SO! I AM BACK. After a crazy last semester I'm back. I am planning to have this story done before the release of breaking dawn. Infact I will have it complete because of many reasons. One if that Im almost done and the next few chapters should be no time at all. I hope it doesn't feel rushed as I am trying to explain things the best I can with going over board. I know is a short chapter but stay with me, more will come! now read

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I, Isabella Swan – was going to get married - Today. I felt my heart jump slightly out of my chest as I realized I was on my bed alone, with no Edward beside me. That would change shortly.

I looked at my clock, the red light clearly outlining 6:15. A light happy voice danced into my head, "Wake up Bella! Today your getting married", it sang to me.

I pulled myself up expecting one of my future species, but it was no one other then Renee. She sat on the end of the bed as I pulled myself upward to her.

"Charlie explained that you had quite a scare last night," her concerned eyes trying to read my expression.

What did my face look like? I was too tired to care, but that was quickly disappearing as my adrenaline started to pool in my veins. Married, today, Edward and I. I stared at my mother with disorientation; I couldn't even remember what she had said to me. That when Alice's little face popped into the room.

"Bella! Did you notice the time! We have to get you up and ready for the wedding! That means, hair, make-up – oh and the Dress!" Alice danced over to my closet, muttering to herself about new ideas.

Renee smiled at me, a real loving smile, a real mother's smile. The kind that makes you feel safe and loved. She hardly ever smiled at me that way; I was usually the one doing the mothering. She patted my leg under the sheets and sat up. She looked over to the window, the sky grey and angry, "I just hope it doesn't rain – that's the last thing you'll need." I looked at Alice who winked and smiled happily. "Anyways, I'll let Alice get to work with you, the bridesmaids should be here soon – I'll help them with some things."

I nodded to Renee as she left the room and turned over to Alice. "How did last night go," I said as I got myself out of the bed.

She didn't turn to me, as she was still preoccupied with the makeup and dress. "I'll just say it's a good thing we don't need too much sleep."

"That bad huh" I responded dryly.

"The mess was the easiest part," She said, turning toward me now. "The hard part was talking to werewolf boy. When we explained the situation he was totally furious. Billy and Carlisle had to calm him down. I doubt he'll come today, besides we have bigger problems."

"What!", my eyes widened in shock, what now I thought.

Alice sighed and continued, "The Vultori may decide they want to attend your wedding. As a small check up, since your turning won't be too far long now."

My voice hitched slightly, "What, do you mean by 'may.'"

Alice walked over and placed her hand on my shoulder, "They keep changing their decision, I've been trying to keep up with them but it's hard. Don't worry; I'm sure they wouldn't hurt anyone – not out in the open like that."

My body tensed and I winced slightly at the thought of a slaughtered wedding party. Maybe it was better if Jacob didn't come; it made me cringe again – to think of Jacob and the rest of the pack fighting the Volturi, especially Jane. I remembered the last time the Cullens fought with the werewolves to protect me - and the Volturi arrived.

I shook my head quickly as I realized my mind would soon be my worst enemy. It was easier then I expected to distract myself. My wedding was today, that should be enough to take up all of my waking thoughts.

Pretty soon, Alice had finished my hair and make-up. My hair was down, soft and flowing with just the front pulled back. My eyes were a soft shade of sky blue, with hints of other shades that made them stand out. Alice stood back to approve of her work and nodded. She then hurried me down the stairs to meet the rest of the wedding party that had arrived. Rosalie was also downstairs helping with hair and make-up. Laruen and Jessica were my other Bridesmaids. Although Jessica and Laruen were not my closets friends, they had been my friends from the very first day I came to Forks. Now that I was leaving I thought it be more sentimental if they were my friends on the very last day as well. Both Laruen and Jessica were away the day of the rehearsal due to some beach party Jessica had planned. Of course when I asked them to be part of my wedding party they were shocked but happy, promising they'd be back for the big day.

They both looked like they were dying for a moment of sleep, but I knew Rosalie would be able to fix that. Laruen was the first to see me. Her face lit up as she ran over with her arms wide. Rosalie put her head up from Jessica's hair and gave me a small smile. Which felt kind of strange, even though Laruen was hugging me, I kept looking at Rosalie's smile – it didn't look devious, or snide – maybe it was a tad of sincerity that I saw even if it only lasted for a split second. Jessica lifted her eyes as well, taking me in – she too smiled. But it was different from Rosalie's, maybe not as real. This didn't bother me much, Jessica was Jessica after all.

After I finished hugging Laruen and asking about her trip Alice and my Mother came through with the dress. Alice was beaming and my mother's eyes looked hazed. I hadn't even put the dress on and she was already starting the water works. I knew that everyone was watching me – Rosalie with her intense beautiful dark eyes, Jessica with her half hearted smile, and Laruen pushing her hand off my back to let me walk towards my future.

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He looked at me with that gaze I was so familiar too, yet – made me feel so different every time I saw it. Sometimes it made me blush; other times it made stumble or forget everything and anything I had ever known. I caught my breath, the air coming through my throat felt caught and my eyes burned just enough to make them spill over. I pushed out as much oxygen I could as I spoke,

"I do."

Edward smiled his truly dazzling smile. We both knew what came next. The kiss that would bind us for eternity, at least, the one that would bind us by law - my true kiss of death would come later. Whether Edward actually heard the man say the words, read his mind, or maybe he just knew this was it.

He brushed his frozen hand by my face, from the base of my ear to my chin and lifted my head gently. He was always so gentle. He lifted me toward him and our lips brushed together softly, but firmly as always. When we pulled apart a cheer omitted from the crowed as we walked back down the isle.

I saw my mother, in complete tears beside her, patting her shoulder. I saw Charlie as well, his cheeks lightly striped. There was Mike, clapping firmly; I might have seen him shake his head a just a bit.

I looked up at the sky. Overcast, no sun, but no rain either – just as Alice had predicted.

I continued to scan the audience, no Jake. Why did I keep on holding on to that? I knew he wasn't coming. The same way I knew we were never meant to be. It was the reason every time I kissed him, every time our arms grazed each others, every time - I felt that burning hole in my chest. Without Edward something would always be missing. Always, no matter how much I pushed it away. I knew who I needed to stay alive, to keep the hole in my heart from expanding to my other extremities.

Edward and I walked over to our vehicle that would take us away from the craziness outside. Of course, he had to buy a whole new car for the occasion. It was an SUV stretch, I tried to explain that it would have been much easier just to rent one, but Edward insisted. As I sat in the back seat, the scent of fresh new leather filled my nose. Edward slid in beside me, "That wasn't so bad."

I nodded. Surprisingly it wasn't, the ceremony finished perfectly fine. I had not fallen, words were remembered and no Volturi. Almost forgot about that one. Edward looked at me.

"Something bothering you?"

"No." I said bluntly, too tired to try and hide it, not that I could ever hide anything from him.

Jasper, who was driving - interrupted. "Bella, if it's about last night I'm sorry."

Since last night, Jasper had apologized more times than I could count. He had gone out for some extra "food" after that, just incase. I knew Jasper was really a very kind and caring vampire, and I tried not to hold it against him. But it was hard considering this was possibly the second time he had almost killed me. Although he himself thought it would be a poor idea to attend the ceremony, he agreed to drive from location to location. Alice agreed to this as well, saying she'd find him for some slow dances later on in the evening.

Alice now sat across from me. Her lips in a line, possibly trying to see something – but it was not coming easily. Edward placed his palm over my hand and squeezed it lightly. I instantly knew something was wrong. Something that was not planned, not calculated - was happening.

When the car stopped at our awaiting venue Edward's hand gripped tighter. I could see it in his face that he was holding back, trying not to show he was displeased about something, protecting me from what ever was outside.

The door to the limo opened slowly and a head popped in.

"Hey Bells, now you know I wouldn't miss this." Jake smiled.

My heart sunk, possibly for more reasons then one.

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So maybe I'm a tad evil. But oh well. Anyway, you guys should know that once this whole thing is complete I am reposting the whole thing with the same name of course. Thanks to everyone who keeps reviewing and to new readers PLEASE PLEASE review. It makes me feel all happy inside. haha. byeee