Chapter 7

I rushed out the door at nine thirty, jumped into my truck and began my journey to La Push. I met Jacob at First beach and he explained how Billy was in on the plan and had begged Jacob to take care of me. I was guessing the idea of explaining my death to Charlie wasn't a conversation he wanted to have. We both laughed and headed up the cliff to meet the others. As neither of us were aging, Jacob was trying to convince me that even though technically he is over a year younger than me, that mentally he was older. We had a long debate and by the end of it he was middle aged and I was in my late twenties.

We finally reached the boys who were waiting eagerly at the top of the cliff and one by one they jumped off. I could see a storm coming in and new that I couldn't mess about with this, I needed to just jump and get it done with. Jacob stood with me, waiting.

"You go first Jake, you can catch me" I laughed. It was shaky but I suddenly didn't feel fear. He grinned, took a step back and jumped. I watched how his body raced to the ocean top, how he arched his body and he prepared to enter the surface.

Standing on the hill, I looked towards the storm. If I could die, then this could very easily kill me. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes. If I was going to die the only person I wanted to see was Edward, I imagined him standing in front of me but was surprised when he told me to run, just like in my dream. He begged and begged but I refused to listen. Why should I listen to him? I took one step back and before I knew it I was flying off the cliff and towards the ground.

The vision of Edward stayed with me the whole way. When I broke through the surface and continued to travel deeper, it was his voice that made me stop. I just froze. Floating. I starred at Edwards worried expression as he was watching me intently and I didn't want to leave him here. The thought of leaving his face behind me in the water was more than heartbreaking.

Thick, strong arms hooked around me and began dragging me away from his form. Kicking and fighting I tried to swim back down to him but it was a lost cause. Before I knew it I was breaking the ocean top again, only this time I was leaving instead of entering. The moon light shone down on the top highlighting each wave as it crashed into us. I couldn't help but look back under the water. It was the first time I had ever really felt his presence with me since he left, I didn't want to lose that. Jacob pulled me on to the same and I felt the tears streaming down my face. I knew what I wanted but I had no way to get that.

"You ok Bells?" Jacob asked me, worry clearly breaking through his calm façade. I nodded. He looked at me strangely and I realised he had seen that nod before, many times. He knew the vacant expression on my face, the nothing that filled my eyes. He sighed and in a low whisper, he let the sadness colour his tone. "its still him, isn't it?"

I looked down at the ground and then back up to him, all I could do was nod. He took a second to accept that but then drew me into his tight embrace and held me so close that I was having trouble breathing, not that I needed to.

We walked back to my truck, and I was in the cabin getting changed when Jacob - who was standing with his back to the window - told me his theory that actually made my day. "I guess this means your immortal" he said obviously lost in thought. I wound down the window

"explain that" I said pulling the black tank over my head.

"well you were under the water for over ten minutes Bells, and you weren't even out of breathe. Kind of makes you invincible." he laughed.

"Wait, ten minutes?" I stumbled across the words "It only felt like seconds"

"That's why I came looking for you, I thought …" he took a deep breath "I thought I lost you." I put my hand on his shoulder and rested my head against his over heated back.

"You cant lose me now, how did you put it, invincible" I laughed and he joined in. As I climbed out of the cabin, I landed next to Jacob and he pulled me into another tight hug. Lowering his head to my ear he began to whisper.

"I know you don't feel the same for me Bells, I get that. I'm not stupid, your not over him. But… But I'm gonna wait for you, one day you will be and then I have a chance, right?" his voice was so quiet and I couldn't find an ounce of lies within it.

"Jake" I responded just as quietly "I wish you wouldn't wait. I don't think I will ever move on from him" my voice got even lower as I finished that sentence. I felt his heart slow and I couldn't bring myself to look at his face, I knew it would only be in pain. I never wanted to cause Jacob any pain, this felt like torturing him. "Maybe I shouldn't go tonight?"

He jumped back and looked at me, taking my hand softly " You are coming tonight Bells, and I promise I wont mention anything about it ever again, in less you bring it up" he smiled his Jacob smile and I knew that I couldn't resist giving in. I smiled back at him and we took off sprinting to where the others were waiting.