AN: Hey lovely Hosters and non Hosters. I am so beyond incredibly sorry I haven't updated in forever! I don't know how I'm letting myself do it, I always feel terrible when I come back on. ANYWAYS, my Dad got a new girlfriend, and I absolutely adore her and her children. Izzy (Isabelle) is around my age, but I'm teaching her new things and she can and will happily fangirl with me about them. Seth is a little werewolf he says and I quote 'dont make me upset' ohhh that little Jacob wannabe. He's great at riding motorcycles and shiz like that and hes only 10. OH and he drives BY HIMSELF. They live on a farm so we're all allowed to take the car out and drive whenever we want, besides Caleb, her youngest whos only….like 4.

Okay, enough chit chat. Lets cut to the chase, besides I doubt anyone reads these authors notes. I told you guys last chapter that there will be an awkward question, and a lot to do with music in this chapter….So….I WARNED you.

Here you have it! Love you guys :) Thanks for sticking with me! Maybe I'll post the next chapter real quick too.

Playlist: Still Into You - Paramore

DISCLAIMER: I do NOT own The Host. I only own the plot and writing. And I do NOT own Paramore, and or Still Into You, Fueled By Ramen and Paramore do ;)

Escape Route: Chapter 6

Mels POV:

We drove down the perfectly paved black road, Jared was driving. It was only me and him, which was confusing. I stared straight ahead through my dark sunglasses. A strange but familiar feeling in my stomach. It was an uneasy feeling, of fear. The perfectly trimmed trees aligned in a perfect row. Everything about this world was perfect, it sickened me. I sighed and looped my arm around Jared's. "Relax." He said, laughing lightly. I leaned towards him and rested my head on his broad shoulder. "How much longer?" I questioned, hoping to be close to home.

"About another hour." He answered. I kissed his arm then looked towards him. He didn't have sunglasses on. He turned his head slowly, smiling. His eyes met mine and the silver ring around his eyes shone in the light of the sun. I smiled back at him, and took my sunglasses off. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. My plain eyes mocked me, and for the first time in my life I wished for my eyes to be like Jared's.

My eyes shot open as I gasped for air. My body was covered in a thin sheet of sweat. My face wasn't drenched in sweat it was drenched in tears. I let out a shaky breath, I was breathing hard. And kept letting out sobs. I wiped vigorously at my face. I felt the bed stir from beside me "Mel?" I sniffed, trying to stop crying. "Melanie what's wrong?" He said, his voice groggy.

"Nothing." My voice cracked. I didn't know what time it was. But I was exhausted so I assumed it was still night. He sat up, his hand reached out towards my face. He ran his thumb across my cheek bone. His hand froze and he pulled it away "You're crying. What's going on?"

"It was just a dream. Its fine, I'm fine."

"It must of been one bad dream, it made you cry. What was it about?"

"You and me." I whispered.

"You and me? What happened?" He sat criss cross towards me.

I mimicked his pose and faced him "We were on a raid, at least I think we were. it was just you and me. You looked at me and... and." I struggled, hating the image that popped into my mind. "You weren't you."

"You mean I was occupied?"

"Yeah." I frowned and felt another tear run down my cheek. He grabbed me into his arms "hey." He soothed "I'm not so its okay. We're okay."

He ran his fingers through my hair. "I know. I just don't ever want to see you with those eyes. I can only imagine how you felt when you saw me that way." I sympathized for him.

"My heart broke into a million pieces. I felt so many different emotions. Anger, that there was a soul inside of you. Happy, that I could see you again. Sad, because I felt terrible that you were stuck in there. Guilt, cause it wouldn't of happened if I hadn't let you leave. Protective, cause I didn't want anyone touching or hurting you even though you were occupied."

"I'm sorry." I ran my hand through his hair. "At least I'm here now."

"I know. And don't worry about seeing me like that. I'm going to do my best to stay with you, human, until we all die off." He chuckled.

I smacked his shoulder "that wasn't funny. I don't want us to die off."

"I was joking Melanie. Besides you just joked about that earlier." He lowered me down, so I was laying on the bed. He started to kiss me, but I quickly stopped him. "Stop stop stop." I tried to push him off me but he didn't budge.

"Mel. I'm leaving for 3 weeks, you can at least lean into it."

I kissed him softly, not wanting to get ahead of myself. I knew once he left I was going to crave his touch. This was going to be the hardest 3 weeks of my life.

I woke up to light streaming into our room. The door must've been open. I didn't open my eyes but I heard voices. I heard Ian and Jared, but I was sure there were more people. I could feel it. "Wanda wanted me to tell you that she wants to leave right when it turns dark." Ian said, and my stomach churned, that was so soon. I could feel Jared's body wrapped around mine, and his hand combing through my hair. "Okay. Well I'll get some stuff together. But other than that, I'll be with Mel and Jamie all day. Just like I assume you will be with Wanda." Jared replied.

"Yeah. This is gonna be hard without her." Ian chuckled.

"Its going to be hard for me and Wanda. We're going to miss you guys." I felt and heard Jared sigh. I felt someone get onto the bed. I felt them lay in front of me and put their arms around me and Jared. I knew who it was, just by their body "hi Jamie." I smiled and opened my eyes to find his beautiful eyes staring at me.

"I thought you were sleeping!" He exclaimed.

"So did I." Jared laughed.

"Morning." I hugged Jamie.

"I'll leave you guys alone. Wanda says she wants to have breakfast in here with just Mel. She'll bring you breakfast, probably 20 minutes from now." Ian started walking backwards.

"Okay. Thanks Ian." I smiled to him as he left.

"What should we do today?" Jamie smiled from ear to ear.

"Well I have breaky plans so that's off the agenda. We don't have to work so we can just hang around all day. Are you cool with that?"

"As long as I get to be with you guys before Jared leaves." He answered quickly. "I want to visit with Wanda too though."

Me and Jared laughed "okay. That's fair enough." I ruffled his already messed up hair.

"Morning guys!" I heard Wanda's chipper voice as she walked through the opening with two dishes in her hands.

"Morning you're early!" I sat up, while Jamie jumped up and hugged her.

"I guess that means me and Jamie should go eat breakfast now." Jared got out of bed.

"When you're done just come back okay?" I nodded towards Jared.

"Okay. See you soon."

"Bye." I smiled and watched him walk out of the room with Jamie next to him. I examined Wanda, she was leaning against the cave wall. Her long blonde hair was wavy. She stood tall and straight, she still looked short. It was almost laughable. She handed me a bowl that had plain cereal in it, I was wondering when we were going to use the cereal we got last raid. She sat down with me and we began to eat. We ate in silence. "So why did you want to just be with me?" I questioned, finishing off my cereal. I sat it down on the floor, just till I took it to the kitchen.

"Well I had a question." She mumbled, her eyes showing her embarrassment.

"What's your question?"

She sat her bowl down too "well. You know how you taught me about marriage?"

"Yes?" I wondered where this was going.

"Well you never taught me about something else."

"What's this something else?" I questioned, honestly confused.

"What you and Jared did the other night."

I nearly choked, was she really asking me about sex? I started laughing. "What exactly are you asking me Wanda?"

"How does it work? You never let me see you and Jared do that in your memories. No one else has told me about it. I know about mating in other planets but it seems so complex here."

"You want to know how to have sex?"

"Yeah I guess that's what I'm asking." She nodded.

"I'm not talking to you about this." I rolled my eyes.

"Please Melanie? I won't judge!"

Judge? What was this silly girl talking about 'judging'? "Have you even seen a penis? Cause their freaky things."

Her eyes went wide "yes. Haven't I seen Jared's? That isn't freaky, that's actually quite nice." She smiled.

My eyes went wide, that's MINE. She is not allowed to talk about Jared that way. I smacked her arm gently. She jumped and looked at me, scared. She probably didn't understand. "Its not good that you've seen MY boyfriends penis and you haven't even seen your own boyfriends. I know Jared's is an exception in not being freaky but you're not allowed to talk about him like that." I said sternly, crossing my arms over my chest.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know that it was bad that I said that. I won't talk about it again." She chuckled.

"Okay. Glad you understand now. What do you think happens between a penis and your, you know." I pointed to my lady part. "I don't want to go into description. Because its a bit awkward for me even during it." I laughed. "but that's the main thing you need to know."

She thought about it for a minute. Then her eyes widened and she nodded, understanding.

"Do you think that me and Ian will ever?"

"I don't know. That's up to him. Knowing Ian, he'd probably think he was taking advantage of you."

"He probably would." She stared off, it looked like she was thinking. Hard. "Anyways thank you Mel. I know that was a weird question."

"I understand, I was curious too once. That's why schools teach you about it." I laughed.

"Was Jared your first?"

I felt my smile grow bigger "yes he was."

She then said something that completely took me by surprise "you should be over all the butterflies, but your into him. And baby even on your worst nights, your into him." She had just sort of revised a song that I had written ages ago. And had only sang when I was alone, I gasped "how do you know that?"

"I heard you singing it in here a while ago."

I covered my face in my face with my hands "that's so embarrassing."

"It shouldn't be. You're actually a really good singer. Did you write that song?" She put her hand on my shoulder.

"Yes." I sighed "I did."

"Oh my gosh! For Jared?"

"Yes Wanda." I grumbled.

"That's so pretty! Have you written any more songs?" I didn't answer. After a minute she got up and went over to the desk we had gotten in a raid. I silently cursed to myself, I had forgotten to hide my notebook with what in it? All of my songs and stories. "Is this your song book?" I jumped off the bed and grabbed the notebook from her hands. I remember I had asked Wanda to get me it in a raid. "Come on Mel. Can I just read one? And not the one I just revised?" She pleaded, it was so hard to say no to Wanda. I groaned and tossed it to the bed. She squealed and sat on the bed opening it up. "Still Into You." She quietly read the title to herself. I sat down, my face probably showed that I was pissed. She looked up at me "this is the one you were singing." she told me, not asked.

"Escape Route? This isn't in your hand writing. What is it?"

"Please don't read that. Jared wrote that down for me."

"Did he write it?"

"No. It's just his favorite song."

"Oh." She covered her eyes and flipped to the next page "Last Goodbye? Can I read this?"

"Go for it." I grumbled.

She read, silently mouthing the words. She looked up at me confused "Now you've got a girl, someone new?" She questioned my lyrics.

"Well this is kind of for when you were in my body. So I was technically talking about you."

She nodded and read the rest of it. She looked up to me smiling "Tell me more about this."

"What do you want to know about it?"

"What's it about?"

"Do I really have to tell you?"

"Yes! Please Melanie." She exclaimed.

"Fine! Its technically about just realizing the reality of my situation. And its me being okay with it, and moving on. Allowing myself to let go of him in order to be happy. I knew I wouldn't be able to be with him while you were inside of me. And I never knew that you would give me my body back. So its all just when you were in me." I said truthfully.

She scared me when she jumped forward and grabbed me into her arms. I hugged her back "that's so beautiful Mel." She whispered.

"Thanks I guess."

"Did you want to be a singer?"

"Me? Hell no! I hate singing."

"Then why do you write?"

"Cause its my way to let out my emotion. I don't know. It gets boring living in a cave." I chuckled.

"Ohh. Well you're great at it."

"She is, right?" Jared's beautiful voice made me jump. I groaned and threw myself back on the bed, covering my face with my pillow. He started laughing "oh Mel. Are you embarrassed?"

I held up my hand and put my thumb and finger a centimeter apart showing 'a little bit.' He laughed harder "you don't need to be embarrassed. You're a great writer. Are we talking about your stories or songs?"

"You write stories too?' Wanda shrieked.

"Well, they're more like poems." I could here the boyish smirk in his voice.

"Fucking JARED!" I shouted and threw my body up fast. I threw the pillow at him. It hit him smack in the face. I started laughing "that's what you get asshole."

"You're going to pay for that." He said sternly. That playful glint in his eyes.

"Oh no." I mumbled, preparing to probably get tackled.

I looked to see Wanda watching with enthusiasm. She was waiting for it to happen. He raised his eyebrow and took one step forward. I scooted back on the bed. He stepped forward again and slowly grabbed my legs. He pulled me so I was on the edge of the bed. He took a step back. I didn't move, I stayed in my spot. And that's when he leaped forward. I let out a blood curdling scream as he tackled me to the bed. Wanda started laughing, a high pitched laugh. Jared's fingers found my sides and they started poking at them and tickling. "No!" I shouted so loud I swore I felt the walls vibrate. I started kicking but it was no use. I was laughing, hard. "Say you're sorry!" He had me pinned to the bed, and I couldn't get up. My stomach started to ache and I couldn't breathe. "I'm sorry that you're an asshole!" I said in between laughs.

"Take. It. back." He laughed.

"Okay! You're not an ass hole, you're not an ass hole!" I tried to breathe. He stopped tickling me but he still pined me down. Wanda was still giggling. I finally caught my breath and he got off me. He was smirking this boyish smirk. He sat across from me. I sat up and hit his forearm five times, fast and hard. His shocked look made me laugh internally. "I HATE it when you do that!" I shouted.

"You know you secretly love it."

"Why would I love that." I grumbled.

"Cause its a way I can touch your body in front of people."

"Oh my god Jared!" Wanda laughed.

I shoved him and rolled my eyes. He leaned towards me and put his forehead against mine. He smiled, and I just melted "you're right I do love it." He pressed his lips to mine. I smiled against his lips and put my hands on his jaw. Kissing him gave me an excuse to touch his sexy jaw. "You guys are cute. But yuck." Wanda stopped us. His lips left mine and I frowned. "Oh, I almost forgot. Wanda, Jamie's waiting for you in your room. He wants to see you before we leave." He looked towards her and smiled as he got up.

"Okay. I'll see you guys later." It warmed my heart to see Jared hug Wanda. She was so much shorter than him. she had to be at least 5 foot. And Jared was probably 6'3. He was over a foot taller than her, I chuckled. They didn't hear me, thank god. "Bye Wanda. Love you!" I waved to her.

"Love you Mel." She left the room and Jared turned to look at me.

"Guess what?" He said low and sexy.

"What?"

"I love you." He smiled. Before I could say anything he had grabbed me into his arms and kissed me. His lips moved against mine hungrily. His tongue traced my bottom lip as I put my arms around his neck. I opened my mouth to him and he gladly tussled with my tongue. I chuckled as he lowered me to the bed. His hands traveled from my neck to my legs and back up again. I kept my hands tangled in his hair. He broke the kiss and started to kiss my neck, I didn't like it when he did that, cause that meant I couldn't kiss him. I groaned in annoyance and he looked up to me confused. I smiled and grabbed his face again, kissing him passionately. We heard something that sounded like medal tapping rock twice. We stopped kissing and looked over to the entrance. Uncle Jeb was leaning on the wall with his gun pressed to the wall, smirking. He had tapped it on the wall. Jared rolled off of me and sat up on the bed. "Uncle Jeb." I breathed. I was panting but had got under control.

"I'm glad you guys are enjoying each others company. Was just comin to say bye before Jared left. You're leaving for 3 weeks kid?"

"Yeah we are. We're getting a lot of shit." He chuckled.

"Good good. Its going to be sad without you guys here for so long. I know Mel and Ian are going to have a lot of trouble with it. But its for good reasons." He nodded to himself. "Okay well be careful." He tipped his hat with his hand and left.

"Why does that always happen?" Jared whined.

"What do you mean?"

"Someone always barges in before or after we sex." He grumbled.

I laughed and touched his face "we weren't going to do that if that makes you feel any better."

"Please Mel? I'm going to miss you so much."

"I'm going to miss you. But if we do this its going to make me miss you even more."

He looked at me with pleading eyes then laid down, giving up. I rolled my eyes and got on top of him, straddling him. I kissed him hard on the lips. His wide eyes finally closed and he kissed me back.

AN: Hope you guys enjoyed. REVIEW/FAVORITE/FOLLOW whatever you wanna do to make my day ;)

The next chapter is the chapter of all chapters. I think it just might be my FAVORITE. And the chapter after THAT had me bawling like a baby as I wrote it….hopefully it'll make you tear up as well!

I'll post the next one after this….but just know. You will most likely be left with wanting MORE! Its not exactly a cliffy but you will probably want more.

THANKS FOR EVERYONE WHO HAVE EVEN READ ONE LINE FROM MY STORY AND DIDN'T FOLLOW OR REVIEW. I STILL LOVE YOU!

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P.S new nickname…..my dad actually gave it to me, and Izzy, my best friend, my boyfriend, and basically everyone else call meeee….Clary. Last nickname….I swear on the Angel (any body know where thats from?)

-Clary