HI everyone! Sorry for making you wait. I've been busy working on the chapter for my other story, which I'm glad is finally getting out of it's block it was stuck in in my head. I wrote this up last night and I hope you all like it! with that said,
insert usual disclaimer: No, I'm not Stephenie Meyer and you know the rest!
Edited by: Goldsparkler
Chapter Seven:
What if ?
"Bella..." I said in disbelief staring at the ghost of my past. Her beauty was even more breathtaking now than it was the first time I saw her. Her chocolate orbs held shock in them and a hint of something I couldn't place as a blush crept into her cheeks and looked away from me shyly. My instincts screamed at me to reach out to her and touch the softness of her rosy skin, but I quickly reined that feeling in.
It was this same instinct to touch her that gave my heart the flutter it felt even now after all this time as when I had gone with my gut and kissed her that night at the party. The warmth of her lips on mine and her soft moans tickling my skin as we explored each others bodies, something that I would never normally have done with someone I had just met, was pure heaven. To be honest with myself I was rather shy in that department and had never done half the things I did with Bella that night. But something about her made me feel unencumbered by it all, it was like I had found my everything the moment I laid eyes on her.
I had just moved to Forks a few weeks prior to my new home with my "new" family. I kept to myself most of the time then, not really talking to anyone because I was still trying to handle the sudden loss of my parents. The Cullen's were always like my second family and I was thankful that they took me in as their own. Emmett, their son, was ... and is my best friend. They used to come down every summer to Chicago to visit for a few weeks when Carlisle would do his annual teaching seminars at the local medical center.
I remember that Emmett whined for two hours straight just to get me to go out with him for his birthday party that night. I finally gave in knowing that it would do me some good to get out and stop dwelling on the negative for a night. Little did I know that I would meet Bella, a beautiful, smart, witty girl. It was the first time since my parent's deaths that I truly felt like myself again and was able to laugh and smile without having to pretend that it was genuine because it was.
I was drawn to her like a magnetic and the pull of her lips broke me and yet healed me all at the same time. I felt like I was on fire, like a spark lit up inside me and I never wanted it to end. My body begged for me to take her fully and I almost did, but my mind stopped us from going there, keeping the thin fabric of our undergarments between us and the passion. The feel of her heated skin on mine was like a drug and I've been hooked ever since.
Bella has stared in almost all my dreams since that night and I always wondered what would have happened between us if she had fallen back to sleep in my arms and not left. The soft kiss of her lips on mine when she bid me goodbye and brushed the hair from my forehead not knowing that I had been secretly watching her hunt around for her shoe played over and over again in my mind. She didn't know that I had awoken the moment she stirred in my arms and searched out her belongings. I kicked myself for not letting her know I was awake and wished that I had just reached up and pulled her back on top of me when she kissed me, but it was something she mumbled in her slumber that made me keep the façade.
Edward... she murmured making my heart sore with my name falling from her pouted lips. At first I thought she had awoken but when she didn't open her eyes to meet mine, which were at the time lost in her angelic sleeping features, I realized that she must talk in her sleep. I chuckled to myself has she mumbled something unintelligible that sounded like she was saying 'she was a dove'. But it was her next words that stopped my breath,
Mike I'm sorry...My mind froze, who was this Mike? Why was she sorry? So I whispered softly to her in hopes to get her to speak more, What are you sorry for? I asked. I love him...she answered. You...you love him? I said more to myself as my heart twinged at those words. This will hurt him...she replied back then went silent, she didn't say anything else. I soon fell asleep with her words nagging at my brain until I came to the conclusion that at this moment it didn't matter. What matter was this, this wonderful person tangled together with me and the flood of feelings we shared that night.
I must admit that I didn't know how to act around her when I saw her again for the first time after our little escapade. I didn't think it'd be appropriate for me to just walk up to her and stick my tongue down her throat in front of everyone when we hadn't even spoken since then and never mind the fact that it would be hard to explain to everyone for that matter. I for one didn't tell anyone and I was sure that Bella hadn't either, well not go into full detail anyway if she did. I had simply told Emmett when asked about Bella's and my sleeping arrangements that he had stumbled upon on his trip to the bathroom that night, that we were kissing and fell asleep talking and watching TV. He shrugged and said that she was a good catch and I even dared to ask about this Mike guy she mentioned subconsciously (which I also kept to myself). He said that the kid's last name was Newton and that from what he'd heard wanted Bella or something like that, needless to say his words didn't help clear anything up.
I figured that I'd act like nothing happened and just test how she'd act if I were to touch her, which was something that I didn't think I would be able to not do in some way to start with, so I took the chance and slipped my arm around her back and when she didn't pull away, leaning into me instead, I relaxed a little. We played that little game throughout the whole party. It was heart pounding to have this dirty little secret between us while unbeknown to anyone around us. The party had ended all to soon for me and if I had my way I would have pulled Bella away from prying eyes to give her a proper kiss goodbye but the chance didn't come so I hugged her tightly to me and kissed her on the corner of her mouth half on her cheek, causing her to blush.
I don't know why I didn't get her number that night or even the second time around, I guess I just thought I would see her again soon. But how was I to know that 9 months were going to pass until I would have the chance to actually talk to her again. I was home schooled and didn't really know anyone other than Bella and the rest of Emmett's friends. Bella is the sister of Alice, whose boyfriend Jasper is the cousin of Emmett's girlfriend Rosalie, and so with Em and Rose back off to college, no one saw each other. It's confusing to my own thoughts I know, but just because I didn't talk to Bella didn't mean that I hadn't seen her.
I had just walked into the Thrift-way to get some things on the small list Esme gave me to get when I saw her. I was walking out of an aisle and I caught sight of her brown locks turning into another. I was about to call out to her just as a blond haired guy walked up to her with a huge smile on his face making me stop in my tracks and quickly hide just out of sight. I watched as he wrapped an arm around her shoulders in a one armed hug which she didn't return but half smiled up at him instead, he then released her and placed his hand on top of hers.
I didn't see anything after that, I had dumped the few things I had on the shelf behind me and ran out. That was the 7th month. I found out the start of the 9th month at Emmett's welcome home party just who that guy was, the one and only Mike Newton. Oh how I loathed that name even now and I only met him that once. He and Bella made their first party appearance has a couple that day, though I couldn't bear to ask how long it had been since they started seeing each other was. I had lied when she asked if I was seeing anyone and told her yes so I wouldn't seem like a fool and left early because the sight of them together killed me.
And now here she was standing in front of me blushing that tempting shade of crimson.
"Hi" she said softly bringing her sparkling eyes back to mine. It took me a moment to remember where we were and why Isabella was here. I don't know why I never made the connections before with Carlisle always talking about her being in there and the Isabella standing in front of me. I knew he had her has a 'regular customer' he would joking call the people he saw almost on a daily bases, but why had I not realized that Bella Isabella in this matter. After all it is not a name you tend to hear everyday, she told me it was her first name, Bella for short. I internally smacked myself for this oversight. I must say that fate was cruel and kind on this day but I couldn't think of the what ifs any longer, she was hurt and I had a job to do.
You weren't expecting Edward's POV now were you hehehe!! A good writer shouldn't have to say who's POV it is when the whole chapter is out of that other person's view point and not switched from one to the other that does require the point out of who's who's so no one get's confused! NOW YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS PEOPLE!! REVIEW!!REVIEW!!REVIEW!! make my day brighter!! Thank you all for reading
