It has been five years since that dreadful day that I was left to deal with myself and never was I the same

It has been five years since that dreadful day that I was left to deal with myself and never was I the same. I became mute nothing made me talk. Zane tried to make me like I use to be but I never let him. No one controlled me, not even Josh. I know most girls would be mad at him and cuss every single word at his name but I could not ever do that but that still didn't keep me from disliking him.

Who wouldn't? He caused me pain, so much antagonizing pain, just because he left here. Soon after he left here I found out just why he did what he did. That alone made me pissed more by the minute. I can remember it like I am living it this moment. It was just a month after he left that it all unfolded in front of my eyes.

Flashback

I was walking down the hall just like everyday. Not talking just walking. As I walked around the corner I found a fuming Beth and a weeping Crystal walking towards me. I just glared at them both because all through my life they did nothing but make it a living hell for me. When Beth got in front of me she went crazy and ranted her head off not that I paid attention to her, well until I heard her say… "Josh never deserved this, you never deserved him." She spat in my face. I looked down at her hands and noticed her holding a newspaper.

"What the fuck are you rambling about?" I asked her rather annoyed; to be honest this is the longest sentence I have ever spoken since Josh left. The longest I have said was like, 'Back off', 'Fuck you' and 'Bite me' or anything within the two to three worded fragments. What I found out next killed me more than anything and made me want to die but the most of all was the thing that made me shut up again.

"Josh, he… he…" She stumbled. She looked away. Right then I knew it had to be something really bad because she was not saying anything rude anymore or being a brat. She looked at the newspaper and busted out in tears. I rolled my eyes and snatched the wrinkled newspaper out of her gasp; she just merely glanced up. I looked over the picture as I read what it said. The picture was of Josh just before he left, looking normal as ever.

'Last night just around ten p.m. Honor student of the age of 18, Josh Jarvis, died in the Forks hospital. It was reported that the cause for the tragic incident, that killed this straight A student, was the worst to be expected. Skin Cancer. It was known that at the age of seven, Jarvis was diagnosed with skin cancer. His mother, that died when he was just an infant, died of breast cancer. Jarvis didn't have an immense immune system that couldn't hold on really long, but luckily for him he lived for eight more years than expected he would. His funeral is to be held at Pebble Beach Resting Home in California on Wednesday; A place he, himself, wanted to be cremated and scattered in Cascade Square's lake, just west of where he lived.'

It was hard to read and even harder to believe. I looked up at Beth and shook my head. "No" I whispered loud enough for only her and Crystal to hear. I knew, even how mean Beth was to me, that she would not make something like this up, defiantly about Josh. I took off running, if there was anyone that would know anything about this it would be Zane. When I got to Zane's room he was sitting at his desk doing, Gawd knows what, not even noticing me there until I went up to him and grabbed him by his shirt and throwing him on his floor while shoving the newspaper in his face. He scanned over it then looked up at me with guilty and sad eyes. "Explain." I ordered. He looked down then told me to take a seat. So I did as told and sat on his bed waiting for him to speak, when he did his tone was firm yet soft, just like Josh's. He took about ten minutes explaining what this whole thing was.

"I was with Josh when he was informed about the cancer. The doctor said that he only had about three years to live. Josh didn't want to leave you because you where so broken and hurt when you came here and you were still healing from your past when he found out. He decided that when and if you where able to deal with the pain by yourself, or when it got less difficult for you to handle, that he would leave just so you would not have to be there when he was to… well when he… just when it happened. He did not want you have to go through more hurting like that. Losing someone you love never heals fully but scars over the wound. He just didn't want to make it where you were never able to heal again." A minute passed as I gathered want he said. I looked at him. He noticed I was pissed.

"Why didn't he leave before his estimated time was up? You said he only had three years to live, why did he stay longer?" He seemed to think about how he should answer my question because only after about seven minutes did he started to speak again.

"You remember that time you went swimming with Josh after one of our battles?" He asked me. I nodded. "Well, that was the night that he knew deep inside his heart that he loved you, really, really loved you." Zane took in my expression then proceeded to talk. "He didn't want you to hurt anymore than you had to." Zane took one of his hands and wiped away one of my tears that I just noticed that were pouring down my face.

"Why? Didn't… he know… that I would of… wanted to be there with him… when, when…" I stop dead there I couldn't say anymore whether I stumbled or not because now I was sobbing horribly. Zane pulled me close, not like Josh ever did, but like a big brother would do to his little sister when she needed a hug. I cried my self to sleep that night think of the love that I lost. Right before I fell asleep Zane asked if I would like to go to his funeral with him, I nodded before I was fully unconscious.

Later

I went to his funeral and watched all the people that said that they 'knew' him cry over their loss. I was relieved when I was able to get away from there because if I saw another person crying over him I was going to yell. No one there knew him besides Zane and me. Zane had to drag me off, away from the funeral because I was about to rip this one girl's, that went out with Josh once, head off because she was going on and on about how she knew him and how important he was to her. The most I was able to do was to tell her off because as I was stocking towards her to tackle her and beat the living shit out of her when Zane grabbed me from behind. The only statements I got out of my mouth until he covered it were, "Shut your fucking mouth. You know nothing about him. Your just one of the whores he felt sorry for so he went on a date with you. Your nothing speca…" by then he had me off of the graveyard and on the walk way down to the lake. We didn't talk to each other because he knew I wanted to be left alone. That night I packed my things and left, but of course not without a fight. He tried to get me to stay but I would not have it. At the end I won and left. Not long after that I die myself. I didn't do it on purpose. This girl came out of nowhere and dragged me off then knocked me out. When I woke to conciseness my neck was burning. I didn't know what to do, who would, I didn't know what was happening. I tried not to scream but the pain was too excruciating, eventually I passed out but not before I felt coldness around me.

When I finally woke up I noticed that I was in a big fluffy bed that was in the middle of a palace type of room. It was huge. The bed I was on was a four-poster bed with a curtain surrounding it. The blankets were black and red and very silky. The room itself was a dark blood red color. It was just like my dream room. It was then I noticed a girl come in.

"Ah, your awake. Finally. Here drink this, don't ask just drink." She ordered while I looked at her confused and wary. "It is to help you with your strength, now drink up." I drank it and I would have to admit it was good, really good.

"Now may I ask what it was?" I asked. She looked at me like she didn't think I would want to know then said, "Blood." She was right I didn't. I dropped the cup and it broke on the floor. "Excuse me? Why the fuck would you give me blood?" I screamed at her. She rolled her eyes and walked over and started to pick up the mess I made. "Well are you going to answer?"

She looked up at me and glared to where, if it could, it would have killed me. "Just because you need it, now shut the hell up, dumbass." I was about to yell back at her until I was cut off by another person or rather a guy that walk in just as she got done picking up my mess.

"Tashia, why don't you go help April with the laundry?" He asked, well more like ordered, the girl named Tashia. She looked at him as if saying, 'don't ever talk to me again', then walked out of the room.

"Sorry for her. She is at a really hard time right now." As he said that he frowned. He looked at me to see what I was going to do, like run or something. I just sat on the bed looking up at him in amazement; he looked like he was a runway model ready for a show. He laughed and shook his head. "Well enough of staring. You want answers?" I glared at him before I nodded to him.

"Ok for starters I am Kyle and the girl that was just in here is Tashia, as you already know, if you were paying attention. We are vampires as is the rest of the family and now, you." The information was processing very slowly because it was a while before I screamed out, "What?" He laughed then sat down next to me on the bed and started to explain again. "Exactly what I said. We are all vampires. My brother and I found you out in the forest about five days ago. You were bitten when we found you and it was fresh but not fresh enough to suck the venom out, unfortunately. We brought you back here and waited for you to wake up and now here we are." I only thought vampires were in books but I never thought this was possible. Well, if it is true, I will just have to deal with it because it is my future now. Nothing I can do, don't get me wrong, I am not one of those girl that are obsessed with vampires but I do love them and I always wondered what would happen if they existed. I would just deal and move on.

"Fine. Ok, I am a vampire. Now what?" I asked him with one of my eyebrows raised.

"Now, it is time to meet your new family." I stopped right there and glared at him.

"None of you will be my family, ever. You guy would be lucky if I was even your friend." I spat. Right now was not the time I needed to be pushed into a family that I didn't know nor needed.

"Ok, we're not your family, only your new coven." I nodded with an agreement. Then we both walked out of the bedroom and down the stairs and into the living room. He called everyone down to the living room for a meeting. Once everyone was down, he started introductions. "This is Tashia as you know already." I took the time to look at her. She was my height with brown hair and topaz eyes. "That over by the stairs is Kasey, Tashia's cousin." She was about 5'8 with blonde hair and topaz eyes like Tashia. She was glaring at me. It's like these people love to glare at people because I have not met one that has not either glared at me or narrowed there eyes like I am something they want to step on. Kyle introduced everyone one by one. There was Shawn his little brother. He is about two inches taller than Kyle and he has black hair, very cute but so not worth it. His wife's name is April and she is shorter than me so I don't feel that bad on that subject. She has blonde hair and hazel eyes. Then there is Bevin; she is the only one that I could possible talk to, maybe. She is not able to think with half of her brain so she would be fine to talk to and hang with.

"There is something I have to tell you about your change and your abilities as a vampire." Kyle took the silence as a sign as to keep talking. "Well when we found you, you just been bitten but the venom spreaded so we couldn't try and suck the venom out like some vampires would try and do… But April has the power to heal and she tried to heal you but she was not able to heal you all the way so you may have some human abilities in you. We had to make it look like you just went missing so we spreaded some of your blood around where you were attacked. They will never find a body and they will not look for long, they never do." Everyone looked at me like as if to see if I was going to have a stroke or something. Hope they like disappointment because that was far from happening.

"Huh, do any of you have any powers?" I was not really curious to get to know any of these people or vampire, whatever you call them, but these so called power were making me wonder.

"I am a shape-shifter and a pyro," Kasey said in a voice that only people that thing they are better than others user. "Ya know, pyro, controls fire."

"Gotcha Cinderella. I am not stupid; I'd advise you to use your head every once in a while, kay." I stated in an over sarcastic enthusiasm. She glared at me for the rest of the day.

"I have telekinesis, molecular immobilization and molecular combustion, do you know what those are?" I nodded. They acted as if I was the stupidest person in the universe, which was very insulting. Telekinesis is the ability to move things with you mind, molecular immobilization is the ability to freeze time and molecular combustion is the ability to blow things up. I love her powers; they are ones, that when I was little, I wanted for myself. The rest of the night I found out that Kyle had one power and that was his strength. His little brother Shawn's power is the ability to feel what others are feeling and not only that but with that power he is able to know what they are going to do when they do it and how they are going to do it. April, his wife, not only has the ability to heal but also has premonitions and is able to levitate. Finally Bevin has the ability to control minds and make everyone do what she wants against their will, her power comes in handy when you really want something and boy does she always want something.

End of Flashback

"Have you found him yet?" Tashia asked me. I shook my head as I passed the hall she was now searching. We have been searching for, Nathaniel Trip, which might I say he is not the easiest target. He was my hardest, by far. Nathan was a vampire we, which I mean I, was assigned to kill.

"Keep looking and if you find him just stun him. You know he is my kill. Now go." I ordered Tashia. She looked at me for a minute then went off down the hall she was searching. I keep looking for him everywhere and I found nothing. Tashia, Shawn and I were searching one of Trip's clubs that was located in Vegas, Nevada while April, Bevin and Kyle where searching his house which was located in Portland, Oregon. We searched the house a few more hours then decided that we should head back to the house.

"He keeps changing his mind ever damn second." Shawn ranted as we approached the house. When we got in the house Shawn stomped up starts and slammed his door. He usually is not the violent one but when his powers messes up on him, you mind as well stand out of the way.

"Hey, you stay here, Imma going to go out. Call me if they find him." I told Tashia. She nodded and I made my way for the door.

"You know running from your past doesn't always work. Take me for the perfect example." Tashia said from the stairs. I turned around and glared at her.

"Really… well it sure as hell beats walking." I said as I slammed the front door behind me. Tashia was always telling me things like that. I have gotten use to her but not many others of the coven. I have gotten really bitchy since Josh died and I never really wanted to stop. April and Shawn are the other ones I talk to once in a while. I use to talk to Bevin all the time but she just got so annoying because of her blondeness.

I have been a vampire for four and a half years. I am not like others vampire; I am unusual to most of them because of my uniqueness. I have human abilities and lots of them. I might not have a heart beat but I am able to cry, blush, eat and sleep just like a human. Other vampires think it is strange that I am able to be able to do these humanlike traits and tend to stray away from me for it. I never asked to become this creature but I don't think of it as a curse unlike other vampire. One of my other many abilities is that I am immune to blood of any kind, meaning I don't drink it. You can say that I have all the strengths of a vampire and none of their weaknesses. Pretty cool? Yep I know.

When I first got changed I went to live by myself for a year. I bought a huge mansion with load of rooms. It has everything; nine rooms, nine bathrooms, a game room, a living room, a party room, and a kitchen (for me). I loved it when I first moved in; it was peaceful and quite but that was until a year later, my coven move in with me because Kyle and Tashia had a fight, again, and burnt down their house. Just leave it to them to destroy something big and beautiful like that. Their old house was a three-story mansion while mine is only a two. I would of thought they would of taken better care of it.

After two hours of walking I came back to the house to find everyone in the living room waiting, I think, for me. When I came into their sight I found out that they were indeed waiting for me.

"What do you guys want to ask?" I annoyed.

"Well," April started. "We have some friends that are passing through and…" April was cut off by Kasey that was not patient enough to wait for April to finish her sentence and said, "And we thought they could stay here." I growled at everyone.

"Please, they will only stay for a little while." Bevin whined.

"Yeah, and whenever you say that they stay for two years mess up my house then leave without helping clean it up, no." I said and turned to leave. Tashia got up and grabbed my arm and turned me back around to look at her.

"We will watch them. Come on, we haven't see them in a long time, please. They won't mess up you house, you can count on me." She pleaded.

"That is coming from the girl that burnt her house down because she got in a fight with her ex-husband so she and her family had to live with me?" I asked sarcastically.

"Hey that was his fault." She stated and glared at him. He was about to put in his two sense when I stopped him before he could.

"Fine. But they have to follow all the rules: No partying without my consent, no hunting humans, and no destroying my house." I looked at everyone but most Tashia and Kyle. "And finally NO disturbing me. Or else you all will have to find a new place to live, got it?" They all nodded. "When do they arrive?" I asked. Right then the doorbell rang. I glared at them one last time, and then went to answer the door.