Cary, hic, I mean Clary chapter 7

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"No, no, no, no,no,no,no" I thought. If I go in there and he is sitting at the bar all dreamy looking, I'll just walk on by him. Who am I kidding. I would never walk by Jace. Why am I out here. It is so cold. Oh yeah, Izzy called. We hadn't gotten together in the longest time. She was free tonight, I was free. It was only after that I remembered that Jace lived in the Institute with her family.

I bet she teased, taunted him.

"Oh hi Jace. I can't practice with you tonight. I'm meeting Clary. Oh, you want to tag along? I guess she won't mind." said Izzy; giggle, giggle. Yeah, thanks Izzy. Doesn't she realize that I have trouble breathing around him? Doesn't she know that I cannot fight the attraction I have for him? It goes against nature like gravity. Then she will tease me with all I should not know about him.

All the things that would frighten most girls away, but not me. His faults are probably what truly attracted me to him in the first place. I mean, he is a Shadowhunter, a defender from the heavens and he has flaws.

And what am I? I may be a Shadowhunter, but I wasn't raised as one. How could I ever be in his league? He thinks he is so damaged, but I can match him scar for scar. I'm the one who grew up with the High Warlock messing with my brain, my memories. My whole life is lies.

Sh*t, I just walked in. What am I doing? It is cold out, that's what.

"Hey there, stranger." said the voice I knew better then my own. I turned and was face to hunky chest with Jace. I looked up into his eyes. They were filled with concern at first, but then I smiled my warm melted chocolate is nirvana smile, and then he grinned ear to ear.

"Hiya" I answered and feeling like I just won a Toastmasters debate. I spoke on command. Sometimes, I have been getting really tongue-tied around him.

"Izzy is in the back waiting for you." said Jace. Oh, yes, I am happy to see her, but why can't he say...he then interrupted my thoughts.

"I've missed you, you minx. Where have you hidden yourself?" asked Jace and he pulled me into a sideways hug.

Speechless me walked next to him. My toast was burnt. He missed me? He noticed I was not around? We finally reached the table and Izzy and I hugged and I started talking with her. Jace went across the room and was throwing darts. I kept an eye on him while visiting. Lots of friends came and went over the evening. Finally I was getting up to leave and Jace was again right by my side.

"You leaving?" he asked.

"Yeah, school tomorrow." I said.

"I'll walk you home." said Jace.

"OK." I answered. We walked out of the door and down the street. I was feeling warm from the drinks and Jace was looking his usual fabulous self. We stopped at a corner and waited for the traffic.

"It is so cold this winter" I said.

"What?" asked Jace as he bent over to hear me over the sound of tires rushing through slush. I turned to talk into his ear and saw his cheek so close. I leaned over and took in a whole breath and let it out. I leaned in more and kissed his cheek. He turned to face me. I looked at his mouth, then his eyes. Jace was looking for something in my face.

" Are you drunk?" asked Jace.

"Not nearly enough" I said. I was so close if I just puckered my lips our mouths would have touched.

"Because this is not like you." said Jace.

"Or maybe this is the real me and all the other mes are fake." I say thinking I was clever until I realized I sounded so drunk.

I like this you." said Jace. Well, that was it, my green light. I fell into him and kissed his lips. It wasn't so great on my part. It was sloppy and forceful, but we both kept our mouths closed. The kiss was doomed to end without moving into the next stage, making out kind of kissing. I straightened up and so did Jace. I waited for the whole ' this is a mistake' talk.

"Grrrr" said Jace. Huh? Did he just growl? I looked at his face. He had the best bedroom eyes. He tugged me gently by the arm to cross the street. I don't think I even looked to see if there was traffic. I now know how a squirrel feels before they are squashed out of existence. We walked down a short alley past some steps and out the back to a group of demon powered motor cycles. Jace messed with a red and black one and it roared to life. He waved me over and I hopped on behind him.

"I don't think the vamps in that club will mind, do you?" said Jace in his best bad boy don't care voice.

" Let's go." I said, truly not caring where we were going. I could die a happy girl, we kissed.

"Next stop, my room." said Jace. I think, I mean, I hope, I mean, WHAT?

We flew through the cold night but Jace's body kept the wind off of me. It was just 5 minutes and we were over the institute. We landed softly and he helped me off the bike. He took my hand and swung it slowly in large arches. It felt silly and then he laughed and said come on and started to run.

We went inside and straight to his bedroom. OMG, he was serious. I was anxious and thrilled rolled up into a bouncing ball. As we went into his room he shut the door and locked it. He turned all of his attention to me.

"Clary, this is the night I have always dreamed of." said Jace.

"I'm not drugged or anything, right? This is real?" I said.

"This is very real. You sure about this?" he asked

"Yes, and I'm not sure what 'this' is, but I'll see if I can fake it." I answered. Jace moved me over to the bed and started to kiss my neck. His arms went around me and my legs immediately gave out. Jace laughed. I went on automatic. I rolled him over and was on top of him. I closed my eyes and kissed him. This time, I kissed him right. His hands started to move under my clothes and I said.

"Let's take this slow."

Then he looked at me. I thought I blew it. I quickly explained.

"I'm not concerned about this, I just want to remember every detail." I said. It was a good save too. A real good save. I almost said I wanted to remember every small detail, but what a mistake that would have been. And it would have been entirely wrong, now that I have the memory tucked away, nothing small about him.

Wink , wink

I'm glad for once, I stayed away from the alcohol too. This is so much better then anything I ever had from a bottle.