Unexpected Circumstances
Chapter 7
Everything…Becomes Clear
Since I've stolen that kiss from Fate-chan, I've been feeling bad. When I think of kissing someone, we both should be conscious of it….both aware, right? I mean the first time I kissed her, I thought she was dead, but the second time was different. It wasn't out of gratitude like the first…it was something more. It was something so much more special that I couldn't just up and give it to anyone else. And that's why I should have been able to do it while she was awake.
Truthfully, I don't know if I would have been able to do it anyway. These feelings that I have when Fate-chan touches me, or when she smiles that smile that makes those burgundy crescents shine are not feelings that I've known before that it's almost frightening. I can't even comprehend why my heart jumps, my body heats and melts at the same time when I'm with her. And it's crazy because she doesn't even have to touch me for it to happen.
Those eyes….Fate-chan doesn't know what those eyes do to me when they seem to see within the depths of me. Those magical orbs that look at me like no other….why does my heart flutter? Why does her touch give me goose bumps? Why does her smile and the way she looks at me makes me feel like she would rather only smile and look at me? But most of all, why does my heart constricts at the thought of Fate-chan not being here with me?
Could I….be in love?
That question has plagued my mind for the past week and I couldn't figure out why. I mean shouldn't knowing you are in love with someone be so simple like how they made it in the movies? What I found out is that it's really not that simple. I didn't know what it meant to be in love because I've never been in love before. I couldn't figure out if this was love that I was feeling, or infatuation, or pity.
It couldn't be pity or infatuation because I genuinely want to help Fate-chan get better. She's a kind, funny, and beautiful person. I want to always see Fate-chan smile and I hurt when she's hurt. I want to see that cute pout she gives when I don't cook lasagna and garlic bread and I love how she whines when I don't give her the double chocolate brownies she likes. I want to hear that laugh that makes the room ten times brighter. I just want Fate-chan to be happy because dammit she deserves it, but….I want to be the person to give her that happiness. I want to take that pain away that she still has in her heart and make new and happy ones with her. I want to be the one to do this because…..because I…..
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Fate-chan has really been making progress in therapy. She's even been taking a few steps on her own and she can lift things with her left arm better. I'm so proud of her. Shari even said that if Fate-chan keeps it up, she'll be walking with a cane in a few weeks. Fate-chan was also well enough to get her bandages off this week. It's just been a good week for her and so to celebrate, I decided to cook her favorite meal tonight.
The lasagna and garlic bread was in the oven, so all there was left to do was the salad. I grabbed the lettuce, tomatoes, and carrots from the fridge and began cutting them on the cutting board.
"Mmmm, something smells wonderful" I turned around from my task and saw Fate-chan using the wall as her guide to walk.
That Fate-chan. Ever since she's been able to take a few steps, she refuses to use the wheelchair…even when I protest.
"You're so stubborn Fate-chan. You know that?" I said going back to my task of chopping the veggies.
"Yeah, yeah" she said sarcastically. "Well that's not the first time I've heard that statement" She grunted as she began walking towards the dining table. "My mother told me that all the time. She would say 'Fate-chan, you're so stubborn. Where do you get it from?' And then she would put on her thinking face and say 'It reminds me so much of your father and that's why I left him'"
I couldn't help, but giggle at her imitation of her mother. Fate-chan's been talking about her family more as time has gone by and it makes me feel special that Fate-chan talks to me about them since she said she has never talked to anyone about her family before.
A smile came to my lips. I've been so happy and it's all due to the blonde that was still struggling to get to the table.
"Do you need any help old lady? I think that if you take any longer, I will have aged twenty years" I giggled.
"No thank you" she pouted. "I can get there on my own"
"Okay, but don't keep the food waiting. We're having your favorite tonight"
"Lasagna and garlic bread?" her eyes seemed to light up with excitement.
"Yes" That did the trick. Before I knew it, she was sitting at the table.
Fate-chan loved Lasagna too much. She had me cooking it most of the time for dinner and it was really hard getting her to eat anything else especially with that pout she would give me. She got lucky tonight. Only because she's doing well, I decided to cook it tonight.
"Does this mean you're going to cook it from now on?" her eyes looking hopeful.
"No, of course not Fate-chan. I've already told you no more lasagna. It's not good to eat it every day. We're only having it tonight to celebrate your progress in therapy"
"But it's so good when you make it Nanoha" she said with puppy dog eyes.
"Don't give me that look Fate-chan. That trick will not work anymore" She pouted and crossed her arms. She was so adorable. "Aww baby Fate-chan is so cute" I said in a baby voice while pinching her cheeks.
"St-op it Na-no-ha" she said while I continued to pull her cheeks.
She grabbed my hands, pulling them close to her mouth and kissed them. Now I was embarrassed and I could tell I was blushing like an idiot. I turned my back to her and went back to cutting the veggies to save myself from further embarrassment. I could hear her giggling behind me.
"That's payback" she giggled.
"Meanie" I giggled as well, but it stopped as my mind went into thinking.
Fate-chan had been really playful and somewhat flirty lately. She's been holding my hand, hugging me more, or would touch me in a way that seemed more intimate sending my heart into a heart attack. She also compliments my appearance and tells me how beautiful I am. I'm seriously going to die before I can figure what this is all about. I have to know because my heart can't take my feelings and Fate-chan's actions combined. After dinner….I'll tell her my feelings I decided.
The buzzer went off saying that the lasagna and bread was done. Using the oven mitts, I took out the food and put it on the counter. I spared a glance at Fate-chan as I went to the cabinet to get the plates and she was excited and impatient at the same time. I guess it was that good for her to be looking like that, but it made me happy that she loves my cooking.
With the plates ready and loaded with food, I sat them down on the table and without waiting, Fate-chan hurriedly picked up her fork and started eating.
"Mmm Nanoha. This is soooo good. I love you so much for bending the rules and making this for me. Thank you" she smiled as she occupied her sights on the food in front of her.
There was that word again. Love. I wonder what it feels like to have someone say it to you. I bet it would be the greatest feeling anyone can experience. But I know it would also be a wonderful feeling to say it to the person you love.
Oh Fate-chan, I….
"Hey Nanoha, we should make a toast" she said excitedly as she began to pour some of the red wine in the wine glasses on the table.
"What should we toast to Fate-chan?" I said as I raised my wine glass.
"You go. You made this wonderful dinner"
"Okay um…" I paused. What was I to toast to? This would be a good time to tell Fate-chan my feelings, but I didn't have the nerve with her looking straight at me. "Let's make a toast to your progress and success in therapy. I'm so proud of you Fate-chan" I smiled. We clinked our glasses and took a sip of the delicious wine. Fate-chan surprised me when she put her glass back up.
"I would also like to make a toast as well" she said before placing a hand on top of my hand that lay on the table.
She began caressing my hand with her thumb. My heart began to beat faster looking at the soft hand that was placed on mine's then shifting to the burgundy eyes that looked at me more seriously than before.
"I would like to make a toast to you Nanoha" What? Me? "You've been there for me since I woke up in the hospital and you've helped me a lot with therapy and with taking care of me in general. I really appreciate you for your generosity. No one's ever done that for me outside of my family….or made delicious lasagna even after saying no more lasagna" I couldn't help but giggle and Fate-chan joined in for a little before turning serious again.
"Thank you Nanoha for everything. You don't know how much this means to me…..how much you mean to me" She said that with so much confidence that I was rendered speechless.
Those were the types of things she would say. Things that had double meanings. I didn't want to hope for things that probably weren't going to happen. I smiled and clinked the glass with Fate-chan's before saying "You're welcome" and drank more than just a sip of the wine this time. Fate-chan had me going out of my mind. I would just wait a little longer to get my thoughts together before telling her my feelings and then I'll know everything.
We went through dinner with the usual laughs and giggles. Everything about Fate-chan was contagious that it made me realize even more that I wouldn't want to live without her. I just hope she feels the same.
With dinner over, I picked up the plated and put them in the sink. I gripped the rim of the sink tightly as I lowered my head. How was I going to start this? I started to turn toward her, but I stopped and turned back to the sink. This was too scary. What if she thought I was weird or became mad when I told her that I kissed her while she was sleep and the reason behind the kiss? I didn't want her to leave. I didn't want to lose Fate-chan….but I knew if I didn't say anything, I would regret it later on.
"Fate-chan?" I said hesitantly.
"Yes Nanoha"
Here goes nothing. "I have to tell you something"
"What is it? It sounds serious" she said with concern.
"I guess it is" I took a breath. "Well, I kinda did something one night that I shouldn't have done, but I don't regret it because….because I…"
Why couldn't I say it? It was right there on the tip of my tongue. I guess the thought of her rejecting me was too strong because I didn't know what I would do if that were to happen.
A hand landed unexpectedly on my left shoulder causing me to turn reflexively. Fate-chan released my shoulder, making her way to the ribbon holding my hair, pulling it out, which caused my brown locks to fall down my shoulders and back. I was so confused to what was going on. She looked so serious, her eyes never leaving mine as she moved closer to me, closing the gap between our bodies.
Our bodies connected and I became aware of the warmth coming from her body as legs connected to legs, stomachs connected to stomachs and breasts connected to breasts. I gasped as I began to feel the same sensations I felt before when I was bathing Fate-chan, but this was much more intense.
She continued to stare into my eyes as her left arm snaked around my waist, with her right making its way through my brown tresses. My eyes felt heavy and my breath seemed to pick up as Fate-chan's face neared mine.
"Fate…chan…?" I breathlessly whisper
Soft lips crash into mine. My eyes widen in shock. Fate-chan was really kissing me. All coherent thoughts left my mind and my eyes began to feel heavy again as Fate-chan alternated between sucking my top and bottom lip. I lifted the arms that once lay limply by my sides, move to her shoulders before snaking them around her neck, pulling her closer to me as I returned the kiss with twice the intensity. Her arms tightened around me as we moaned and panted as her tongue searched every part of my mouth.
This feeling….I've never experienced anything like it before. My body was on fire. A throbbing feeling was making its way between my legs and it grew stronger with every kiss, pant and moan. As much as I didn't want to stop kissing her, I had to in order to catch my breath. I looked in her eyes as she looked back into mine. I searched them in order to find an answer, but I wasn't given one.
"Fate-chan?"
"That's what you were going to tell me, right? About you kissing me that night?"
She knew? My eyes grew wide with shock as my cheeks began to burn at the thought of her knowing about the kiss all along. I guess that what all the flirty and touches were about.
"Yes, I knew Nanoha. I woke up feeling lips on mine….your lips"
"Why didn't you say anything then?"
"I was just as scared as you Nanoha. I've never been through anything like this before or felt feelings like this for the matter. And I figured you were embarrassed about it judging by the way you were acting. So that's why I started flirting in order to hint to you that I was feeling the same. I meant everything I said during the toast I made Nanoha. I've never loved anyone more"
My eyes seemed to echo those last words over and over again. "Y-you love me?"
She smiled that smile that I love so much and her eyes seemed to brighten up her face. She was beautiful.
"I've loved you since I first laid eyes on you Nanoha. I remember back to that time in the alley and I had just been shot. I was so scared, but I was happy because of you. I thought that if I would die that day, I would have died gladly if I could just stare into your eyes and stare at your beauty. I thought it was a dream, but when I finally woke up, you were there. I was so happy because I could look into your eyes again. I could see your beauty again" she place her hand on my cheek, wiping the tears away the came from my eyes. "You took my breath away. You take my breath away every day. If you're not close to me, I don't feel safe. I long to feel the warmth of your body next to me. Your presence gives me strength and courage to do things that I've never done before. I long to see your smile, to hear that contagious laugh, but I love it when your eyes sparkle with glee. You don't know just how much you've made my life so much better Nanoha" Tears began to stream from her eyes and I quickly wiped them away.
"I was so alone before you Nanoha. It still amazes me how I was able to live on, but I hoped deep down inside that I would meet someone to mend my broken heart and you've done that for me. I know that I wouldn't be here if you hadn't come into my life and I never want to be without you because I love you so much. More than anything….more than myself"
I was sad, but happy at the confession. No one had ever said such beautiful things to me like that. I was happy because it came from Fate-chan….the one I loved so dearly.
"I love you too, Fate-chan. I was alone before you as well. I was missing something that I family couldn't provide and just being with you makes me feel whole" I leaned in kissing her briefly before placing my hands on her cheeks, looking at those beautiful eyes. "I never want to be without you, so please stay with me forever"
Fate-chan leaned her head on mine. "Forever and ever" she said before connecting our lips once more.
The kiss became hungry within an instant and I found myself waiting to feel the soft skin under Fate-chan's clothes. With Fate-chan sucking my bottom lip, my hands made their way to the buttons of the blouse she had on unbuttoning them.
I ran my hands down the valley between her breasts to her flat stomach before going back up. I could feel Fate-chan shiver from the trail I was leaving on her skin. The need to touch her grew intensely and with her soft breasts in each hand, I gave them a squeeze.
"N-Nanoha" she moaned in my mouth. The way she moaned my name seemed to fuel my desire to touch her even further. Without noticing, my hands slipped under the bra connecting with the warm skin under it.
"Ahh" she moaned throwing her head back which caused her to lose balance making us fall to the floor.
"Fate-chan, are you all right?" I said with panic. I could tell from her face that she was hurt in some way.
"I'll be fine. Let's just wait until I get a little bit better before we try that again, okay?" she laughed weakly.
"Sure" I glanced at the clock. It was almost eleven and I had to be a work in the morning. "We should get some sleep" she nodded and I helped her up.
We slowly made our way to the bedroom. I sat her down on the left side of the bed before going to get our night clothes. Not too long after, I flicked off the lights and cuddled within Fate-chan's arms.
"I could really get use to this" she said sleepily.
"Me too" I pulled her close to me before repositioning my head so that I could look at her and she looked at me. "I love you Fate-chan"
"I love you too Nanoha" And we brought our lips together before going to sleep.
Hope you guys enjoyed! Thanks for all the reviews from last chapter and please feel free to review now. Thanks for reading.
To YokoShizuma: Just wanted to thank you for the comment you gave me. I wouldn't say I was the best. I feel I could do better and that there are way better writers than me, but thank you anyway. Your comment made my day so much better. I would be glad to have you do some fan art for my stories and I'm honored you would do so. I dedicate this chapter to you my friend. I hope you liked it
