Clarke's POV

The last thing I remember was being completely in pain, it wasn't fun.

I open my eyes and I see them, kissing, what was I thinking.

"NO! I'm in love with Clarke, back off now" Bellamy says

That's all I hear, that is all he says.

Then I see his eyes, looking down on me. His beautiful eyes. But no, I can't.

"Hey, you're awake" he says looking down on me.

I turn my head, so I'm not facing him.

"She kissed you, what was that about?" I say starting to cry

"Hey, don't cry she kissed me, but I didn't want anything from it. I love you Clarke, and only you. She thought you werent going to survive, and that I should move on. I told her you were because I couldn't lose you." he says

I turn back to look at his face, and Raven isn't there. He obviously doesn't want anything to do with her. I start to calm down a bit. He doesn't want to lose me.

"I just feel a bit sick, I thought me and raven were closer than that. Obviously not." I say choking on tears

"Hey, hey, hey... I would never want to betray you. I have confessed my love and I will never regret that." say Bellamy

There is large breeze that comes through and I shiver, I'm so cold. I feel so sick.

"Can you close the door or something, I'm so cold. I feel so sick." I start to say weakly

"I'll get Octavia, and then I'll close the door. Don't close your eyes, you can't sleep you can't go" he says begging

"I'll... try..." I start to fade

All I hear is Bellamy running to get Octavia. Just before he leaves, I hear him faintly say.

"Don't go to sleep, I can't lose you, please"...

I'm so tired when he leaves, and I can't help but close my eyes.

I have an amazing dream, that I don't want to end.

Then shaking begins.

"Clarke, wake up, wake up, wake up! Bellamy she's fallen asleep again. And she sin't waking up" says Octavia crying

All I hear is Bellamy running in, and trying to shake me himself. But nothing was working, nothing was going to wake me up. I was in a comatose. I needed to decided whether or not I wanted to come back.

I know I should, I have great friend, I finally but somehow managed to get a boyfriend. But do I really want to go back into a world of war. And we haven't found a solution. We don't even know whether there are people here, and if there are, if they are good people or bad?

I decided to wake up, we can fight this, we may lose people in the process. But I know there are two people who really want me back. Bellamy has made it pretty clear that he can't afford to lose me and he doesn't want to. Octavia is my best friend and the one that told me to follow my heart.

Bellamy is still shaking me to wake up. My hand moves and holds his.

"You're awake! Don't ever go to sleep again, please. I can't lose you, we can't lose you Clarke. These people can't lose you. And I thought I just lost you." Bellamy says worried.

"I'm sorry, I was just so tired and I was still upset about seeing you and-" I start to say

"Yes, I know and I fully regret it" Bellamy says

"Fully regret what Bellamy, if you have hurt Clarke, then I don't know what to think of you as anymore" she says

"Has he hurt you in anyway" she says to me

"Look, I'm fine, I was just tired. I forgive you. Okay, and I don't mean that as a joke. I forgive you because I love you Bellamy." I say

He starts smiling and bends down to kiss me. I don't hesitate at all. And nor does he.

"Ew, you guys please get a room" she says smiling

"We are in a room, you're just in it with us" I say back laughing whilst kind of still kissing Bellamy.

I can feel Bellamy smile, but I just continue. I love him and I need him, he has proven to me that there is nothing left of romantic feelings between him and Raven.

"Look, just one question. I'm not going to decrease your friends if I don't like them. That's not fair on you. But are you still wanting to be friends with Raven?" I ask

"Look, I'll have to stay friends with Raven purely as workers together. But anything more of that I don't want. Strictly work" Bellamy says

I look over and grab Bellamy's hand. Raven is standing there.

"How long has she been there?" Bellamy asks

"I have been here ever since she touched your hand. Nothing more than that huh? I mean didn't that kiss mean anything to you?" she asks

I tilt my head to the side and a shred a tear. I use my free arm to wipe it away and turn back. But then I can't hold anything back in and I let it out. I lay there in this bed and cry.

"Raven, I'm sorry, but if you are ever going to imply that we are going to be anything more than you are definitely and with out a doubt wrong. It's not even that I don't care about you in that way, which I don't. It's more that, that thought is still in your head. You're dating Finn now" he says angrily

"Well screw you Bellamy. I mean come on you didn't feel anything." she says

"Piss off Raven. You have done nothing more than upset her and me. So just go away." he yells

"You know what I'm feeling better, so I'm just going to get up and go somewhere else until you guys have sorted things out." I say

"No, you're not leaving she is." he replies back

I slowly sit up and put my feet on the ground. And Bellamy bends down.

"You and her need to sort somethings out. And I can't be here. I love you okay, never forget that. Always and Forever Bellamy." I say

"Are you sure?" says Bellamy

"I'm positive, I'll go to Octavia's tent and chill there. I promise I won't do anything physical work." I say

I get up with Bellamy's help and give him a little kiss on the lips and walk out. The last thing I hear Bellamy say is.

"I love you Clarke, okay?" he yells.