The story Twilight and its characters belongs to the wonderful Stephenie Meyer.

Chapter 5: What To Do...

I woke to the buzzing of my alarm clock and sighed opening one of my eyes to look at the alarm clock, it was 6:30 a.m. already. I knew if I got up the memories would come back. But I had to get up and get ready for school. So I pulled the sheet back and one by one slowly swung my legs from my internally peaceful bed to the floor of the external world. I lifted the rest of my body to face the direction that my feet were facing. I rubbed my eyes and yawned. Then yesterday started to surface. An unsettling feeling spread all over my torso and my fingers and feet started to feel cold. The anxiety was starting to take over. I wanted to crawl back into bed and turn into a warm cocoon using my sheets so I could be away from mind's thoughts. But unfortunately I just can't do what I want. And I made a promise to myself that I would deal with this today.

I shook off my unsteadiness and built up my determination while getting ready for school. I really thought about was going on, using a lot of mental strength to push away most of the anxiety.

When I finished I looked at the time on my alarm clock, I had five minutes so I used it to give myself a pep talk.

I walked back and forth in my gesturing with my hands as I talked strongly to myself.

"Okay so you're Twilight! It's not the end of the world! You're gonna make it through this! You're gonna be okay! Just make a plan! That's all you have to do! J-

I was just about to rap it up when my dad opened the door. He looked at me and said "Lets go Jessica! I have to be at the office earlier today!"
"Okay dad!" I said, then he closed the door.

I closed my eyes and said "You can do this." Then I shook off some of the nervous feelings that were coming on. I walked to my door and keeled down to get my book bag. I was going to pick it up when I saw that my schedule was peeking out of the zipper. I remembered that I forgot to give it back to the lady with the pretty orange shirt. I'll just hand it in later at lunch. Then I grabbed my book bag and went out to my dad's car without grabbing breakfast or anything.

On the drive to school I was thinking up a plan of how to make to the end of the school day again.
Okay, he didn't come back on Bella's second day of school because Bella went back to school she wanted to confront Edward about the way he acted towards her. But...he...wasn't there! He wasn't there her second day! Or the rest of the week! Oh my gosh! I am safe for today and the rest of the week! That one think I don't have to think about but rather just getting to the end of the day then I get to go home and wind down and think about how was it possible I got into this mess... Assuming that this is real. Hm... Yeah! Yesterday I could've just dreamed about it again because it was so boring! Yes it was one of my realistic dreams and I woke up to the after affect emotions. Why didn't I think of this before! I sighed through my nose and smiled then shook my head a little. I was actually thinking that... That I was actually in twilight. Wow my vivid imagination does it again. As I thought this a little uncertainty piled up in the back of my head that I quickly shook off slightly chuckling to myself before my dad pulled into the school's parking lot.

As my dad pulled into the drop off the uncertainty came back a little, I scrunched up my face. Then again if yesterday was so boring wouldn't I have at least remembered the reason why I found it so boring. I shook off those thoughts and looked back to say goodbye to my dad.

"Bye dad." I said.

"Bye." He said then drove off. As I started turning away from him I saw with surprise a blond girl, a big black hair boy, a little spiky black haired girl and blond haired boy across the lot. Only one thought came to mind. The Cullens. My eyes widened. I started breathing heavily then Alice looked at my I froze and quickly turned away.

Walking very fast I went to the nearest restroom. I opened the door as someone begin walking away from the sinks. I sighed when they went out the restroom's door. Thank goodness no ones in here. I went to a stall and covered the set like I had did yesterday at lunch and sat down this time with my book bag on top of me.

I looked up at the ceiling. "Okay come down, you went through this yesterday." I closed my eyes and I remembered what I did this morning and thought about in the car I felt calmer and more determined. I put my head down and blew out a breath then nodded. I went in my book bag for my water bottle that I always carry in my book bag and saw that I had yesterday's snacks still in here. Thank goodness because I had forgot to get them this morning. Taking my water bottle out I unscrewed the cap took a few swallows. After I finished I put it back in my book bag and then the bell rung.

I went to my class in a lazy manner. A little tired from my emotional and mental break downs. As always art was fun and calming, drawing is something I have been doing since I was a little girl. English class made me forget most of my worries, stories take me away to somewhere other than where my feet stand, I just get so caught up in their words. History...boring, work , boring, work, boring...need I say more. I was a little nervous through Spanish because of Jessica and Angela.

"Hey Jessica!" The other Jessica said to me as I set down. I smiled a little and said a little hey. Angela then waved a hi and I did the same then the teacher called ever ones attention to her.

When the bell rung for lunch I stood up and grabbed my book bag to go to the front office. But Jessica stopped when she spoke.

"Hey, are you coming to sit with us again?" She asked.

"I might. Either way I have to go turn in my schedule. I forgot to turn in yesterday after school." I said to her.

"Okay..." She said nodding. Then I left for the office.

When I walked into the office looked up from some papers and I walked to her desk.

I already had the schedule out for her.

"Hi i'm sorry I didn't hand this in after school yesterday, I didn't feel to well and it slipped my. My teachers all signed though." I said handing her the schedule.

"Oh it's alright, I hope you feel better today." She said honestly.

"A little but i'll be alright if I made it yesterday I can certainly make it today." I said.

"That's good but I hope you be in prefect health soon." She said.

"Yes, i'm sure I will be, bye." I said smiling. Then I walked out into the hallway. I decided to be alone with my thoughts so I started to just walk slowly all over school. Walking does help me think.

I sighed and looked down. What if Edward is here today? I didn't see him with the others. I started to feel nervous after I thought that there might be a chance that he's here. I sighed again then looked hands. This is crazy. I guess i'll just have to see. I went to the art room and thankfully let me stay this time. I took a seat at one of the art tables and laid my head down then closed my eyes. After a while the bell rung. I lugged myself up for fifth period and said goodbye to .

I was nervous and worried the whole way to class. When I saw the door of the biology classroom I held my breath. I walked in slowly with my head. When I saw the legs of a desk in my line of vision I realized that I was far enough in the classroom I took a breath then looked up. I saw that his seat was empty. Looking at the empty seat I sighed in relief. Eric and Mike saw and waved I gave a small wave back.

After that I was pretty much happy for the whole period. In P.E. I had to participate, I looked good enough to play today and my dad had already bought my physical education clothes. We were playing volley ball. Now i'm not the best at sports but i'm certainly not the worst, so just I helped when I could. After awhile it was almost time to go we went to go change into our normal clothes. In the locker room Jessica came over to talk to me.

"Hey, Jessica." She said and I looked up from tying my shoe. "How come you didn't come to lunch?" She asked.

"Oh sometimes I just like to be by myself, the loud cafeteria isn't very appealing to me. And I have time to think and unwind a bit." I said standing up.

"Oh, that's cool. You know you can sit with us anytime." She said.

Nodding I said."Yeah thanks." I said. Then the bell rung. "Well bye." I said turning away to walk to the water fountain to refill my water bottle for a drink.

"Yeah, Bye." She said.

After the bell rung I was home free. I made to the end of the school day again. Yes!

When I got into the car at pick up my dad was talking loudly on the phone so he just gave me a small wave, I nodded and put my head on the side of the window and closed my eyes blocking out all my troubles till I reached home, or more specifically my room.

As soon as I got into my house I said hi to my mom and my sister and then I raced up stairs.
When I got into my room I put down my book bag and undressed then walked into the bathroom to wash my hands. Eww, I could see the dirt I picked up from my school mixed into the water that's dropping into the sink. I went back to my room turned on Sponge Bob and surprisingly went to sleep.

This week had given me a chance to think about my situation. Do I know how I and my family got into Twilight? No. I'm just gonna have to live in it till I get out. Where's Bella!? I don't know. I am I taking Bella's place?... I hope not. Twilight is an amazing story but if people were always get launched into the stories that they fantasized about most of us would be dead or very depressed because that what makes a story move, dangerous scenes and heartbreak is what makes stories amazing and the main characters that over come them, can we do the same thing as those not ordinary strange people? Maybe. And If I am taking Bella's place in Twilight what will I do about Edward? Now I put a lot of thought into this. I recalled the few Twilight fan fictions here a excited fan girl gets dropped into Twilight and tries to not miss up time line and events of Twilight but does anyway because she can't help but fall in love with Edward and do the exact same thing as Bella. So I won't make the same mistakes that those other girls have done. I won't just ignore Edward to protect myself from things that Bella gladly walked into because of him, I would stay away from him at all cost and get him to stay away from me as well. I would have to be rude and mean. And everything I dislike about people. This is gonna hurt me more than it's gonna hurt me. In other words this is gonna make me feel more guilty then anything i've ever done.

-Monday-

I wasn't doing anything in my Art class. i just sat there. Today Edward would be returning to school. I was nervous, I may have practiced being mean in my bathroom mirror but even then my heart was hurting.

"Hey Jessica." said."Why aren't you doing anything?" He asked.

"I'm just not into it today." I said only moving eyes yo look at him.

"Okay but you're gonna have to do something tomorrow." He said looking at me then leaving.

"I will." I said with a smile.

Next period English was very interesting. My teacher was dancing to music in the middle of class. No, regular high school teachers don't do this. She was a college teacher before she became a high school teacher. I know because she always describes the differences of high school and college.

History class, eh.

In Spanish Jessica was very talkative, the teacher had to move her seat from me and Angela. It was funny because at first she just acted all oblivious and the teacher got angry and started arguing with her in Spanish which no one understood any of, she was talking to fast.
After Class Jessica asked me if I was going to eat lunch with her again. I said yes this time because I could use a bit of a distraction from my thoughts.

When we walked outside I was in awe. There was snow everywhere. I've never seen snow before.
Distracted looking up at the snow I ran into Mike and so he turned around.

"Oh hey Florida, how you liking the snow?" He asked me but before I could answer he got hit in the face with a snowball by Tyler. Mike, Eric, and Tyler were now having a snowball fight.

I got hit once on the butt with a snowball while opening the cafeterias door. I looked back to see Mike looking very innocent, too innocent. He was looking at the sky with his hands behind his back. I made a "hmm" sound and picked up a hand full of snow with mi creamed colored thick I jogged up to Mike.

"Mike!" I said then he looked at me knowing he had been caught but looked like he was going to deny it. I made a worried face. "It's terrible, some pervert threw snow at my butt!" I said trying to keep my worried face in check. Mike looked a little embarrassed but tried to keep a straight face.
"Really that's terrible." He said his voice wavering a little.

"Yeah, and it hurt. Why would someone want to hurt me Mike?" He shook his head and looked guilty. I got him. He let this cute young face full him.

"Could I have a hug?" I asked with an worried innocent face. His face lit up.

"Sure" He said. Come on he actually thinks i'm that sensitive. He is so gullible. As soon as he hugged me I put the snow down his back.

"Ahh!" Mike said as he jumped up and down looking very silly.

"I know it was you that hit me with that snowball Mike!"

Tyler and Eric were laughing at him. However Jessica didn't look happy. But at least Angela looked like she was.

After we went into the cafeteria I sat at our table and I ate my snakes while my friends got their trays then sat down.

Then the Cullens came in. The boys were laughing and patting snow off of themselves. Edward was back, I felt the nervousness creep back into my chest. Edward shook the snow out of his hair and some of the girls that saw blushed or gawked.

While everybody was talking I put my head on the table and closed my eyes, I didn't get much sleep last night.

"Hey Jessica." The other Jessica whispered.

"Hmm?" I said my eyes still closed.

"Edward Cullen is looking at you." She whispered. My heart speed up. Crap. Just stay calm. I told myself.

"Just ignore him, brush it off, Jessica." I said to her yet she just had to bother me again.

"But -" She started to say something but I interrupted her.

"He's probably staring off into space in my direction. People do that sometimes when they think." I said trying to get her to drop the conversation.

"No! He's staring at you!" She insisted.

"Well there's nothing I can do." I said opening my eyes to find him staring right at me like Jessica said. I closed my eyes and sucked in a breath of confidence. "And there's nothing I can throw." I turned around to her and said. Jessica looked at me funny.

"It's Edward Cullen, he never notices anybody." She said.

"Well it's not like him staring will dramatically alter my future in some crazy way." After I said that I realized it could actually alter my future. I looked up at Jessica.

"I guess not, but still he never stares at anybody." She said clearly disappointed that i'm not as excited as she is.

"Well I can't ask him why he's staring at me but I can ask you why you're staring at him." I said with a smirk trying to get the subject off of me.
"Are you kidding look at him." She said.

I smiled while putting down my head then shutting my eyes for the reminder of lunch.

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