Chapter Seven: The need to be alone.
I let the hot water fall down my body as I rinsed the shampoo from my hair. Once I was finished with my shower, I got out, dried and dressed, pulling my hair into a bun and walked out of the changing rooms, Kurt was waiting for me.
"You okay?" he asked and I nodded. "You sure?" he asked and I shook my head as I put my head into his chest and cried.
"Kurt, take me home please." I said in between sobs. He nodded as he looked around and put his arm around me, teleporting us to the pathway which led to the mansion. He pulled me to the side where there were a few trees and allowed me to continue crying into his chest. After about 10 more minutes I must have ran out of tears since I stopped. I looked up at Kurt as he smiled down at me.
"Sorry, so didn't
want to do that, you know scare you away." I said as I took a step
back.
"Kim, trust me that would not make me want to go." he
said as he reached out and pushed my hair away. "You want to talk
about it with me?" he asked me, I shrugged I didn't want to tell
him all of my problems. "If not me, you wanna talk to Ororo or the
professor?" he asked and again I shrugged. "You want me to
teleport you to your training room and let you train?" he said, I
smiled a weak smile; he knew me and I nodded. He held my hand and
teleported us there and activated the lights. He was about to walk
out when I reached out and grabbed him. I pulled him closer as I
kissed him lightly on the lips.
"Thank you for understanding." I said to him as I pulled away. He blushed and smiled at me as he went, closing the door behind. I knew he would tell Ororo that something happened that and I needed to talk, she was there last time I broke down. I also knew that he would make sure that I was alone for the rest of the day, he may pop in so to say from time to time and bring me food but this was what I needed, to be alone not to be crowded. I know they mean well, helping me fit in as an X-man and also in school, but sometimes it was just too much. I changed into my shorts and t-shirt in my spare bag I kept in here and began to stretch.
The door opened as Ororo walked in, she was in her uniform that meant she was just coming from training or a mission.
"Kurt said you could use someone to talk to." she said as she sat down on the chair in the room.
"Yeah, he knows a lot about me." I said as I smiled and chalked up my hands and put my grips on, chalking them up too. I jumped and did a new routine that I was trying, I ate mat after attempting the first trick.
"He is good for you, and you are good for him. He doesn't clown around and is settling in a lot better, he is more focused on his studies and his training so that he can keep up with you." she said as I stood up and let out a laugh. I went back on the bars and tried again, this time missing the bar when trying to grab it back but the same result, eat mat ha-ha!
"I know that they mean well but it can seem like they are drowning you. They want to help you fit in, they know how hard it is to transfer, deal with mutant abilities as well as trying to live a normal life." she said as I stood up and re-chalked my hands.
"I know and I love each and every one of them for doing it, but sometimes you know, the need to be alone is overwhelming." I said as I tried again, this time no mat and continued. I pushed myself to the new dismount, this time I did eat mat and hard. I screamed in pain as I rolled over onto my back. Ororo came over and looked at my hand that I was cradling with my other arm. I sat up as she looked at it and I winced in pain.
"Sprained, nothing more, just landed on it badly." I said as I took off my grips and watched my wrist swell up. Needed ice, loads of like now. Ororo must have sensed the same as she went out of the training room. I hit the mat with my other hand, stupid bar, stupid dismount, stupid everything! I screamed as I let out a blast of purple energy into the room. Once it had subsided I saw Ororo and Bobby with her, purple light was engulfing me. I closed my eyes and pushed the power back down as they approached me. Bobby looked at my wrist and froze it; I nodded my thanks as Ororo helped my stand up and took me out of the training room, picking up my bags along the way.
I sat down in the medical bay as the professor strapped up my wrist.
"No training for three days." he said, to which I could only nod. I looked down at the band, it was purple, and I smiled. "If you don't like purple I have other colors." The professor said as to which I could only laugh. He smiled at me as he then watched the tears fall down my cheeks. "First day of school hard then?" he asked.
"Well, apart from most of the male population seeing me as a piece of meat and nearly breaking a guys wrist for hitting me on the butt, being threatened by his whole team with Kurt behind me, making the cheer squad and also captain, yeah sure why not say that." I said as the tears flowed more freely. "I lost it in front of Kurt and can understand if he doesn't want to see me again, I am just too weak." I said as the professor looked at me.
"Kimmie, Kurt does not think that, in fact once he heard Ororo getting Bobby he was really worried, but I told him that he couldn't see you, not yet. And you are not weak, far from it. I think that it is time we worked in building up your trust in yourself and your love for who you are. Kurt can help you with this, you just have to see it in his eyes that he is completely smitten with you." he said as he reached into a drawer and pulled out a syringe. He wiped an area above the bandage and injected the pain medication into the area near my wrist. I let out a sigh as the pain killers slowly began to work. "Kitty can also help you, she is full of life and so bursting with confidence that I am sure she would be there for you." he said as he went back and I jumped off the bed. "Do you want to stay here or go back to the mansion?" he asked, I looked at him, he was giving me the chance to be left alone, but I knew that sooner or later I would have to face everyone.
"Thank you professor, I shall return to the mansion." I said as I left. Ororo watched the whole interaction from the corner of the room.
"What are you thinking professor?" she asked as she stood next to him.
"I think that Kimmie needs to be taken on a mission, she needs to gain her self confidence up and love for who she is." he said as to which Ororo nodded.
I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water and some fruit.
"Kimmie how are you Bobby told us you were hurt." Scott said as he and the other X-men, all in their uniforms appeared beside me. I closed the fridge door and they all saw my wrist bandaged up.
"No big, just a sprain, do it all the time." I said as I smiled and walked out, going to my room. I knew that they all had a training session and due to being injured, I was left out. I turned on my apple notebook and began to check my mails. The cheer squad had sent a long mail along with pictures from cheer camp. My mom and dad had also sent a long mail and I read through them both. Once I was done, I put my music on and grabbed my English book out of my bag and lay on my bed. A knock on the door interrupted my studying. I reached over for my remote and turned my music off. "Come in." I said as the door opened to reveal Logan.
"Hey Preppy came to see how you were doing and thought you might like some of this." he said as he brought me a plate with lasagna and a salad on it. I smiled at him as he sat down on the side of my bed.
"You not give training today then?" I asked.
"Nope, asked Storm to step in." he said as I began to eat.
"So you are babysitting me?" I asked in between bites.
"Trust me, you don't need babysitting, just wanted to check on you." he said, I looked at him, he was hiding something.
"Okay, not you so spill." I said and he let out a sigh.
"Preppy I just wanted to say if you need to talk to someone and Storm is not around, and I am, well you know where to find me." he said as he stood up and walked out.
"Logan!" I said before he left. I ran up and hugged him. "Thanks." I said to him as he put an arm around me. I pulled away; I knew that he was not comfortable with the whole hugging thing. He smiled at me and went out of my room, closing the door behind.
