Hey guys...

I know it's been 5 long days since I last updated and I'm sorry. I've just been buys and tired with work and looking for a new job and boy troubles which I'm not going to go into. Its pretty boring drama anyway.

in this chapter Brooke is still at the party, but this chapter is basically bases on flashbacks of Brooke and Lucas's past and some of the things they went through which shows why what Lucas blamed her for hurts Brooke more than it normally would.

The last part of this chapter goes back to present day and it's a little Brathan scene... A very friendly sister/brotherly kind of scene.

Have an awesome weekend guys and don't party too hard... Just kidding! PARRTTYYY until you can't stand... It's the best way trust me (-:

Anyway here is the next chapter... Enjoy

"It hurts Lucas... It hurts so bad" I yell clutching onto my stomach.

Lucas stood beside me holding me up as I bent over closing my eyes as tears spilled down my cheeks "okay baby, let's take you to the hospital.

"What the hell?" That was Karen's voice. Lucas and I were in the kitchen when I suddenly felt the most awful pain I have ever felt before. I looked down at the floor and my eyes widened in surprise "Brooke sweetie what's wrong?

"Is that... OMG Lucas I'm bleeding" panic flashed through my body as I took a glance up at him "oh god... Please help me" I cry clutching onto Lucas's arm "Luke..."

"We have to take her to the hospital Ma" Karen nodded and theyboth help me to Karen's car.

"It hurts so bad" I lift my hand and see so much blood dripping and I cry harder.

I was 16 and in so much pain. My life flashed before me and I was scared. I was really scared. I have no idea what is happening and the blood just freaked me out even more. Oh god what the hell is happening to me.

•••

My eyes started to flicker open slowly. I could only see bright lights which kind of scared me, but once my eyes sight adjusted I noticed I was staring up at bright white light coming from the lights in the room I was currently in.

I slowly move my eyes around the room to see Lucas slouched on the chair beside me. I open my mouth to speak then realised I couldn't with hoe dry my mouth felt. What the hell happened?

I stir in the bed which woke Lucas. He sat up and a smile formed on his perfect plumped pink lips.

"Hey there Pretty Girl" he leaned forward and kissed me lightly on the lips. I smiled back at him and motioned for the water by my bed. Lucas nodded taking the cup and filling it with the water he passed it to me with a straw.

"Thank you Broody" it was good to hear my voice again. I laid my head back down and my eyes travelled around the room "Lucas..." I looked back at him "what happened?"

"You blacked out by how severe the pain was" he stated and I nodded, but that wasn't what I wanted. I wanted to know why I was in so much pain and why there was blood.

There was so much blood.

"But why was I in pain Luke... I mean one minute we're laughing and joking making ice-cream Sundae's and the next minute I'm crying as I'm bent over in pain. That isn't right... It doesn't make sense and there was blood... So much blood Broody"

"They wouldn't tell us anything" he informs me which to me was bullshit, but not on Lucas's part; on the nurse. I press the buzzer beside my bed and use the control to move my head up so I was in a sitting position.

"What you doing?"

"Finding out answers you obviously can't give me" before Lucas could say anything else the nurse came in. She smiled when she saw I was awake and turned the buzzer thing off. She seemed nice enough. Her badge said Kellie, she was pretty with long curly white blond hair and big blue eyes, she looked to maybe be in her early 20's.

"Oh Brooke it's so good to see you awake" she says taking my file in her hand and flicking through "oh god I'm so sorry for your loss" my loss... What is she on about? "I would advise you to take counselling to take about it. It always helps; it helped me"

"Erm... Kellie I'm not sure I know what your talking about" I inform her seeing her eyes widen and realisation hit her face "but feel free to fill me in"

"The doctor hasn't spoken to you yet?" I shake my head and she drops my notes and apologises as she quickly leaves the room.

Okay I want to know what the hell happened and I want to know now.

I push the cover back from my body and swing my legs around and over the bed getting into a sitting position. I wanted to read my file since the answer to my question is obviously in that file.

My loss... What did that even mean to me right now. I haven't lost anything or anyone, not lately.

"Pretty Girl what you doing?" Lucas question jumping up from the chair and rushing round to my side "you should really stay in the bed"

"I want answers Lucas and I want them now" I slowly stand to my feet and smile to myself when I get stable on my feet and walk over to my file.

I take it from the slot at the end of my bed and flick through it until I get to the part I needed. I stop and scam the page my eyes widen and my body going suddenly cold. All colour drained from my body and I felt my legs turn to jelly and I knew any minute I was going to drop. I clutch the end of the bed and drop the file to the floor.

"Brooke... Baby" came Lucas's voice. I turn to glance at him and saw how worried he was and then re door to the room opened again and I saw Mom and Dad rush into the room and that's when my legs gave way under me and Dad catches me before I hit the linoleum floor.

"What happened?" Mom asks Lucas as Dad places me back down on the bed.

"I don't know, we were making ice cream sundae's and she pain suddenly hit her body and then blood was seen and we brought her here" Lucas explains panic and worry evident in his voice "Doctor Raine won't tell me anything"

"She'll bloody tell me what's wrong with my little girl" Dad mutters walking out the room the door shutting behind him.

"There was so much blood and the pain Mom... The pain" I was in a little daze, but I was aware of everything "I know what happened"

"You had a miscarriage" I look pass my Mom and Lucas and see Daddy standing by the room door. I nod and tears filled my eyes once again as I let out the sob that forced itself up through my body.

"I'm so sorry" I cry as I feel Lucas wrap his arms around me. I snuggle into him and he lets me cry.

"It's okay Pretty Girl... Everything will be okay" his soothing words always had an affect on me and I was so glad it was working right now too.

I had lost a little thing inside of me. The notes said I wasn't that far along, but I still had a little person growing inside of me even if it was for a few weeks. The good thing is we didn't get attached, but the bad thing is knowing. Knowing a baby was growing inside of me is no longer there.

•••

"But you said you were coming with me and my family to the cabin" Lucas hisses as he started to pack his suitcase for the 2 weeks winter break.

"I know I said I would come, but Addie is coming down wit LA her boyfriend for the 2 weeks. I can't just go with you when my sister is coming. She never comes home... I don't want to miss her"

Addilyn is my cousin. When she turned 13 she kind of went off the rails so my Aunt and Uncle sent her to boarding school until she graduates and sadly they both died suddenly last year so my parents are her legal guardians now and this year she gets to come home and I really didn't want to miss her visit.

"But I was looking forward to this Brooke... I had something really special planned for us and everything" he groaned zipping up his case of clothes "why are you really doing this?"

"Addilyn really is coming from London Lucas"

"She's coming for a week Brooke" I looked away from him "so tell me why you don't want to come away with us... No lying"

"The girls invited to Europe for a week"

"I'm your bestfriend, but yet your blowing me and my family off so you can go and flirt with French guys and British guys and prance around with your girlfriends who are all single by the way"

"It's not like that Lucas... We don't have to do everything together. I know your my bestfriend and boyfriend and I love you I do, but I need to have some time away from you too" I try explaining to him.

I really wanted to go away with him and his family like I promised I would, but when the girls invited me to Europe with them I realised Lucas and I are always together and it's not healthy... Not really. We constantly fight about stupid things because we haven't let each other breath and I think being away from each other for the 2 weeks will be good for us.

"Oh well if I'm such a burden on you and your getting fed up of me why don't you just end it... Stop using excuses Brooke" he growled lifting his case of the bed and place it on the wheels on the floor.

"I'm not using excuses Lucas and I don't want to end things... I love you. I just... We need to breathe again and we can't do that together. I know when you get back everything will be fresh again. It's good to sometimes miss the person you love"

"Have fun on your trip Brooke" that was all he had to say after I've explained everything to him. After explaining why I was not going with him he is still mad at me "bye Pretty Girl"

I didn't like the way he said that, he sounded so final, but before I could respond he left me in his room speechless.

•••

"Are you staying for dinner Brooke?" Keith asks as I help him with the shopping bags. I was on my way home when I spotted Keith park up so me being the nice Brooke I am offered to help.

"Oh no I wouldn't want to impose on you and Karen tonight. The boys aren't home this weekend. It should be just the two of you" I kindly reject the offer. Lucas was at some camp for the weekend and Nathan was off doing some basketball thing. Even though Mom and Dad aren't here I still didn't want to impose on the Scott's no matter how much I feel at home with them.

"Oh nonsense sweetie, you could never impose on us" Karen smiles taking the grocery bag from my arms "you're a part of this family too Brooke and I'm sure one day Lucas will make that final" I look down at the promise ring Lucas had brought me for our 1st year anniversary a couple of months ago and a smile immediately came to my lips "the boys might be away for the weekend, but you're always welcome"

"Thank you Karen that means a lot" She embraces me into a hug and kisses the top of my head.

"You really are the best thing that could have happened to Lucas Brooke" Keith states embracing me into a hug as well and I always felt safe while being in both of their arms. They were truly like family to me and I really don't know what I'd do without them "I do believe you guys were meant to find each other" And that coming from Keith meant more than it normally would.

"You guys are amazing. Nathan and Lucas are lucky to have you guys" I give them both a smile the excuse myself and head back home.

•••

"Quickly Cookie its dark" Daddy calls out to me.

It was Christmas eve and my family were hosting their yearly Christmas eve party and just yesterday a new family moved next door so Daddy got me to go next door and invite them... bare in mind I am only 5.

I run across the drive way and up to the big white oak door with the big knocker on the front. I ball my fist and rap loudly on the door. I stood there for a few minutes and turned to wave at my Daddy to make sure he was still there which he was of course. Daddy has always be protective of me. He always tells me how small I am and not to run off or go outside alone.

The big white oak door slowly opened and there stood a tall man with dark brown hair. he was maybe as tall as my daddy. A smile formed on his face relaxing my 5 year old bpdy from the nerves it was feeling. I'm 5 and big people scare me except my Mommy and Daddy of course.

"Hello sweetie" He says looking down at me "how can I help you?"

"My daddy is over there" I tell him turning and pointing at my Dad who was still watching me. The man looked at my Daddy too then looked back at me "We are having a party and we wanted to invite you and your family tonight"

"Oh that is really lovely of you darling" The man bent down to my level and I gave him a smile back "We would love to join you"

"Daddy he said they are coming to join us!" I turn around and yell back at Daddy, I saw he smiled at me and waved me to go back "I have to go now"

"Daddy, Mommy is looking for you" A 5 year old boy came to the door. He had sandy blond hair and blue eyes which sparkled in the moonlight. He then turned to me and smiled "Who are you?"

"Lucas be nice" The nice man warned in a stern voice.

"I'm Brooke" I tell him and then hear Daddy calling for me again "I have to go now" I turn to the tall man who nodded with a smile still o his face "you can come too Lucas" and with that I ran back to my front door and got ushered in by Dad.

•••

I plonked my drunken self down on the rocks with a cup of vodka and coke in my hand. I had wondered away from the party for a little bit so all I could hear now was the sound of the waves crashing against the boulders below me. I had taken a walk across the beach and up to the top of the cliff that people usually dive off of.

"Hey Brookie" I slowly tilt my head up to see Nathan standing above me. He gave me a smile and then took a seat beside me "what you doing all the way out here?"

"I could ask you the same question, I thought you would still be sucking face with my bestfriend" I joke taking a gulp of my drink.

He blushed at my comment about him and Haley and didn't give me a response which I smiled to myself at "I saw you walking down the beach so I thought I'd come and keep you company" it was a legit answer, but I honestly wanted to be alone; then again I can't exactly tell Nathan that since it is the evening time and we were a bunch of teenagers partying on the beach and it was stupid of me to wonder off alone in the dark night.

"Thanks" was all I could think to say as I turn my gaze back to the shore and watch the dark blue waves dance across the sea and crashed against the boulders.

"Brooke about the other night..." Nathan starts to say "what Luke said wasn't fair" and it wasn't. He had no right to basically accuse me or even blame me for Keith dying. I miss him too and I grieved for him too. It wasn't just Lucas who lost his dad it was a bunch of people who had lost him in different ways.

I never saw Lucas be so self centred and selfish before, this was a whole different light of him.

"No one blames you for Dad dying Brooke... I know what Keith meant to you and I don't blame you and neither does Ma"

"But Lucas does" I state un plaiting my hair so the waves flowed around my face "you know for months I racked my brain trying to figure out what I had done to Lucas for him to hate me so bad. I went weeks without sleeping because I just wanted to know and he would never tell him and then he started with the mean names he and his friends would call me and the bickering and laughing started too. I've never known Lucas to be so mean before and that shocked me the most Nate... It shocked me how fast he could change... One minute he was my soul mate and I was his and the next I was basically dead to him; it killed me Nathan and yet he wouldn't tell me why" I gave a small shrug off my shoulders "I loved him more than anything once and now I couldn't care less about him, how ironic is that?"

"Brooke I'm sure that isn't true" Nathan says bumping his shoulder into mine.

"It is Nathan" I nod quickly and then stop instantly regretting as a sharp pain shot through my head "Lucas didn't care about me and he still doesn't. The Lucas Scott I once fell in love with died the same day Keith did and we all know it. I was kidding myself to actually believe I could get my Lucas back" tears formed in my eyes and I cursed myself for being drunk and emotional "how could he do that to me Nathan; how could he blame Keith's death on me. I wasn't the one driving nor the one drinking. How could he do that to me? Just how could he"

"Brooke... He doesn't know what his saying or talking about. He knows deep down that it wasn't your fault. It wasn't anyone's fault except the guy who crashed into him" Nathan wraps his arms around my drunken form and pulls me into his side kissing the side of my head "Dad loved you Brooke and he didn't and never would blame you for his death"

"We were so in love and then it was all gone. Lucas was gone and I miss him. I miss him so much" I cry into his chest "he said he loved me. He said we were forever, but he didn't mean any of it"

"Oh Cookie it's okay... Everything will be okay" and I could hear the assurance in Nathan's voice, but I wasn't so sure I believed it. I wanted to... I really wanted to, but o don't think Lucas and I can come back from this... We've been through a hell of a lot, but this... This is different.

So it seems Brooke and Lucas have gone through a lot even though it's not all shown in this chapter and it's sad how much faith Keith put into the Brucas relationship for Lucas to just break it like it has.

Seriously what would Keith think if he was hearing or seeing what Lucas had down to Brooke.

He broke her and I'm not sure he'll get her back this time.

So I'm not sure what you guys think of this chapter so it would be very appreciated if you could kindly click the button and REVIEW!

Much Love Always Roch xoxo