could.

"I know…it's stupid…I shouldn't be crying like this…over someone I'd never met."

"No Queen Clarion! It's not stupid one little bit! And I promise you that one day a little fairy will run into your room during a thunderstorm. I promise one day your little girl will ask you to do her hair. I promise you will have endless story times and play dates!" Clarion smiled at Rosetta. "I know it." She whispered.

"Thank you Rosetta." After that they drank their tea while collecting themselves. When they parted ways they still had red eyes and tear stained cheeks. But they both left smiling. Somehow that talked helped both of the fairies get over the loss of someone close. Someone they thought they had no reason to mourn over. And it helped.