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Bittersweet Goodbyes.
Chapter 7: Once upon a time.
WARNING.
This will be a somewhat depressing chapter. I'm in the shittiest mood. Funny how, like sailor moon, my boyfriend forgot about my birthday. Not a call. Text. Didn't attepmt to see me. But the fact was in this case he knows when my birthday is. Honestly, I'm expressing my feelings in this chapter, so I apologize for the mood here in advanced.
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Usagi sighed, the moon kingdom looked a lot better in these past three days, it took so much work. But it was improving greatly. The castle was all cleaned, everything put into place. They still had to fix the ruined parts of her old home, but they knew in time it would look amazing again. She rubbed her belly. She had been doing that alot lately, a sign of motherhood as Minako liked to say. She sighed, she wondered if by some curse the baby would like like Mamoru.
Mamoru..
Her heart felt numb now, she wasn't crying anymore. She felt like she had already cried two life time's worth of tears, and her water box had just given up. But that was okay. She was stronger now. More mature since the break up. She had learned.
But was this really better than being unhappy in a relationship?
She looked down again. She needed to make herself happy before being with someone. A realationship wasn't about making the other happy, it was about being happy with yourself and choosing to spend time with someone.
'Odango.' his voice had hammered her head. She missed him. The way he dressed.. his smell even. She would even try to make it work with the jerk Mamoru who'd make fun of her all the time. She missed that guy. She wanted the flirtation, and the playfulness. She really wanted to see his forearms, while they were wrapped around her. She just didn't want to have that pang of guilt in her body anymore. When he'd left her, she felt sad and alone. She felt like he didn't want her, and America was the nice way out. She didn't want to wait another year, another lonley miserable year worrying for him. She wanted him safe, in her arms, kissing her, loving her.
This wasn't the plan neither had expected. It was written in stone for them from day one. They were soulmates, they'd marry, they'd rule, and have a child, they would bring a peaceful future. The rest was supposed to fall into place.
Her heart wasn't happy.
She still loved that man with all her heart and soul. And she knew she'd never love anyone the way she had loved him. She knew that it would be so painful to raise their child alone. She knew she wanted to tell him that they were having a baby. But once again, her mind retorted. They weren't a they anymore. She was a Usagi, and he was a Mamoru.
The silver haired beauty smiled a bit.. She knew Mamoru. He'd give up everything to be by her side if her knew about the baby. Usagi just didn't want to be selfish. She didn't want him to give up anymore than he had already. He had a career. And she had her destiny. She had her duty, and as the remaining moon royal, her duty came first. Give the moon an heir. Rebulid the moon. Rule the moon.
Makoto stumbled into the room where Usagi was. The burnette smiled at her weakly.
"Hungry?" The soilder of Jupiter questioned lightly.
The smaller girl laughed, "Starving actually. But my stomach is just in pain. I'm afraid I'll just throw anything you give me back up."
Makoto shifted her gaze to the floor. "Well then, what do you want to do? Your sitting so still deep in thought, I thought you were having a stroke. I've never seen Usagi be like that."
Blue eyes shined. "The Usagi you know isn't the same anymore. And you all know it. I can't be a child raising a child. I need to be an adult. And he-He isn't here Makoto. We know everything would have been happier. This is more political then it is personal now. I let him fuck me, this is my punishment." She touched her belly again.
The taller woman shifted awkwardly, guilt overcoming her features. She shifted her weight to one leg now, "Usagi..."
Hotaru cleared her throat loudly, making both woman jump.
"Usagi, you need to eat. The baby needs food too, you know.." The young girl smiled.
The older girl nodded. Hotaru was baby crazy, and since the news, the young girl was always around. But Usagi understood the obsession with her fetus. After all, they all expected this baby to be little Chibiusa. And Hotaru was the closest to the girl, other than Usagi herself. Usagi smirked at the thought of Chibiusa. She hated the pink haired copy from the moment she met her. But the red eyed girl who fell out of the sky had reached the moon princess's heart effortlessly. From the moment they met, Usagi knew they had a bond.
That little girl had Usagi's heart in her hand. And all the scouts were wrapped around her pinky finger. She was like another Usagi, but with Mamoru's smarts. Chibiusa had her mother's lovable charm. And Usagi couldn't help but fall in love with her. When she had returned to the future, Usagi felt empty. She never realized how much that girl meant to her till the very end. She had to thank Mamoru for giving her this treasure.
She'd have her daughter afterall. God. She was excited to meet her all over again.
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The girls returned to earth at the week's end. The moon had much improvment in that week. The scouts decided they'd take turns going on the weekends for now. They'd all return again when they'd have a break in school again.
Minako had the job of being Usagi's personal 24/7 body gaurd. It was easier, considering they lived together. She also had to look after Usagi and give reports on the pregnancy. The job wasn't so hard, considering they spent most of their time together anyways. These past three months had been an easy ride with the baby on the way. Usagi was now four months. Her belly had grown a bit, you could see the baby bump now, but it wasn't too big yet. She could wear jackets and hoodies still, without her belly showing.
The blonde girl watched the waiting mother to be stumbled into the car. Her first ultrasound, they'd see little Chibiusa! They already expected the girl. Usagi was bored waiting on the bed thingy. The doctor was just taking all day to see her. She wanted the picture, so she could leave. She was hungry, and her feet hurt. She concluded pregnancy sucked.
Mina was pissed now, it was another twenty minuites, so the blonde left the room. She returned shortly, with a doctor in tow. Usagi laughed. Minako always had her way, and now was no expectation. The doctor was kind of quiet. He was a young man too, tall and reserved. It reminded Usagi of Mamoru. How fitting..
The man poured blue goo all over her stomach, it was really cold.
Minako held her hand, supporting her bestfriend as much as possible. The doctor was explaining body parts in the screen. Usagi and Minako didn't care too much.
"And now, the most important part, the sex." He moved the camera higher on Usagi's belly.
"It's a boy."
