Rating: M/NC17 for sexual content.
AN:
Okay don't kill. I have a plan. Trust me. Enjoy!!
Thanks to everyone who reads and enjoys this fic. A special thank to those who reply.
Kelly
Chapter Seven
Jason leaned against the couch as Elizabeth slipped on her leather jacket. It was nearly identical to his own. This made sense since he was the one who gave it to her. "You like it?" he asked softly with a smile.
"I love it. I love you." Elizabeth replied with a happy giggle.
"I love you too." Jason said as he looked lovingly at her.
"Ugh. I wish I didn't have to work." she pouted.
"I'll be fine. You said Bobbie was going to stop by and check on me. Don't worry so much." Jason said as he watched her closely.
"I can't help it." she admitted.
"I know. Francis is going to go with you." Jason said as she walked over to him.
"Okay." she sighed as she put her arms around his neck.
"I know you don't like it but I worry about you too." Jason said and then pulled her closer for a kiss.
"I'll see you this afternoon." Elizabeth said breathlessly when the kiss finally ended and then rushed quickly out the door knowing that if she didn't leave now, she might not leave at all.
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He was doing push ups when Bobbie knocked on the door. "What do you think you're doing?" Bobbie demanded as she watched Jason closely.
"Trying to get some strength back in my arm." Jason explained calmly and then returned to what he was doing.
"Jason, what you've probably done is tear your insides open. Your wound is only partially healed. Its way too soon for strenuous exercise." she scolded, trying to make him understand.
"It doesn't hurt. Not a lot." he replied as he did another push up.
"Well let me take a closer look just to be sure." she sighed. She sat down next to Jason as he unbuttoned his shirt. "You know another activity you should avoid? Fighting?" she said not giving him a chance to answer.
"Yeah. I'll try." Jason sighed as he ran his hand through his hair.
"Well it looks okay. I mean I realize what happened with you and Nikolas wasn't your fault." Bobbie said as she watched him fix his shirt.
"I shouldn't have gone after him like that. I didn't know Michael was there. Do you think it scared him?" he asked softly, hoping that he hadn't scared the little boy.
"I think Michael is going to be fine. It's Elizabeth I'm worried about." Bobbie replied with a frown.
"Nikolas was wrong. We're not... I'm not using her like that." Jason said as quickly looked up at her.
"I know Elizabeth was just trying to protect you. And I'm very grateful that she did. Because if she hadn't asked you to move in here I would have dragged you off to the Brownstone and taken care of you myself. You know, Jason, Elizabeth is very young. She's had a rough year to say the least. The last thing she needs right now is to be known as Jason Morgan's girlfriend." Bobbie said in a stern voice.
"Okay." Jason said understanding that Bobbie was concerned about Elizabeth.
"I'm sorry. I really hate that I even have to say that to you. Because I honestly believe what happens between you and Elizabeth should be your business and no one else's but you do have a reputation. I don't even know if she understands what she's risking." she continued on.
"Bobbie, I understand." Jason said patiently.
"Sometimes I could just hit Sonny Corthinos." she snapped.
"Why?" he asked in confusion wondering what the fuck Sonny had to do with him and Elizabeth.
"Because you are such a wonderful person. And you made a bad mistake at a time when you didn't even know what you were doing. Or maybe you did. Maybe you're one of those people who decided long ago you were going to lead the hardest, most dangerous life possible no matter what anyone else said or did." she explained quickly.
"Are you mad at me?" Jason asked as he watched her closely.
"Well maybe I am. You take crazy chances and you got shot. But you got a good heart. And you do what you think is right. No matter how much it hurts you. Why couldn't you have been an accountant?" she asked with a slight laugh.
"I don't think that would have worked." Jason replied shaking his head slightly.
"I guess not. Okay. Don't lift anything; don't fight anyone and no more push ups. I want to look at your wound again in a couple of days." Bobbie warned as she started to the door.
"Thank you." Jason said and then watched as she walked out the door. 'One more person.' he thought to himself. 'One more person that thinks I'm no good for Elizabeth.'
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Jason looked at the tree he helped Elizabeth decorate. He knew this was going to hurt her and he hated it. Jason also knew he had to do this. They both needed him too. Elizabeth walked in catching him at the tree. "Caught you." she giggled.
"Yeah you did." he admitted with a grin. 'God, I love her!' he thought. 'How can I do this?'
"I knew it was only a matter of time. First you fiddle with the ornaments. Then you're arranging the tree. Next thing you know you're a full blown Christmas freak." she teased as she walked towards him.
"This is the only tree I've ever liked. I still think it would look better out in the forest." he said as she stopped beside him.
"How about a compromise? When we go out on our walk this afternoon we can go through the woods and you can look at all the natural undecorated trees you want." Elizabeth said as she looked at him with a twinkle in her eyes.
"I can't go on a walk with you this afternoon." he replied softly.
"What? Why?" she asked with a frown.
"I love you. You know that right?" Jason asked as he reached out to take her hand in his. 'Look at me.' he pleaded silently.
"I love you too. What does that to do with our walk? Did Bobbie say something was wrong?" she asked nervously.
"No. I'm healing really well. I have you to thank for that. I'm… I'm moving out." he stammered, knowing that he was hurting her and hating it.
"But you live here." she protested weakly unable to meet his eyes.
"Elizabeth, we talked about this. I stayed here. Now I have to leave." he argued gently. The absolute last thing in the world he wanted to ever do was hurt his Elizabeth and yet he knew that was exactly what he was doing.
"What happened since this morning? Did my Grams drop by? Did Nikolas?" she asked trying desperately not to start crying and pleading with him not to leave her.
"I haven't seen either of them since Christmas Eve. When Bobbie came by she checked my wound and said I should leave. Which I already knew. I'm healed." he explained gently.
"No. You're not." she argued quickly.
"I'm healed enough. This isn't good for you. Me living here." he said as she pulled her hand away from him.
"You don't get to decide that." she almost whispered as she turned her back on him so he wouldn't see the tears welling up her eyes.
"Okay. Then it isn't good for me. You put yourself on the line for me. I'm not going to pay you back by making you hurt." Jason said firmly.
"You don't Jason, but you know what does? Thinking you'd walk away because Bobbie told you too." Elizabeth said almost angrily as she turned back towards him, the pain evident in her dark blue eyes.
"I don't do what people tell me, I do what I want. I have to figure out how to live. I don't know if I can do my job. Or even look at people who meant everything to me." he tired to explain, wanting with everything he was to make her understand that he wasn't doing this to hurt her, that he loved her.
"You know having you around was kinda like flipping on a light switch. I could finally see how wrong I've been. You know staying with Gram and pretending to be all happy. Pretending to be everyone's prefect smiling friend. I didn't know how to be anyone else. Until you. You needed me. And I had to do things and make decisions and yeah even lie. But you reminded me that I don't care very much what people think. There are thing that I want to do. A way that I want to live. That's here on my own." Elizabeth said as she finally looked up at him and their eyes locked blue on blue.
"Right on your own." Jason said softly.
"But it turns out that's not really what I want. I know this is very confusing but when I said by myself I meant by myself with you. Having you around made it easier for me to be brave." she continued on ignoring his comment.
"No, Elizabeth. You made your own mind up about what you wanted and how you needed to live. Now it's my turn." he argued gently as he gently touched her cheek.
"Does this mean we're over?" she whispered, eyes full of tears.
"What? Elizabeth, no. How could you think that? Look at me. I love you so much. I know I should stop what's happening between us. For so many reasons..." Jason rushed to explain.
"Jason..." she whispered shaking her head no.
"But I can't. For the first time in my life I'm going to be selfish. You're not losing me. I'm just moving out." he said tenderly as he brought his other hand up and gently wiped her tears away. "There is no word for what I feel for you, Elizabeth. Nothing is going to change between us." "Keep them. Do you even know where you're going to go?"
"It feels like it." she cried.
"I know but we both need this. You helped me and you've taken care of me and I will owe you forever. But if I stay here I will be hiding. And I won't do that." he said firmly, her tears breaking his heart.
"You don't owe me." Elizabeth argued softly. "If anything I owe you. I wanted to help because I love you."
"Back to my penthouse for now. I'll call you…" he promised as he pulled her into his arms.
"Jason, I love you." she whispered as their lips met.
"I love you too, Elizabeth." Jason replied, his eyes filled with unshed tears when the kiss ended. "I love you too."
