Chapter 7
This is Bella's POV
Disclaimer: I don't own twilight (weeps) or Edward (sobs)
I broke the kiss gently, "Edward, I've gotta go." I reminded him.
"No" he whined, "stay with me." His emerald eyes pleaded with me, and I felt my resolve waver. As usual though the need to see my family won over and I laughed.
"Nice try pretty boy. I'm going." I kissed his cheek and stood up to go again.
"Wait!" Edward cried, "I need your number."
I wished for a piece of paper with my number on it to appear and flicked it at him, "Call me" I said as I walked away.
Once out of Edward's presence I could feel the effects of his presence wearing off. I went from calm and comforted to suddenly sober in a matter of seconds and sped up my pace to a run until I reached the lake.
I kneeled next to the still water and wished to see Charlie. I braced myself for the all too common image of Charlie watching sports, surrounded by pizza boxes and aging photos of me and Renee, but was pleasantly surprised. Instead I found him at a restaurant with…I peered closer to recognize Sue Clearwater. Sue's husband had died a year or so ago, and it looked like they had bonded over grief. I examined Charlie's expression closer; he looked extremely nervous, constantly fiddling with his tie, but there was a light to his eyes I hadn't seen in years. It looked like this was more than a dinner between friends, perhaps it was a date?
I smiled at the thought, it would be nice if Charlie could have someone to keep him company, to cook him meals, to love him now that I couldn't. I decided to watch Renee for a while, I couldn't help but feel I was intruding on their date. I found mom curled up an armchair reading a book, a look of intense concentration on her face. I felt a sudden urge to talk to mom, something I hadn't done for a while now. So even though I felt like a bit of an idiot I started talking,
"Hey mom, how are you?" I started off awkwardly, having a conversation didn't really work when the other person couldn't hear or see you, so I decided to talk kind of as if I was writing in a diary.
"So I met this boy. His name is Edward Mason, and you'd really like him mom, he's good looking and polite and friendly and well…really perfect, everything you always wanted for me." Renee smiled and I decided to pretend that it was because of what I was saying rather than the fact that she'd reached a particularly amusing point in her sci-fi novel.
" He asked me out today and I gave him my number. I'm so excited mom, but also really worried. I mean he's so great and I'm just not. I can't be what he deserves, I can't be. He says I'm perfect and that he'll help me with the whole 'coming to terms with your death thing' but I don't think he can. I mean I've been dead for three years, that's way longer than it takes most people, and Alice and Rosalie have tried to help before but it's done nothing."
I realized that I'd started to cry and decided to do the whole 'positive thinking' thing that everyone's always going on about.
"But I mean, maybe I can get better. I guess I've never really tried before you know? Cause I liked watching over you guys' mom, there wasn't anything better to do. I mean there still isn't, but spending time with Edward sure comes close. If I give it a go I guess there's no reason I won't get better. And how good would that be, I'd be happy, Edward would be happy. Hell, I might actually get close to Heaven. "
"Good on you honey" says Renee and I pretend she isn't talking to Buffy.
"See you tomorrow mum."
I pulled away from the vision across the lake and start to walk home. Normally I spent a lot more time watching mom, but I've got a lot on my mind and something tells me I need to discuss it with someone who can actually respond. So instead of going straight home I take a detour and make my way to Alice and Rosalie's mansion- an exact replica of Cher's in Clueless.
"Alice, Rose, get your butts here now" I yelled. They instantly appear,
"Hi to you too Bella" greeted an amused Alice.
"This better be important Bella, I was just about to go dancing" said a decidedly less amused Rosalie.
"Well, if you'd rather go dancing than hear about how Edward asked me out, you can go right ahead." I replied, pretending to be offended.
"HE DID WHAT!" screamed Alice and Rosalie almost instantaneously as they dragged me to the couch, Alice practically bouncing up and down.
"Well, I was just leaving, you know, to see mom and dad, when all of the sudden he goes 'hey, Bella, will you go out with me'…"
"Did you scream YES and jump into his arms and then kiss him, and then it started to rain but you didn't care and you just kept kissing and kissing and kissing, until you finally decided to come and tell your best friends about it…" interrupted Alice, who looks so excited she might actually burst.
I laughed at how wrong she was, "No Alice. I actually tried to reject him."
"WHAT!" screamed Rosalie, "Oh please Bella, tell me you're being sarcastic."
"Why" wailed Alice.
"Because he deserves so much more than I can give him right now." I explained.
"Bella." Seethed Rosalie, trying to calm herself down, " Pleeaassee tell me he didn't accept that pathetic excuse."
"Actually" I said, trying to contain my happiness, "he made me go out with him anyway." Alice and Rosalie's jaws fell open; they of all people know how stubborn I could be when I'd made up my mind.
"How the hell did he manage that?" asked an astonished Alice.
"Well first he told me that I was perfect for him and that he'd help me overcome all my issues. And then he kissed me…" I could tell that Alice and Rose where dying to interrupt, but I wasn't about to let them, "and then after that he said I owed him after shooting him yesterday."
"Oh. My. God. This Edward must be a miracle worker to make you change your mind." Said Rose.
"Well he is insanely handsome, once you look into his eyes, he's very hard to resist. Besides its not like I wanted to reject him." I tried to explain.
"I'm still trying to understand that Bella, explain exactly why you felt you had to." Said Alice gently.
And so I spilled my guts, explaining, for what felt like the hundredth time today, how I felt.
"…and I just feel so selfish, you know?" I finished.
"Bella, honey, that's ridiculous…you're not quite as bad as you think you are, nobody's perfect. Edward knows what he's getting himself into, he wouldn't have asked you out if he didn't want to." Comforted Rosalie.
"Its time to be happy for once Bella." Affirmed Alice.
"Thanks you guys" I whispered.
"What are friends for, if not to tell their friend when she's being ridiculous?" asks Rosalie rhetorically.
"Makeovers of course!" answers Alice, which made me laugh hysterically, although he thought of makeovers usually inspires terror.
I know not much happened in this chapter, so sorry, consider it a filler.
I wont be able to update until at least the 9th cause I'm going camping. On the plus side I'll bring my laptop and hopefully get a lot written.
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