Thank you all for the reviews and the favorites and follows; you're all so cute.
I think I'm a bit of a cold author. I don't really respond to you guys at all so I'll respond to some reviews that I feel like I can respond to.
Breezy2319: I'm so glad you thought it was funny. I always pictured that if an Uchiha woman was going to express jealously she would do it in a "dignified" yet catty manner. I'm glad you enjoy it. :D
BellaOfTheTower: Really? What fic is that? I'm always looking for good reads on here. Hahaha, I'm happy you think they're beautiful. I try very hard to write those romance scenes not so gushy, but still with a softness to them.
Fher34: Thank you so much! Yeah, thought some people may not like such saucy things so I put up a warning. I'll admit I do love writing smut and such haha. It's a bit of a guilty pleasure of mine to read and write them n.n'' Yeah, I'm trying to update a bit more frequently. Normally I have two chapters a time ready, but I wait a while.
July's Winter: Thank you for coming out of your seashell to review! Thank you! Believe it or not, I actually painstakingly picked out a "cover" picture for this. I wanted that sort of elegance and carelessness to it. I'm glad I managed to get a gist of it. Awh, you're such a doll. Thank you so much for that compliment. I'm very happy you think so.
Guest: Ahhh, yes many of you have commented on Hinata's impending death. I have something worked out for her. I actually have the whole ending planned out, but I'll keep everything to myself. I believe that their's 'light' in the real life. It's all about finding and preserving it. I believe that life can be portrayed like it is in fiction with endless love and breathless experiences. I think that sometimes we get so caught up in the negative aspects in life we forget to enjoy the little moments and the simplicity in life.
Neon Renaissance: When writing Sasuke, I think he's more emotionally open to himself than he is too others. So I think that when it comes to expressing himself he's much more of a physical type of person. He can't say what he wants to say, but he can only hope that his touch can express everything that words can't do for him.
Mels: I'm actually a sucker for sad endings. Healers, healers, healers; like I said I have everything for Hinata planned out.
Aurora0914: Thank you, I'm glad you think so & I shall continue!
Pairings: Sasuke/Hinata and onesided Hinata/Neji
AU
XIX
Sasuke always kept his taste of women to himself. His first crush was a civilian girl who was three years older than him. At the time Sasuke was six and she was nine. She helped her mother in the library and she was all around average. Her hair was a plain brown color, but her eyes were the color of honeycomb. Her cheeks were cubby and face round, her nose a bit too wide, and her eyes close set, but all of her features blended into something was cute. It was her personality that drew him in. When Sasuke got lost in the large library, straying from his mother, he wedged himself between two bookshelves. He was too afraid that if he was to wander off again his mother would never find him. Then she appeared in all her plain features and plain clothes. She coaxed him out with a picture book and she let him sit in her lap as she read to him. Sasuke didn't know what happened, but her family later moved and he didn't see her since.
Sasuke's second crush was when he was thirteen. It was after his abandonment of Konoha and she was a sound girl. Her hair was dark as his own, her skin reminded him of the color of chestnuts, dark and brown, so different from his pale skin. He liked the way it contrasted when they held hands in the dark. She was quiet, but when she spoke she said the oddest things. She was weird and a bit dorky, but she was his small sun in the dungeon. Their relationship only lasted for a year and a half; one day she never came back from a mission.
Hinata was his third crush. She was warmth, she was the feeling of feathers gliding against skin, she was that deep feeling of sleepiness at the end of the day. Hinata was the prettiest, but she was in a classical sense. His library girl was an unconventional pretty, his sound girl was an exotic pretty, but Hinata was a classical. Hinata was the girl that he could hide away, she was the girl that made him feel like it was okay to be selfish and sometimes-no-all the time he wanted to be selfish when it came to her.
XX
Hinta liked four boys in her life. The first one was a boy from a noble family. He was pretty like a girl with soft, purple hair and dark eyes. He spoke softly and he read to her when she asked him to. He was ten when she met him and she only four. Hinata liked to fancy ideas of them getting married and they would spend their days with him reading to her and she would braid his long hair with flowers and ivy. From what she last heard of he married a noble girl when he was seventeen.
The second boy was Naruto. Naruto who was kind and strong and was the sun. He stood up for her and believed in her when everyone else saw her downfall. Naruto who didn't notice her feelings for him because he was always chasing who inspired her, but made her heart weep.
The third boy was not a boy, but a man who was twice her age. Hinata was sixteen at the time and he was thirty-four. He was a Hyuuga also, but he was from the branch family. He wasn't a ninja, but rather a simple cook. He taught her how to cultivate her own seasonings, how pick the right plants for tea, he taught her how to cook, and how to kiss, and how writhe beneath a man. She could easily claim that he was her first love, but first loves were always bitter when she caught him with a Hyuuga servant girl in the kitchen, his face buried between her thighs. Hinata was furious, hurt, and heart-broken. She wanted nothing more, but to punish him as his heiress, but Hinata was not a cruel woman. She casted them out of her mind. She had a feeling that Neji knew, but Neji always knew everything about her. From what she knew, her first love had married the servant girl and they had their first born child.
Then-then there was Sasuke. Hinata never thought that she would love him. Yet she did. Maybe she loved him because he offered her everything she could never have, but she knew it went deeper than that. Sasuke was the type of strength that she needed. He knew when she need help and he gave it to her whether she wanted it or not. He wasn't afraid to make her mad, because everything he did he did because apart of her wanted to, but was too scared. Sasuke was a surprise that Hinata was amazed by everyday.
XXI
When they made it to the ocean the was setting, casting an orange and pink glow across the sky. The water shone bright, the waves moving at a slow, lethargic pace. Hinata could feel that noglastic feeling once she shed her sandals off and sand got between the crevices of her toes. Hinata exhaled softly and tilted her head up, spreading her arms out. She felt simple and alive. She pulled off her shirt and pants and walked straight into the chilly ocean water. She got on her knees and laid the in shallow water. The sand was warm on her back and the waved lulled around her shallowly. Hinata stared at the soft swirls of colors in the sky. She was here. She was here and she now she felt sad. She felt her throat tighten, because this, this was her dying wish. She was dying. She was going to die and she was only eighteen. Her fingers dug into the wet sand, heavy and clunky beneath her fingers. Oh God! She was dying. There was so much she wanted to do and say, but her time was limited and worst of all it was a limit where she didn't know how. It was a limited limitless life. It could end at any moment and she would never see it coming. Hinata could feel her face crumple and she sobbed, her hands covering her face.
"Hinata," Sasuke said, he had walked into the water, uncaring if his pants were now wet. She could see him in her blurry vision. "Don't cry." He murmured.
"I'm going to die." She said in a shuddery breath. "I'm going to die with nothing to show for. I did nothing in this world. Nothing extraordinary. I leave no mark in this world." Sasuke knelt down and rested his body weight on her, resting his elbows on either side of her head.
"You left your mark." Sasuke skimmed his nose along her jaw line. His sandy hand cupped her face. "You left your mark." Sasuke couldn't say what he wanted to say. That her mark was forever branded to him. He kissed her then and there. Wet, sandy, cold in the water. He kissed her so she could feel just what she meant to him, just what mark she left in this world.
And when she kissed back, he could feel that she understood.
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