Knowing His Love
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I don't know exactly what time it was when I fell asleep that night but I know I had to be late. Casey tried a few times to get me to let her in. I just pretended I was asleep and couldn't hear her. I feel bad about that now, but its took late to take it back. When I awoke that next morning I knew there was one thing I had to do. I had to talk to her, make sure she wasn't mad. That's the last thing I wanted was for Casey to be mad at me. Especially now.

I headed down stairs where everyone was sitting at the table eating breakfast, pancakes my favorite. Well everyone except Casey was there. "Where's Casey?" I questioned pouring my self some orange juice. No one spoke up. So I turned to head back to my room. "Smerek, Casey wont come down from her room." Marti said in a saddened tone that seemed to break my heart. This was all my fault. I was basically hurting the two girls in my life who mattered most. My Smart and my Casey. Good going Derek.

I went up to Casey's room, luckily her door wasn't locked. "Hey pretty girl, whatcha doing?" I said trying to sound like there was nothing going on. She just shrugged and continued staring up at her ceiling. I climbed onto the bed. "I really am sorry about yesterday, and I really shouldn't have shut you out like that." I started apologizing, only to be cut off by Casey's lips meeting mine. "Derek its okay, really I understand. I'm just glad you punched him before I did." She laughed, I loved that laugh. It seemed to make all the bad disappear.

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The rest of that day seemed to go like nothing was wrong in the world. We went about our lives as if everything was perfect. No one seemed to allow the daily battles of our world, our hearts, our lives to consume us, and bring us down. For that day, there was no wars going on, No tears being shed, no starving kids in the world, there was no homeless, no death, and most of all, Casey's leukemia didn't exist.

I realized that night, that there are so many reasons that I love Casey.

#1. The way she can find the good in a person, especially in me. She's the only person who hasn't completely given up on me. Because of her I feel like I actually have a chance at life.

#2. Her perfect crystal blue eyes. Every time I look into them I fall a little more in love with the girl.

#3. I love how strong she is. Now we all know that Casey isn't exactly the most physically strong person in the world. But in my eyes she has the most inner strength of anyone I know. She knows how to stand up for herself and to stand for what she believes in.

#4. The cleverness of her. She can be pretty sly when she wants to be. I mean come on she almost had me willing to give her my room for the basement.

#5. Her ability to effortlessly make me want to try to be the best I can be.

#6. That face she makes when she's nervous.

#7. Her smile its infectious.

#8. The way she said my name when she's mad, It kind of sounds like Dare- Rick. Every time I hear her say it that way I know I've messed up or something's wrong.

#9. Her laugh, its just so annoyingly perfect.

#10. The way she can crawl out of bed in the morning looking so effortlessly perfect.

#11. I love hearing her sing. I know I'm a guy and it probably sounds a little dorky that I'm saying that. But She has such an amazing voice, I was lucky to have her in my bad.

#12. The sound of her breathing while she's asleep.

#13. Her ability to never give up on me, even when I'm being a complete jerk.

#14. I love when I'm playing a hockey game and I look up to see Casey in the stands. I know she doesn't understand the game at all, and she's probably bored out of her mind at my games. But the fact that she comes to all of my games to cheer me on amazes me.

And the list goes on and on. I'd be here all day if I listed every reason that I love Casey...


I am so sorry it has taken me so long to update. My brother tried to make my computer run faster and completely destroyed it so I had to get it fixed. R&R.