A/N: I know alot of you can't wait to find out what happens between Noah and Justin, but you guys have to wait til the next chappy to find out... This chapter is important, but I promise you guys the wait will be worth it... lol the story takes a drastic turn there XD. Any ways with out further a due...

RidingTheRoughWaters: That's an awesome idea :D… but the whole story is going to be in Noah's POV so I can keep everyone guessing until the end X3. It's more fun that way lol. Thanks for criticism though :3 NOCO FOREVER! X3.

YoaiNaru: REALLY X3! I'm in the top three! Yay I feel so special X3.

I LOVE you guys X3! Such nice comments, you guys make me so happy X3.

Summary: Noah is having a hard time suppressing his feelings for cody… some one who he actually enjoys spending time with… but because no one truly knows he's gay at home he tries to hide it because his parents would disown him if they ever found out… dealing with Izzy's constant Nagging, Cody's adorable obsession with fixing the friendship and one other camper's advances he is thrown into the midst of confusion... a confusion that logic won't be able to help him with.

**Don't read if you don't like Boy love… seriously**

(Do not own Any of the total drama Island/action/world tour characters.)

Rated T for teen

Chapter 7: Opening up

"I don't get what his deal is?" Noah leaned back lazily against the head board of Eva's bed book in hand. Izzy stood on her forearms; her back arched making her look like a human scorpion. Noah never could understand how she could be so flexible. It was almost as if she didn't have a spine…even though that was highly unlikely. And, as usual, Eva the power house stood lifting weights as she ranted to the pair. "How the hell can some one be happy all the time? I mean what's Geoff's problem…" Usually it was just Eva and Noah in these sessions of ranting and venting, but ever since Cody's arrival Izzy had been joining the pair every meet. Probably because Noah never did tell her what had happened between them. Though she stopped openly prying, chances were she was working a different angle. He could tell she wanted him to slip and maybe complain about Cody. Thus revealing his true feelings about him, but that was never going to happen. So no matter what he would always steer their conversations away from Cody, because even the simplest mention could drive Izzy wild. "No one can be that happy ALL the time!"

Noah shrugged as he agreed with Eva, turning a page in his book lazily as he spoke. "He defiantly is delusional. Life is not just…" Mockingly he waved a hand in Geoff's usual fashion. "One Big party!"

"Come on you guys why can't life be one big party!" Both Noah and Eva rolled their eyes as Izzy vaulted into a dance. It was a lot harder to get any sufficient ranting done with Izzy constantly interrupting with her randomness. The reason they started meeting up in the first place was to help get rid of Eva's aggression, and to give Noah an excuse to rant. Because the one thing Noah enjoyed was complaining. And with Izzy there it was a little harder to complain. Because she had the habit of getting bored easily and jumping to something else or disagreeing with them for the sake of disagreeing.

The idea for these sessions started a couple of days after Noah was voted off. He remembered how peaceful it was before. Eva would mind her own business and he would mind his own, and that's how he liked it. They didn't interact at all, until that dreadful day when Ezekiel had learned of the world of rap.

Noah remembered the day like it was yesterday. Noah lounged by the pool as soft music played from the speakers near by. Enjoying the moment, he didn't even mind that Ezekiel was lounging in the chair right beside his. That moment was short lived as the music abruptly turned. An Intern thought it would be funny to blast rap, not a very good prank but the repercussions for that one action were un expected by everyone including him.

The next day Ezekiel came to where both Eva and Noah relaxed, going on a rant about how he was now a famous player. Using ghetto slang, in his awkward Canadian accent was more painful to him than nails across chalkboard. And with a simple gaze towards Eva's direction he could tell she felt the same. And if that wasn't horrid enough he said the one thing that caused Eva to snap. And frankly he was caught completely off guard. "Yo homies I'm a player now I'm going to need some bitches and ho's eh. You and Eva are close enough eh. What do you say Ho's?" Lets just say after he and Eva cut him down to size, he toned down the ghetto fabulous life style. And that simple interaction cause both of them to develop a new found respect for one another. They both hated everyone and everything. As well as had a love for venting. Thus the sessions were born.

He could tell Eva was irritated with Izzy's interruptions as well, because the tone in her voice rose slightly. "Izzy why do you come when we both know you're not going to take this seriously?" They both needed the venting sessions, Eva needed to control her anger and Noah… well it was a nice distraction from his current problems. Swiftly motioning to the door she held a firm finger pointing. "If we're boring you, you could always do something else!"

But to their Irritation, Noah had to hold on to his book firmly as she leapt on to the bed, nearly bouncing him off. "Come on… I know you do this to blow off some steam but let's have a little fun!"

Noah spoke calmly turning another page in his book. "Izzy this is fun. What's more fun than complaining…"

"This is why you're a miserable old man Noah…" Noah glared steadily as she smiled widely.

Inhaling in frustration he turned away. "Izzy I'm as old as you are…"

Noah jerked back quickly, knocking his head against the head board, as Izzy jabbed him painfully in the chest. "Not in here!" Before Noah could stop her she yanked his book from his hands chucking it to the opposite side of the room, barely missing a stunned Eva. This girl was always so unpredictable. She smiled menacingly up at Noah as she flopped down on to his chest. "LETS PLAY A GAME!"

"NO IZZY! Like I said if you're bored get OUT!" Noah felt weight on his chest lift as Eva lifted Izzy off of him. Holding her firmly under her arm she made her way to the door with a struggling Izzy. "Me and Noah like complaining…"

Izzy turned her body so she could face up at Eva. Noah couldn't hear what was being said but something Izzy said cause Eva to place her back down. Noah was about to ask what they were going on about before Izzy lept back onto the bed cross legged. "YAY GAME TIME!" But sadly this time the impact rippled through the bed and did bounce him off.

Groaning in pain he held his chin as that was the first thing that hit the floor. Pulling himself back up, he glared towards Eva. "You agreed? Why?"

Eva simply shrugged. "She said she wouldn't leave until we played…" Motioning to Izzy she sighed in defeat. Noah nodded in under standing as he placed himself back into his pervious position on the bed. Knowing Izzy she would just keep breaking in, and Eva would be forced to keep throwing her out. That is what happened during the first session Izzy wished to join. It was two full hours of Izzy breaking in over and over again. It would be wiser to just let her have her way for now. Noah watched as Eva pulled the nearest chair towards the bed, flopping down ungracefully into it. "Now lets get this over with."

Noah watched as Izzy smiled brightly at the both of them. "I'm so Glad you agreed…" Noah rolled his eyes as she watched Izzy sway like a child on the bed. "Soooo-" Noah groaned as she extended the "so" why couldn't she just spit it out it was her idea to play a game. And she didn't even have one. "Lets play truth or Dare…"

Groaning Noah quickly lifted himself off the bed. "No way." Walking over to where his book landed, he picked it up carefully. "Why would I want to play a game stupid prepubescent girls play at slumber parties." Examining the book thoroughly, he sighed softly, luckily there was no damage, besides a few bent pages. Tucking the book under his arm he glared over to Izzy and Eva. "I'm going to go read by…"

Before he finished his sentence he heard Izzy and Eva's clucking sound escalate. He hadn't realized they had been clucking the entire time he was talking. Clenching his teeth he waved them away. "Do you really think that would work on me… childish teasing…" But the clucking continued.

He ignored it walking to the door. He was about to turn the door knob when he heard Izzy sing. "I—f you don't Pla-ay I'll tell CO—DY—!" Noah turned back abruptly his glare as cold as ice. "I'll tell him you like him…"

Noah spoke his tone cold and steady. "You don't have any proof of that…"

Izzy smiled brightly, her smile making his blood feel like fire in his veins. "Who cares if it's true or not… even though I know it is… everyone will believe me…" Noah groaned glaring at her steadily, he refused to fold. He expected Izzy to nag and pester him until he agreed. But instead she let out a giggle. God he hated it when she giggled, it usual meant something bad. "Fine we won't play…" flopping down on the bed she sighed in frustration. "Plus knowing you, you'd probably just keep picking truth and how boring is that…" Abruptly she sat herself up, and the glint in her eyes told him that she had a new idea. That usually wasn't a good thing. "How bout we just play truth! I mean we could all just open up to each other…" Smirking evilly she gripped her hands. "We can tell each other things no one else knows about us… What do you guys say… Izzy will start." Noah looked over at Eva as she looked his way.

She shrugged at him. "Why not… Might help with all my anger… You said yourself with all your psycho babble that I did need to get to the root of my anger…"

Noah groaned rolling his eyes as he sat beside Izzy on the edge of the bed. "Fine… Who am I to inhibit your progress?" Smirking towards Izzy he motioned for her to start. "And I'm curious about what the 'great' Izzy has to hide…"

Izzy smiled brightly clapping her hands together. "GREAT!" Tapping a slim finger on her chin he could tell she was trying to see what to start with. Chances are a girl as crazy as her had a lot to hide. The quiet was short lived as she leaped to her feet startling both Noah and Eva. "I GOT IT!" Dropping herself back down she held a hand to her face as if to shield her lips from a nonexistent eavesdropper. "I have a secret Crush. But I can't tell who it is yet… Not until I get him to be my boyfriend…"

Noah sighed disinterested. "That's it… you're secret is that you have a secret…"

Izzy peered at him smiling brightly. "Come on… It is a secret, did you know I had a crush… so a secret… We have to start off slow we can't just rush in head first no fun…"

Noah rolled his eyes he knew where this was going. "Fine what ever… who's next…"

Izzy pointed boldly at Eva her smile splitting her face in two. "EVA!" Eva jolted back from the sheer volume of Izzy's voice.

But she quickly recovered clearing her throat. "I guess… my secret is I've never been in a relationship…" Both Izzy and Noah gawked at her, he could tell she felt uncomfortable, but she was a sixteen year old female… she should have had at least one relationship by now. Sneering she pounded her fists her anger directed towards Noah. "I DON'T SEE YOU WITH ANY GIRLS!"

Noah scoffed waving her away smugly. "That's because I don't want a relationship…" It was a blatant lie, but how could he come out and say he wanted to be with a guy. And he couldn't.

"LIAR!" Izzy glared while poking Noah over and over again. His skin was bruising from the constant contact.

Pulling away Noah glared. "Stop that Izzy!"

Izzy shook her head violently, her hair whipping him in the face. "Tell the truth Noah! Come on we're sharing for a reason!" Pointing solidly at her chest she held her head in pride. "You probably don't know this about me but… I'm Pansexual…"

Noah gapped at her in shock as Eva held a solid look of confusion. "A what?"

Noah groaned turning to Eva. "Basically it means she doesn't have a preference…"

Izzy smiled brightly hugging her self tightly. "It's the personality that turns me on… I don't care if they're a guy, girl, or halves." Leaning back she flopped her head down on to Noah's lap smiling up at him. "I don't tell people because most wouldn't understand… but you guys do… you can't help who you love." Noah felt his throat constrict as she spoke, each word sending a stabbing pain into his heart. She didn't bug him so she could fulfill some sick fetish. She cared because she knew how it was to love some one she shouldn't. Just like him.

Noah looked up as Eva interrupted. "I get it… I mean…" Noah watched as Eva exhaled in frustration. Obviously she was trying to sort out her own feelings. "… Everyone expects me to be a lesbian…" Eva turned away finding her nails increasingly interesting as she spoke. "The thing is… I'm not…" Noah gapped unable to hide his shock. But strangely as he looked down at Izzy in his lap, she just had a look of knowing. "It was just easier to be a lesbian. I haven't met a guy yet who's found me attractive… I'd rather not deal with the rejection." Eva growled under her breath, "Stupid bastards" barely audible. He never thought that angry Eva could be so vulnerable. She acted the way she did to prevent herself from getting hurt, not because she was cruel. He played with a stray curl from Izzy's hair as he lost himself in thought. Maybe this was a good idea, he had never felt closer to the pair than he did now. "What about you know it all?"

Noah looked up from the curl to find two pairs of eyes gazing straight at him. Taking a deep breathe he decided maybe it would be easier to deal with his problem if he spoke about it to them. Plus it was only fair, he knew their secrets… They should know his. Taking a deep breath he began slowly. "As you know I have never been in a relationship with anyone…" Sighing he decided the best way to get it out was to blurt it out. So ripping his eyes away from Eva and Izzy he gazed straight up at the ceiling. His throat felt tight as he desperately tried to find his voice. Blushing brightly he began, his voice barely audible. "Izzy's right… I am gay."

"I KNEW IT!" Izzy leaped up in joy hugging him tightly. "I'M SO PROUD OF YOU!"

But he couldn't take it. It was nothing to be proud of. Pushing a shocked Izzy away from him he lifted himself off the bed. "NO IZZY!" Noah's tone of voice caused both Izzy and Eva to look at him in confusion, both of them frozen in their locations un-willing to move. Noah gripped his hair tightly turning away from the pair his voice lowering steadily. "It's Nothing to be proud of." Moving onto the opposite side of the bed, he sat himself down, his hunched back to the pair. His hair fell covering his face, his elbows on his knees as his hands fell lazily between his legs. He hated himself as he slowly began to open up. "My parents will kick me out when they find out… " He tried holding it steady but he couldn't. Noah threaded his hands into his hair gripping it as he continued, tone dead, and un-feeling. "And… I don't even want to think about what the hell my homo-phobic siblings will do to me…" Noah felt his eyes burn as he held unshed tears at bay. He had never realized how much fear he held back, regarding his sexuality, until he spoke about it out loud. He released his hair allowing it to fall back in place as he held himself softly. "It's bad enough they tortured me before…" He didn't want them to see him cry. He wanted to stop talking, to return his normal mask of indifference, but he couldn't the words just kept flooding out of him. Folding his arms he leaned his head against them, willing the tears away. "It feels like I just got over their torture… I-I wish I was normal…"

Noah stiffened as two soft arms held him softly from behind. Izzy's voice rang clear in his ears. "None of us are normal."

Noah mumbled to the ground, his sarcastic dark humor returning. "Is that suppose to make me feel any better…"

But Izzy cut him off. He could hear the smile in her voice. "Eva's a straight girl pretending to be a lesbian, I'm a crazy pansexual, and you're gay sarcastic jerk… So what we're different…" Noah groaned into his hands he didn't want to hear anymore, but to his dismay Izzy just continued. "Who wants to be normal when great people in history were weird…" Noah peeked up slightly in confusion to find her chin leaning against his shoulder, her green eyes not leaving his face. She smiled brightly counting them out as she named them. "Vango, Mozart, Da Vinci… Did you know that he was gay…"

Noah smiled softly, still refusing to look at Izzy as he dropped his hands. His arms fell limply between his legs. "No, I didn't know that." She really did know how to make him feel better. Though it was only theorized he was gay never actually proven. But it was the thought that counted.

Izzy continued smiling brightly down at Noah's hunched form. "Yeah… and like everyone back than they had secret relationships." Jumping up she pointed to herself proudly. "Like mine… no body needs to know about your love life but you… Just do what makes you happy."

Noah looked up from behind his shoulder as Eva agreed standing herself up firmly. "Yeah and if anyone messes with you again…" Pounding her fists she spoke harshly. "I'll deal with them."

Noah stood himself up and smiled from Eva to Izzy. "Thanks…" Noah looked up at the clock and saw that it was 4:50 pm. He would have to meet up with Justin. Sighing he smiled to Eva and Izzy. They were right, he did deserve to be happy. And if he played his cards right no one would ever find out about his future relationships. Maybe he should accept Justin's offer. After all it was about time he had some one to hold. "Thanks Eva Izzy… There's some one I got to meet soon… Thank you again."

Eva turned away from him blushing, shrugging as if to say "Don't mention it". And Izzy Tackled him in a hug, knocking him to the ground. "Go get him tiger!"

Noah pulled away from her. "Get off Izzy" He didn't have the heart to tell her it wasn't who she thought it was. After all he had revealed enough for one day. They didn't need to know everything about him. And like Izzy said. It needed to be a secret relation ship. Izzy finally decided to climb off of him allowing him to step out. Waving back he spoke solidly. "See you guys tomorrow." And with that he turned and left prepared to say yes to the tan Adonis.


A/N: Now Noah admits it to other people X3... He's taking baby steps lol. O and Thanks for all the love again X3. And R&R Please I'd love to hear what you guys think X3.