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I was still trying to process my dream and all I could choke out was, "I was a vampire."

"WHAT!" Jane shrieked. The inhumanness of her shriek made me cringe; it was a shriek but it also had a weird musical quality to it. These vampires will never cease to amaze me with their perfections; I mean only a vampire can make a girly shriek sound like it came straight from the stage floor of La Boheme. And while I think she may have ruptured my eardrums, she managed to bring me out of my dream induced funk.

"Take it down a notch Whitney!" I groaned and flopped back down on my bed throwing the covers over my head.

"Whitney?" she sounded confused

"Houston...?" I said with a smirk; still very much hiding under my covers.

There was a short pause and then a sigh, "You are so weird Jo."

I giggled and threw the covers back, "Not weird; just stating a fact. I am pretty sure that you and Whitney are the only two people who can reach that octave." I smirked at her sticking my finger in my ear wiggling it for effect.

She gave me a smirk, "Well maybe Mariah Carey too, but who's keeping track."

I laughed at her; thankful that she was able to calm me down from my wicked dream.

Now let me clear some things up this dream was not a nightmare; on the contrary I enjoyed it very much. The thing that intrigued me about the dream was that I was still alive after the birth of my children.

I know what you are thinking; you don't know if you are having twins or not, because no one can know that before they get pregnant. I beg to differ because my dream was real; I was there in my dream holding my son's hand and watching my family. I can still remember everything about that dream including the smells and textures; to me that dream was very real.

My Cajun Grandma Betty always told me that a vivid, lifelike dream was a premonition into the future. Dreams like that were real; they just weren't reality yet. I was inclined to believe her in this instance because I truly felt like I was in that dream.

It sounds weird, but all I had to do now was close my eyes and I could hear my boys' laughter, see their little faces and smell the forest. Hell, I still had a dry throat from the smell of that deer blood. Normally I can't remember my dreams after I am awake for a while, and according to the bedside clock I had woken myself up at three ten in the morning and it was now three forty five.

I was utterly confused by the peace that seemed to wash over my soul in response to this dream. Up until tonight I had been tweaking because I was going to die during the delivery of my babies. But now that I realized there was even a slight possibility I could make it through; I was all for it!

I hadn't thought of the possibility that I could be changed into a vampire. In fact I had listened to Jane and even Felix talk about the vampire transformation burning process and it never crossed my mind that they could change me. Man I am stupid!

I groaned as I realized that the prospect of becoming a vampire brought on questions I really had no desire to answer. Not that I was avoiding the subject it is just that I like to avoid these types of mind boggling questions if at all possible. Questions like; did I want to become a monster? Well, to be honest not really. I liked my warm, fleshy human body. I liked sleep and I loved pasta too much to give it up for the…gulp, other red sauce.

Did I want to spend an eternity not sleeping and thirsting for blood? Once again, no I didn't. Sure I wanted to spend the rest of my life with Felix, but the blood thirst I could do without.

Did I want to have the deaths of countless innocent humans on my conscience? That was a huge resounding NO! I quickly came to the conclusion that if I was to become a vampire, I would the vegetarian kind.

I had been thinking and brooding about it for a couple of minutes when I realized I wasn't asking myself the right questions.

The right question was, did I want to die? Well, that answer is, no not anymore. I had found love again and I wasn't ready to 'lose that lovin feelin.' Tom Cruise had nothing on my Felix!

Did I want Felix to raise our children as a single parent? That would be a big no. It wasn't that I didn't trust Felix because I did. Felix was going to be an awesome father; the simple fact of the matter was I wanted to be there to help and watch my babies grow. Stop rolling your eyes I am having twins!

And lastly, did I really care what I was going to be as long as I got to be with Felix, Jane and our kids? To be honest, I didn't care if I turned into a hairy leprechaun and had to stand watch over a pot of gold; I would do just about anything to be with my family.

I heard a gentle cough and I looked up to see Jane still sitting in front of me with a quirked eye and a confused expression. I must have looked like a mental patient sitting there deathly still staring at the wall. I breathed a huge strangled sigh of relief and grabbed Jane up into a bear hug. She went stick still for a second than hugged me back.

"Jo, are you ok? What did you mean; you were a vampire?" She sounded confused.

I pulled back from our hug and cupped her cheeks in my hands. I smiled at her and kissed her nose, "I am PERFECT Janie! I will tell you all about it when Felix gets here!"

"Are you sure you don't want to talk about it now? Your heart sounds like it's going to beat out of your chest!"

I debated whether I should tell her now or wait for Felix. I looked at her bewildered expression and realized that I wanted Felix to be the first to know. I didn't want Jane worrying about this whole death-by-hybrid-children thing anymore.

"Go read your book and tonight when Felix gets home I will tell you both," I gave her a hug and she quirked an eye at me.

"Are you sure Jo?" I rolled my eyes at her silliness.

"Of course silly girl! I am going to try and get some sleep."

She still didn't look convinced that I was fine but she walked back over to the settee and gave me one last confused look before she picked up her book and went back to reading.

I sighed and flopped down on my pillow. I had a lot of planning to do before the Doc and Felix got here.

I had to come up with a smooth way to tell Felix that I wanted him to change me after our children were born but before I died; if that was even possible. I also had to find out more about the pregnancy and birth of these hybrid children. Oh and I really needed to find out more about these Cullen people. If I was going to become a veggie vamp I needed to know the info!

I smiled when I thought about Doc pimping Aro for information. I would love to be a fly on that wall. Sure Doc was a human but the determined look in his eyes yesterday told me that he wasn't going to back down easily when it came to information. Aro was in for a little inquisition and he didn't even know it!

I don't know how I managed sleep with my mind going a million miles an hour but somehow I drifted off into a dreamless sleep.

I managed to pry my eyes open when I heard a knock at the door. I sighed and squeezed my eyes shut; nine days. Why that sounded both like an eternity and a blink of an eye was a mystery to me. All I knew was that in nine more days and I would be…pregnant. I shuttered and opened my eyes.

I was thoroughly put out when I realized that I hadn't dreamed of my babies again. I felt a familiar pang in my heart and realized that I was beginning to miss a dream. I don't know if that was even possible but that is how I felt.

I rolled over to see Doc walking through the door. He looked better rested this morning with a little bounce in his step. Maybe his decision to talk to Aro had given him purpose, or maybe he just finally accepted his fate and decided to embrace the time he had left. Who knows? But I liked seeing him with a bounce in his step and a smirk on his face.

"What are you smiling about old man?" I grinned at him letting him know I was only kidding.

"First I take offence to the 'old man' statement," he clucked his tongue and crossed his arms over his chest; looking very much like my father when he was pissed. My answering blush earned me a wink from the gentle doctor and I breathed a sigh of relief that he was joking too. I liked this new improved Doc. "Second, I have an appointment with Aro this evening and I am excited to finally be doing something."

I grinned up at him. I knew that whatever he found out tonight in that meeting would help us in planning for my future. Future; I can't believe I was thinking that word right now. A few days ago I would have punched someone square in the face if they told me I might have a future. But now I was eagerly looking forward to all the knowledge I was going to gain in the next two days.

I decided to play up his new found humor so I put on my best pouty face, "What, taking my temperature and vitals everyday isn't something? You know that hurts," I sniffed for good measure.

My horrible dramatics caused Doc to chuckle, "Oh Jo, you and I both know that this is the highlight of my day! Who wouldn't want to be verbally violated by a crass young woman who befriends vampires?"

I could see the mirth in his eyes and I giggled in response to his remark, totally losing my fake pout.

I reached up to pat him on the cheek as he bent over me with the old fashioned mercury thermometer, "It's good to hear you laugh, Doc."

I could see his eyes glisten and he did one of those manly coughs to clear the lump that must have been growing in his throat.

"Thank you, Johannah," he said his voice husky with emotion. "I figure, if you can't beat'em, join em!" I giggled again and nodded. I totally understood where he was coming from. We didn't want to be here but seeing as we weren't going to be leaving we might as well enjoy the twisted ride while we can.

My temperature was once again a cool ninety eight point six. I was perfect. I hugged the Doc as he was leaving and told him to be ready in the morning to stay for breakfast and discuss his meeting with Aro. He agreed and kissed me on the forehead like he had done yesterday morning.

I shook my head at the man I was growing to care for and decided to text Felix my temperature. I grabbed my text-phone thingy and busted out a text to my man.

Once again, stats perfect…can't wait for you to get home! I have a lot I want to talk to you about! Jo

I put my phone back down on the bedside table and stretched letting the sensation take over my body. I loved stretching in the morning. Especially those awesome stretches that caused your vision to blur and your body to tingle.

I semi growled-slash-howled as my stretch was ending and when I pulled myself to a sitting position I was faced with a very amused Jane. She looked like she was going to fall over with silent laughter.

"What?"

"You defiantly are the weirdest human I have ever met in my life! Nothing is average or normal for you. You even manage to take a simple stretch and make it sound like a Wookiee!"

I gaped at her, "You know what a Wookiee is?"

Star Wars was beyond a doubt one of my most favorite nerd delights. I was a sucker for a sci-fi action thriller.

She giggled and rolled her eyes walking over to answer the knock on the door that meant my breakfast was here, "Of course I do silly! I waited in line for two days to see The Empire Strikes Back in New York in 1980. I freakin love those movies!"

I know I must have looked like a giant guppy sitting on the edge of my bed but I still had a hard time believing that the fifteen year old girl in front of me was over five hundred years old!

Jane started arranging my breakfast while she continued, "I think that guy behind me was getting curious as to why I didn't bring a tent or have to leave to use the restroom. I mean I just had a rainbow purse, umbrella, my sun hat and tinted glasses. But it was totally worth sitting in a small theater packed with humans to see that film; it's a classic!"

Jane turned around after setting up my breakfast tray on my little table and giggled, "Jo close your mouth or your tongue will shrivel up and fall out!"

I closed my mouth and shook my head to clear my brain. Jane was still smirking at me so I rolled my eyes and hopped across the cold floor to my chair.

We spent breakfast talking about our favorite books and movies. I was delighted to find out that Jane was just as big of a nerd as I was. We were both fans of the classics; Austen, Dickens, Gaskell, Tolkien, and C.S. Lewis, but I was also intrigued to find out that she was a fan of contemporary authors like Meyers, Rowling, King, and Grisham as well.

We also loved the same type of movies with comedies and action movies on the top of the list. We got into a heated argument that lasted about an hour over which series was better, Lethal Weapon or Die Hard. I argued that Die Hard was the better series because Bruce Willis is hot as fuck and is funnier than Mel Gibson. But she seemed to think that Lethal Weapon was funnier and that Mel Gibson was defiantly and I quote, "the dreamiest human that ever lived!"

My day continued like the past couple of days; breakfast, bath, lunch, nap, then supper and bed. The only constant in my day was Jane. True to form she was with me all day and once again didn't even leave during my bath. Even missing Felix as much as I did we managed to have a somewhat fun day; well as much fun as you can have being held hostage in a vampire castle. I even managed to not text Felix again which was extremely hard.

My day was complete with me kicking her ass at Texas hold'um after supper! Apparently vampires don't play poker, but I could tell after a while playing that Jane was going to be a formidable opponent. You could just see the wheels turning in her little head as she plotted her next hand. I giggled when I caught myself thinking I had created a monster, she already was one!

I was a little more than depressed that Felix hadn't responded to my morning text. He must be really busy on this mission. I hoped he was ok. I didn't like the idea of him being alone with the fuck face. And it wasn't that I feared for him, because Felix is huge and can take care of himself but I knew that Demetri wasn't good company and he tended to piss people off, a lot. Felix must be bored and on the verge of strangling Demetri. Don't ask me how I knew how he must be feeling; all I knew is how I would be feeling in his position.

I sighed after dinner and pulled on my nightgown. I really was too tired to even sit up. Playing Twister with a very flexible well balanced vampire is never a good idea. My back was still sore where I hit the ground after the damn arrow landed on right hand blue and I was already twisted like a pretzel.

I said goodnight to Jane as she turned out my lights and settled into the settee. She resumed her reading from the night before and I drifted off into my dream world.

In this dream I was standing in the middle of a meadow counting. I don't know why I would be standing there counting but there I was with my eyes closed and counting. When I reached fifty my eyes flew open and I grinned, "Ready or not here I come!" dream me shouted.

Ahh.. I was playing hide-and-go-seek! I saw the dream me take off to the right and I quickly captured the mahogany haired little boy from last night's dream. His giggle when I found him was delicious. I smiled when he winked at dream me and pointed across the meadow. I nodded at him and took off across the patch of grass, quickly finding the larger of the two boys with my hair color, who seemed extremely put out that he was found.

I giggled when he started to whine, "Mooommmm, it's not fair when he cheats! Tell him to turn his power off when we play!"

I shook my head at my dream children and realized that even hybrid children were not immune to whining. Dream me just shook her head and rolled her eyes at my son's outburst grabbing him up and swinging him around tickling his sides.

I sniffled when I heard the other little boy shout, "Me too Mommy, Me too!" I loved and really missed hearing someone call me Mommy. Their little voices were so angelic and I loved them so much it hurt. I wanted to rush over and smother both of them with hugs and kisses but I couldn't; real me couldn't move around in this dream. So instead I watched dream me in envy as she played with her babies.

It had been so long since I heard a wonderful little miracle call me Mommy and the surreal-ness of my dream had me silently begging for my dream to never end.

I didn't even realize that I had started crying until my dream broke off abruptly when I felt strong hands lightly shaking my shoulders.

"Jo, baby wake up." He sounded frantic. I wonder what was bothering him. "Jane, why the fuck is she crying?" I knew that voice. Felix was home. GREAT, leave it to me to be sobbing so hard I couldn't open my eyes enough to see him. I blindly felt around for his body and when I felt his strong shoulders I climbed up into is lap, not really caring if Jane was in the room or not. I needed Felix to hold me.

"I don't know Felix! She was fast asleep and then she just started sobbing!" I could hear the panic and distress in Jane's voice and I knew I needed to get control over my emotions. Easier said than done.

I buried my face in Felix's shirt breathing in his wonderful sent. That seemed to do the trick and I calmed down a little more. I could feel Felix rubbing circles on my back and rocking us back and forth. He was whispering, "It's ok baby, it's just a dream, I'm here," over and over.

Once I calmed down enough so that I was just hiccupping every now and then, Felix reached a finger under my chin and forced me to look into his eyes.

I had been completely aware of the god that was Felix; I mean he totally deserved the title of Sexiest Man alive, but sitting in his lap staring into his burgundy eyes while he smoothed my hair back from around my face was overwhelming. I had this overwhelming desire to kiss him and yet I couldn't take my eyes off his if I wanted to. I was spellbound by the passion and love and utter devotion that I saw and felt behind those eyes.

I can honestly say that this was one instance that my quirky gift for reading people's emotions was very handy. I could tell he loved me as much as I loved him and I was beyond glad that he was mine!

"I missed you," I managed to hoarsely whisper out.

"Baby you have no idea how much I missed you," he whispered back. I could see his emotions flash behind his eyes and I wanted to be a smart ass and say, 'I bet I do!' Because everything I felt in his eyes was a mirror of what I felt while he was away. But that would totally ruin this perfect romantic reunion moment that we were having and I couldn't bring myself to let cynical bitch out of her cage.

"Why are you crying sweetheart?" He closed his eyes and placed a kiss on my forehead, taking a deep breath like he was inhaling my scent.

I felt that pang for my dream babies hit my heart again and I couldn't stop the flood gate when it reopened.

"Oh Felix…I…I…just…I…just miss them!"

"Shh baby I know you do, but they…they are in heaven." I could hear the remorse behind his words and it stung even more that I wasn't crying for my girls, I was crying for the little hybrid boys that I had only met in my dreams.

"Not them!" I wailed burying my face into his chest. I was so ashamed that I let a dream affect me this much. I was equally ashamed that somehow two little people that I hadn't even met had over night taken the place of my little girls in my heart. I pounded my fists into his stone chest; I am such a horrible mother!

"Then who baby? Talk to me; please tell me what is wrong. It's killing me to see you in pain," he was peppering the top of my head with kisses and his big strong arms were wrapped tight around me while he rocked back and forth.

"Our boys," I managed to choke out between sobs.

"Our boys?" He sounded confused and shocked by my choice of words. He must have been prepared for members of my family, but no, crazy Johannah misses people that don't even exist yet.

I sniffled and lifted my head off of his chest staring into my balled up fists in my lap. I wiped the ever increasing snot coming out of my nose on the sleeve of my night gown and proceeded to spill the beans about my dream babies.

"Yes! They are so beautiful; one had your hair color and my eyes and he is tall and skinny like my dad, and I think he has a power but I don't know what it is. And the other one has my hair color and the most beautiful blue eyes and he was so tall and broad, I just know he is going to be bigger than you one day. Oh Felix they are so sweet and beautiful, and I miss them!" I was full on wailing at this point and I don't know how long I sat there crying until I got myself under control again.

I became aware of the fact that Felix had stilled his rocking while I was venting and I looked up at him to see his reaction to my outburst. He was sitting there staring at the wall across the room with a shocked expression on his face. He looked like he had just been told he won the lottery and didn't believe it yet. I couldn't tell if he was happy or confused or sad or all of that rolled into one but I just knew that he was still, a little too still.

"Felix are you alright?" I managed to whisper out while sniffling. I could feel myself getting tired again. Damn it I had worn myself out with the sobbing fit and I was ready for more sleep when all I really wanted to do is cuddle with Felix and talk about my plan. But I knew once he realized I was tired there wasn't a chance in hell that he would let me stay up to talk to him.

He shook his head and looked down at me and smiled. "I am fine baby. But you are tired and need to get some more sleep. It is only a little after midnight and you need your beauty sleep."

I gaped at him. Was he not just here when I confessed to him that I was seeing people that don't exist and worst of all I actually missed them. I was utterly confused by his ability to brush off my outburst and I vaguely registered him lifting me into his arms and lying me down on the bed.

I started to panic when it looked like he was leaving, "Don't leave me!" I shouted.

"Baby I am just going to take these muddy boots off then I fully intend on snuggling with you while you sleep," he winked at me and gave me one of his heart breaking smiles. I breathed a strangled sigh of relief and moved over under the covers to make room for his huge frame.

While he was taking his boots off I was struggling to keep my eyes open; that crying session and dream had really taken it out of me. I was disappointed because this isn't how I pictured my reunion with Felix would go, and yet at the same time I was so extremely happy that he was back I couldn't make myself feel disappointment.

I managed to open my eyes to say goodnight to Jane but I quickly realized that she must have snuck out during my fit to give Felix and I some privacy. I loved that little girl, but I did need this time with Felix.

"I missed you," I sighed as Felix climbed into the bed the springs groaning in protest under his weight.

He chuckled, "I missed you too baby. But I am here now and I am not leaving you again, not like that."

He reached over to wrap the thick comforter around my small frame and pull me closer to him. I happily obliged and laid my head on his chest breathing in his sweet scent and burying my face into his shirt. I could feel sleep taking over my body and when Felix reached up to play with my hair I was a goner.

I was so comfortable here in the arms of the man that I love that I barely heard myself mumble, "Felix after the boys are born will you change me into a vampire so we can be together forever?"

I heard a sharp intake of breath, then I heard Felix whisper into my hair placing kisses all over, "I fully intend to baby, I fully intend to. I love you, baby."

I sighed and mumbled, "Thank you, I love you too."

My life was good at this point; I had Felix back, I was going to be a mother again, and best of all, I was going to live. I feel asleep that night with a smile on my face and lightness in my heart ready to face anything that Aro could throw at me. Bring it on crazy bastard!

If I had only known then what would be waiting for me the next day, I could have prepared myself for the horror that was waiting for me when I woke up. I should have realized nothing goes smoothly for Johannah. And waking up to screaming was defiantly a bad omen.


Don't shoot me for the cliffhanger! Sorry!

I am super sorry that this took so long...I just found out quite unexpectedly that I am expecting baby #3 and I have been in a little bit of a shocked state for the past week. But here it is! I will hopefully be posting again this week! Love ya!

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