Sumika
After work, I arrive home to find BB sitting on the couch seeming...angry?
"Are you okay?"
"Yes, I'm fine."
I step closer to him and crouch down to peer at his face which he turns away.
"Are you sure?"
"I said I was fine!"
He stands up suddenly causing me to fall backwards.
"You should've told me if I had no chance at having your heart! You should've told me!" His hands are clenched into fists and I could see the tears trail down his face. They fall softly down and hit my hands.
"Why are you crying? And what are you talking about?"
He laughs. "Are you doing this on purpose? Or do you like multiple guys surrounding you?" He closes in on me.
"You still haven't told me what we're talking about..."
"You're driving me crazy!" His eyes meet mine, "When I'm with you, my heart pounds, my chest hurts and I go a little crazy. But you've never given me an answer and go to hang out with other guys." He smiles, "so what will it be?"
"Whoa, who and what you talking about?"
"Jonathan Smith."
Oh man, he isn't getting angry with me over my job, is he?
"You know he's just..."
"Is this going to be an excuse? Or is it going to be a confession?" He clenches his fists tighter, "I wish I had killed you that night."
I pull back away from him, feeling a surge of anger flow through me.
"All you've been doing is screaming what you think at me! Your feelings, how they affect you, how I affect you. But you've never let me explain or talk about my feelings!" I scream at him, "Jonathan Smith was just a client and I don't feel like talking to you until I calm down, but right now," I glare at him, "I'm sure I don't love you."
I head towards the front door swiftly.
"That guy! How dare he!" I angrily walk around, "And I even thought he was a nice guy!"
I hit the button at the end of the street and wait for the sign to walk. I begin to walk across the street at the sight of the walking person on the traffic light.
I look at my feet as I walk. I could feel tears about to fall. No matter how angry he was, wishing for me to die made me feel like I didn't mean anything to him.
"I'm not even sure how I feel about him."
At times, I felt my heart clench around him, felt happy around him, felt like he could mean something to me...
But I didn't want to tell him anything before I was sure.
Because I was sure it would hurt him even more if I told him and I was wrong.
"Sumika!"
I hear my name being called and I turn my head to the right.
Beep! Beep!
I feel myself being pulled backwards into someone's arms before a large force blows us forward.
Then everything goes black.
Author's Note
I'm sorry about the slow update. School's about to start so everything's crazy.
